βRead, read, read. Read everythingβ β βtrash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it's good, you'll find out. If it's not, throw it out of the window.β β William Faulkner
Discord text thread featuring: Landon & @ancstasio
When: 17th April 2021
Mentions: @aaronhart93
Description: Landon goes to Stas after his argument with Aaron.Β
Trigger Warnings: N/A
LANDON
Landon knew that he'd been a bit of a downer the past few days. It was difficult not to be with the way things developed between him and Aaron. He went from feeling on top of the world; a new addition to their little family, a great boyfriend and in the process of starting a soccer bar with his best friend to suddenly being told that his boyfriend was the reason the business idea was about to be put to a stop. It hurt and the various heavy chats he'd had with friends and others didn't help him feel any better. What he needed was the opportunity to forget and what better way to do that than to spend some time with his boyfriend who wanted nothing but the best for him? It also helped him ignore the fact that his little baby boy was currently in the care of the man who was causing him so many problems. When Stas opened the door for him, Landon grinned and held up the two bottles of wine he brought with him. "Surprise?"
anastasio
stas made his way down the stairs to go into his foyer knowing that landon would be at his place shortly. he was more than happy to see the other man, especially knowing that landon didn't have the best week to begin with, so he only hoped that he could make it better for the other. he's opening the door to his vestibule before opening the front door when the other man had got there. there's a smile on his lips when he spots the other holding two bottles of wine. "surprise, indeed." he replies before he's taking one of the bottles of wine from him, stepping inside to let him in.
LANDON
Landon walked in as soon as Stas took one of the bottles of wine from him then leaned in for a quick peck on the lips. βI know two bottles might look like a bit...much...but I figured I havenβt really had the opportunity to drink since Seb was born and youβve also been pretty busy lately. This is the perfect opportunity to make up for that, right?β He followed the other to the kitchen so that they could get themselves some wine glasses. βMy phone will have to be kept on just in case something happens with the kids but Iβm going to ignore everything else, I promise.β
anastasio
anastasio closes the door behind the other man, being sure to lock it before he's walking into his home some more to follow the other man. "two bottles of wine doesn't seem like a lot to me, think my family drinks more during a get together or a holiday." he replies, letting a chuckle fall from his lips towards landon. "but, yes, it's very important to make up for it." stas smirks, walking into the kitchen to grab some wine glasses from one of the cabinets. "of course, gotta make sure the babies are okay."Β
LANDON
That was a good point. Landon wasnβt new to a night of full on drinking to the point where he forgot what happened the next day. Two bottles of wine were nothing on those days but since Jayceeβs pregnancy and then Sebβs birth, opportunities for him to drink so much were slim. He missed it but his body definitely didnβt. βIβm not going to argue with that but Iβm a new father of two so cut me some slackβ, he teased, watching as his boyfriend got the wine glasses for them. He watched as Stas poured the wine then picked up one of the glasses. βSo what are we drinking to?βΒ
anastasio
anastasio can totally understand the whole not really being able to drink and a new father of two and not really having the time or probably even the desire to do so. he pours them each a class of wine after opening the bottle with a corkscrew. he takes his own glass, looking over towards the other with a soft chuckle and a shrug. "i don't know, what are we drinking to?"Β
LANDON
Landon couldn't really think of anything in particular to drink to but now that he brought it up, they had to come up with something. That's when his mind automatically went to everything that happened to him this week that led to this moment. "How about we drink to us?" he suggested, raising his glass. "To being happy together, no matter what others might say or think." He knew that Stas would probably understand what he was referring to, even though his boyfriend still didn't really know what his fight with Aaron was about. This was his way of showing him that he wasn't going to let Aaron's words and actions get between them.Β
anastasio
stas is nodding his head towards the other after he listened to what they should drink to. "i think drinking to us is a good idea." he replies, raising his glass towards the other. "to us being happy together, no matter what others might say or think." he seems to repeat the other before he's clinking their glasses together.Β
Discord text thread featuring: Landon & @romanbeckett
When: 15th April 2021
Mentions: @aaronhart93 @ancstasio
Description: Landon and Roman have a conversation about his fight with Aaron.Β
Trigger Warnings: N/A
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Roman couldnβt think of a single time in the last nearly 24 years of friendship between himself and Landon, that heβd ever dreaded a talk this much. He was in between his partner, and his best friend, watching the two of them hurt each other time after time, and he couldnβt help but feel like he was supposed to pick sides here. But, regardless of what was actually said here, Roman needed to know both sides before even thinking about how heβd handle them. βLan?β He asked from the doorway of Landonβs apartment, balancing bags of Chinese food in both hands, waiting for confirmation from his friend before he stepped all the way inside.Β
LANDON
Throughout all their years of friendship, Landon could always count on Roman having his back. His sarcasm and tendency to sass people out sometimes got him in trouble but he always knew that Roman would be by his side to support him. Knowing that might not be the case anymore hurt and it was the biggest reason why he was so hesitant to hang out with the other today. He knew he couldn't run away from this forever though so when Roman walked in, he was sitting in front of the tv with a series going on that he wasn't even watching. "In here", he called out, muting the tv as Roman walked in. "Hey."
