Suffering

Tati she/her @sainttati

[cyrushoodman]

stan loona

[spidaerman]

I’m on the right track, baby I was born to survive

[cyrushoodman]

Thank you so much for your contributions to the Andi Mack fandom. You’re so funny. I’ll literally never forget the video SJSJSJA so yeah...just wanted to say thank you for making my days a bit better

omg kailyn loml ur the sweetest 

[cyrushoodman]

21 😗

im a minor u freak

[nblizzieforbes]

Andi Mack Asks

1. The spoon or Andi Shack?

2. The school or the park?

3. Opinions on Amber's redemption arc?

4. Do you believe in the Kippen sibling theory? Have any headcanons about them?

5. Thoughts on the show ending?

6. Random headcanon

7. Top three characters?

8. Top three ships

9. Do you have anything in common with Andi? Are you creative in any way(writing, drawing, painting, etc.)?

10. Is there anything about Buffy you can relate to? Do you play any sports?

11. Thoughts on Bexie?

12. What do you think of the trans marty headcanon? Do you have any trans andi mack headcanons?

13. Something you want to happen before the show ends?

14. Are you the go to person in your friend group for advice? Do you like helping people through their problems?(like Cyrus.)

15. Have you ever been homeless or had serious money issues like Amber or Jonah?

16. Do you think any of the characters have unmentioned siblings?

17. When did you get into the fandom?

18. Have you ever done a protest for something you believed in?

19. Do you have any thoughts on the families of characters whose families haven't been shown?

20. What advice would you give the good hair crew about high school, if you've already started or finished it?

21. Would you like to go to a rage room?

22. Do you did your baby taters in milkshakes? What dipping sauces do you like?

23. What would you do if you found out your sister was your mom?

24. Do you think any of the characters would have a tumblr?

25. Chocolate chocolate chip or blueberry macadamia nut?

26. Favorite character's style?

27. Do you like to go to the park? Do you like to swing?

28. Aro or bi Jonah(or anything else)?

29. Do you like camping? What do you eat while camping?

30. Favorite pizza topping and pizza place?

31. Any ideas on what kind of music any of the characters would like?

32. Which character do you relate to the most?

33. How would you feel about having therapist parents?

34. Favorite season(of the show)?

35. Favorite look back?

36. Any general advice for the characters?

37. If you could thank one of the characters for one thing, who would it be and for what?

38. What's one(or more) thing that this show has taught you?

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Andi Mack Season 3 Ep 18 + Rabbit commentary from TE

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What’s TE? Sorry I’m new to the fandom

oh it’s just a discord server I’m in with friends in the fandom! I *think* we were the first ever tyrus discord server but now there’s like a hundred lol

[cyrushoodman]

yass te superior 

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Andi Mack Season 3 Episode 17 + rabbit commentary

[princepolly]

Does anyone have any screenshots or screen recordings of Darius (marcell) live last night?? I really want them :(

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TE applications still open ✨

[minamotoz]

n e ways if you agree with notsoscarybasketballguy and her blantant sexualization of kids while she herself if an adult, feel free to block me ✨

[homemade-ghosts]

“But they care about you. They can help you if you let them.”

[davidsflorenzi]

so for awhile I’ve been thinking of adding new people to te and with people asking about it on Sarah’s asks I figured now would be a perfect time.

Soo, here’s a form to fill out if you’re interested! It’s just to see how you’d mesh with us because we’re all friends and we wanna make sure everyone will be comfortable!

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[riddle-of-the-model]

Andi: You know you have crutches

Cyrus, being piggybacked by TJ: And?

[princepolly]

Hey guys, just a reminder to not send josh (or dm or anything any cast member) about the stoney situation. the next coming weeks (idk how long this will drag on for) is probably going to be very traumatic for them seeing as they’re like… all children. 

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a prompt could be, maybe: TJ has to kiss someone in a game of truth or dare. Cue jealousy/jealousy induced realisation from Cyrus (??)

fuck i really need to work on my paranoia fic i love group games im literally 20 and i still always suggest these dumb games at parties 😩

Have some Muffy, have some Tarty, have some Tyrus, have it all…

Cyrus sat cross-legged, elbows propped up on his legs and chin resting on his hands, which were clasped together. They had been playing truth or dare for the last ten minutes, and he had yet to be picked for anything. He was pretty much expecting to be left out: Andi had really only picked the game to force Buffy’s feelings for Marty to come out, but it still stung a little. They were three ‘truth’s’ deep with Marty, where he had already admitted he had a crush on Buffy (to no one’s surprise) and that he definitely would kiss her out of everyone in the circle. He still wouldn’t choose dare, however, so the game went on. 

