What am I doing with my life. I realised how fucking useless I am last night. All I do is stay and home and study for something I'm never going to use or draw.
I want to be an artist. I want to be an artist when I grow up. But I have grown up im almost eighteen and I'm not an artist and my art still looks like shit.
Everyone around me is better and I know I shouldn't be jealous becuase that makes me a bad person. I should try harder.
I just don't see the point. I don’t contribute anything to society not even good art.
I know that I just have to try harder and I do try harder but even if my arts good what then? I'm still useless.
I've wasted my teenage years by doing nothing. I don't even have friends because I'm to much of a coward to actually talk or connect with anyone.
I know this sounds attention seeking. I just needed to get it out. I know I should probably do this in notes or something. Idk what I'm doing.











