Get up & Never give up

| 20 | female | | SW: 66.0 | CW: 54.9 | | GW1: 54.0 | GW2: 50.0 | UGW: 46.0 | ✨Got terminated twice✨Active in November 2020✨Days binge free: 2 ✨

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Do you ever ask yourself what will happen once you reach your UGW?

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1st pic is me posing on December of 2019.

2nd pic is me now, October 2020, not posing.

So close to my next GW I can taste it.

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This b*tch right here just woke up to a new LW!

Never felt more powerful.

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Posing can make such a big difference, don’t let all the thinspo pics fool you.

(Seeing myself kind of having a thigh gap did things to me though 🥴) - 57.0kg/157cm

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Posted a little video, check it out if you have a bit of time (ED TW)

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🍀 HAND CHECK 🍀

🍀 58.1kg 🍀

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Is it madness that I just got back on track after having a stomach flu and losing 3kgs in 3 days?

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this is so cute omg ty @justwannabeskiiinny for tagging me 💕

fangs or pointed ears, immunity or immortality, wings or horns, greek mythology or egyptian mythology, chokers or anklets, dark red or dark green, glitter or blush, heels or boots, ripped jeans or fishnets, long nails or short nails, oceans or forests, books or movies, phone calls or text messages, rings or studs and skirts or jeans

i tag @justcoffeeplease @skinny--casket @enby-bambi @skinnyisprettyandprettyisloved @vegan-weightless-dreams

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Ight I'm in

fangs or pointed ears, immunity or immortality, wings or horns, greek mythology or egyptian mythology, chokers or anklets, dark red or dark green, glitter or blush, heels or boots, ripped jeans or fishnets, long nails or short nails, oceans or forests, books or movies, phone calls or text messages, rings or studs and skirts or jeans

I'm gonna tag @wannabeskinni-i @cottage-core-cunt @romanticfistfightz @bby-kcals @sick-pwuppy along with any of my Sunshines who wanna do this lol

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fangs or pointed ears, immunity or immortality, wings or horns, greek mythology or egyptian mythology, chokers or anklets, dark red or dark green, glitter or blush, heels or boots, ripped jeans or fishnets, long nails or short nails, oceans or forests, books or movies, phone calls or text messages, rings or studs and skirts or jeans

I tag: @anas-little-butterfly @boneypuppy @coffeepluscigarettes @dainty-empty

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Didn’t expect this, thank you @vegan-weightless-dreams ❤️❤️❤️

Fangs or pointed ears, immunity or immortality, wings or horns, greek mythology or egyptian mythology, chokers or anklets, dark red or dark green, glitter or blush, heels or boots, ripped jeans or fishnets, long nails or short nails, oceans or forests, books or movies, phone calls or text messages, rings or studs and skirts or jeans

I tag: @cesthoney @existingforb0nes

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QUICK REMINDER

You can’t fix your mistakes with laxatives

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Day 11, 12, 13 & 14

11: don’t have any favorite thinspo blog, but support all of you who, like me, are struggling in this hell of a disorder.

12: oh boy, when I “eat good” aka restrict I skip breakfast, have lunch and skip dinner. I normally go for chicken breast, or eggwhites as protein, green veggies, and sometimes a slice of toast.

13: unhealthy. No need to question that.

14: UGW is 46kg...I would have hoped by the end of the year, but at this point, who knows.

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Day 7, 8, 9 & 10

(Haven’t been motivated to answer lately because..binging)

7: My parents know I’ve been struggling with my weight for as long as I can remember and know I want to lose weight. What they don’t know is that I’ve been doing it in the unhealthiest way possible. They don’t know about my ED as in restricting and fasting but they do know I binge because my dad does too..

8: Honestly Zumba is my favorite workout ever! I tend to stick to cardio in general i.e. doing the elliptical when I’m at the gym.

9: I’ve always been bullied because of my weight as a child. Pretty sure my friends make negative comments about my weight behind my back now as well, so yeah.

10: It’s so hard for me to give up food somehow. Binging. Comfort eating. It’s so harmful for me and I know it is, although I want to be able not to binge anymore, it’s the hardest thing to give up.

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ED culture be like:

Restrict for a week and lose weight.

Binge for three weeks and gain everything back.

Repeat.

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Day 6

Yes I binge. I’ve binged as a kid too without actually knowing what binging was. I am an emotional eater, I’ve always been, I seek comfort in food.

As for right now I am 8 days binge free.

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Day 4 and 5

4: My greatest fears are mostly hair loss and infertility. My ED never got me to the point of me not getting my period, my it still kind of scares me.

5: I’ve always been chubby, my entire life. I’ve been overweight for my entire pre-teenage years, and I’m tired of it. Being the fat friend, because ALL my friends are skinny..I don’t want it anymore. So yes, I’m doing it for myself, to be able to look in the mirror and not want to throw up.

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My stomach: *screaming for food by making loud embarrassing noises*

Me: TIME TO NAP YAYYY!

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Day 3

I really like Camila Mendes. She’s skinny, but still remains kind of “curvy” because of her hips. I kind of have the same body type, so she’s a big inspiration for me :)

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If you haven’t seen this video of zeze please do she’s so beautiful and it’s so motivating!! I’m binge watching all her videos now that I’m stuck at home and it’s honestly so cozy and comforting to watch, I love her.