lucien pulled her closer, impossibly closer, almost as if letting her out of his embrace would take the ground from behind his feet. he wanted to disagree, he really wanted to, but he knew she was right, one too many times things went wrong in that same exact situation in the past, and for almost all of them she had been alone. but he wasn’t going to let that happen again, if there was something he could do, it was staying with her, no matter what. ❝ it was different, nyx. ❞ he hummed, tone soft, and in a way it was, back then he didn’t know what he knew now, back then he only knew the joy that knowing she was pregnant brought to him, not the worry or fear that something might have gone wrong again. he leaned ever so slightly down, making it just a little bit easier for her, not yet ready to let her go, not when she was being so vulnerable. ❝ i can’t promise you that everything will be okay, i wish i could but‒ ❞ he knew better than making that kind of promises, and pulling away just enough so he could rest his forehead against hers, lucien kept talking. ❝ but i swear i’ll do whatever i can for you, and this. ❞ the last word coming out in a whisper as he moved one of his arm from around her so he could rest his hand on her stomach. ❝ where are you staying, love? ❞
there was a wave of security, warmth and home that hit her when lucien pulled her closer that she couldn’t ( and didn’t want to ) ignore. just like lucien was one constant in her life, the way he made her feel also fell into that category. in the beginning, a mutual annoyance, that even back then inspired a passion within her unlike anything or anyone else. now, a love so big that she felt as if she could drown in it, even if her body had been made for the water, even if she belonged in it. he had always been special to her, in one way or another. regardless of what happened, she had him. that was what she had to remind herself through all the panic and the fear. their bodies were almost one, and yet, she wanted him to be closer still. a part of her wanted to ask how this time was different than the last, but her real name coming from his lips ripped her of any questions; momentarily, of any worries. it didn’t last considering she had to be pulled back to reality whether she liked it or not, but the mere fact that he was capable of such thing amazed her. ❝ i know, lucien. i know. ❞ she muttered, placing a soft kiss to his neck. there was no doubt in her mind that if it was up to him, to them, everything would be okay, but she appreciated that he didn’t make a promise he couldn’t keep. a single tear rolled down her cheeks when his hand rested on her stomach, her whole body reacting to the touch, a shiver running down her spine. ❝ i suppose the ocean isn’t a valid answer. ❞ there was the tiniest hint of a smile on her lips. ❝ i don’t know, actually. i don’t have a place on land. ❞