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The second Roman saw his best friend, the taller Brit felt like he might actually burst into tears. The stress of all this useless fighting was starting to become a heavy weight on his shoulders, and the need to keep everyone afloat was suffocating. It was hard to ignore shit when all of this drama involved the people he cared the most about in his life. Was he supposed to pick one or the other? How was he going to fix this? βHey. Got your favorite.β He sat the bags down on Landonβs coffee table, and then took a seat next to the smaller. βSo. Howβre you feeling? Be honest.β Ro went ahead and ripped off the bandaid, trying to keep a neutral tone in the process.Β
LANDON
Be honest...like that was easy to do. Him and Roman might be best friends but he wasnβt about to forget that he was also dating Aaron. Landon would try his best to be as honest as possible but he would also make sure to keep the insults directed at Aaron to a minimum. The fact that ha barely gave a second look to his favourite was probably a good indication of how he was feeling. βHow am I feeling? My best mate told me out of the blue that he doesnβt want to go into business with me anymore because of who Iβm dating after Ashton called me a traitor. Β Said guy also told me Iβm overreacting when I was upset about it so how do you think Iβm feeling?β Just talking about it was enough for Landonβs anger to make a reappearance but he made an effort to stay calm. Roman wasnβt the one he was angry with.
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Roman simply looked at Landon while he spoke, feeling even more like shit as he was given information, all of which he feared he already knew. He loved Aaron so much, but what was going on between the two of them right now just wasnβt okay. As much as heβd like to be able to stand by his boyfriend, Landon was his oldest friend, someone who had been there for him through thick and thin, and now he was being mistreated because of someone he was dating, and that just...it was wrong. βI have to admit...Iβm a little jarred by all of this as well. I know Aaron doesnβt like Stas, but that shouldnβt have anything to do with your friendship with Aaron, and especially the business side of things.β The actor sighed, and ran a hand through his hair before averting his gaze to the untouched food on the table. βIβll admit, I donβt know the full extent of Aaronβs history with Stas. Iβve known Stas longer in fact, and have never had a bad experience with him. I also just want you to be happy, and thatβs all that matters to me. Are you happy? With Stas?βΒ
LANDON
Landon couldnβt help the way his eyes widened a little at Romanβs words. He was expecting the other to defend his boyfriend and tell him that he was overreacting, just like Aaron did. So to hear Roman say that his feelings about this were valid was a welcome relief. βI donβt know either and that just angers me even more because every time I ask him he just says itβs a family thing and that itβs complicated. So I canβt date someone I like because of Hart family drama he canβt even remember? I asked Stas about it and he told me it was just stupid family drama from ages agoβ, he said, getting more heated with each word. βI am...Iβm very happy. Heβs great with the kids and things are just easy with him.βΒ
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Roman of course listened to his friend, feeling like there was a weight getting heavier and heavier on his chest as the words came out. Landon was clearly hurting, and it was because of Romanβs boyfriend. That was a hard pill to swallow, and it sucked that he technically had no choice but to be in the middle of it. βWell, thatβs all I want, is for you to be happy. And, if Stas is good to both you and Elle, thatβs all that matters.β He reached out to place a hand on the smallerβs shoulder, giving it a friendly squeeze in an attempt to provide a certain level of comfort. βIβm always gonna be here for you. You know that, right?βΒ
LANDON
βBut thatβs obviously not all that matters, is it?β he asked, turning to look at Roman, eyes shining with tears that he refused to shed. βI told Aaron that he makes me happy and he just told me that as long as Iβm dating him then he canβt go into business with me. That sounds like heβs making me choose between the business and dating Stas. According to Aaron thatβs not the case though since thatβs not the exact words he used.β He knew that Roman would always be there for him and that provided some level of comfort but it didnβt make him feel any less hurt over Aaronβs attitude towards him. βYou know what the cherry on the cake was? That he came over to βtalk to me like adultsβ and when I made it clear I was upset with him and why he told me what Iβm really upset about is you guys dating because Iβm still in love with you. I mean...he treats me like shit but no thereβs no way Iβm angry about that it all comes back to you and I.β
