On December 6th of 2017, you have gone, and it hurts to think about, but I need to help my healing.
On that Wednesday, I woke up, as usual, the same routine to get ready for work and I saw a missed call from my brother while I had a shower. As an immediate reaction, I called back wondering what was wrong. And he crying gave me the bad news.
I feel like part of me has gone, and my heart cries and my brain can’t cope with such news.
I put myself together, grabbed my laptop and started looking for the next flight to Sao Paulo. Found one, told my brother to hold on still that I was going to my work to tell my boss and see what I could do.
I walked to work, more to get fresh air, it was not cold with a morning breeze, but my mind was only about the need to go home.
Thankfully, everything was fine at work, and I walked back home and God I was lost. Looked at my bedroom and nothing make sense. I called a good friend that came over like a savior, I just needed a familiar face. He helped me to choose the ticket and pack my bag. Cris, thank you so much, my friend, you were there for me.
The next quickest flight to Sao Paulo was via London by BA, it cost a fortune but was the only option to get there in time for the removal. It was the worse flight ever because I was in shock, and with time all kind of thoughts came to my mind, and I cried alone, nobody there to talk, no hand to hold, no one.
On next day morning, I arrived in Sao Paulo, two more hours until Santos and then my brother could pick me up at the bus terminal.
Time passes, a bit more recovered we went to the local cemetery where her body has been prepared, and people could come to say goodbye.
I will write about this later, but for now, lets keep simple and less painful, I am not able to put on words everything that happened, not yet.
Just like a shoe box, you were there, and I want to have more time. A time that was taken from me.
I will just say my beautiful sister-in-law that God brought you to us family was to hold steady like you did and I will celebrate your birthday with joy and still you deserve the excellent dinner and the cake that we could not have in that day.
The day never ends because I couldn’t sleep.