Drunken Truths - Spencer Reid
JJ was always beautiful but at her wedding party she was breathtaking and every guy was staring at her. I’m of course not annoyed at JJ but it makes my skin crawl at the way Spencer stares at her, like she hung the stars. I want him to look at me like that but I understand why he does look at her like that.
Rossi notices and says quietly, “You’ll never know if you don’t ask.” Before he pats my back gently and walking towards Penny. I don’t know if I should approach him because it’s Spencer and I don’t want to ruin the friendship we already have. He’s my best friend and if I lost him I have no idea how I would cope and really, for someone with an eidetic memory and an IQ of 180 he really is oblivious. He glances over, as if feeling me staring, and sends me a brilliant smile that has me melting and makes up my mind that I won’t tell him how I feel. I don’t want to lose the moments like this.
I just sit and watch the others dance and laugh, occasionally joining in on the fun but I’d rather watch and admire this mismatched family I’ve gained while working at the BAU. It’s more than I could have ever asked for and to have Rossi and Hotch as father figures is unbelievable. I’m staying sober as I know Spencer’s already had three too many drinks so I’ll be taking him home.
“Yourrrrrrree cuuuute!” A familiar voice appears except they’re very, very slurred. Spencer is trying to lean against the bar but his elbow keeps slipping off and he’s trying to wink but the poor guy is blinking instead.
“You’re drunk.” I tell him, adjusting his elbow so he won’t fall over.
“I am in looooovvvveeee with youuuuuu,” He boops me on the nose, giggling, definitely not knowing what he’s saying. To say my heart stopped is an understatement. I have wanted to hear those words for years but Spencer’s drunk and JJ’s my twin sister so of course he’s confessing to me.
“I’m not JJ.” I remind him, looking away before the waterworks start because of course it’s not me he wants.
“Y/NNNN I am in love with yoouuu not JJ.”
“What?!” I think I get whiplash as I turn back so fast at his words, unsure if I’m suddenly drunk, “Let me take you home, you’ve had enough to drink.”
“Okaaaayyyyy,” He giggles, wrapping an arm around my waist and leaning on my shoulder, stumbling along with me as I go to find one of the team. It ends up being the bride herself and she sees just how drunk Spencer is, wishing us a safe journey home and hugging us both. I slam a hand over Spencer’s mouth before he says something stupid and usher him out of the venue and to my car. He’s so drunk I have to buckle him in before getting in the drivers side myself.
I almost run a stop sign when a hand slithers it’s way to my thigh, not dirtily hight but not low enough to just be friendly. I throw a glance at Spencer who has his head back against the headrest and eyes closed with a blissful look on his face. It’s both cute and hot and if I keep staring at him I will either jump him or crash so I do everything to I can to focus on the road as we’re so close to mine.
As soon as I shut the front door, Spencer grabs my hand and flops back on the sofa. I tumble on top of him with a shriek that is cut off by drunk and sloppy lips against mine. Spencer’s kissing me. It’s a dream come true but not… not like this. It takes all my will power to pull away enough to meet his cognac eyes that are glazed with lust and another emotion I don’t want to recognise just yet.
“Spence, I want you to be in love with me,” My voice is shaky as he cups my cheek in his palm, “But I want to hear it when you’re sober.”
“Okayyyy,” He smiles dopily, letting me get up and I wish him goodnight, knowing he’ll find the spare blanket and pillow I keep in the box that is also a coffee table as he’s stayed here enough times.
I shut my bedroom door softly and strip out of the dress, pulling on an oversized teeshirt that I realise is actually Spencer’s. He left it here one night and I didn’t have it in me to give it back as it smelt just like him: old books, cinnamon and coffee. Once in bed all I can think about is the fact Spencer said he loved me and he kissed me. I fall asleep with the feeling of his lips on mine.
To be awoken in the morning by a very awkward Spencer trying to brew coffee with a pounding headache. He almost drops the pot when he sees me stumble in wearing just his oversized shirt and a pair of panties.
“You’re beautiful,” He breathes so quietly I almost don’t hear it except he’s making his way around the island until he’s standing directly in front of me. His hands reach for mine before he hesitates, so I open mine in a silent ok for him and it feels so right when his hands slot in mine.
“Do you remember last night?” I can’t bear to speak above a whisper, not wanting to break the moment, especially when he nods, “If you mean it I want to hear you say it-“
“I am madly in love with you Y/N Jareau,” He tells me and that’s all I need to drop his hands, grab his shirt and yank him into a kiss that I try and pour all of my emotions into. Spencer seems to understand. His hands grip my hips and pull me closer, stealing the breath in my lungs and all I can do is kiss back as my hands scramble for something to grip onto. I end up settling with one hand in his hair and the other balled in the front of his suit shirt, scared he’s going to disappear or I’m going to wake up suddenly.
“I’m not going anywhere.”












