cancel me from the universe

☆ Luca/16/Louisiana ☆ sad genderfluid kid who runs a mediocre phandom blog. he/him/they/them

[praisejesus]

[illmakeuhowell]

domestic af

[mortallyvirtualphan]

[nightsver-deactivated20180415]

it’s illegal to be so cute

[horrorphil1-deactivated20160802]

[kaijuno]

WJAT IS THIS IM HOLLARIBG

[homophobic]

me bc of my misophonia

[phanchilada]

Phil on living with Dan

[abyssgazewithme]

[waypancake-deactivated20161109]

[palwo1]

Okay but don’t imagine 17 year old, fanboy Dan refreshing his favourite youtuber, AmazingPhil’s channel on February 10th 2009 and clicking his brand new video “Robot Death Machine”. Don’t imagine him watching the part where Phil predicted that he will meet a guy who will have a big impact on his life. Don’t imagine him thinking to himself ‘that has to be me’. Don’t imagine Dan getting ready to meet the person who has helped him through so much and put a smile on his face for the first time at the train station. But whatever you do don’t imagine 24 year old Dan, in 2015 lying in bed at 4 in the morning, listening to Phil snoring through the thin walls of their bedroom, thinking to himself ‘it was me’

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Don’t imagine Phil not believing that some guy was really going to come into his life and make a giant change.

Don’t imagine Phil noticing ‘Danisnotonfire’ in his Twitter replies for the 12th time that week.

Don’t imagine Phil replying to Dan and clicking on his profile and following him for the very first time.

Don’t imagine Phil giggling when Dan flipped out fanboy style about being followed.

Don’t imagine Phil finding dans very sad tweets and thinking to himself ‘I have to help him he’s too good for that.’

Don’t imagine Phil not giving it a second thought when giving Dan his Skype and phone number.

Don’t imagine how Phil would tell Dan how amazing and funny and probably how cute he was.

Don’t imagine Phil telling Dan ‘Post your first video. For me at least.’

Don’t imagine how tightly Phil Hugged Dan on that train station.

Don’t imagine Phil telling Dan everything would be fine and getting him to calm down before they filmed the first ever Philisnotonfire

Don’t imagine Phil looking at Dan going “Do you wanna move in?”

Don’t imagine Phil rubbing dans back telling him it was okay to drop out of Uni if that’s what he truly wanted

Don’t imagine Phil looking at Dan saying “I think we should get a new place. One together.”

But mostly don’t imagine Phil sitting on the lounge sofa and looking up at Dan coming in

The boy who thought he had nothing to stay for, nothing going for him, no reason to live now a fully grown man with a book, an app, 5 million subscribers, a gaming channel and a Disney movie under his belt. The boy who gets to live with his idol and best friend. The boy who is now a man that Phil helped save and don’t imagine Phil watching Dan’s recent uploads going

“I’m glad it was him.”

[cactusphil-archive]

wELL THANKS IM SOBBING NOW

[horrorphil1-deactivated20160802]

[seasonalphil]

[areikeve]

trust exercises

[bepeu-deactivated20171202]

mood: i’ll wait in the car

[illmakeuhowell]

“How's your life going?”

[phanatically-blog]

in which dan and phil show all the cool things they got (☯)

[crises-of-existentiality-deacti]

legs on legs on legs