please forgive me

you feel like the coldness of something that's missing (and yet you're still so very warm)

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"Hi. I'm Mafuyu Asahina, AKA Yuki, composer and lyricist of Nightcord at 25:00. I'm new to this site, so I just want to say it's a pleasure to meet you!"

"I like making music with my friends Enanan ( @illuminated-emotions ) and Amia ( @nightfall-flowers ), as well as angel's food cake and ice skating. Cold temperatures are the devil, though."

"Something feels off... like there's a cold void in my memories... ugh, my head hurts..."

"Ah, uhm... sorry. Anyway, how are you?"

Another @project-danpen-gm blog from the mod behind @shirazu-streets. Once again, layout is self-made :D

Tags:

❄️💜Empurple💜❄️ (just any in-character post)

❄️💜A Voice Echoing💜❄️ (asks)

❄️💜Please Forgive Me💜❄️ (story)

❄️💜Reborn💜❄️ (side stories/roleplay)

❄️💜Reflected In The Fishtank💜❄️ (art)

💮💜"Do Your Best" From The Administrator💜💮 (mod yap)

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu folds up the paper in her hands, placing it in her cardigan pocket. "Alright, I think I have a plan. Otori-san, you mentioned how you know how to get around here better than you think you should, right? Do you think you can get us to the roof undetected?"

@w0nd3rh01 @inferno-blazing it's new thread time! As confirmed in the Discord server, after Emu replies, the order is An->Emu->Mafuyu.

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

(trimmed)

[The idol purses her lips together in thought, and decides to throw in another idea.]

None of you can remember their faces. Are you all somehow..

Forgetting something? Someone?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Forgetting…” An suddenly jolts backwards, raising a hand to her forehead. “Gh — Headache, don’t mind it!

Still, that’s… quite a way of wording it, y’might be onto something.”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu tried to think. Tried to understand what was going on. Then the weird dream that she had after passing out came back, and she muttered something.

“Going to be a star... That's why I call him star, he always said he was going to be one.”

Leaning on the wall, her mind felt like it should explode.

“Him and... Kaito...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu is too focused on trying to drown out the voice in her head to register much else, but she does nod to "forgetting".

"It has to be that way. There's no other explanation for this... why I can't remember how Niigo formed. Why none of us can. The feeling of something missing is cold. I can't let that continue."

"There's a lot of things happening... none of them good."

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

someone enters the rooftop, panting and out of breath from running. they look up, seeing the crowd of people who had gathered there. it's a lot more than expected— oh well, someone said they might know something…?

"uh, hello~? i was told that there were some people were here discussing weird headaches..."

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka turns to look at the new entrant, eyes widening in surprise.] "Y-you too, Tenma-san...?" [She looks around their little group once more.] "Okay, I think that would confirm for sure that we have been forgetting, them... But how do we even start to remember? I mean, do any of us have any sort of leads on these people...? I don't think I have anything to go off of myself, but maybe if you all have suggestions, it could ring a bell..."

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

A few of us have mentioned dreams. I feel like that might be the best lead we have, since they seem to occur repeatedly and end the same exact way. They almost appear…but disappear as soon as we wake up. So, something subconscious is aware of these people, but how do we keep that memory…well, intact?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, fair question, Hinomori. I’m honestly not too sure myself, but I think it’s got to do with the one thing that sticks with us when we have these. Like… Otori, the guy you can’t remember the face of talks about being a star! And in mine, it’s that voice I hear that I never end up recognising. The one that…”

An pauses for a moment, something foreign surfacing in her mind, because in those dreams, together, they’d — “The one that I… remember always assuming was my singing partner — Ack!”

(Oh god, this somehow hurts more than the last one…!)

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu slid down the wall she was leaning on, before muttering to herself. And glancing at Saki.

“Saki-chan looks like him. His hair is more gold into red though.”

She shook it off, looking more directly at the new conversation member.

“Saki-chan, An-chan, Asahina-senpai... Haruka-chan and me... And Shizuku-senpai said something about Shiho-chan too... This isn't a coincidence. It can't be, right? Saki-chan, do you have weird dreams? Like, wake up all wooshawooshawoosh, headachy when you wake up kind of weird dreams.”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"Yeah- *hack* I'm alright, Shiraishi, it's just the voices again... ow..." Her voice comes out raspy as she rubs her aching throat. She soon turns her gaze to Saki, anticipating her response to Emu's question.