Buffy, on the other hand, kept choosing dare because Andi had promised to never make her first kiss come through a party game. Cyrus had never promised anything of the sort, and he had already had his first kiss, so why couldn’t he be the source of kissing entertainment? There were certainly people in the circle he wanted to kiss.  

He risked a glance over to TJ, who was whispering to Marty. He frowned. He had never realised the two of them were actually friends until Marty started hanging out with them again. He wasn’t jealous, but they did seem a lot closer than Cyrus had expected.  

“Okay, Buffy,” Marty said, pushing TJ away from him slightly, “I dare you to kiss TJ.” Buffy looked at him like he had just asked her to kiss a dead rat. TJ scowled at Marty, smacking him in the head. 

“I’d sooner lick a toilet,” Buffy replied, which earned a laugh from Marty. “Besides, you can’t dare me to have my first kiss, it’s an established rule.” 

“I’m just kidding. I wanted to see your reaction,” he said. Cyrus considered this. Was he kidding? Why had they been whispering right before that whole ordeal? Could..TJ like Buffy? Cyrus shifted his position, drawing his legs up to his chest and resting his cheek on his knee, facing the two boys. TJ noticed this and smiled at him, holding up his bag of chips in offering. Cyrus shook his head in response. 

“I dare you to lick the toilet,” Marty said.

“You’re disgusting,” Buffy replied.

“A dare’s a dare!” 

Buffy rolled her eyes and pushed herself up from the ground, walking toward the bathroom. Marty jumped up, following her quickly. Cyrus watched them go into the room, but had little interest in actually watching whatever was going to happen. She came back out approximately three seconds later, Marty scowling. 

“That’s not fair!” Marty whined, trailing behind her as they made their way back to the circle.

“You didn’t specify,” Buffy replied, not bothering to look back at him. “It’s not my fault you’re bad at giving dares. Get better.” Marty had a goofy smile on his face and Cyrus turned to make eye-contact with Andi, just to clarify they saw the same thing. “So now it’s my turn!” Buffy announced and she sat back down.

“Oh,” Marty replied, his face falling. 

“Really didn’t think that one through, huh?” Cyrus sighed, trying to get more comfortable on his knees. They were just going to go back and forth again. There was no end to this game, to the flirting and the bantering, and there was no way to include him. “TJ,” Buffy stated. Cyrus was suddenly interested again. 

“Dare,” TJ replied. Cyrus looked to Buffy, somehow hoping he could convey his desire to have TJ kiss him to her telepathically. But did he really want that to be their first kiss? In a dumb game? Probably not, yet he really was regretting keeping his crush a secret at that moment. 

“I dare you to kiss,” she rose an eyebrow in suspension, “Marty.” Cyrus’ head shot up. What?

“What?” TJ said, looking to Marty and then to Buffy, who was smiling. 

“Kiss Marty,” she repeated. “On the lips.”

Cyrus was hoping he would say no, say he hadn’t had his first kiss, that he’d sooner kiss a toilet, that Marty would be the last person in the world he would ever kiss. But he didn’t. 

He shrugged. “Okay.” Buffy’s smile fell. Cyrus was looking at the two boys, trying his hardest to tear his eyes away. He couldn’t believe they would actually kiss. They wouldn’t, right? There was no way. 

Marty was facing TJ now, wiggling his eyebrows and TJ wasted absolutely no time. He placed his hand behind the boy’s head and pulled him in. Their lips connecting. 

Cyrus watched TJ press into the kiss and his vision went blurry. He pushed himself up as best he could, stumbling on the way and exiting the room as fast as he could. He wasn’t excusing himself to the bathroom, he needed to be completely out of that room, as far away as possible. 

He made it outside, with some luck, and threw himself down on the porch bench, dropping his head into his hands to rub at his eyes. His breathing was shallow and he still couldn’t see clearly. What was wrong with him? Why was he panicking over a stupid kiss in a stupid game?

He tried to focus his breathing but his mind just went back to the kiss. How TJ had been so casual about it, he hadn’t even acted like it was an issue. He was casual about kissing Marty, and he had..actually kissed him. Not that Cyrus had expected him to actually do anything at all, but he thought it would be a peck, something small and reluctant, like his kiss with Iris. That wasn’t what that was. TJ had kissed him and then kissed him again. TJ had kissed Marty exactly how Cyrus had daydreamt the two of them would kiss one day. TJ’s hand in Cyrus’ hair, their lips touching lightly at first and then-he felt sick. He stood up, pushing himself off the bench and grabbing onto the rail of the porch, leaning over it. Whatever he was going to do, he wasn’t going to cry.  