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Roman caught Landonβs eyes when he looked at him like that, appearing closer to tears than heβd seen the man be in years. Landon wasnβt one to cry, or get overly emotional over things. This was really a huge deal, and clearly Aaron had hurt him more than the businessman could ever realize. Ro hated everything he was hearing, feeling like he was being punched in the gut with every word out of the smallerβs mouth. Aaron had told Roman that Landon was upset because he was still in love with him as well, but the actor never jumped to that conclusion for himself. He knew there was more to this, that Landon had simply been worn down with every swing at Aaron and Landonβs friendship, and Ro couldnβt fucking handle the thought of not being able to reconcile this. βI know this isnβt about me.β He assured the other, just wanting to clear the air in that regard. βI wish I had a solution here, or even the right thing to say. I guess Iβm just...stunned.βΒ
LANDON
It was a relief to hear that Roman didnβt believe what Aaron said; that this was all because he was jealous of their relationship. Was he completely over Roman? Probably not and he was slowly coming to terms with the fact that he may never completely stop loving him. That didnβt mean he couldnβt be with other people and come to love them as well and he knew Roman was happy with Aaron and Quentin, that was enough for him. Did that mean that he could never be upset with what Aaron did because it would be assumed heβs jealous for Roman? βSo am I. I thought I could be trusted, especially after everything. I mean, Iβm still around after so much happened but apparently not.β Landon was in the same boat as Roman; he couldnβt really see a solution either. βIβm just tired of this Ro. Iβm not breaking up with Stas, heβs been nothing but wonderful to me. Can you look me in the eye and honestly say that Aaronβs been the same?β He knew it wasnβt fair to put the other in this position but he needed to know; needed to hear it from someone else.Β
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βLan, I donβt think it has anything to do with trusting you, though I agree that itβs hard not to take it that way.β The actor sighed, and then reached to tuck some hair behind his ear before leaning forward to start getting out there food since they should at least consider eating it while it was hot. βAaron was making it out to be like it was because he doesnβt trust Stas, but Iβm not quite sure how that would effect anything Β as well. I know him, and he wouldnβt do anything.β He turned to look at his friend, keeping eye contact with him through his question. βI know you two have had a rough go lately, but I canβt give up hope that someday things could be fixed. I have to believe that, because I canβt stand to even think of the alternative.βΒ
LANDON
It was good that at least Roman knew Stas as well and could vouch for him that he wasnβt the kind of person to do that. βHe wouldnβt and even if he wanted to, which I know he doesnβt, he couldnβt actually do anything.β This was something thatβs been giving him mixed feelings about everything. βStas doesnβt actually know that I was planning on going in business with Aaron; I never told him. Itβs not that I donβt trust him but Iβm not a complete idiot unlike what Aaron and Ashton seem to think. I know the two are business rivals so I wasnβt about to say anything before we had anything concrete to go on. Maybe that makes me a bad boyfriend, I donβt know. But if that doesnβt prove to Aaron that I was serious about the soccer bar than nothing can.β Landon picked up the takeaway box with the fried rice and opened it up. He still wasnβt really hungry but if Roman went through all the trouble of getting food for them, he wasnβt about to let it go to waste. βThatβs all well and good Ro but itβs not what I asked and you know it. You know me well but so do I and I know when youβre trying to deflect.βΒ
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Roman blinked at his friend for a few seconds until he reached up to scratch his head. He wasnβt completely sure what the smaller wanted him to say here, he was already stuck in the position of a middle man here, trying to bring peace between his boyfriend, and his best friend. This was the shittiest place to be right now, but he wasnβt about to back out of anything now. βIβm not sure what you want me to say.β The actor muttered, looking down at his hands because he was honestly too worried to look in his friendβs eyes. βI donβt like whatβs happened, but Aaron is still my boyfriend. I donβt want to put his intentions under fire. We all make mistakes, sometimes huge ones. But you still have every right to feel how you want to feel about it, or react how you wanna react.βΒ
LANDON
It kind of felt to him like Roman was going around in circles in an attempt not to give him a clear answer but that only confirmed Landonβs suspicions even more. βNothing Ro, thereβs nothing I want you to sayβ, he sighed, taking a few bites from his food. βI donβt want to put you in the middle and thatβs why I didnβt even want to talk about this in the first place. I just...Iβm the one who isnβt sure if I can trust him anymore, which is ironic considering what he said to me.β Where did that leave them? Landon wasnβt sure, but he was done getting over everything in an attempt to save their friendship. βI guess Iβm not sure what you want me to say either. That everythingβs okay? That weβre going back to how we were before and forget about everything? Because let me tell you straight away, thatβs not going to happen.βΒ