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

saki walks in as the others spoke, closing the door behind her. she brings her hand to her chin, humming in thought.

weird dreams... yeah, yeah! i've been getting these dreams! though, i think i remember two people in my latest one...?

she states, trying her best to recall— pushing past the growing headache that's already starting to form.

it— it involved... a girl with long hair singing, and an older boy in the audience who looked like... like a—

saki groans as she closed her eyes. she leans against the wall, one hand coming up to clutch her head.

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka moves hesitantly towards the girls, worry clear on her face.] "Are you alright? I- Is this really a good idea, if it hurts us all so much...?" [She pauses for a moment, the glowing orange figure shimmering faintly in her mind.] "I don't have as much to go off as you all, I- I just can't recall... her voice, her face are all a blur."

"But... her, her smile. I think I remember that much- AHCK-" [Haruka flinches, pain shooting through her head and slicing through her thoughts, the brief glow scattered and gone.]

@peachblossomidol

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

[Shizuku lets out a yelp, but helps Haruka keep her balance by supporting her side. She can’t help but slightly squint, though. This conversation was also making her a little woozy by the second.]

I..None of this can just be a ‘coincidence’ anymore, right? We’re all experiencing the same things, just with different figures. They have to mean something to us, but these headaches-

[She gestures around the group of students.]

-they’re like something that’s actively pushing us back. So we can’t recall anything. Isn’t that even stranger…?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, yeah… I guess it does feel like that sometimes.” An briefly shakes her head, seemingly attempting to stabilise after her headache. “Sounds a bit like one of those mind-control-conspiracy theories, doesn’t it? How’d something like this even work?”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Gently hitting her head, she tried to think. Think past the pain. Think of ANYTHING.

... A star, a girl with long hair. A singing partner. Memories of coldness that wasn't there. A bright smile...

“Why do your dream people almost... also feel familiar...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"If she feels familiar to someone else, it might just bring me closer to figuring this out... That's just a 'might', though." She hisses quietly. Headache again. "I think there's something else there for me too, but I don't know what..."

[showoffmelody]

"...maybe,"

saki mumbles. their voice sounds quiet, a disconnect from how they usually sound.

"we're... more connected than we thought we were? i mean, otori mentioned someone that looked like me, and i—"

they stammer nervously.

"i've... felt like... i've been missing a family member, so..."

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka looks over at Saki, mirroring their own nervous expression. After a few moments, she speaks again, slowly.] "Well, I- I guess we should try and look into these, or our connections then...? Is there anyone else who might be having these headaches, that we could ask...?"

@peachblossomidol

[colorless-foundation]

Suddenly... A bang through the rooftop's door, and Airi busts on through, heavily breathing.

Haah... Hey, girls... Sorry for bursting in like this, but... I've heard there was a conversation in here... That was worth involving me in...

Right afterso, Airi falls unto her own knees, gasping for air.

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

Airi?!

[Shizuku rushes over and kneels down next to her, offering her a hand to help her stand back up.]

Well..you’re not wrong. All of us are trying to figure something out, but we’ve sort of hit a dead end.

[Her eyes squint a little as she thinks about the current information.]

All we know is that we all have this kind of mental gap, and if we think too hard about it, we get these terrible headaches. An, you bring up a point though—it does feel like one of those conspiracy theories of mind control.

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

An is still slightly thrown off by Airi’s entrance, she chooses to send her a small wave as acknowledgment before addressing Shizuku. “I guess it does— Well, it clearly isn’t that, but that doesn’t matter.” Briefly, she pauses, before turning to Airi, “Wait, Momoi, you said this was ‘worth getting involved in’?”

@w0nd3rh01

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu blinked, eyes shakily looking up at Airi.

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"..."

@showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

"airi—?! you too...?"

"...ah, sorry, go on."

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

"Y-yes, what do you mean, Momoi-san?" [Haruka steps towards her slightly, but she's clearly still very hesitant and divided.] "We need all the information we can get right now..."

@colorless-foundation

[colorless-foundation]

I constantly get these EXTREME headaches, that are triggered by... Well, a few words, but I only figured they must be connected to something! It's... Well, I'm...

... I'm worried about it, admittedly.