The cold helped, and he got a nice breeze from the wind as he leaned over. He slowed his breathing finally, and his vision wasn’t as blurry. He was okay. There was no need to panic. Whatever that was, however TJ may feel, Marty liked Buffy. Marty liked Buffy. He closed his eyes, repeating that sentence in his head. He was going to have to go back inside, and explain some reason for his absence. Or was he? He wasn’t even being included, maybe they didn’t even notice he was gone. The thought made him sad, but it helped calm him down. His problems weren’t that big of a deal. He loosened his grip on the railing slightly and tried to straighten himself, taking another deep breath.

“Cyrus?” He froze. It was TJ. He closed his eyes, unable to turn around. “Are you okay?” Bad words. Really bad words to use around him. He felt his eyes sting. No. He gripped the railing again. He wasn’t going to do this. 

He took a breath, a little shakier this time. ‘Yes,’ ‘I’m fine,’ anything along those lines was what he should say. “Go away,” was what came out. He didn’t want to tell TJ to go away, but he really couldn’t handle the boy being there. 

“Cyrus.” He stepped closer, Cyrus could tell. “Did I do something wrong?” Cyrus wanted to yell and laugh at the same time. At least he was that oblivious to Cyrus’ crush, that was a positive, right? “Can you talk to me?” His voice was soft but there was a twinge of annoyance in his voice. Leave it to TJ to make Cyrus believe this was somehow his fault. He took a breath and turned around.

“What do you want?” He asked, trying to keep his voice steady. 

“To know if you’re okay? Why did you run out like that?”

“Because I’m an idiot,” he replied, feeling his eyes sting again. He hastily pulled at his sleeve to wipe his eyes.

“Are you crying?” TJ asked, stepping forward. Cyrus pulled away quickly, trying to hide his face. “Cyrus,” TJ pushed, obviously growing frustrated with him. His voice made Cyrus tear up again. “Hey,” TJ said, slightly softer. He grabbed Cyrus by the arm, pulling him back around. “Am I making you cry?” Cyrus was looking at him now, and there was no turning away. He didn’t know what to say, how to respond to a question like that, so he just blinked. He felt a tear roll down his cheek and noticed TJ’s eyes went to it. His hand came up to Cyrus’ face, thumb brushing over his cheek and wiping away the tear. “Please don’t cry,” he whispered, his hand still on Cyrus’ face, thumb pressed lightly to his cheek. 

“I like you,” Cyrus whispered. It came out like a reflex, like an impulse he had absolutely no control over, which was likely thanks to his emotional breakdown. 

TJ smiled at him lightly, his thumb ghosting over Cyrus’ cheek. “I might have assumed that when you freaked out over me kissing another guy,” he admitted. Cyrus blinked, another tear rolling down his cheek. So TJ knew. And he was still standing there, hand on his face. And he knew. “Hey,” TJ said, his thumb catching the new tear, “Why are you still crying?” He hadn’t said it back. He hadn’t really said anything. 

“Y-you, did—haven’t—you—,” he couldn’t get the words out. He was trying so hard not to cry even more, it took everything he had.

“You think I don’t like you?” TJ chuckled softly, leaning in closer. “Cyrus, I’ve had a crush on you since the moment we met,” he admitted. “I’ve been infatuated with you for months. I’ve lost sleep thinking about you. I’ve failed tests trying to work out how to tell you. I’ve spent hours ranting to Amber about you.” Cyrus couldn’t believe a word coming out of TJ’s mouth. Was he dreaming? 

“But you kissed Marty.” That was still at the forefront of his mind, obviously. 

“That was a dare,” TJ pointed out. “A dare by Buffy. I morally, and probably legally, could not back out of that.” Cyrus chuckled and TJ smiled wide. “Marty  is an idiot,” he continued, “He’d never get a real kiss out of me.”

“A real kiss?” Cyrus asked, looking up at TJ, all too aware the boy’s hand was still on his face. 

“Yeah,” TJ whispered, running his thumb across Cyrus’ cheekbone. “A real kiss.” 

“What’s that like?”

TJ ran his thumb down Cyrus’ cheek and met his hand under Cyrus’ jaw, angling his chin slightly. “Can I show you?” 

It wasn’t really realisation i realised once i was like halfway through this but…i hope you like it either way!