Friends?
Friends, what are friends? People you can rely on what you can’t rely on family? People you feel the need to impress? Or just people you feel comfortable around? Whatever the case, true friends are hard to come by.
Sometimes, when you’re in a dark place and someone lifts your mood for even a second, you immediately start to cling to that person. And usually their friends come attached. So you start getting really close.
Almost a year later, you find yourself trying to distance yourself from them. You realise that they aren’t who you thought they were. Favours for a ‘friend’ become a hassle and you start making up excuses to get out of them. You start automatically talking more to the friends you abandoned when you met this new group.
Your previous friends treat you as if nothing happened. They just are happy to talk to you. Then you start feeling bad. Why did you ever leave them? To feel cool? Because you wanted to hang out the ‘the cool kids’? I don’t know anymore.
Now, you’re stuck between these groups. The ones you left and the ones you want to leave. But you don’t know how to leave.
How do you leave the ones which you no longer want to hang out with? Their jokes seem so childish and immature. So mean and insensitive. How will they take your absence? Will they gossip and b*tch about you?...Like they do to others. You’re tired of hearing it. Their excuses when you ask for help. And their begs for you to help them. And the endless rubbish they have to say about others.
You no longer laugh at what used to be funny to you. You realise how irresponsible they really are. When you were happy to cover for them just a few months ago. The 'friends' who don’t ever bother listening to you. The ones who only ever care about themselves. The ones who make you seem like the mean one.
You realise your mistake. You regret ever joining them. Now your trapped...with nowhere to go.