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βI know you feel that way, and Iβm not saying you donβt have a right to. Aaron hasnβt given me a reason not to trust him, but that doesnβt mean I expect it to be the same for you.β He leveled with his friend, looking over the smaller before letting out a soft sigh. This wasnβt going to go anywhere, and heβd already known that going into this conversation, but it wasnβt about that anyway. Landon needed, and deserved someone to talk to, to verbalize his feelings, and who better to do that with than his best friend? βI know itβs not gonna happen, and I didnβt expect you to say that. I just wanted to hear how you felt, thatβs it. I donβt expect anything from you. I promise.βΒ
LANDON
It was hard not to assume Roman would want him to make up with Aaron no matter the cost, not when he and Aaron were in a relationship and he found himself in between their argument. There was even a time when Landon would have done just that. Aaron was in a relationship with the guy he used to be in love with after all and he managed to get over it. But that was the problem. He got over Aaron and Roman dating, the businessman giving away his longest kept secret and...now he was supposed to get over this as well? It was too much for him and, although he was sorry that Roman was in this situation because of him, it wasn't going to be enough this time. "Okay...thanks, I guess. And I am sorry that you're in this situation. I know it can't be easy. But I just can't this time."Β
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βI know.β Ro sucked both lips into his mouth for a moment as he looked at Landon, and then averted his gaze to the ground. He hadnβt come here to make Landon feel worse, or to make anything awkward between them. He knew before he even walked through that door that nothing was going to change Landonβs mind, so lord knows he wasnβt gonna waste his time trying to convince him. It wouldnβt be fair anyway. Landon was the one who got hurt after all, it was his decision how to deal with it. βIβm happy for you and Stas. I can tell you make each other happy, and thatβs all I could ever want for you.β @landon24 April 2021
LANDON
Landon hated that this is what they were reduced to...feeling awkward around each other because of his argument with Aaron. Maybe it shouldnβt shock him so much considering how they were pretty much always arguing but this time it just felt different. At least Roman was supportive of him and Stas. One would think that would be proof enough to Aaron that they were good together, with both Jaycee and Roman saying they were great together but Aaron was always stubborn; sometimes even more than him. βThanks, it means a lot to at least have your support in this. Hart family drama aside.β He couldnβt help that last dig at Aaron, this was Landon after all.Β
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Roman sighed, clenching his jaw as he looked down at his hands while trying to think of an appropriate response to that. He knew Aaron wasnβt perfect, maybe even better than anyone else because he saw his boyfriend in every way a person could be seen. All of the good, the bad, and the indifferent. He knew how stubborn the man was, just as much as he knew Landon was the same way. They were more alike than either would probably like to admit. βHeβs starting to see that now, and I guess better late than never. But, what is meant to happen will happen, and Iβll be here for you both regardless. You were my first friend when it felt like no one else cared. Iβll always be thankful for that, and to have you in my life.βΒ
LANDON
Landon almost said that it was too little too late but but his tongue at the last second. His problem wasnβt with Roman and it wasnβt fair to take out his frustrations on him. It was already surprising that Roman was still here at all, this was his boyfriend they were talking about. βEven if I say that I never want to talk to him again?β Thatβs not something that Landon really thought could happen but he wanted to see what his friend thought about it regardless.Β
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Of course this was hard to swallow. Honestly, the more he thought about it, the more Roman just wanted to burst into tears. If he could have it his way, everyone would forgive and forget, and they could move forward as a family. Thatβs what everyone here in Kingsboro was to the actor anyway. They all loved each other so much, it was hard to imagine a life in which they were torn apart forever. βI mean. Obviously I donβt want that to be the case, but what can I do? I canβt force you to move past anything. Iβd never expect you to. I just wish I could fix it.βΒ
LANDON
Landon knew this was a tough situation for Roman. His best friend and his boyfriend at odds and Landon was telling him that might never change. He didnβt want to be in his shoes, thatβs for sure. But he did appreciate that at least Roman wasnβt trying to force him to get over it or expect him to forgive with no repercussions or second thoughts. βI know you do and Iβm sorry, that youβre in this position because of us...because of me.β That was all he could really offer though as he knew that saying things would be okay would just be empty promises and Roman wouldnβt appreciate that. βI donβt want to talk about this anymore. I just want to spend some time with my best friend and forget about everything else going on.β Easier said than done but they had to try. βThank you...for always being there for me.β
Description: Landon tells Roman that him and Jaycee are having a baby.
