zero regard

if you ask me...the light's winning AO3

[daisypreaker]

if she were the king's firstborn, or better still his only child, she would be well content...such a fierce little thing she is, they say, she has no need of comfort. they are wrong in that, i fear. all men need comfort.

- septon barth, fire and blood

[daisypreaker]

the women on my dad's side of the family have a history of killing themselves violently so you'd think there'd be a moral to the story and yet there isn't

[f0restnympho420]

life is nothing without eroticism and whimsy

[daisypreaker]

lovely rhaenyra (old drawing)

[daisypreaker]

the saera appreciator/artist/writer ever

she is now one of my elite employees (character i can't ponder too much in one sitting or i start crying)

[daisypreaker]

on a complete aside, i mostly avoid saera discussions (unless done by beloved and trusted moots) as i'm always afraid i'm going to see some weird vibes creeping through about her eventual fate. the fandom as a whole tends to mostly fixate on female characters who fit the victimhood parameters in the saintly sense, and while i think saera is a saint (LOL) i understand this sentiment might be ridiculed or brushed off by others.

[daisypreaker]

An a victim of incestuous CSA, in my experience I’ve learned that there is a very fine line between loathing your abuser to the point of wanting him dead and feeling utterly confused with yourself because there were times you “wanted” it (with time you may or may not eventually realize that it all comes from the manipulation of it all)

I read the rat king last night and really liked the way you took on and treated this delicate subject. Saera’s character is amazingly written, how would you say she reconciles in her own mind hating jaehaerys for what he’s done/is doing to her with herself being somewhat obsessed with him? How does she reconcile her sexual dependence towards him with wanting to be as far away from him as possible?

(sorry in advance I hope it makes sense english is not my first language but I’ve never read a fictional story that understands the subject so well)

hi, and thank you for the ask - i'm sending you lots of hugs <33

i'll have to give grrm the credit for laying the foundation of her so well that writing in between the cracks was quite easy. being in her mind is chaotic ngl but i love her (as is likely obvious). i'm not sure she does ever reconcile it, which isn't the most wholesome answer especially since on the face of it she managed to escape. when both your parents suck massively, the wound of 'what could have been' never quite fades (at least it hasn't for me so far). i think some injuries you carry to the grave even if they scar and stop aching as they once did.

in the moment, it's all too tangled up for her to really take a breather and reconcile anything. jaehaerys is as unpredictable as she is, and they play cat-and-mouse games that leave each other winded and always in a state of high alert and tension. the addiction to this chaos certainly drives them both in the way i choose to depict them. but it's a very exhausting state to maintain and someone was always going to break first. jaehaerys sending her to the silent sisters was not him doing that since she's a short flight away on his dragon. the theme is that they always one-up each other and so she went further away, sold herself into sexual slavery, put all the lessons he taught her to good use. in canon, there is no in depth exploration of this decision she made. in my canon, it is a final fuck you to him i guess because she'd know just how much it would piss him off that she's debasing herself, but at the same time, he debases all his daughters by being careless with them. this is a personal fuck you where she takes the knife he pushed into her and turns to stab him with it.

[daisypreaker]

anaya <3

[daisypreaker]

one of the reasons i hyper-attach to characters is how the actor depicts them crying and no character has ever cried exactly like me until i saw lucas hood on banshee

[fairycosmos]

your problem is you think if you communicate with clarity and earnestness that people will actually understand you

[daisypreaker]

Your Saera is absolutely gorgeous I just love how you draw her. And the jewels mirroring the king’s crown…chef’s kiss

Would you ever draw Jaehaerys? It’s strange cause his face is always somewhat vague in my mind I just picture his long braid (and kind of a mix of maekar and some of the few fan art I’ve seen of him)

thank you :') i see her as having worn the colours of his crown in her jewellery as a way to keep herself endeared to him when she was young. ultimately it ended up useless, as the parent comes first and is already a fully formed human and can't be manipulated into being kind to the child.

i do envision jaehaerys as maekar with a long braid myself and when i drew him and alysanne, he sort of still had maekar's eyes

[daisypreaker]

i'm really sad all the time and creating things fends the sadness off for a short while but then it's back (maybe why i create a ridiculous amount of half-baked stuff)

[daisypreaker]

Saw that ask before you deleted and just...why would they put it like that 😭😭 People are tew desensitized to these topics in this fandom for my liking

bruh 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[daisypreaker]

She took my breath away, this girl. There was never a mummer in all the land who gave such a performance, but by the end she was exhausted and afraid, and her mask slipped.”

- fire and blood, grrm

[daisypreaker]

still thinking of the anon who sent me the ask about adding the 'don't tell me you wanked to this' tag on ao3 when i have been known to write entire ten page smut scenes just to edge myself before deleting them because they don't fit the plot...queen wankery if you will

[daisypreaker]

i mean what would even happen if i briefly included saehaerys in doll parts…truly

[daisypreaker]

wip