HEAR MY HEART SPEAK

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[darkangel1248]

HEAR MY HEART SPEAK : Make My Day

"You are beautiful." "Your laughter rings in everyone's ears like there's no tomorrow." "I like your smile." "It's good to be in your company." "You make my day." ..these are just few of the sweet things he said to me. WORDS. They mean nothing. They are just an empty string of letters put together. Trifling. Inconsequential. Lest, the person that spoke those words matter to you. Or unless, the spoken words struck the heart of the one who received them. Weirdly and unexpectedly, his words formed a shaft that sped its way through my heart. I feel the blow of Eros' arrow fill my heart with uncontrollable desire to know him. So my heart's quest has began. In the old days, if you want to comprehend something, people used to ask questions directly, read books and encyclopedias or perhaps, hire a private investigator. Ha-ha. I wouldn't go that far. So thank God, I was born in an era in which google is now a reality. I learned so much about him. He loves anime, online games, foodtrips, movie dates, taking pics/vids, loves to travel and likes to hang-out with friends. He has funny pictures and videos found online that shows how no one would ever have a dull moment in his company. He has the same college degree in the same medical field i graduated and have license for. He's smart and can carry conversations about almost any topic there is in the planet. He looks dashing, clean-cut, well-dressed and well-bred. His outgoing, upbeat, extrovert personality is almost the same as mine. He talks loud and has a sexy english accent. He has an awesome flare for words that draws people in. He has crazy mood swings that can either make you feel like you are the world or that your presence doesn't make the slightest difference to him. He has strong opinion about things, witty comments and is never afraid to speak his mind. I could go on and on, rattling about every single bit of amazing qualities he has but amongst all these, what i admire the most about him is the way he loves. Sweet, passionate love. The kind of love that shouts to the universe - well, social media (e.g. facebook, etc.) reaches the entire population of the world globally through WIFI/Internet connection - the magnitude and depth of the love he feels inside. A love that any woman would dream of and any dreamer could only wish to have in their life. I have no intention of whisking him away from the arms of his beloved girl. I have too much respect for relationships to even try. I just like the way his eyes flicker in delight and the way it speak volumes about his happiness in love. It makes me believe that true love still exists. In a world where inspiration is everything, I'm glad to have known him. I love the random, chance encounters, the playful jest of words and my heart's silent longing for his sweet words to make my day once more.

[darkangel1248]

HEAR MY HEART SPEAK : New Encounters

I kissed dating goodbye. It’s not just a famous book written by one of my favourite authors - Joshua Harris. T'was also the theme of my life for almost 15months and counting. You see, when you’ve fallen as hard as i did with a loud thud on my butt - almost hearing the sound of cracked bones but it was just the broken, smashing pieces of my heart - you begin to build walls high enough for no one to ever come close to shattering your soul once again. They say it’s better to have loved and lost than to never love at all. Whoever said this must either be a lunatic and/or a masochist. Or so i say, as the senseless throbbing pain find their way of release through the betraying tears that came gushing down my face unchecked. I tasted the bitter tears. My forlorn state and drooping shoulders marking my defeat. The torture seems to be unbearable. The answers to my questions seem to be a faraway dream, unattainable or so it seems. As I try to pick up the fragments of my hopeful romantic heart, a firm resolve started to grow roots inside - to never put myself through that painstaking agony of loving someone so much that i begin losing myself in the process. I had been so content at happily enjoying the company of family and friends, getting better at loving myself, allowing others to love me and growing in my spiritual journey as i become an active part of Light of Jesus Family through PG13 ((Praising God to the 13th Power)) i love life retreat batchmates. GOD has been so good to me. I have slowly surrendered the reins of my broken heart and the healing process has taken its course. I have kept my heart or what’s left of it - hidden, locked away in a safe place, out-of-reach from anyone who has no idea of how to take care of it, never to be found. Or so i thought. I was on my way to PICC last sunday for the 11:30am service at FBASYNC. From QC to Vito Cruz then from Vito Cruz to PICC has been my normal route most sundays when i attend The Feast. Nothing out of the ordinary happens. But last sunday was in a good way surprisingly different. It started with me having 2 epic fail uber bookings - the first was supposedly a mirage but with an uber glitch a fortuner arrived instead so the driver has to cancel the booking, the second driver was too far and i was running past my 10am calltime for prod team so it has to be cancelled too. Whew! My human side is starting to get the better of me. Irritation is slowly growing under my skin while i was trying my 3rd attempt for an uber ride while standing at Mcdonald’s La Salle Parking Lot. But fate must have it. Out of nowhere a smiling British guy approached me and said the nicest things that made my day. He started with : “what does a beautiful lady with red lips doing standing in a parking lot at this time of the day?” I know i had this silly grin on my face as I inhale the positive vibes that his charming presence has brought into existence in my otherwise dark, gloomy mood prior to his arrival. He invited me for coffee but with a smile and a quick explanation of “I’m attending The Feast at PICC”, i turned down his offer. We talked a bit about The Feast and I encouraged him to attend whenever he’s free as my phone beeped with notification that my uber driver is on his way to my location. He said yes he’d love to experience it then he gave me his calling card and said he’d want to have coffee sesh whenever I’m free. We said our goodbyes and see you around lines. He went inside Mcdonald’s then my uber ride arrived. Wow! I can’t help but say the words with smiles reaching my ears : “LORD, You are amazing!” GOD knows how much my insides turn into jelly when i speak to a guy that has a sexy, british accent. It has always made my day back when i was working at Sprint Makati for more than 2 years. It still has the same sweet magic effect to my ears. I almost giggled my way to PICC as i remember my mom saying several years ago that she’s praying for God’s best for my love life and that who knows, I might end up with a blue-eyed guy as my One True Love. Ha-ha. Last sunday’s encounter was GOD’s sweet reminder of my worth as His Princess. Beautiful under pressure. Thank you Charles for making my day! I still have your calling card but I’m not yet sure if I’m ready to take the leap even if I’m inspired. But as Bro. Bo would always say, there’s no bombs falling so there’s no rush into love. So I’m taking this slow as I work my way to be the right woman I was created to be. New encounters are a marvel of sorts, this I begin to understand. It’s also a gentle knock at the door of my heart. My numb heart was brought back to life. A wave of realization hit me and the greatest of it all is that regardless of how broken, beaten and stricken - the heart will always do its ultimate purpose which is to LOVE.

