Onions&Laughter

words i have written. words i have read. poetry and songs. that repeat in my head.

[cyndiwords]

Choose.

The anxiety 

that comes from FOMO

is the biggest bullshit 

we’ve ever allowed ourselves 

to hashtag.

I obsess over the isn’t

and hold on to the can’t.

Hungry and longing,

I ignore what is.

I cheat on the present.

“What If” is my lover.

She only teases me

never providing a satisfying touch.

The idea of One

is too fucking BIG.

The idea of none

just makes me sad.

So I remain 

cradled by nothing,

surrounded by thought.

We cannot escape 

the suffocation 

of Which.

[cyndiwords]

Lina.

Dearest Lina Maria Vegara  With a twinkle in your eye  and a beaming, bright smile you always stood so strong Your confidence contagious your love so outrageous no one could do you wrong My body trembling with grief my heart in need of relief I struggle to find ways to cope Your love for giraffes, I'll always remember glorious creatures who never surrender the source of my new hope you were what you adored legs firmly planted on earth's floor grounded with everyone you love But your neck stretched high  your head in the sky knowing you belonged above Your spots so unique your laughter so sweet you were so proud of your story Your eyes full of stars that twinkle finally burst far and you followed it to His Glory My long-legged giraffe, you are home. ♥ your lion

[cyndiwords]

Soft

to be unaware of what i know

an embodiment of all my fears

she lives and breathes.

challenges. believes.

denies the truth but is unsure if that is the real of fake

or is the passion in unattainable?

can i be without concern of what you see?

I want but I neglect.

I deny yet try to collect.

it's an unfair balance of pitiful romance.

I don't speak of a boy

but of true joy

in meaning of life

- experience, strife-

to the point of actually knowing whether you are going

and that it is true of who you are.

the real.

every scar.

not the image projected on everyone

else's reflection of equal confusion.

longing and abuses.

we see what we fail and desire in other

and loose our own souls 

disconnected from lovers.

dreamers gleam in the moonlight

so

so

so

soft.

[cyndiwords]

THIS IS ME

this is me

wondering

judging

loving

fighting

worthy of discovering what is real

yet capable of forgetting how to feel

this is me

and me is what I fear

[michaelleepoetry-deactivated202]

I have never been more grateful and humbled and proud to share a piece, and a collaboration of the arts, poetry and film. I truly feel like a vessel this poem moved through, and I feel truly blessed to have been allowed to craft it from the air and experiences around me. RIP, Stephen, this year, the 10th year, I I mourn little and celebrate wildly all that you were, and all that you still are. 

Pass On

[cyndiwords]

Floating on a Buffalo

floating on a buffalo

this is my definition

to each their own

everyone's throne

composed of

different pockets

and lockets

that hold 

the truth 

of your unique

existence

[cyndiwords]

Dragon Fly

dragon fly

kiss goodbye

i hope to see you

on the other side

[cyndiwords]

friendship

Full love heart

where to start

I want you on

my side

but in the end

I fear you'll lend

your shoulder

to another

connection formed

be explored

to answer

all the questions

please take my hand

and understand

we owe it

to each other

[cyndiwords]

you(th)

you are the expert

you hold the pen

tell me your life

and i will try to lend

to the best of my ability

the service you seek

but do not forget

you plant the seed

[cyndiwords]

Searching

the beauty is apart

never at the start

don't dwell in

what might be

find joy in

what is

there's no need

to be in the lead

pause and listen

and then maybe

you'll find what

you long for

finish when you will

the emptiness may fill

challenge yourself

to find

the heart

the soul

the mind

(And never let

the truth

be limitation

for the next

possible definition)

[cyndiwords]

tree

the universe is full and wide

far too easy to run and hide

but in the wake

when life began

the eager joy 

burst forth in man

now we linger in despair

convincing ourselves we do not care

but could we be right

had we been true

to who we were

as the tree still grew

[cyndiwords]

History Repeats

don't you wish

I understood

how much you 

mean to me

maybe then

I wouldn't try

to find new 

ways to leave

oblivious 

I close my eyes

and submit

to tragedy

[cyndiwords]

Continue

Linger in a mystery tracing back our history I try to find truth in denial escape sacred memory why you run away from me I cannot decipher this trial catch up with a cup of tea then resume the foolery return to the mask called a smile  won't you listen to my plea do not turn to run or flee we can continue on for miles thought you would hold on to these thought we would hold on to these so hard to remain remain with a world  a world unchanged together in our long journey we'll find the room to agree and then we will make it all worthwhile

[cyndiwords]

Child's Song

Something in the still of breath

the child's song is heard

close my eyes, hold your hand

listen to every word

where

and what

and who 

and why

the simplicity

within the mystery

don't pick it apart 

the beauty is this

together it works

goodnight kiss

[cyndiwords]

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