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I’m a story and lyric blogger. I like to tell stories through music and art, gifs. I love telling people things through song lyrics. Symbolism will always be my go to. It’s what they do in the media industries. Just so you know…

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Codependency… To live for someone else but yourself. Need versus want. My reason, the reason. To die for. A lot of mainstream media romanticize some of the most toxic love tropes. When someone feels so empty and void of life on the inside, they share someone else’s light just to make the suffering in their eyes, worth it. This person is their happiness, their sadness, their anger, their reason. They can’t function without another. A vampire, siphoning energy cause they don’t have their own to supply them. Some of them hurt and love to hurt. Some of them have the worst upbringing. Some of them don’t. No one taught them what real looks like, what it should feel like. No examples, so they find out on their own.

To die for should really be to live for. It’s easy to die for someone, harder to live. Harder to choose love out of want and not need…

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So where are ya?

It's been a little while

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Let the vibe slide over me

This beat is a chemical, beat is a chemical

When I leave, don't save my seat

I'll be back when it's all complete

The moment is medical, moment is medical

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Lovin' what I'm tastin', woah

Venom on my tongue, dependent at times

Poisonous vibrations, woah

Help my body run

I'm runnin' for my life

Runnin' for my life

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Let the vibe slide over me

This beat is a chemical, beat is a chemical

When I leave, don't save my seat

I'll be back when it's all complete

The moment is medical, moment is medical

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Fall out of formation, woah

I plan my escape from walls they confined

Rebel red carnation, woa-a-oh

Grows while I decay

I'm runnin' for my life

Runnin' for my life

Yeah, I'm runnin' for my life

Runnin' for my life

Hide you in my coat pocket, where I kept my rebel red

I felt I was invincible, you wrapped around my head

Now different lives I lead, my body lives on lead

The last two lines may read incorrect until said

The lead is terrible in flavor

But now you double as a paper maker

I despise you sometimes, I love to hate the fight

And you in my life is like

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Let the vibe slide over me

This beat is a chemical, beat is a chemical

When I leave, don't save my seat

I'll be back when it's all complete

The moment is medical, moment is medical

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Let the vibe, let the vibe

Beat is a chemical, yeah

Let the vibe, let the vibe

Moment is medical, yeah

Sippin' on straight chlorine

Let the vibe, let the vibe

Beat is a chemical, yeah

Let the vibe, let the vibe

Moment is medical, yeah

I'm so sorry I forgot you

Let me catch you up to speed

I've been tested like the ends of

A weathered flag that's by the sea

Can you build my house with pieces?

I'm just a chemical

Can you build my house with pieces?

I'm just a chemical

Can you build my house with pieces?

I'm just a chemical

Can you build my house with pieces?

I'm just a chemical

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Since we’re on the subject of twin flames/soul mates. I felt something before. It could’ve been a false one or the fact that we’re both life path sevens. That felt magnetic, like, I’ve felt love at first sight and deep love but nothing with this kind of pull. Watching her talk and the way she thinks. Reminds me a lot of myself. Perhaps this’s because sevens operate on the same wavelengths when making decisions and whatnot. I can tell she was a very troubled person but that attraction we felt, was mutual. She’s adorable because she didn’t try and deny it. I don’t know y’all. Just because there’s a strong pull doesn’t mean it’s always right. Although, I guess we’ll never truly know, cause it never fully realized…

…the connection, the Philosophers…

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Yeah

It's been six days since the last time I saw your face and you asked my sign

I told you mine, I question why, and you said, "Everything's aligned"

On the first date, you told me, "I was your twin flame from a past life"

"And tonight the moon is full, so take me anywhere outside"

I cannot kiss you yet, you're magic, so I'll just stare at you instead

I get insecure and panic 'cause I know you're too pure for this

You're too good for me

I'm too bad to keep

I'm too sad, lonely

I want you only

Ayy, I got six ways to say that I fell in love with you at first sight

I wish that I could frame the way you look at me with those eyes

Freezе time, baby, rewind

Maybe ask you еarlier, "Be mine"

See, I didn't understand déjà vu 'til I met you

You're too good for me

I'm too bad to keep

I'm too sad, lonely

I want you only

You're too good for me

I'm too bad to keep

I'm too sad, lonely

I want you only

I feel like, I'm just leaving here and

You feel like what?