Trigger Warnings: accidental pregnancyΒ
LANDON
Landon could barely remember the last time he was so nervous about seeing Roman. Okay...that was a lie. The last time was probably after his best friend βfound outβ he was in love with him but he tried not to think of that day too much. He wasnβt even sure why he was so nervous. Maybe because he didnβt know how he was going to explain the fact that Jaycee was going to have his baby even though he came out as gay a couple of weeks ago. Going in, he saw that Roman was already there and he walked over, trying not to look as nervous as he felt. Roman was probably worried enough already from his texts, no need to worry him even more. βHeyβ, he smiled, taking a seat. βThanks for meeting up with me.β
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Roman of course was a walking billboard of emotions when he entered the cafe, worried to death about what in the world this news from Landon could be. Regardless of everything that had gone on between them, they still managed to keep an impossible bond. Landonβs problems, were Romanβs problems, and their friendship had always been that way. The way his brain was headed right now though was the possibility that there were complications or something with his recovery from the wreck. That was worst case scenario and not something he could ever be prepared for. βOf course.β Ro replied easily, his brows furrowed in their usual worried fashion as he took a seat and attempted to prepare himself. βOkay. Lay it on me before I have a stroke.βΒ
LANDON
Landon really should have known that Roman would still worry even though he reassured him that it wasnβt anything too bad. In reality, it wasnβt bad at all. The pregnancy definitely wasnβt planned and it was a shock to both him and Jaycee but things could be worse. He could be stuck having to coparent with a complete stranger. Or someone who had no interest in raising a baby, leaving him alone with two kids. Landon just wasnβt sure how Roman was going to take it. He knew the silence was getting to his friend though so in the end he went with his favourite method of doing things. Straightforward and winging it. βJayceeβs pregnant and itβs mine.βΒ
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Roman sat there waiting, blinking eyes eyes slowly at his friend like he was completely shutting off until the dead was done. He had no idea what news Landon could have had for him, but as soon as the words finally came out, Roβs jaw was on the floor. That actually MIGHT be the last things he expected to hear coming out of Landonβs mouth. βShe β wait. What??β He squints at his friend, trying to see him more clearly if possible. βYouβre the father of Jayβs baby. How??β Roman didnβt want to make too big a deal about it, but for now his mind was fucked.Β
LANDON
This was already going better than he was expecting. Sure, Romanβs jaw dropped down so much he could catch flies but at least he was still sitting down in front of him. He tried putting himself in his best friendβs shoes and could only imagine how shocked he was. Landon would be as well if someone told him they got their friend pregnant after coming out as gay. Why couldnβt his life ever be a little less complicated? Explaining it was going to be fun. βUh...good question. Well...Jaycee and I used to hook up...sometimes? Before the whole gay revelation.β Landon could feel his cheeks turning bright red but he couldnβt stop now. βRemember when there was that snow storm and everyone got stuck inside? I was with Jaycee, we were both drunk and I guess one thing lead to another and...here we are.βΒ
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Roman continued to stare at his best friend through his full explanation, trying to come up with the right words to say in response to this. Jay was also a close friend of his, and the idea that they were going to be having a baby together was just something he couldnβt really let sink in. βYou and Jaycee...are having a baby.β He repeated yet again, as if saying it once more out loud would make it by easier to accept. βAre you sure?β
LANDON
Landon couldnβt blame him for being shocked over the revelation. He felt the same way when Jaycee first showed up at his house and told him that she was pregnant. βYeahβ, he said, looking while his best friend tried to wrap his head around it. βJaycee said itβs mine and I believe her.β Landon sighed, running a hand through his hair. βThis wasnβt planned...at all. But itβs my baby Ro.β
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Roman was still quite shocked by what Landon was trying to tell him, wanting to kick himself for it at the same time. This was his best friend, who needed his support, and he was sitting here...stunned. βI mean. Yeah.β The actor blew out a sigh and then pushed a hand through his hair. βIβm sorry, I donβt mean to act like such a shit, Iβm just β what are you feeling?β He tried to pry, crossing his arms as he looked over his friend.
LANDON
Landon wasn't sure what Roman was expecting when he said he needed to talk to him but, whatever it was, he was sure it wasn't this. And so it's not like he could really blame him for looking shocked over his announcement but at least his best friend was taking the news better than he thought. Not that he thought Roman would start screaming at him over this but it was still nerve wrecking to tell him he got their mutual friend pregnant and he was going to be a dad again. "You're not acting like a shit, I know it's a shock. Trust me, I was shocked as well when Jaycee told me." Landon took a few seconds to really think about his answer, wanting to be as honest as possible. "I'm...not sure, to be honest. It's a lot and none of it was planned. So I'm nervous, terrified really, but also...excited."
