Nina

Shall we?

[d9saphire]

Space out

I truly believe tumblr might be the best place to scream. 

Insta, FB and Whatsapp status- so many people, so many perception

I am just truly believe that i am hurt. I do not know how to translate my feeling. It is the first time i felt this way. I wish it never happen because i hate the feeling of being so complicated. I am complicated and i always makes things worst. Maybe i really font deserve any. Those people, they are good and i am always felt that i am never one. Perhaps, that is y. That is y i never have one. 

My sister said, never said if. Because Allah has certainly blessed me with the wonderful feelings. So i should felt grateful. I will grow. I should and definitely will move on. When this happen, i always think, that is why i jumpe you tube saying about what happen to the single person. Something that struck me, Allah will see you as person, and count your solah and ibadah. focus on that. dont be sad if you never had the chance to be someones’ wife. 

felt like crying. dulu, bila i rasa i should shed any feeling, i akan ckp nina, u only have 10 minutes, cry and let it go.

Now maybe i have to do it again. 

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before that, let keep the record here. As it maybe the last time i was bless with the feeling, Alhamdulillah. 

Early March- my heart was touch by someone

30 March. i break my own heart and maybe break him as well.

31 March- embrace my own ‘stupid act’

1 April.-stress but missing him

suffering and now

15 April- misery

I try to reconnect for few days. Hello, i never had someone and i know i am being bitter by being so complicated. As i felt i want what my heart want, but i believe, i am the only one who work on it, he maybe hurt and hate me already. most of the time, i was ignored. But its okay. I will never get what I want in this life. 

So, Assalammualaikum, Let it go. ameen. 

Maybe. Wait. Its no longer maybe. I shall end this now. Bismillah. 

See you when i see you. It will be a different book after this, coz i am not a good friend. i never will be coz i certainly not wife material for anyone. 

8.50pm 15 April 2020

MCO, Covid 2019, PKP

[d9saphire]

Outliers

especially when u noe that some people were blessed with that and you were left behind

[d9saphire]

its hard to ignore the feelings

but ignore is a blessing that i should not take for granted

[mypsychology]

For more posts like these, go to @mypsychology​

[d9saphire]

gosh, what a tiring day. cant even open up my eyes

[musingsofkhan-deactivated201912]

Actions speak louder than words, and I don’t like to talk.

[invaderxan]

Heard some important information on Twitter today, and thought I’d post it here for anyone who may not have heard it. This is actually a thing, devised by a human rights organisation called Karma Nirvana.

Reblog to save a life?

[julaibib]

Allah’s Messenger ﷺ said:

“I advise you to be shy towards Allah, in the same way that you are shy towards a pious person from among your people.”

Reported by Ahmad; graded Hasan by al-Albani

[books-n-quotes]

“Some people feel like they don’t deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.”

— Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

[d9saphire]

exactly

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“You come home, make some tea, sit down in your armchair and all around there’s silence. Everyone decides for themselves whether that’s loneliness or freedom.”

— Unknown

[sederhannaindah]

Here comes May.

1. Ada perkara yang memang tak dapat diperbetulkan dan hanya boleh diterima dan diredhakan.

2. There are better things ahead, better than hurtful things that we already leave behind.

3. Tak semua ombak bertemu pantai. Tak semua cinta bertemu bahagia. Tak semua mendung akan hujan. Tak semua kehendak akan dipenuhi. Kita cuma hamba.

4. It’s okay. Just believe that Allah always gives something good for us, and even when they’re not good, now, they will be good soon enough.

5. Kenapa kita belum dapat apa yang kita nak? Mungkin sebab Tuhan tahu kita belum mampu untuk bertanggungjawab terhadap apa yang kita mahu. Sabar.

6. There are things we don’t understand. But we have to keep marching forward and pray.

7. Kadang-kadang kita masih belum dapat sesuatu yang kita minta, adalah kerana kita masih gagal untuk mensyukuri apa yang DIA telah berikan.

8. Things happened. For a reason or because of reason. There is nothing you can do to change it. But you can change yourself. Grow wiser.

