Spencer Reid ❤️

[darknstormyclouds]

Rest of My Life

Spencer’s Saturday nights weren’t spent like the nights of most other people he knew. Instead of checking out the new bar down JJ’s street, he decided to drive an hour to check out the bookstore that had just reopened after a month of renovation.

He used to go there with-you, before you...He shook those memories out of his head. It had been four years since you had walked out that door leaving him with nothing but the pain of losing the love of his life.

The sun seeped through the curtains directly onto Spencer’s eyes. He groaned as he rolled over to bury his face into your chest only to find the spot empty and cold.

“(Y/n)!” He called out, but no response.

He snuck into the kitchen lest you were making some pancakes as you often did.

He didn’t find you there either. Instead he found a carefully folded note resting on the kitchen table.

The front read “Spencer” in delicate cursive.

He carefully opened the note and tears formed in his eyes as he read its contents

“Spencer I love you so much and that’s why I have to go. I can’t tell you why but just know that it is for the best. Thank you for all of the memories you’ve given me. I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same about anyone else.”

This had to be some kind of joke. Any minute and the moment would arrive when you would pop in through the front door yelling “Gotcha!”

It never came. You never came back. Not later that night, not the next morning or week. He hadn’t seen you for four years. But that by no means meant that he had forgotten you. There were good days and bad. Some days he would spend hours just staring at the front door waiting for you to walk in with your smiling and bubbly personality.

Spencer was drawn out of his thoughts ,HONK,

The light had turned green. He placed his foot on the accelerator and put in a CD filled labelled “The Killers”, your favorite band. Soon he arrived at the bookstore. He walked in and saw that it was quite empty with the exception of the staff and some teenagers.

Huh he thought, I guess good old bookstores aren’t what they used to be.

He made his way to the classics and picked out a piece by Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet.

As he opened the book, he was yet again transported into the past

“Ugh. Seriously Spence? Romeo and Juliet?” (Y/n) teased.

“It’s one of the classic romantics. What’s wrong with it?” Spencer asked genuinely.

“Well for one, Juliet is basically being pursued by a man who could very well be in his late twenties. Two, they have zero lack of communication which is why three, they die making it a tragedy” you replied proud with your response.

“Okay, fine. What do you wanna do?” Spencer sighed in defeat. He had an arsenal of facts to prove you wrong, but from time to time you knew he’d let you win just to make you happy.

You smirked as you climbed into his lap and started to leave purple marks on his neck, ”Oh, I can think of a few things, Doctor”

He was yet again broken out of his trance as he felt something bump into him-no rather a someone.

“Ahhh” she yelled as she fell back. Still within seconds she stood up.

“Hey there” Spencer said with a gentleness he seldom showed anymore. “ Are you lost?”

The little girl looked up and nodded her head causing her pigtails to fly up and down.

“Well what’s your name?” Spencer asked,” I’m Spencer” he said crouching down and reaching his hand out.

“ Diana” she quietly said.

Spencer smiled with a warmth spreading in his chest at the familiarity of the name. “Well Diana, lets get you back to your mommy and daddy.”

“ I don’t have a daddy” she said,”Just mommy”

She cupped his face feeling the scruffy stubble and giggling,”Hey! I know you!”

Spencer raised his eyebrows in amusement, ”Really now?”

“Yeah! You’re the man from the picture in mommy’s room!” She said said with excitement.

It-it couldn’t be Spencer thought as he furrowed his eyebrows. Come to think of it she did look a little like (y/n) and her small nose was quite similar to his own.

“How-how old are you sweetie?” He asked afraid to hear the answer.

Just then Spencer heard a voice he could have sworn he knew. It has been four years but he could never forget that melodious sound.

“Diana! Diana!” You yelled frantic.

“Mommy!” Diana yelled as she ran over to you hugging your leg.

You bent down and hugged her tightly,”Don’t you ever do that again Diana. Mommy was so scared.”

As soon as the words left your mouth, you heard an audible gasp at the end of the aisle. You looked up to see a face that four years ago was your entire world.

“(Y/n)” he said, his eyes giving away his pain.

“Spencer” you breathed out not sure what to say.

“Diana!” your daughter said giggling.

“Look-I can explain...” you started.

Spencer cut you off,”Just tell me one thing.” he begged” Is she mine?”

“Spenc-“

“No (y/n)! Just answer the question!” he comanded careful not to yell as even though Diana was occupied with a toy she had pulled out of her backpack, she was still close.