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Roman had always wanted to be a dad, but at the same time, it always seemed so far away. It was hard to imagine being surprised with such a huge step without any warning. Not to mention, it was Landon and Jaycee. He would have never been able to pick a more random assortment of his friends if he tried. βYeah, I guess this is super exciting.β The actor smirked, already knowing he was gonna love this child an impossible amount. βMy best friends are having a baby. This is so crazy...have you told your mum?β
LANDON
Landon had always known that he wanted more kids after Elle. He was raised in a big family and it was pretty amazing so it wasn't surprising that he wanted to have a big family as well but whenever someone asked he always said that he became a father at a really young age and there were some things he wanted to get done now that Elle was slightly older before thinking of having another child. Turns out that he was incapable of having a baby in a conventional way. "It is. Really surprising and unexpected but you know I could never abandon a baby, especially when it's mine." The mention of his mum made him wince. "Not exactly? You know my mum, she's going to be so excited to get another grandchild but she's definitely going to have words with me about being old enough to know about safe sex."Β
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Roman managed to break out into a lopsided grin when Landon mentioned his Mum talking to him about safe sex, the image of that just making him want to laugh. βGod, I can just picture her having the talk with you, and itβs bloody hilarious.β Ro shook his head and then looked over at his friend once again. βWell, you know Iβm gonna be here to help you both every step of the way. You know how obsessed I am with children.β It was crazy, Roman had always wanted a huge family, and yet here he was, constantly watching his friends have kids with no real idea when he was going to be ready to have his own. βDo you want a boy this time?βΒ
LANDON
Landon glared at his friend over his teasing but it was clear he was just as amused. "The safe sex talk was bad enough when I was sixteen, I never expected to get it at almost thirty as well. I'm supposed to be preparing to give it to my kid not the other way round", he said, shaking his head. His mum was definitely going to have a few words for him when she heard the news but Landon also knew that she was going to be supportive and the best grandma ever, just like she was when he said that he would be adopting Elle. It was moments like this that really made him miss living in London and being so close to his family. At least it would give him the perfect excuse for a quick visit. "I know, you're going to be the best uncle to this baby just like you already are with Elle." It was weird, for years he thought there would be a point where he'd finally get his head out of his ass and tell Roman how he feels. After having Elle, there were moments he caught himself thinking of what it would be like to have another kid in the future with who he thought was the guy of his dreams. Now it couldn't be more different and Landon should have known it was never going to work out that way. "Honestly, as long as they're healthy I don't really care about what we have. But having a little boy would be pretty cool."
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Roman nodded when his friend said he didnβt mind what the sex was as long as the baby was happy. Ro was the same way when it came to kids, he just wanted to have a child, it didnβt matter if it was a boy or girl. Besides, Landon was gonna be an amazing dad regardless, because he already was. βI can just picture you having a mini me, i dunno, I think it would be so cool to see what a little Landon looks like.β The actor held out his hands in a picturesque gesture. βYou seem to have those strong jeans that make your whole family look exactly the same.β
LANDON
Roman was definitely right about that. Sometimes it was easy to forget that Elle wasnβt biologically his daughter because she did resemble him a little. He knew for a fact that his sisters were often mistaken for each other so thereβs that as well. βYeah I wonβt be surprised if they do end up looking like my familyβ, he chuckled. Landon was so grateful to Roman for taking the news in stride and being supportive. He should have known that he didnβt have anything to worry about.Β
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βOh, I didnβt even ask how Elle is handling this.β Roman rubbed at his temples, realizing that he hadnβt even checked in on one of the most important people in this equation. βIs she happy about it, or feeling jealous?β Ro knew Elle pretty damn well obviously, but her mood could go either way for a lot of things. Either way, the little girl always had a strong opinion, so he didnβt doubt that sheβd been upfront with Landon about how she was feeling on the subject.Β
LANDON
βSheβs ecstatic. Canβt stop yelling everyone that sheβs going to be the best big sister ever. You know sheβs been hinting at getting a sibling ever since Alison had the twins? Thatβs the thing with Elle and Des. What one does, the other has to follow.β His daughter might be a little spoiled but the sibling dilemma was the one thing he refused to compromise on. It was difficult to explain to a six year old why he couldnβt give her a baby sibling but he managed and getting a second dog was enough to get Elleβs mind off of it. Who could have known that a couple of months later he would have to go back on his words and admit it was happening after all?Β
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Roman threw back his head in a laugh when Landon said that Elle couldnβt stop telling everyone that she was going to be the best big sister. He had no doubt that was true. βGod, I love her. Thatβs worth everything right there, just to see her that excited.β The actor smirked, and then tucked some hair behind his ear as he smirked across the table at the other. Landon was his best, and oldest friend, so of course Ro still had some reservations, and was worried that this would be harder on him than he would ever let on, but this could definitely be exciting. βWell, I canβt wait for this baby. Seriously. Two of my best friends having a baby?? This child is going to be BEYOND spoiled.βΒ
LANDON
Moments like these made it hard for Landon not to think about how lucky he was. He might not have a romantic partner raising his children with him but he had a support system that most people would be jealous of. His biological family were always supportive, even all the way from London and his close friends were basically his family. So he knew that Roman, like Aaron, would be there to support and help him with the baby, just like he was there for Elle. βTell me about itβ, he rolled his eyes teasingly. βElleβs already spoiled enough, add another kid to that and everyoneβs going to have their work cut out for them.β But he wouldnβt have it any other way.Β
ππ¨π¦ππ§.