[darkangel1248]

HEAR MY HEART SPEAK: Of Love and Amusement

From the moment i met you, you seem to be an all-together man, nicely reared up with a silver spoon on his mouth. You exude a quality of charm that some people find annoyingly egoistic and downright not cute. You carry an air of nonchalance that tries desperately to cover how much you care about opinions of others. As i get to know you, there are certain qualities about you that attracted me to know you more. You love your family. You respect time. You placed me on a pedestal and treated me right. You made me feel like i was really special that i began to think that i must have done something good to deserve your love. But just like how Britney Spears song goes, “sometimes i run, sometimes i hide.” And i run really good.. i am good at keeping my emotions at bay, always having the reigns on how i feel. I am afraid of losing control. I definitely wasn’t ready for love. You got hurt. I have no intentions of doing that. Good thing though, you stayed. You got your act together and moved on with life. You found someone else who had the courage to take the leap when i stepped back. I am totally cool with it coz I genuinely want to see you happy. You seem to have moved on from loving me. That’s how your words and actions wants to be interpreted. But almost everyone says you’re not over me - that you’re bitter, cynical and totally still into me. Some even say I was your “the one who got away”.. I would just waive them all off saying “nah, he’s totally into someone else already.” There are times though when i find your words amusingly questionable. Like when you ask me about the guys in my life, i dunno why the hyper sensitive core of my being says there’s a tinge of bitterness somewhere dripping down your words. I can’t help but chuckle in my reply. You try to spin magical stories about how you’ve fallen for her and told me about all those ridiculous extravagance you shower her. I somehow feel like i know what you’re trying to do. You want me to wish i haven’t missed the chance of being loved by you. But you see, you don’t know me too well. I am not like most girls. I’m not easily impressed with all these preposterous things that the world or you can offer. Nothing can ever dampen my hopeful romantic side. I am totally waiting for that magical kiss from my prince charming that would wake me up in the reality of true love. Yeah, i still believe in fairytales. But more than this, my eyes is set to the heavens coz I believe in the author of true love - GOD.

[darkangel1248]

HEAR MY HEART SPEAK : American Con Artist or Not?

I was on my way to work last night, waiting for a cab from Centris Q.Ave to the hub when suddenly there was an American old guy that blurted out, "oh man, it's so hard to get a taxi at this time of the night!" i couldn't agree more coz i've been waiting for a few mins myself for a cab to arrive. Then he asked me, "could you help me?" And i said, "sure!" He said he's a doctor who's about to meet someone in a yellow shirt and pants at Mcdonald's across Centris, that he's on his way to baguio, showed me a baguio map on his filofax and said that he'd like someone to help him cross the overpass and discuss with him how philippine pesos looks like, the color, etc. He said he only has dollar checks and he didn't know that he needs cash to travel. He thought that dollar checks are accepted anywhere. He said i speak good english and that he needed someone who would not trick him or something. In all fairness to him, he looks like an old decent american guy, he has shown me his dollar checks, i dunno when he arrived in the Philippines and it's a saturday night so definitely banks would be closed at that time and banks were closed last thurs and fri for the holidays. So i agreed to help him, we crossed the overpass. We stopped over at 7-11 near Mcdonald's where i described to him the philippine peso denomination, showed to him what a 100php and 50php bill looks like and told him the presidents on each paper bill. He wants to know how 300php bill looks like, i showed him 3pieces of 100php bill, he looked at it, held it then folded the money and said that's how much he need to go to baguio as he was told. I saw it in his eyes that he needed it so i never took my 300php back. I told him though that he needed more than 300php to go to baguio. I told him that the bus itself going to baguio is 450php if the rates haven't gone up with the holiday season. He asked if i have 450php. i respectfully declined. As much as i would like to help him further, i needed to ride a taxi to go to work and i don't usually travel with big cash on me for safety purposes. He ask me how much is 300php converted to dollars. I said it's approx $7.50 if conversion rate is 40php per $1. He said he'd give me back my 300php and call me then perhaps we'd meet again and he'd give me a gift. He got my name and #. He called me spanish girl because of my last name. He said he owns a call center in Hongkong and that i can work for his company there too if i like or he says he could court me to be his wife but with his age he says i may not agree to it. ((Lol! 😜 )) i told him, that it's alright that i gave him 300php and his offers were not really necessary. I was really running late for work so we went out of 7-11, I told him i can't wait for his friend in yellow shirt and pants anymore. I then hailed a cab then i arrived 30mins late at work! 😜 Last night was a very strange experience. hahaha.. thank God, i don't have to explain myself to my boss why i'm late coz i dunno if i can discuss all itsy bitsy details as eloquently as i can write about it! 😃 I shared this story with some of my officemates and i got varied reactions from them. Some says, he's a fraud, a con artist even with all intentions of tricking someone into giving him money. Some girls at the office got so mushy "kilig" about the part wherein the American guy wants to court me. Yes, he may be a lot of things and i may never know if he was saying the truth or not. But for all intents and purposes, i did it with an open heart, happy that i was blessed so much by God that i was able to extend God's love by giving the old, American guy the money he says he needs at that time of the night. I just have this one silent prayer in my heart, that wherever he may be right now, i pray that God would bless him so much more so that he'd pay my kindness forward to someone else that needs his help in the future. Thank You LORD for your amazing love!!! 😘😘😘 #SundayGoodVibes