Tears rolled down your face as you clenched your eyes shut giving Spencer his answer.

“Why- why didn’t you tell me” Spencer said coming closer, his tone softening at your disheveled state. “Is this why you left?”

You nodded as you continued to cry trying to stifle the sobs you felt coming up.

Once you calmed down, you took a deep breath and explained,” Spencer I had no choice. You told me you didn’t want children atleast not then. I knew you would drop everything to care for this child- for Diana if you’d found out. You didn’t ask for this”

“(Y/n), when I said that I didn’t know..”

“ I know Spence, it’s not your fault. I should have told you.” You said with more tears coming out.

“I wish you had. I-I can’t believe I have a daughter” he said with a smile spreading across his face as he realized, “You- you named her after my mom”

“Of course. I knew from the moment I found out it was a girl” you replied.

“Diana (Y/L/N)” he said still smiling,”It has a nice ring to it.”

“No.. actually it’s Diana Reid”

“What? She...she has my last name” Spencer asked filled with feeling even he couldn’t describe.

You nodded before he engulfed you in a hug holding you tightly as if you were going to disappear.

“Can I talk to her?” he asked breaking the hug.

“Of course Spencer. She’s your daughter.” You said feeling guilty of all the years you had kept her from him.

Both of you approached Diana who was still captivated by her stuffed animal.

“Hey Pumpkin, remember when you you asked me when you’d see daddy?”

Diana little face contorted into confusion and then excitement as she remembered. “Yeah!”

“Well he’s here” you said gesturing to Spencer.

“Daddy?” She questioned before her face lit up with joy and she exclaimed “Daddy!”

Her little arms flung around Spencer’s neck as he picked her up laughing.

“Come home (y/n)” he said after a while holding a now sleeping Diana against his chest.

“Both of you come home. The last four year have been absolute hell without you. Now that you’re back I don’t know how I could ever let you go again.”

“Spence- are you sure? I mean you don’t have to do that, we, Diana and I could visit or I mean just Diana. I don’t want to keep you daughter from you.” You said afraid he was still mad at you.

Your were surprised when Spencer took your free hand and said,” When I said both of you I meant it.”

You let out a sigh of relief as you squeezed his hand back. Hand in hand, you walked to your place which was only 10 minutes from the bookstore. You opened the door and showed Spencer Diana’s room so he could set her down.

As he did so, you set out two glasses of wine for the long night of catching up you had to do.

Soon, Spencer was back and you both took a seat on the couch, reminiscing the four years of time you had lost, laughing and crying in each other’s arms.

The laughter soon died down and Spencer looked at you for a while before he said,”You know the day you left? I was going to ask you to marry me”

“What?” You said choking on what must have been your third glass.

“I’d gone out with JJ and Emily the week before and picked out a ring and everything” he said with a sad smile overtaking his features.

He began again,”I don’t know if anything has changed for you over the four years but it hasn’t for me. You’re the only one I’ve thought of. If you still feel the same way you did (Y/N) marry me.”

“Spence- you don’t have to” you said.

“ I know” he said.”But I want to. You are the best thing to have ever happened to me and now that I’ve found you and Diana, you two are the only things I need in my life. I want to wake up next you every morning. I want to see Diana get older and scare off her first boyfriend”,he continued as you let out out a small chuckle along with some tears, “but most of all I want to spend the rest of my life with you. So (Y/F/N) (Y/M/N) (Y/L/N), will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”

The waterfall of tears you were holding back all came rushing out as you sobbed,”Yes! Yes! A million times yes!” Spencer wrapped you in a hug calming you down.

You wiped you tears and grabbed his face as you pulled him into a passionate kiss. Your lips still molded perfectly against his and it was as if nothing had changed.

Pulling apart you rested your forehead against his and smiled feeling like the luckiest woman in the world as you sat under one roof with your fiancé and your little bundle of joy.

[darknstormyclouds]

Shenanigans

You and Spencer had been friends for almost 7 years now. He was there for you through everything. When your first boyfriend cheated on you, when you got your first dog, and when your mom died. You two were closer than a married couple.

But you were more than sure that he saw you as nothing more than a friend, “a sister” he’d said once when you two were joking around with JJ.

You got over the small crush you had on him quite shortly after that( or atleast you think you did). It was better this way. You two had an amazing friendship that you were not about to ruin due to some small insignificant feelings. That was three years ago. And everything slowly returned to normal.

