Make Him Crawl Back (Part 4/5)
Pairing: Tom x reader, Shawn x reader
DO NOT PLAGIARIZE MY WORK, PLEASE
Summary: What was it about her? Her looks, her charm, her fame? Whatever it was, it captured him, leaving you broken hearted and wanting full revenge.
Warnings: swearing, smut in future chapters
DISCLAIMER: None of the characters belong to me, just the story itself.
That message kept playing in my mind, over and over, did he really mean it? Did he really miss me?
Part of me wanted to forget everything and just crawl into his arms once again, but another one kept scolding me for having such thoughts.
I had already spent 15 minutes in my car deciding whether meeting him was a good idea or not, my fingers were now bleeding and my lips had small cuts in them. I have to do this.
"Yn..." He was there. His brown hair was longer and a mess, he had darker circles under his eyes and his cheeks were bright red, I couldn't lie, he was gorgeous.
After a few seconds of just staring each other, we decided to sit down, I noticed how shaky were his hands, not being able to get a grip of his cup of coffee.
"It surprised me when you first called." He said between breaths, his anxiety was getting the best of him, "I thought it would be Tom telling me to fuck off and leave you alone."
"Sure, because the interviews he's been doing lately give me proof of that." He was pissed.
"I'm sorry about that, he's a little dramatic."
"Yeah? Well tell him to not go around making dramas about my relationship, could you? My god Yn, he said you were cheating on me with him! On the fucking internet!"
"I know, I know!" I pinched the bridge of my nose, trying to find the right words, fuck Tom.
We stayed silent, I could hear Shawn's leg banging in the floor, he kept looking around and his eye was twitching.
"And well... Is it true?"
"No! Oh god no, I would never do that to you!"
"Oh 'cause running off to him was so much better!"
"You broke my fucking heart, Shawn!"
"She was just a friend, and you know that now."
"Do I really? I know she dumped you to get married to another guy, but that doesn't prove me anything, look Shawn this is not about Hailey, not entirely, at least."
"Then? Because I can assure I haven't been with anyone since you left me."
"You never made me a part of your world, of your life. I never seemed to fit in with whatever you were doing."
"Please just let me finish, the Galas, the parties, premieres, everything, I was never enough for me to accompany you, it was always someone else, because I wasn't famous enough, or pretty enough, or whatever reason you had, then having you come home every day at 4 am in the morning for you to leave again at 8 am, the tours coming unannounced, interviews, everything, I loved you Shawn, that's why I tried, I really did, until I broke." I took a breath, feeling how my heart broke once again, "The day I left, you didn't even try and get me back, no. You just go around throwing a tantrum about how I dare leave YOU, how I dare be with someone else."
"My girlfriend leaves me and three days later you appeared in the cover of a fucking magazine going into a hotel at 4 in the morning with Thomas Fucking Holland, forgive me for not thinking of something else."
I bite my lip, and continued, "He promised to make the pain go away, to make me forget. He said he would make sure you would crawl back into my arms, to make you regret ever letting me go."
"So you spent all of this time making a scene just to get revenge? Oh my god, Yn is like I don't even know you anymore."
"Because you don't, you never did, I loved you Shawn, and maybe I still do, but being with you is like being no one. I'll admit doing this drama, playing along with what people said was a huge mistake, but..."
"Let me see if I got this, you went through such a scandal just so I could feel what you felt? Well, congratulations Yn, you made it, you had me crawl back into your arms, that night, the night I went out and got drunk off my mind I thought I was going to die without you, you had moved on so quickly, so easily and with that bastard! I love you, Yn, and I might deserve all of this, but you took it too far."
"Look, I'm going to say this one time and I want an answer, now. Don't think about Thomas, don't think about anything else, just us. If I were to look past all of this, if I act like all of this months didn't happen, would you come back, Yn? Because no matter how much this hurts, not being with you hurts even more than anything. I love you, be mine again."