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

[She nods. Then something hits her.]

Saki. You mentioned you’ve felt like you’re missing a family member.

[She scans around the group.]

Are we missing a..a friend? Are all of us…was there another person we were supposed to..

[Shizuku hisses as a headache hits her like a truck. But she gets one more word out:]

Remember?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Someone we’re supposed to…”

(If they’re all missing someone, I must be…)

— Ack!” Another splitting headache comes upon An, the throb in her head drowning out the thoughts that come up about what Shizuku’d just said.

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

her head was splitting. who do they all know but forgot? an easier asked than answered question.

but through the pain, she came to a potentially flawed realisation that slipped out of her mouth like it was water.

“it's almost like we get these headaches and migraines when we come closer to remembering them...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"...There are certain things that seem to trigger those headaches. Things that could be related to her. That would remind me of her if I could remember her properly. The carnation bead on my charm bracelet is one of them- one I've hidden from myself for too long."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu folds up the paper in her hands, placing it in her cardigan pocket. "Alright, I think I have a plan. Otori-san, you mentioned how you know how to get around here better than you think you should, right? Do you think you can get us to the roof undetected?"

@w0nd3rh01 @inferno-blazing it's new thread time! As confirmed in the Discord server, after Emu replies, the order is An->Emu->Mafuyu.

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

(trimmed)

[The idol purses her lips together in thought, and decides to throw in another idea.]

None of you can remember their faces. Are you all somehow..

Forgetting something? Someone?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Forgetting…” An suddenly jolts backwards, raising a hand to her forehead. “Gh — Headache, don’t mind it!

Still, that’s… quite a way of wording it, y’might be onto something.”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu tried to think. Tried to understand what was going on. Then the weird dream that she had after passing out came back, and she muttered something.

“Going to be a star... That's why I call him star, he always said he was going to be one.”

Leaning on the wall, her mind felt like it should explode.

“Him and... Kaito...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu is too focused on trying to drown out the voice in her head to register much else, but she does nod to "forgetting".

"It has to be that way. There's no other explanation for this... why I can't remember how Niigo formed. Why none of us can. The feeling of something missing is cold. I can't let that continue."

"There's a lot of things happening... none of them good."

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

someone enters the rooftop, panting and out of breath from running. they look up, seeing the crowd of people who had gathered there. it's a lot more than expected— oh well, someone said they might know something…?

"uh, hello~? i was told that there were some people were here discussing weird headaches..."

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka turns to look at the new entrant, eyes widening in surprise.] "Y-you too, Tenma-san...?" [She looks around their little group once more.] "Okay, I think that would confirm for sure that we have been forgetting, them... But how do we even start to remember? I mean, do any of us have any sort of leads on these people...? I don't think I have anything to go off of myself, but maybe if you all have suggestions, it could ring a bell..."

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

A few of us have mentioned dreams. I feel like that might be the best lead we have, since they seem to occur repeatedly and end the same exact way. They almost appear…but disappear as soon as we wake up. So, something subconscious is aware of these people, but how do we keep that memory…well, intact?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, fair question, Hinomori. I’m honestly not too sure myself, but I think it’s got to do with the one thing that sticks with us when we have these. Like… Otori, the guy you can’t remember the face of talks about being a star! And in mine, it’s that voice I hear that I never end up recognising. The one that…”

An pauses for a moment, something foreign surfacing in her mind, because in those dreams, together, they’d — “The one that I… remember always assuming was my singing partner — Ack!”

(Oh god, this somehow hurts more than the last one…!)

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu slid down the wall she was leaning on, before muttering to herself. And glancing at Saki.

“Saki-chan looks like him. His hair is more gold into red though.”

She shook it off, looking more directly at the new conversation member.

“Saki-chan, An-chan, Asahina-senpai... Haruka-chan and me... And Shizuku-senpai said something about Shiho-chan too... This isn't a coincidence. It can't be, right? Saki-chan, do you have weird dreams? Like, wake up all wooshawooshawoosh, headachy when you wake up kind of weird dreams.”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"Yeah- *hack* I'm alright, Shiraishi, it's just the voices again... ow..." Her voice comes out raspy as she rubs her aching throat. She soon turns her gaze to Saki, anticipating her response to Emu's question.