Today was Friday night which meant Spencer was due for the Doctor Who marathon you two had been planning for weeks.

7:30

Spence still wasn’t due for another 30 minutes and so you started to fold some laundry when you were interrupted by the doorbell. You dropped the red thong you were working on as you went to go answer the door.”

Spence walked in and yelled, ”Honey! I’m home!”

You giggled as you pushed him with your hand.

You proceeded to close the door and when you turned around you screamed,” SPENCER!”

The tall lanky man had taken up the entire couch and blanket leaving you with no space or material for warmth.

You went over and shook him as hard as you could only receiving a small smirk coupled with loud exaggerated snores.

“Spencer Fucking Reid! You will get your ass up from this couch and return me to my rightful cushion!”

Still. No. Response.

Okay then. Two can play that game.

You mischievously eyed the tall glass of water on the table next to the couch and quietly made your way to Spencer who was still expelling unnecessary snores from his cute little nose. Ugh had you really just thought that? You shook your head ridding it of thoughts of his little nose on which his glasses rested perfectly.

You returned to your current mission and smiling victoriously you poured the entire glass on his face.

“AHHH! (Y/N)!!! You are so gonna pay for this!!, Spencer yelled as he wiped the moisture from his face.

Squealing, you ran into your room with Spencer right behind you. You got inside and pushed against the door with all of your weight. Alas, it wasn’t enough as Spencer quickly overpowered you and entered the room.

You slowly backed up,” Spence, look we can talk about this right? There’s no need for violence, right??”

He looked up in contemplation for a second before the glint in his eyes returned and he smirked, “Wrong.”

Your legs reached the edge of the bed and You had nowhere to run.

Spencer kept coming closer and before you tried to warn him”Spe-“ Your neatly folded pile of underwear toppled to the ground as Spencer tripped over and fell onto the bed with you right under him.

You closed your eyes to brace for the impact. But nothing. Slowly to opened one and then the other to find Spencer Reid’s face no more than two inches away from your own.

As you looked into his eyes, you saw something you hadn’t before. A fire.

He stole some not so discreet glances at your lips silently asking for permission. You closed your eyes once again and parted you lips providing him the answer he needed.

Spencer’s sweet lips met yours as he placed his hands on your arms and every inch of skin he touched burned. You returned the kiss and were about to let your hand roam loose in his curls when you lightly pushed him off signaling him to stop.

Confusion and then worry washed over his face,”(Y/n), I am so sorry, I shouldn’t have done that- Really I had no clue what I was thinking- uhm I should go.”

You wanted to tell him “No, stay”, but couldn’t as your eyes failed to meet his, pieces of what had just happened digging up the feelings you had long buried- or atleast had tried to.

Spencer lifted himself off of you and cleared his throat as he pushed his hair out of his face and began to walk away when suddenly he stopped.

“(Y/n)”

You looked up to meet his hazel eyes, scared he would end your friendship right then and there.

“You kisssed me back”

“Huh?” you responded flabbergasted.

You kissed me back, “ He said for a second time except slower, “and you wouldn’t have done so unless you feel the same way I felt when I met you in high school.”

Now you were really shocked.

“You-you liked me?” You managed to choke out.

“No. I like you.” He said with a surge of confidence.

“But..but.. you said I was like a sister to you that one time when JJ said joked that she could see us getting together” you cautiously said ready for Spencer to reveal he was just messing around with you.

“(Y/n), why do you think she said that in the first place? All I could think about at work was you and so I told her how much I liked you and that basically how the whole team found out. I only said that because I was scared that things would get weird because...you know I liked you but you just saw us as friends.” He said playing with his thumbs.

“Are you crazy Spence? Of course I liked- like you! I just thought you didn’t like me that way and I didn’t want to lose you”

Closing the distance between you two he said,” (y/n) you’d never lose me. I quite literally have been taken by you since the day we met.”

“Wow for being profilers, we sure suck at our jobs.” You laughed

“Here, I’ll give you another shot” Spencer said with a smirk playing on his pink lips. “Profile this.” Before you knew it his soft lips were back on yours and this time you let your hand freely in his hair tugging as your tongues fought for control.

You smiled as you two broke apart for some air.

“Now lets get on with that Dr. Who marathon!” Spence said the radiance of his beaming smile matching your own.

He held your hand as he led you out of the room.

“And (y/n)?” Spence said with his infamous smirk creeping up yet again.

You looked at him as he reached down slowly to your rug to pick something up.

“Cute underwear”

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