[darkangel1248]

why ALL MEN CHEAT on Loyal Women

By: Ebrahim Aseem Follow @fuel4thebody Facebook.com/AEAseem IG: @Fuel4TheBODY Instagram.com/Fuel4TheBODY Twitter.com/EbrahimAseem When I confessed to my EX’s questioning of my fidelity over a year ...

this is a very good read to share! c",) as Sherry Argov books always say, it always pays to be a B-I-T-C-H ((Babe in total control of herself))! :P after all, no one appreciates a person who takes shit lying down. Ladies, let's all raise our voices and be heard! :D we all deserve the best of romantic love stories! ;)

[darkangel1248]

"A guy will give everything if the girl means everything to him." - Richard Poon

[darkangel1248]

I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who had practiced one kick 10,000 times. - Bruce Lee

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/96374-i-fear-not-the-man-who-has-practiced-10-000-kicks

[darkangel1248]

Anger cannot be overcome by anger. If a person shows anger to you, and you show anger in return, the result is a disaster. In contrast, if you control your anger and show its opposite--love, compassion, tolerance, and patience--then not only will you remain in peace, but the anger of others also will gradually diminish. No one can argue with the fact that in the presence of anger, peace is impossible. Only through kindness and love can peace of mind be achieved. ...human beings can judge and reason; we understand consequences and think in the long term. It is also true that human beings can develop infinite love.... However, when humans become angry; all of this potential is lost. No enemy armed with mere weapons can undo these qualities, but anger can. It is the destroyer. - Dalai Lama

http://viewonbuddhism.org/dharma-quotes-quotations-buddhist/anger-aversion-hatred.htm

[darkangel1248]

Gam Zeh Ya'avor - Hebrew words that means, "This too, shall pass."

http://www.funtrivia.com/askft/Question20315.html

[zodiaccity]

Dear Aries….

[darkangel1248]

"You have a healthy appetite for a lot of things, but at the top of the list is love. Many people find this hard to believe because they’re blindsided by your "tough" qualities." #ProudToBeAries :P

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Aries I Am

[darkangel1248]

#ProudToBeAries :D

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[darkangel1248]

sO true! :))

[darkangel1248]

10 posts! :))

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Daily dose of love quotes here

[darkangel1248]

When someone treats you like an option, help them narrow their choices by removing yourself from the equation. It's that simple.

http://www.searchquotes.com/search/Someone_Treating_You_Like_An_Option/

[darkangel1248]

Memories Of Pain

*.* i wrote this last 07/18/2010.. :)) *.*

         Nothing hurts more than seeing your hero crashing down right before your eyes. It shatters the very core of your existence then you start to lose yourself in the process. Belief in trust and love were two things that goes down the drain.

         You're suddenly seeing your hero for what he truly is. His forlorn stature invites your pity but you feel a pull of other emotions too. Most of which can be summed up into this: you felt betrayed. His weakness was a dagger in your heart. It ripped your soul apart and it killed your humanity - the only part in you that has the capacity to feel..          ...now numbness engulfs your being while you bear witness to a proud man's downfall.          You see his fear mirrored in your eyes while tears trickle down his cheeks. You can smell the scent of hopelessness inside of him. You can hear his anguish as if he was doubled over in pain. You felt the emptiness that emanates as well as the darkness that shadows his soul.          ...you look at the soul that was lost.. afraid.. desolate..

         It was like seeing your hero for the first time.. but this time you bleed for the hero he once was.

♥_Darkangel_♥

[darkangel1248]

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. - Nelson Mandela

http://en.thinkexist.com/quotation/our-deepest-fear-is-not-that-we-are-inadequate/397505.html