Me and you can just drive somewhere, we can just leave

(In this film I know, there's no happy ending)

Okay, I love you

I love you

(In this film I know, there's no happy endings)

Go to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams

This changes everything

Now I have to set you free

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Have you ever felt attraction and a love so strong… all you wanna do is be consumed by it? Goals and necessities aside, this makes everything we deem mundane and boring, tedious… somehow tolerable. When someone can give and receive exactly what you and they deserve… It’s so, so, so beautiful…

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Go ahead and park after dark

Fallen star, I'm your one call away

Motel halls, neon walls

When night falls, I am your escape

When you lay alone, I ache

Something I wanted to feel

If you’ve been waitin' for fallin' in love

Babe, you don’t have to wait on me

'Cause I've been aimin' for Heaven above

But an angel ain't what I need

Not anyone, you're the one

More than fun, you're the sanctuary

'Cause what you want is what I want

Sincerity

Souls that dream alone lie awake

I’ll give you somethin’ so real

If you've been waitin’ for fallin' in love

Babe, you don't have to wait on me

'Cause I’ve been aimin' for Heaven above

But an angel ain't what I need

Hold me oh so close

'Cause you never know

Just how long our lives will be

If you've been waitin' for fallin' in love

Babe, you don't have to wait on me

'Cause I've been aimin' for Heaven above

But an angel ain't what I need

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I know of someone, a lovely girl who has a few piercings on both of her ears. She’s got the prettiest eyes I ever seen and you can tell she cares a lot about how she’s perceived by the way she holds herself. She’s ambitious and intelligent. Emotionally intelligent too, she reminds me a lot of myself honestly, the way she speaks about ideals and whatnot. I can tell she’s got an insecurity or two but she never lets it weigh on her conscience for to long. Hard work shows results. If she wants it, she’ll have it, eventually…

The Leader & Pioneer…

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Can y'all hear me out here?

Are those speakers on or not?

Yeah, they are

I knew a girl who'd wear my t-shirts when she went to sleep at night

She'd make sure I'm breathin' in the morning

We were locked inside a room, I ate a pill shaped like the moon

Put her tongue into my mouth like she want it

We can't hide this secret anymore

I'm inside, I let you take control

Once we met, I cannot love someone again

Cut my chest, gave you my heart and soul

Wait, where you goin'?

Close my eyes

She said, "I'm comin' with you tonight"

Yeah, close my eyes

Count to ten and see if I die

I knew a girl who saw me cry before 'cause I was broken

I was in Hell, burning alive, how did you find me here?

She wrapped her arms around my body and said, "Don't stop holdin'"

Now start the car, baby, and take me the fuck out of here

Rip my shirt, I feel your skin on mine

This is yours, you can take my life

Drip my words onto the paint

Your knife did not work, no, we could've died

Wait, where you goin'?

Close my eyes

She said, "I'm comin' with you tonight"

Yeah, close my eyes

Count to ten and see if I die

Write it in blood and we both sign

Sid and Nancy in murder-suicide

These are her words and mine

Sid and Nancy in murder-suicide

I'm not watching you with somebody else

In this life or the next life

I'm not sorry, I don't care if you cry

If we die, then we die, let's go

Wait, where we goin'? (Mm)

Close my eyes

She said, "I'm comin' with you tonight"

Yeah, close my eyes

Count to ten and see if I die (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

Write it in blood and we both sign (Oh-oh)

Sid and Nancy in murder-suicide (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

These are her words and mine (Oh-oh)

Sid and Nancy in murder-suicide

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According to the occult, they say a sweet and pure soul, smells like strawberries… Whilst on the opposite side of the spectrum, it reeks of sulfur. Like most demons, djinns and nasty souls alike, they literally smell like crap. There are different types of sixth senses that can apply to other senses. Like touch, sound, vision, taste and smell. Your Hollywood psychic usually has the visions, they can see the unseen or peer into the future. I can smell someone when they think of me, their soul. She tastes just like candy…

Jawbreaker

She tastes like candy

Star chaser

And she's not landing

LA ex is

In Miami

Jawbreaker

冬の大三角をいつも忘れがち

Would it kill you to smile?

Let me occupy your mind

Went a million miles an hour

And it fucked up your design

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(Yeah)

Fuck my life, can't save that, girl

Don't tell me you could save that shit

All she want is payback for the way I always play that shit

You ain't gettin' nothin' that I'm sayin'

Don't tell me you is

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can make you rich (I can make you rich)

I can make you this, baby, I can make you that

I can take you there, but baby, you won't make it back

Growin' sick of this and I don't wanna make you sad

Do I make you scared? Baby, won't you take me back?

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can make you rich (I can make you rich)

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can make you rich

Fuck my life, can't save that, girl

Don't tell me you could save that shit

All she want is payback for the way I always play that shit

You ain't gettin' nothin' that I'm sayin'

Don't tell me you is

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can (Make you rich), make you rich

I can make you this, baby, I can make you that

I can take you there, but baby, you won't make it back

Growin' sick of this and I don't wanna make you sad

Do I make you scared? Baby, won't you take me back?

Down another lonely road, I go

Just another lonely road to home

I just wanna know, I just gotta know

Do you wanna glo? Baby, we could glo

Fuck my life, can't save that, girl

Don't tell me you could save that shit

All she want is payback for the way I always play that shit

You ain't gettin' nothin' that I'm sayin'

Don't tell me you is

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can make you rich (I can make you rich)

I can make you this, baby, I can make you that

I can take you there, but baby, you won't make it back

Growin' sick of this and I don't wanna make you sad

Do I make you scared? Baby, won't you take me back?

