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tell me your thoughts

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taguan | 🌻 03.16.22 12:35am

maglalaro tayo ng tagu taguan

maiba ang taya

kaya't bilisan ang paghula

bibilang ako ng tatlo

at ika'y mawawala

at hahanapin ka, kahit saang sulok

hanggang sa madapa

maya maya at nariyan ka na

sa aking likuran

na may mga ngiting dala

kaya ang pagiging taya

ay hindi alintana

sa tuwing natatagpuan ang mga ngiti sa iyong mukha

kaya't huwag ng magtago pa

dahil ika'y hahanap hanapin

masaliyan lamang ang iyong mukha

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please, give him the life he always wanted.

[stay-close]

“How do you move on? You move on when your heart finally understands that there is no turning back.”

— J.R.R. Tolkien

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never been the same since we cut ties

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i miss everything about you, mahal

I'm hoping you're doing okay

i trust life's treating you kindly

I pray you heal fast and easy

I loved you, always

my always

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i think I've fallen

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chance - a possibility, a name he wants for his child

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july 15 11:20pm

kuha kaya ako ng solo parent, kapag nagkaanak tayo tapos naghiwalay, syempre discount 20% 😭 akin na yung bata non. ha? bakit? ah gusto mo ilaban? hmp bakit tayo maghihiwalay? ayon 😭 gusto ko yan yan ang pinakasweet na sinabi mo sa akin 😭 ganyan mga gusto kong sagutan, kung yung iba jan pride ang papairalin pero ikaw you choose no violence, i like that, thank you lord sa ganitong buhay 😭

kung magiging full course life ko, gusto ko ikaw yung dessert, kasi you might be at the end of the course but i know you will be worthy

eh so sino yung appetizer, and main course mo huh?

eh 😑 hindi, hindi ganon yung buhay ko nga eh

😭 tapos biglang kakanta ng dessert by dawin iba iba tono 😭

beh kung magiging kanta ka, gusto ko maging alapaap ka, ng eraserheads? oo eraserheads, bakit naman? tapos yung favorite part ko don yung 'may isang umaaga na tayo'y magsasama... haya at halina sa alapaap ... oh anong sarap.. alam mo ba may issue yan before, kasi akala nila pang high yung kanta na yan, diba kasi sa lyrics, pero para sa akin iba interpretation ko jan eh, simple lang, yung nanghihikayat na for a night or moment na sumama ka tapos kakalimutan mo lahat kahit panandalian lang basta kasama ka ganon

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para kang sorbetes na lagi kong inaabangan tuwing Sunday ng tanghali

are you mad? hindi, alam ko namang busy ka and or marami kang stuff na pinagkakaabalahan

siguro kahit umabot ng tatlong taon, tapos isang message mo lang matanggap ko masaya na ako

namiss kita cheesecake

ikaw ang pabirito kong cheesecake

iboboyfriend mo ba ako, question lang not definite, yes definitely, why, i'm happy with u, same gagi, ako rin igigirlfriend din kita, i know naman u're not a perfect girlfriend material, but each day whenever we're talking, i always find an interesting piece about you, and i know it will be worth it, you are worth the wait

gusto na kitang idate, kailan kita pwedeng idate? gusto kitang idate sa intramuros, coffee tayo, tapos tatanungin kita saan tayo kakain, tapos sasabhin mo kahit saan o di kaya ikaw bahala, gusto ko mga ganon eh

tapos aawayin mo ako pauwi sasabihin mo stop the jeep, kasi magjeep tayo non 😭

he has so many plans for us, i reaally hope the universe hears all of this, for our future , together

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lucky henlo, sorry for texting u this late, and sorry for a week (or two) of hving no message. u know tough times, [i just gained some courage to chat u and some friends rn], there's a lot going on and I'm still trying to catch up with it, and hellyah missing you bigtime

here goes nothing;))

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he did message me, well it's 3:00am I can't sleep, i could pretend I'm not thinking of him but i know he's been in my mind for quite a while now. I'm such a mess, i should've not done that! i should've not left him (more like ghost him) for days now, i wanna cry but i just can't wtf... and now seems like the reason why I'm still awake is because i happen to remember i restricted him on messenger and when i visited it in the privacy setting, HE JUST ACTUALLY MESSAGE ME WTFFFF HUHU

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I want to travel within your mind,

and see how it thinks—

learn about its calmest state,

and the worst storm it would make.

I desire to know

what are the thoughts

that keep it drained each day,

and somehow help you figure out

how to rearrange

the ideas scattered within its premises;

and take out the ones you no longer need.

I am eager to repaint the wall within your head,

to revamp some parts on it

that are crippled and maimed;

and if you want,

I would just varnish it looking anew,

for you to have a fresh beginning.

The pigment of white will do,

so all the past writings on it

will be erased, too.