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

saki walks in as the others spoke, closing the door behind her. she brings her hand to her chin, humming in thought.

weird dreams... yeah, yeah! i've been getting these dreams! though, i think i remember two people in my latest one...?

she states, trying her best to recall— pushing past the growing headache that's already starting to form.

it— it involved... a girl with long hair singing, and an older boy in the audience who looked like... like a—

saki groans as she closed her eyes. she leans against the wall, one hand coming up to clutch her head.

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka moves hesitantly towards the girls, worry clear on her face.] "Are you alright? I- Is this really a good idea, if it hurts us all so much...?" [She pauses for a moment, the glowing orange figure shimmering faintly in her mind.] "I don't have as much to go off as you all, I- I just can't recall... her voice, her face are all a blur."

"But... her, her smile. I think I remember that much- AHCK-" [Haruka flinches, pain shooting through her head and slicing through her thoughts, the brief glow scattered and gone.]

@peachblossomidol

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

[Shizuku lets out a yelp, but helps Haruka keep her balance by supporting her side. She can’t help but slightly squint, though. This conversation was also making her a little woozy by the second.]

I..None of this can just be a ‘coincidence’ anymore, right? We’re all experiencing the same things, just with different figures. They have to mean something to us, but these headaches-

[She gestures around the group of students.]

-they’re like something that’s actively pushing us back. So we can’t recall anything. Isn’t that even stranger…?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, yeah… I guess it does feel like that sometimes.” An briefly shakes her head, seemingly attempting to stabilise after her headache. “Sounds a bit like one of those mind-control-conspiracy theories, doesn’t it? How’d something like this even work?”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Gently hitting her head, she tried to think. Think past the pain. Think of ANYTHING.

... A star, a girl with long hair. A singing partner. Memories of coldness that wasn't there. A bright smile...

“Why do your dream people almost... also feel familiar...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"If she feels familiar to someone else, it might just bring me closer to figuring this out... That's just a 'might', though." She hisses quietly. Headache again. "I think there's something else there for me too, but I don't know what..."

[showoffmelody]

"...maybe,"

saki mumbles. their voice sounds quiet, a disconnect from how they usually sound.

"we're... more connected than we thought we were? i mean, otori mentioned someone that looked like me, and i—"

they stammer nervously.

"i've... felt like... i've been missing a family member, so..."

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka looks over at Saki, mirroring their own nervous expression. After a few moments, she speaks again, slowly.] "Well, I- I guess we should try and look into these, or our connections then...? Is there anyone else who might be having these headaches, that we could ask...?"

@peachblossomidol

[colorless-foundation]

Suddenly... A bang through the rooftop's door, and Airi busts on through, heavily breathing.

Haah... Hey, girls... Sorry for bursting in like this, but... I've heard there was a conversation in here... That was worth involving me in...

Right afterso, Airi falls unto her own knees, gasping for air.

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

Airi?!

[Shizuku rushes over and kneels down next to her, offering her a hand to help her stand back up.]

Well..you’re not wrong. All of us are trying to figure something out, but we’ve sort of hit a dead end.

[Her eyes squint a little as she thinks about the current information.]

All we know is that we all have this kind of mental gap, and if we think too hard about it, we get these terrible headaches. An, you bring up a point though—it does feel like one of those conspiracy theories of mind control.

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

An is still slightly thrown off by Airi’s entrance, she chooses to send her a small wave as acknowledgment before addressing Shizuku. “I guess it does— Well, it clearly isn’t that, but that doesn’t matter.” Briefly, she pauses, before turning to Airi, “Wait, Momoi, you said this was ‘worth getting involved in’?”

@w0nd3rh01

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu blinked, eyes shakily looking up at Airi.

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"..."

@showoffmelody

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"Happy anniversary, Rin and Len. I made you two a little something." She holds a tray of banana nut muffins as well as a three-tiered carrot cake with an image of the two, in their V2 versions, as the topper.

@a-song-to-show-your-self @hiding-in-the-emptiness

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

I'd like to clarify that we also hoping for an answer on the ask regarding the inactivity. It would be nice to know the reason behind the lack of updates on the main thread while still participating in side events

As I read through this ask, I realize I may sound a little harsh and if I that is the case I apologize.

Unfortunately I don't really have much of an answer besides just not being as focused on Danpen as some other things. I'm really really sorry if you expected a better explanation.

