Hey do you think Clara’s body being canonically frozen between one heartbeat and her last is an annoyance to her anatomically? Do you think her hands and feet are always painfully cold? Because she knew she was going to die and she faced the thing that was going to kill her as it approached. The moment between those two heartbeats her body would have been absolutely flooded with adrenaline- she would have been having the most intense fight or flight response in the world and she was frozen there. Do you think people comment that she unusually pale? Or do you think very bright light is painful for her because her pupils are permanently dilated?
The natural follow on to this is how do you think she copes with this? Cause like gloves wouldn’t work if she’s just not producing heat so do you think she’s a bit like a lizard and it’s not uncommon to find her warming her hands on the nearest hot object? Do you think she wears loads of bronzer to look more normal or just toughs it out? And the most important thing of all her solution to the eyes thing would 100% be sonic sunglasses bby
As an extension of this- read this post that I think of roughly once and week and then come back
Because thier relationship is basically the same as Clara and the Doctor's except now both parties can't age or die, so I'd say it's almost
It would all be fine to start with, all clattering down corridors in ankle boots and following a swish of brunette hair as it disappeared around a corner. Clara wears sunglasses a lot, and self warming gloves and socks, she always has a compact of bronzer in her bag to make her seem more… healthy. She listens to music a lot because it’s the only time she can’t hear the absence of her heart.
Clara doesn’t need to sleep but Ashildr does and Clara absolutely refuses to call her ‘Me’. At first she’s like a vampire, she spends her nights reading books, learning languages, playing music. There’s not a hobby safe from her. At first she likes it, she spends her days with Ashildr visiting different parts of time and space and having adventures, but this time it’s *her* in charge. It’s amazing; it’s every worst part of her enabled to the fullest extent. When Ashildr goes to bed, Clara retreats into the bowels of her TARDIS and sinks into her hobbies and her own company. Sometimes Ashildr comes and sits with her companionably, writing in her diaries. Clara gently discourages this practice- she doesn’t think it’s healthy to live in the past.
But it slowly starts to twist. Ashildr killed Clara and she will never forget. She starts to sit at night in Ashildr’s old fashioned sitting room with the roaring fire that she cannot look at without the unbearable brightness causing her a headache, warming her hands until the dull ache fades and then even until the skin starts to turn red and sting all over again. She starts to turn darker in those long, painful nights and slowly the answer to so many adventures becomes death in slowly more deranged and painful ways. Eventually Ashildr forgets a life without Clara, she stopped writing the diaries eventually so she doesn’t even have something to look back on. Eventually she forgets that she was the person who killed Clara. She forgets Clara killed her. Clara doesn’t. It’s only then that Clara gives into the romantic undertones of their partnership and they become each other’s entire world.
They become deranged together, but Clara is worse. Ashildr can forget, her mind is protected my it’s own shortcomings, but Clara remembers it all. Human minds aren’t supposed to hold all that Clara is holding, and the way she twists would make us thankful for Donna’s fate. After millennia of travelling, keeping out of the doctor’s way as best they can, Ashildr leaves her. Very specifically Ashildr leaves Clara because enough of her humanity remains to allow her to escape the event horizon that is Clara Oswald. It’s gets worse then, she finally becomes her true form, a dark force, creeping through the universe like a malevolent cloud. She knows Missy will be looking so she hides, and she hides *well*. It’s takes hundreds of years for Missy to eventually catch up with her (when Clara decides she’s bored and reveals herself) and oh she is proud. Her monster come to life. Seeing Clara’s fatal flaw do something worse than kill her. The act of her running from Gallifrey drained her of all the humanity that made her think she should go back in the first place and Missy gazes upon her with the same wonder as a dying star. What a delicious treat; she cannot wait to tell the doctor this.
@armageddon-generation biiiiiig fan of your post (clearly)
