humanitys mortal enemy

pfp isnt mine idk who’s soz vent blog dni unless i say you can

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hiii if yk me no u dnt.

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Don’t let my mortal skin and bones and innards fool you, I am an angel.

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The Angel Artemis Lune hates all of humanity

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Since humanity makes me so sick and I feel genuine shame over being a human like all the people I despise what if I become an angel and fucking kill everyone who hurts me or those I love . An act of love from the angel

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some people genuinely make me ashamed human because it means I share something in common with them

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i'll never apologize for hating him now I never fucking will I know I was also a problem there but he's scum on the bottom of someones shoe to me now. influencing paranoia and misgendering and purposefully making people uncomfortable already isn't okay yet he someone makes it all worse by simultaneously being a big reason why I'm so awful.

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some people genuinely make me so sick and ashamed that I EVER fucking associated with them how horrible of a person can you be holy fucking shit I'll show you cower when I make it somewhere in life and become someone while you stay in your hole rotting and bringing all your friends down with you and forcing them to pity you. grow the fuck up and be mature for once in your fucking life

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It’s always “talk to me” until i actually do. Suddenly I’m dramatic and edgy or shouldn’t talk about that stuff. Suddenly all you’ve done to me is all my fault for being on my phone.

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Hahdjdhdjsknsn I need to kms my starssss

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I have reason to suspect I’m paranoid.

Things such as recurring irrational fears and a sense that everyone is out to get me at all times. Compulsions are also something I’m looking more into for myself with.

Whether I’m paranoid or not, I do know that I’m a very anxious person. It’s not fun. My fears have recently started to hurt myself as well as others a lot more than they used to. This, in turn, has developed into another fear of hurting people (which I’ve had for a while but it’s getting worse). I hate it so fucking much.

My partner doesn’t think I love him because of it; in fact he blames himself for my irrational fears because I’m an idiot and keep act on possible compulsions around him (things like constantly apologizing and asking people if they’re mad at me or have me). He hurts himself because I can’t shut the fuck up for once.

I do love him, I love him more than anything and I’d probably kill myself without him but he’ll never believe that because i didn’t just shut up and keep it all to myself.

All of this just further proves that someone him and all my other friends and support people will leave me and I’ll have nothing to do but stab myself.

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Something about people who don’t know the horror i feel about not being a real man deciding that im a immoral and wrong feels gross to me

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mitski was right . I am stronger than you give me credit for

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I will die your daughter

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LOVE IN A BOTTLE LOVE IN A BOTTLE DONT NEED LOVE WHEN IT COMES IN A BOTTLE

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You yearn for the mines and I yearn for the sweet release of safety pins against my skin

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At least they never hit each other or me right

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I wonder if the amount of horror and disgust I get from looking at my body is normal