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu folds up the paper in her hands, placing it in her cardigan pocket. "Alright, I think I have a plan. Otori-san, you mentioned how you know how to get around here better than you think you should, right? Do you think you can get us to the roof undetected?"

@w0nd3rh01 @inferno-blazing it's new thread time! As confirmed in the Discord server, after Emu replies, the order is An->Emu->Mafuyu.

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

(trimmed)

[The idol purses her lips together in thought, and decides to throw in another idea.]

None of you can remember their faces. Are you all somehow..

Forgetting something? Someone?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Forgetting…” An suddenly jolts backwards, raising a hand to her forehead. “Gh — Headache, don’t mind it!

Still, that’s… quite a way of wording it, y’might be onto something.”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu tried to think. Tried to understand what was going on. Then the weird dream that she had after passing out came back, and she muttered something.

“Going to be a star... That's why I call him star, he always said he was going to be one.”

Leaning on the wall, her mind felt like it should explode.

“Him and... Kaito...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Mafuyu is too focused on trying to drown out the voice in her head to register much else, but she does nod to "forgetting".

"It has to be that way. There's no other explanation for this... why I can't remember how Niigo formed. Why none of us can. The feeling of something missing is cold. I can't let that continue."

"There's a lot of things happening... none of them good."

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

someone enters the rooftop, panting and out of breath from running. they look up, seeing the crowd of people who had gathered there. it's a lot more than expected— oh well, someone said they might know something…?

"uh, hello~? i was told that there were some people were here discussing weird headaches..."

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka turns to look at the new entrant, eyes widening in surprise.] "Y-you too, Tenma-san...?" [She looks around their little group once more.] "Okay, I think that would confirm for sure that we have been forgetting, them... But how do we even start to remember? I mean, do any of us have any sort of leads on these people...? I don't think I have anything to go off of myself, but maybe if you all have suggestions, it could ring a bell..."

@droplet-idol-of-mmj

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

A few of us have mentioned dreams. I feel like that might be the best lead we have, since they seem to occur repeatedly and end the same exact way. They almost appear…but disappear as soon as we wake up. So, something subconscious is aware of these people, but how do we keep that memory…well, intact?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, fair question, Hinomori. I’m honestly not too sure myself, but I think it’s got to do with the one thing that sticks with us when we have these. Like… Otori, the guy you can’t remember the face of talks about being a star! And in mine, it’s that voice I hear that I never end up recognising. The one that…”

An pauses for a moment, something foreign surfacing in her mind, because in those dreams, together, they’d — “The one that I… remember always assuming was my singing partner — Ack!”

(Oh god, this somehow hurts more than the last one…!)

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Emu slid down the wall she was leaning on, before muttering to herself. And glancing at Saki.

“Saki-chan looks like him. His hair is more gold into red though.”

She shook it off, looking more directly at the new conversation member.

“Saki-chan, An-chan, Asahina-senpai... Haruka-chan and me... And Shizuku-senpai said something about Shiho-chan too... This isn't a coincidence. It can't be, right? Saki-chan, do you have weird dreams? Like, wake up all wooshawooshawoosh, headachy when you wake up kind of weird dreams.”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"Yeah- *hack* I'm alright, Shiraishi, it's just the voices again... ow..." Her voice comes out raspy as she rubs her aching throat. She soon turns her gaze to Saki, anticipating her response to Emu's question.

-> @showoffmelody

[showoffmelody]

saki walks in as the others spoke, closing the door behind her. she brings her hand to her chin, humming in thought.

weird dreams... yeah, yeah! i've been getting these dreams! though, i think i remember two people in my latest one...?

she states, trying her best to recall— pushing past the growing headache that's already starting to form.

it— it involved... a girl with long hair singing, and an older boy in the audience who looked like... like a—

saki groans as she closed her eyes. she leans against the wall, one hand coming up to clutch her head.

-> @faint-blue-idols-heart

[faint-blue-idols-heart]

[Haruka moves hesitantly towards the girls, worry clear on her face.] "Are you alright? I- Is this really a good idea, if it hurts us all so much...?" [She pauses for a moment, the glowing orange figure shimmering faintly in her mind.] "I don't have as much to go off as you all, I- I just can't recall... her voice, her face are all a blur."

