[darkestlight96]

Isn't it funny we used to be eachothers safe space, almost like a home. We placed our memories in the halls of our minds and ran to each other's arms when we felt we needed light. Now we're like a haunted house we remember the memories, but a ghost lurks in the halls now. Sometimes, I want to reach out and tell you it doesn't matter what you did let's just be us again but then I remember how it felt to hear you say you never truly loved me and just used me to get ahead. I wish I could delete my minds memory bank. Highlight the times we held hands and got into trouble together, click file is in the trash. Maybe one day it won't hurt so bad or maybe I'm ment to always walk past that haunted house.

[fagcrisis]

did u have an imaginary friend as a kid

yes (can u elaborate in the tags pls)

no

no but i pretended to

Voting ended onFeb 14, 2023

im convinced imaginary friends are a lie made up by the american media to sell more mental illness so. participate in my research

[darkestlight96]

Yes, I had one named CC she would play with me every day. Then, when I got older, it naturally stopped. My whole family forgot about it. One day, my nephew was playing in my old room and came up to me saying CC was mad because I didn't talk to her anymore and asked who CC was

[darkestlight96]

Dear star gazed eyes,

Is life still an endless adventure for you. I wish I could hear the way your voice pitches higher when you get passionate about something.

Do you still look up at the biggest star in the sky and tell everyone it's that big because of your love for a small town girl or do you turn away when it starts to shine?

The taste of cotton candy was something so sweet, until you were no longer the one feeding me now it makes me sick.

See because I'm still obsessed, normal life has hints of you left in it and it only makes me look for the next hit.

I wish you'd come home, why couldn't you greatest adventure be me? Why did we have to end?

I miss you

The courage to say this comes from the fact that this is just another letter I'll never send.

Forever love

Forever regret

[byyoursideforever]

[darkestlight96]

Somedays all I can think about is the moments that we had, the moments I let happen. At first I feel a rush of pleasure, the way you connected with me vivid on my mind. But then this flicker of doubt creeps in. I realize that our spark was a made up fiction by me.

The dreading about decision hits so hard my eyes get misty

You never felt the way I did, you just lied about it.

Was I ever even your friend? Maybe not friends don't kiss like that. Were you just waiting for me to break down and let you in? You heart told me it was taking a different path. Maybe I was hearing my own path cause my heart was rushing so fast.

All i know is you won. I broke. so much all that's left is broken. Hope the token was work it.

Sincerely your "oh god not her" Turned into "I want her" Turned into "ghost her"

[darkestlight96]

Today

It was today when I realized I truly loved you above all.

Today I reached for you instead of rushing into myself

Today I spoke to you instead of biting my lip

I loved you before as bright as a light. Always on the mind and never resting the electric energy between us but now I love you like a fire.

You kindle my passion, you make me feel warmth and love, you are the reason my fire doesn't flicker out.

Before I loved you but never truly let you love me. Whenever dark hit I'd turn off our light and pray for daylight to come back but now I sit by the fire and pray for you and I.

So whatever may pass, you engulfing me and burning me out or always keeping me alight, I'm here for it for now and forever.

Today I fell in love with you all over again

[buttonpoetry]

“Memory taps a gun to your inner skull & demands you bring back the dead.”

— Donte Collins - “Grief, Again”

[darkestlight96]

Fondness for the color black is something that motivates me.

It's dark.

But still people love it.

They dont try to change it grey or only wear it when there sad.

It motivates me that some day I'll be loved like the color black.

[perrfectly]

[bookworm-on-rainy-days]

[darkestlight96]

I live this big front, strong confident and all willing to open myself to others.

Sometimes I play the game as if it's all the truth

But others well others not so much

Cause All it takes is one fucking word to transport me back into your world when your words are my truth but truth destroys me.

See what you never understood was those petty words you flung at me didnt bounce off like I made it seem. No they stuck so damm far into me that it made it hard to breath.

That something that wasnt even relevant to what you said to me could send me back to our place.

That girl who acts confident is really just scared

That girl who acts happy is really just sad

See you built me to be this hallow cave then when you had enough fun destroying me you walked away.

Now I'm left with an awkwardly tied tounge that refuses to speak out in fear of judgment

I'm left with the girl that sit alone but knows it eats her up inside

I'm left with the girl who always fears she annoys her friends

I'm left with me. And sometimes. I. Dont. Like. Me.

And that's the worst thing of all.

[darkestlight96]

You every just listen to a song and relate to it so much you start crying.

Or ever hit with such sadness you cant help but let it consume you.

Just thinking on paper.

I feel like this is my safe place to write the feelings I never let slip off my tongue.

Late night thoughts of sadness has a way of sweeping you up into the darkest parts of you

[darkestlight96]

You

You wound me more than the eyes can see.

I look fine but deep Inside you'll see

You made a demon the holds me by the sleeves

I walk into your water to watch you drowned me

I know your a chemical but you know just what to say to me

So if this is the end of me please set my mind free

I feel the end of me

[darkestlight96]

Where are you now?

Where are the friends that swore on their hearts they'd always be there?

Are they hiding waiting for me to find them?

Are the preparing themselves to help with my battles? My demons?

Or has there always been this distance between us?

Have I truly been this blind?

I guess the better question than where are you is,

WHO are you

You not the person I thought you were

[books-n-quotes]

“Deep inside, she knew who she was, and that person was smart and kind and often even funny, but somehow her personality always got lost somewhere between her heart and her mouth, and she found herself saying the wrong thing or, more often, nothing at all.”

— Julia Quinn, Romancing Mister Bridgerton

[books-n-quotes]

“Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who just bring out the most. Of everything. They make you feel so alive that you’d follow them straight into hell…”

— Karen Marie Moning, Shadowfever

[darkestlight96]

There is only 3 people that aren't my family that is follow to hell their special people to me I love them with my heart 💕💕

[books-n-quotes]

“Sometimes an understanding silence was better than a bunch of meaningless words.”

— Mia Sheridan, Archer’s Voice