Roman was smiling the entire time Landon was talking, because he knew his friend was completely fine with his kids being spoiled to death. βTheyβre both going to be spoiled, and you wouldnβt have it any other way. I wouldnβt either.β He shrugged a shoulder, smirking down at the table before his gaze was flicking back up to look at his best friend. βKids are so...I dunno. Theyβre a blessing, and Elle, your incoming baby, any future children you decide to pop out, theyβre all so lucky to have you.β He nodded his head, both dimples painting his face as his eyes scanned the smaller male. βYouβre such a good dad, Lan. Iβm proper proud of you, seriously.βΒ
LANDON
βI definitely wouldnβt have it any other way.β His mum struggled so much to make ends meet when he was a young kid and it was just the two of them. She did everything she could to make sure he had everything he could need but it was still tough. Landon didnβt want his kids to know what it felt like to see their parents cry over another bill they couldnβt afford. Landon wasnβt sure he would ever be able to explain just how much Romanβs words meant to him. Just like any other parent, he had his moments where he felt like he was doing a shit job. Worries about whether or not he was doing the right thing, being too strict or too lenient...his concerns never stopped. So having Roman say that, it meant a lot and gave him the reassurance he needed that he was doing a decent job. βThanks Ro, I wouldnβt have been able to do it without you though. You know that, right?β
ππ¨π¦ππ§.
Roman just managed to give his friend a smirk when he said he wouldnβt have been able to do without him, something Ro wasnβt sure was true or not. Landon was always a survivor, he figured out how to accomplish things when it felt impossible, and Ro always admired that about his best friend. βWell, Iβd like to think that was the truth, but I also know how you are. You would be able to do all of this without me. I have no doubt.β He gave the smaller a small smile, and then nodded. βI just canβt believe weβre here, after all these years. Youβre a dad times two.β Ro let out a heavy sigh, and then shook his head. βSeems like yesterday we were stuffing our faces and playing video games all hours of the night. Well, not that we donβt still do that, but.β He chuckled.Β
LANDON
Some part of him knew that he would have forced himself to get through it on his own but he was still grateful that he didnβt have to. Roman was there for him from the very beginning, from school to college and all the way through fatherhood. Getting through all of Elleβs sleepless nights in the first few months without his childhood friend by his side would have been torture. βMaybe but who would have taken care of Elle for a couple of hours everyday just so I can get some sleep after a long sleepless night taking care of a baby?β Best friends or not, not many people would have done what Roman did for him. βI know...we still do that but itβs not the same. We didnβt have adult responsibilities back thenβ, he laughed. Landon had so many fond memories of them pretending to be asleep so their parents wouldnβt get mad, on to stay up till the early hours of the morning playing video games and eating all the snacks they could find in the kitchen.Β
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βTo be fair, we still act like we have no adult responsibilities.β He teased with a sly smirk, even though that wasnβt COMPLETELY true. They technically had a lot of responsibilities now, and even though Des wasnβt technically his kid, he was already siding into the role of parent pretty quickly. He was taking on a lot more lately, growing into a proper adult, and he guessed it felt like it was finally time for that. It was a hard adjustment though, and those temptations to slip back into what they used to have were all too real. βI love the way life is going right now, but Iβd be lying if I said I didnβt want to go back just for like, a day or something. We seriously had no idea how good we had it when we were kids. I miss it sometimes, yβknow?βΒ
LANDON
βSpeak for yourselfβ, he said, rolling his eyes, although Landon couldnβt deny that Romanβs words held some truth. Landon might have been a father for the past six years but that never really stopped him from enjoying himself and having a good time with his friends. Maybe not when Elle was really young but ever since she got old enough to have a babysitter, it wasnβt unheard of for Landon to take a night off once a week to go out for a couple of drinks. Maybe Β have some fun with someone while he was at it. And while he knew that he wasnβt the only parent to do that, especially considering he was a single parent, it didnβt stop him from feeling guilty sometimes. βI know what you mean. Life was so simple when we were still teens wishing to grow up. At the time it felt like life was out to get us but we had no idea how lucky we actually were. I wouldnβt mind going back to how it was for a day or two either.β Landon loved Elle, he loved the baby that was on the way and everyone in his life but he did wish he could turn back the clock sometimes, just so he could enjoy one more day as a sixteen year old. Then again, he wasnβt above admitting to himself that it was for selfish reasons, so that he could get one more day where it was just them two against the world, with no one else and no complications. But it was just wishful thinking and the sooner Landon came to terms with it, the sooner he could move on.Β
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Roman smiled at his friend when he agreed with his words, knowing he was probably reminiscing on the time they had together as kids. Ro often thought about it too, mostly because this was just the one person heβd always been able to depend on, besides his sister. Landon was always there, through every high and low, heβd even followed him to New York, and thereβs nothing Ro could ever do to thank Landon enough. βHey. We should all plan a trip to Disney world sometime when the babyβs old enough to go. Like, me, you, Jay, Elle, the baby, Aaron, Q, and Des. That would be fun, wouldnβt it??βΒ
