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Going to use this blog to vent (this is almost like my diary) OTHER BLOG IS: http://semmpiternall.tumblr.com/

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sooo damn happy

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I love everyone and everything and im so happy when i don't let things bother me, when i have a mind that lets go and is attached to nothing, when i simply appreciate all that is

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As good as things are right now, i still seem to make progress everyday. (and im so proud of me!!!) I build on my social skills everyday, things like speaking up more in class, speaking more of whats on my mind, conversations with strangers, spending more time around family..etc. It really helps. (im always going to be the person whos somewhat reserved, I like it that way. I’ve never been one to like to blabber on about things for no reason, just to fill quiet spaces) Simple things i couldn't do before, i can now do.  my anxiety has been almost non existent lately which is crazy for me to say but im feeling way too blessed to be stressed.

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Im so damn excited for next year  Even school,,minus the hard work, i like my classes and i’m with new people an great teachers so im a lot happier knowing Itll be a bit easier for me. I aint even stressed.. and hopefully it stays like that. I just gotta remember what im here for. me and my happiness. So much is going to be happening AAAAHHHH  :))))

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not a worry in the world right now.. things are real different this time round. Im different. (and its definitely for the best).  Everything lately has been so damn smooth and sweet and im feeling so much of everything its overwhelming. (BUT ITS GREAT) I’ve been spending more time around people then usual, which is a real weird thing for me but its nice. some family time has been nice too, though nothing is ever as sweet as my solitude. Spending my days out with nature and loving everything around me.. seeing it all.  also to see everyone around me with smiles on their faces, IS SO LOVELY. I just want everyone to be happy

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Enjoying now because thats all there is. things are flowing so nicely.... lifes nice

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too much to be grateful for... :)

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hey im really feeling like im my only friend at the moment and i just wanna give and get some loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee  :))) it ok

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Just taking each day as it comes really, feeling it all. embracing the very present moment. I know all bad feelings will pass. Enjoying what i can. loving earth, loving myself. Never forget about the beauty that surrounds me in my everyday life. Be grateful. Keep my mind full of good thoughts. Getting in touch with my higher self. I wish for everyone to feel okay. I will have highs and lows. I do what i feel is right for me. Lazy days. crazy days. Time alone, time with people. I wont be bothered or compare my self to others. Live for me. Be kind to others. Ignore what makes me unhappy.  And unfortunately school is just something I gotta deal with for a little longer and i know itll get better!!! :) The less i care the happier i am Ive got so many plans for me these holidays and im so excited 

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its amazing to say I've been genuinely feeling happy 

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im blooming im blooming into a big pretty flower u cant stop me

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im in love with life and myself and right now is amazing

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forgetting about today and OWNING THIS NIGHT BC ITS FUCKING AWESOME. Im feeling so good and chillin with someone who's so easy to be around. (And i really enjoy being in company tonight, which is odd)

Tonight i seem to be articulating my words so much better and its great to be able to talk about everything. tonights so sweet. vibes are good and im just focusing on now.  I ACTUALLY LOVE TONIGHT!!!!!  feeling very comfortable.. OWOOO

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Im never putting anything before my mental health again :) 

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Its impossible to have a good day at school. that place sucks and so does everyone in there. Im so sick of society and the whole fuckin system. gross I just wanna be away and do my own thing. theres nothing positive about it and i just dont want to BE AROUND there at all

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Things are so chill atm and exams are nextweek tbh i couldnt care less im just relaxing and taking each day as it comes and i cant wait to take a long break off school and dedicate more time to healing myself and doing what i feel like. School isnt even on my priororties list i just wanna pass and get the frick out of there. my days have been a mixture of extreme hights, mellow, contentness, calm, and just having a deep appreciation for everything. bliss all around. Changing my thinking, ignoring negativity.  Connecting with nature. Expanding my consciousness .Focusing on me.

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try recognize all your achievements with each day, reflect back at the end of the week and be proud of everything you had accomplished!! (NO MATTER HOW SMALL, whether its physically,mentally,spiritually) Its okay if nobody else notices and give your self a big pat on the back cuz thats what i do