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How much I love you?

Well, you’re the only person I wanted to tell, “you bury me”.

It just means that until the end, you’re the one that I love and I will die loving you.

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It’s still you

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It may sound stupid but my heart and soul knows you will come back

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And what do you do when the one who means the most to you

Is the one who didn't show?

You should've been here

And I would've been so happy

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No one will love you as much as I do.

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Once I fix me, he’s gonna miss me

Or will he?

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Woke up with a good news. Mother is getting married. But what made me feel better is that, someone remembers me. Little things matter. Being remembered matters. At least, having a friend like this.

Now, when you hear Taylor Swift, I hope it reminds me of you.

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He broke my heart cause I was nice.

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You said I’m crazy when I told you about my dreams of you having an affair with someone. Turns out that my dreams are real.

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Everyone’s telling me to get angry and forget you. That I’m too good and did everything. But at the end of the day, it’s you I still want to be with.

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So you cheated? You know how hurt I was from my past. You know the story of my scars yet you still chose to wound it again.

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My dearest love,

It’s been two weeks. That is the longest two weeks of my life. Every night, I try to sleep but I always end up searching for you. It’s getting heavier as days go by. I know, we don’t have a perfect relationship, but I hope you’ll see yourself the way I see you. It’s okay to be lost but let me be your guide. We aren’t perfect and there are times that we do something that hurts the other and that’s okay. We can do this together if you will let us. This isn’t your fault so don’t blame yourself. Our imperfection will be our lesson to be stronger. I can be your strength in this challenging time so please, don’t give up on yourself. Don’t let this ship sink. Your eyes never lie. You’re scared to fail me. You’re scared you might hurt me. But being away from you is what’s hurting me. I can’t do life without you. You are my home and everything. Accept the fact that someone can perfectly love an imperfect person. We are meant to love and to be loved. Give yourself the time that you need. Think and reflect. A man who treated me this good deserves to be loved, too. I will be here when everything else gets better.

I love you, love. Always in all ways. Hope to see the happiness in your eyes again.

Always missing and loving you,

Chubchub

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I always fix other people’s lives but when will it be me?

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Is this for real this time?

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I realized that when you disconnect yourself from me, my life becomes better.

#lyingitchybitch

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I just realized that, my life is really sad.

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Moving Forward . . . . .

My friends are asking me, "How's it?", "Did you two talk?", or "What's your plan?". I honestly don't know at first. It hurts. Knowing that he's about to marry someone his family found for him. On the other side, what can I do? I respect his family. It's also his decision to choose them. Does it hurt? Nah. My heart just crashed into pieces. At least, when we saw each other again, I don't feel any angst. I accepted it. I was smiling. Telling him some random stuffs. Maybe this is the end of our story. He made me happy in the past months and treated me well. I will remember those times when he was still mine.