9. Tuhan tak perlu bertanya, atau meminta izin dari siapa pun sebelum berbuat sesuatu tentang apa pun dan pada siapa pun yang Dia kehendaki.

10. Sometimes fate doesn’t require us to understand. We just need to accept.

11. Dia tahu apa yang kita tak tahu. Dia mengatur semua benda, dari hal kecil sampailah hal besar, dan hal yang tak pernah kita fikirkan.

12. The past cannot be changed, and we carry our choices with us, forward, even if it hurts. No time to waste, we can only move on.

13. Walau ada bahagian hidup kita yang beku pada suatu peristiwa di masa lalu, waktu tetap maju ke hadapan. Dunia terus berputar.

14. We all have to accept full and total responsibility for our actions, everything we have done, and have not done.

15. Jangan betulkan kenangan. Betulkan diri. Agar nanti ada ruang dan peluang untuk diterima oleh orang lain, di tempat lain, pada suasana yang lain.

16. The future isn’t promises for us. So that’s why we have to leave it all to the best caretakers, Allah.

17. Ingat, hidup tak berlangsung dengan seperti apa yang kita kehendaki, tapi ditulis-Nya dengan sesuatu yang sesuai untuk kita.

18. Time will justified our destiny. Let us pray for the best.

19. Ada sebab kenapa Allah jadikan sesuatu tu begini begitu. Ada benda yang kita takkan dapat walau cuba sehabis baik. Muhasabah diri balik.

20. It’s alright to try, even a little. Don’t stop. Keep it going. Even if you don’t feel the same anymore. Keep making du'a.

21. Never give up even though the outcome might be bad. Keep living your life and hold on to your du'a because there is always a miracle.

22. This broken feeling, overcome it for one more chance. Smile once again, the key is in your du'a. Let go, leave behind your regret.

23. Things will not always go as we planned. And we’re left only with the choice of what to do next. Try to move on.

24. Even if our words disappear, but our feeling, let it bloom in our du'a.

25. Even if we don’t get what we want, we can still make other choices. We can still do things and we can try to feel okay about it.

26. No matter what hardships are waiting for us in the future, we will always survive because He’s always with us. Never forget, be grateful.

27. Dry your tears with du'a. Mend what is broken with du'a. Wash the sadness away with du'a.

28. When you feel like crying, look back and you’ll see that you have a place to return to - Allah. He will mend your heart, inshaAllah.

- Sederhanaindah

[begratefultogod]

It’s hard to stay patient, and wait for things in life, but remember that Allah swt is Al-Aleem, the all knowing, he is way more knowledgeable than any of us, and keep faith in his plans and trust in him.

[chibird]

We usually care way too much about the opinions of others, when your own opinion is the one that should matter the most! 💛 Judgmental people will always judge, so If you like yourself and try to be a good person, that’s what really matters. ^^ It’s so freeing when you don’t have to worry about if others like your outfit or a certain way you act.

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[islamicrays]

Your heart also has seasons. If it’s winter, don’t lose hope. Keep going. Spring always comes.

Yasmin Mogahed

[wordsnquotes]

“A soulmate is someone who is willing to grow with you, who chooses to be with you until the end, and will love you through good and bad. It’s not about sunshine and laughter, it’s about mundane moments filled with unknowns.”

— T.B. LaBerge

[julaibib]

O Allah enable us to witness The whole month of Ramadan in the best health and Iman Give us the strength to fast and observe the best of worship. Grant us forgiveness to all our sins.

[west-revert]

Allah always answers prayers

One of the best feelings: recognising when Allah swt responds to the words you cry in sujood

I asked to see the smile of Allah and I was flooded with images of the beautiful things He has blessed this dunya with.

Allah reminded me of the sunrise I see on the mountains everyday

Allah reminded me of the clear blue of ocean waves

Allah reminded me of the thunder claps brought by lightning during a storm

Allah reminded me of how beautiful and delicate spring flowers are

Allah smiles upon us everyday, we just need to see it