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers

I can make you rich (I can make you rich)

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The Master Architect…

She’s the dictator of her own life. She’s intense, it’s always intense with girls like her. All it takes is falling in love one time and that’s usually a rarity. Many have tried and many have failed. I’m not saying I’m special, but for guys like me, I’m the exception. I mean what I say and say what I mean. My direct and caring nature is something she’s drawn to, like moth to a flame. All it takes is those three words and It’s all downhill from there… with the right circumstances, ofc. It always tips the dominoes and it cascades. We love and burn with intensity. We move faster than most normal relationships, even if it was a slow burn. Friends to lovers. For her, it’s a first but for me, she’s the fourth. Underneath that happy and Kawaii exterior is a profound sadness she can’t explain. Cynicism is her MO and anyone who can’t see her soul, misses her entirely…

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The Philosopher…

You're a spark in the dark

And my clothes all caught aflame

You should feel how I feel

When somebody says your name

I'm a car speeding down

The boulevard without a brake

And I want you more than

Any stupid song could ever say

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I watched a movie scene, got déjà vu

'Cause the antagonist looked just like you

It's such a pretty thing but I see right through

You got a dark side, well, I got a dark side too, ay

I don't trust a soul, not even dead ones (Dead ones)

All it took was leaving me on read once (Read once)

You still try to call me when you get drunk (Get drunk)

'Cause out of all your exes, I'm the best one

I'm like mmm, mmm, mmm, I don't care

I want you to know that you can't come back

I want you to know that fake love don't last

So go ahead and pose like that and post like that

I-I wanna, I-I

I want you to know that you can't come back

I want you to know that fake love don't last

So go ahead and pose like that and post like that

I-I wanna, I-I

She said she didn't want to go too fast

Guess the money made her push that gas

Found someone to trade her love for cash, oh, oh

She been throwing shots, I had to catch one (Catch one)

Gamble with my life, I'm here to bet some (Bet some)

Made some bad decisions, don't regret one

Never learn my lesson, yeah, I don't respect none

I'm like mmm, mmm, mmm, I don't care

I want you to know that you can't come back

I want you to know that fake love don't last

So go ahead and pose like that and post like that

I-I wanna, I-I

I want you to know that you can't come back

I want you to know that fake love don't last

So go ahead and pose like that and post like that

I-I wanna, I-I, I wanna

You're so fake now

It won't last now

You're so fake now

Won't, it won't last

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This was her dream. In my visions I saw her. Young and passionate about her craft. Music was in her soul and her soul sang music. Her parents loved her just as much as they loved each other, just as much as they loved her siblings. They wanted to make her dreams come true, support them in any way that they could. She had the voice of an angel and the looks of a goddess. It wasn’t hard for her at all to gather people’s attention online or at a local place where she frequently played. She even started a band…

Despite all of this, she quickly found out just how saturated the music industry really was, with likeminded people. Some less or more talented. Some more or less looking the part. The latter didn’t wane over her, tho she did start to think more realistically. How can I do my passion and make a living at the same time? She deserved the world and her dreams to come true. Tho, they all wished the same thing…

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Touch my body tender

'Cause the feeling makes me weak

Kicking off the covers

I see the ceiling while you're looking down at me

How can we go back to being friends

When we just shared a bed?

How can you look at me and pretend

I'm someone you've never met?

It was last December

You were layin' on my chest

I still remember

I was scared to take a breath

Didn't want you to movе your head

How can we go back to being friеnds

When we just shared a bed? (Yeah)

How can you look at me and pretend

I'm someone you've never met?

The devil in your eyes

Won't deny the lies you've sold

I'm holding on too tight

While you let go

This is casual

How can we go back to being friends

When we just shared a bed? (Yeah)

How can you look at me and pretend

I'm someone you've never met?

How can we go back to being friends

When we just shared a bed? (Yeah)

How can you look at me and pretend

I'm someone you've never met?

I'm someone you've never met (Yeah)

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I know a girl, who’s as beautiful as the dawn. As mysterious as the night. She keeps her inner child alive and attended to by keeping her favorite plushies or stuffed animals nearby. Lots of girls like her tend to do this. Their favorite tv shows or movies they loved as a kid. Dolls or toys and trinkets they played with, now turned into a collection hobby. They’ve seen her happy, they’ve seen her sad. They’ve seen her mad and every other emotion there was to feel for a girl like her. Whether old or new, a part of her wanted this item. It brings her a sense of joy or satisfaction to have them around…

Not everybody’s story is the same and hers’s as tragic as they come. Those emotional support items remind her of that innocence, when nothing else mattered…