I am willing to use a pencil

instead of a permanent kind of ink,

just so if we won't end up being together,

you could erase all the transcriptions that I've made.

but if you're willing to spend

a lifetime with me by your side,

I will gladly rewrite what I had inscribed—

my "I love yous" will be on repeat,

until the end of time.

—Ren Ednalig

Illustration: Jonghun Shin

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Ang pinakamabisang paraan daw ng paglimot ay pag-alala.

Kaya’t paulit-ulit kong binabalikan ang bakanteng lote kung saan madalas tayong tumambay; aabangan si kuyang fishball at saka papakyawin ang lahat ng tustadong kikiam; maghahati lang tayo sa gulaman, at sa mga k’wento, at sa ganda ng takipsilim.

Doon pa rin ako dumadaan sa kanto kung saan madadaanan ko ang bahay niyo; kahit maraming aso, mas gusto kong maglakad dito; gusto kong tanungin ang mga poste ng ilaw kung mayroon ka na bang ibang kasabay pag-uwi tuwing gabi; gusto kong aninagin ang mga marka niyong dalawa—

kung masaya ka ba; kung napapatawa ka ba ng mga korni niyang linya; kung inaalok ka ba niya ng panyo kung namumula ang mukha dahil kinikilig ka; kung inaakbayan ka rin ba niya dahil masyadong maliit ang payong para maisilong ang nararamdaman niyo sa isa’t isa.

Inaalala pa rin kita; sa bawat sandali, sa bawat bagay, sa bawat pangyayari; sa madaling salita—palagi; malungkot man o masaya ang kanta; ambon man o bagyo ang trip ng langit; sabihin man ng mga orchids sa tapat ng bahay niyo na matagal ka nang nakalimot at nakausad; aalalahanin pa rin kita.

Hanggang sa matauhan ako; hanggang sa mamanhid ang puso, at masanay, at maging pamilyar sa sugat na iniwan mo; hanggang ang pag-alala sa’yo ay hindi na masakit; hanggang sa—ang lahat ng sandali at pangyayari na may kinalaman sa’yo—wala na lang.

Aalahanin kita, hanggang sa magsawa na lang ang mga alaala.

—

Ron Canimo

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tiktok.com/@roncanimoph

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good morninggg!! Darzzzz namannn, ang aga kong na teary eyed gaga. anws, I'm really glaaad you're okay naaa, I got really worried about you, lalo na nung nalaman ko na dahilan and i just can't blame you knowing you have a problem/situation like that.

I was asked by alvi nga eh, "hindi ka ba nagtatampo kay darz, nyel?" and then i fell silent for a moment and inisip ko if nagtatampo ba ako sa'yo, from the time i didn't know your reason until now that I know it. and then i said "hindi, let's just understand darz" -perhaps she just needs time; to breathe, to think, to be alone and that's okay.

Darz, still, thank you ;)) and sorry for not physically, verbally, virtually being there with you, pero maliban sa mga pusa kong napakarami na naman, kay lucky na lulubog lilitaw, at sa problem nila alvi at yvon, bumabagabag (na-tongue twist pa ako wait 😭) ka rin sa isip ko araw-gabi, i always pray you will have the strength to get through your problems, and i do hope that if things gets heavy and u can't take it anymore, i really do hope you find once more courage to tell us or kahit huwag na sa lahat, kahit sa isang tao na lang sa atin ang problems mo sa buhay buhay.

and lastly, happy friendship day beh HAHAHAHAHHA you are one of the amazing person in my life, the bestest friend, you are a great company I shoulda woulda keep forever and always. mahal na yata kita... HAHAHAHHABAHSHA EME love youuuu darz.

loveliest, nyel

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Nakilala kita sa pagitan

ng simula at wakas

nagustuhan kita sa

gitna ng kahapon at bukas

at nagkatagpo tayo

nang komplikado na ang lahat

pero hindi pa rin sapat

ang panahon at pagkakataon

kulang pa rin ang lakas

para maging akin ka ngayon

ikaw ang hangin na pilit

kong pinapaibig sa'king guryon

ang natatanging perlas

na sa kabibe ng puso'y nakabaon

sana nga balang araw

kung mamarapatin at loloobín

ang pag-amin nawa sa iyo'y

madali nang sambitin

maging matapang sana ako

at hindi pa huli ang lahat

maging akin ka pa sana

kahit malawak itong dagat.

Dalampasigan | Marso 27, 2021

Likhang-sining ni Daniel F. Gerhartz

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something to reminisce 🌻

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i met someone, in online app again.

he's i believe the most wholesome person

his name suits him

as his aura screams like his favorite color

i always find it charming, everytime he speaks

it's pure, he's making me want to feel that he's pure

i liked how he says things on point, but always stunned about his questions like "don't you miss me?"

i do, i just hope you knew