"But... her, her smile. I think I remember that much- AHCK-" [Haruka flinches, pain shooting through her head and slicing through her thoughts, the brief glow scattered and gone.]

@peachblossomidol

[droplet-idol-of-mmj]

[Shizuku lets out a yelp, but helps Haruka keep her balance by supporting her side. She can’t help but slightly squint, though. This conversation was also making her a little woozy by the second.]

I..None of this can just be a ‘coincidence’ anymore, right? We’re all experiencing the same things, just with different figures. They have to mean something to us, but these headaches-

[She gestures around the group of students.]

-they’re like something that’s actively pushing us back. So we can’t recall anything. Isn’t that even stranger…?

@inferno-blazing

[inferno-blazing]

“Huh, yeah… I guess it does feel like that sometimes.” An briefly shakes her head, seemingly attempting to stabilise after her headache. “Sounds a bit like one of those mind-control-conspiracy theories, doesn’t it? How’d something like this even work?”

( @w0nd3rh01 )

[w0nd3rh01]

Gently hitting her head, she tried to think. Think past the pain. Think of ANYTHING.

... A star, a girl with long hair. A singing partner. Memories of coldness that wasn't there. A bright smile...

“Why do your dream people almost... also feel familiar...”

-> @dancing-in-the-snowstorm

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

"If she feels familiar to someone else, it might just bring me closer to figuring this out... That's just a 'might', though." She hisses quietly. Headache again. "I think there's something else there for me too, but I don't know what..."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[I’m afraid time’s almost up. It was nice talking to you again, if only for a little bit.

…I’m sorry.]

"I should be the one saying that..."

And like that, time is up. Mafuyu blinks open eyes that she doesn't remember having closed, to be greeted with a tile floor she doesn't remember falling to. The only evidence she ever remembered is a lingering chill, faint enough for confusion to let her ignore it. "Huh...? What... what happened? Why am I...?" She tries to get up, but finds herself still weakened. "Okay... ack-! Ow, my legs... and my face..."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[I don’t blame you for that in the slightest. You couldn’t have known. I tried so hard to make sure you wouldn’t. Besides…I was being too pushy. Controlling. Just like…well, the point is you shouldn’t beat yourself up over it. Really.]

"Even if you say you forgive me, I don't think I could really believe it..." She sniffles into her cardigan sleeve. It's so cold. These memories are so cold. The realization feels so cold. And she wonders if she had made a mistake in thinking she was ready.

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[But you aren’t…and that’s why I had to leave. I couldn’t drag you down with me any longer…you deserved so much more than me.]

"SHUT UP!!" She takes in a breath, and sobs quietly. "If you, the person I felt safest with before, the person who made me feel warmer than I'd felt for every other moment of my life I could clearly remember, are going to talk about yourself like that, there's no point in you talking at all!!'

She loses strength just as quickly as she gained it. "...but I have no business saying that, after how I treated you when I didn't remember."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[Mafuyu!- please…don’t listen to that anon. Take a breath and calm down…everything will be fine. I’ll make sure of it.]

"I am the worst..."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

It’s temporary, but it took you long enough. She’s been freezing her ragged little wings off for you…and you’ve gone and shoved her away over and over again. If I recall, you even called her a pest. Aha, that must have been a blow to her mental health~

"Please shut up, shutupshutupshutupshutup..." It's too cold for her to breathe. She collapses to the ground, limbs too weak to do anything to stop her from kissing tile.

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

hey Mafuyu remember anything important recently :3

"Yes... please don't talk to me, I'm going to be sick..."

Where to even begin with this?

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

Hey Mafumod ^^ small check in since it’s been a while since you’ve updated! No rush or pressure or anything though, just wanna make sure you’re doing alright /nm /nf

Moot I'm fine, just not really focused on danpen rn

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[…the weather’s getting colder, isn’t it? It should be approaching winter soon…I hope you and the others have been staying warm.]

She sighs again, closing her eyes and nuzzling her head a little further into the crook of her elbow.

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[…is…is your headache any better?]

Her eyes narrow. She refuses to respond.

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[I’m sorry…I don’t mean to keep upsetting you.]

"..."

[dancing-in-the-snowstorm]

[…if you’re going to be upset with anyone I’d rather you be upset with me. Mizuki and Ena…this is something outside of their control.]

"Leave me alone..."