LANDON
Landon didn't think he would ever forget the pure joy on Elle's face the first time he took her to Disney World. It was one of his most cherished memories and the idea of doing it again with his son filled him with excitement. Having his unofficial family all with him would only make the experience even better. Landon even thought that he could get over the painful tug in the pit of his stomach every time he saw Aaron, Roman and Quentin together. "I think that's an incredible idea. Elle would love the opportunity to go to Disney World with Des and the baby...well I don't know yet but with us around I'm sure he'll enjoy it as well", he joked with a chuckle. Landon looked at his phone and his eyes widened when he saw that it had gotten so late. "Shit, I have to get back home. Have an online meeting in half an hour. We'll plan a movie night soon to catch up? I miss us hanging out all the time."Β
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Roman smiled as he watched Landonβs reaction to the idea of them all going to Disney world, the idea that he could hangout with his best friend again while with his significant others making his heart swell. Heβd been terrified since Landon admitted his feelings, afraid that this was going to ruin their friendship and make everything theyβd spent years building come crashing down around their ears. The truth though, was that theyβd been friends for so damn long, it was unofficial family. There was no running from each other. βRight. Yeah, I know youβre busy. But yes, absolutely weβll plan a movie night soon. Iβd like that.β He nodded, giving his friend a small smirk as well. βLet me know if you need anything. Please.βΒ
Description: Landon and Stas exchange gifts from their trip and talk about their relationship.
Trigger Warnings: none that I know of
anastasio
stas knew that they both had just gotten back from international trips and landon probably had a lot on his plate with a new baby coming and everything, but, he knew he wanted to see the other man. besides, he got landon something while he was in paris and even got elle a snowglobe with the eiffel tower in it, he figured that landon's daughter had more than enough toys, so a snowglobe was probably more than enough. stas is walking up to landon's door with two bags in one hand, fingers moving to press the doorbell.Β
LANDON
Landon always somehow forgot what a pain jet lag could be. It always took him a while to get his sleeping back on track after a trip to visit his family in London but he knew the best thing to do was to stop napping during the day while Elle was doing the same. Napping only made sleeping at night even more difficult. It was so hard to push away the urge to close his eyes while his daughter was sleeping though so he was even more grateful to Stas for coming over. Hanging out with the other would provide Landon with the distraction he needed to keep him from dozing off. He put the tv on mute and went to open the door when he heard the doorbell ring and smiled at seeing Stas on the other side. βHeyβ, he said, moving to the side to invite him in. βI canβt wait to hear everything about Paris.βΒ
anastasio
there's a smile that finds it's way onto stas's face when he looks up at the sound of landon opening the door. "hey there." he responds with another smile, feet moving into the other's home. he's kicking off his shoes to leave them at the front door, he never believed in wearing shoes into other people's homes. "i'll tell you all about paris, especially because i know you won't tell anybody about why i was there!" stas chuckles as he looked towards landon.Β
LANDON
Landon knew Stas enough by now not to even bother telling him he can keep his shoes on. Heβs tried before and it never worked so he learned to leave the other to it. Landon raised his eyebrows in interest when he heard what he said. βNow you definitely have to tell me everything about it. You know I wonβt tell anyone and Iβll even promise not to mention anything to Elle. Sheβs kind of horrible at keeping secrets.βΒ
anastasio
he was well aware that landon has told him to keep his shoes on plenty of times before, but, wearing shoes in people's houses was something he never did, he's pretty sure it was just something that he had learned growing up. "honestly, who would elle even tell that would spread it out there?" he questions, chuckling softly. "suppose it's not that exciting, though, just something that's kept hushed for business reasons. but, i went to paris to meet with other morello locations and offices because we're working on launching anastasio times morello."Β
LANDON
That was...probably a good point. Elle could tell Des who would probably then tell Aaron but Landon didnβt feel like bringing up what his best friend said about Stas so he didnβt say anything. Especially if it was business related. The last thing he needed was for Aaron to accuse him of fraternising with the βenemyβ again. βAnastasia times morello?β he asked, feeling pretty lost. βYou know Iβm going to need more than that to understand what that means love.βΒ
anastasio
there's a chuckle falling from stas's lips, head shaking towards the other male when he stated confusion towards him. he's shrugging his shoulders, eyes shifting to look at the other, "anastasio times morello means we're launching a line that i designed."
LANDON
Landon was glad that the other male seemed to see the humour in what he said rather than feel offended over the fact that he didnβt understand. Especially since this was his own clothing line they were talking about. βOh shit, thatβs so cool!β he said, once he figured out what they were talking about. βI canβt think of anyone more suited to release a fashion line than you.βΒ
anastasio
stas knew that landon didn't know the ins and outs of the fashion industry, so he didn't see the shame in people not really knowing what he was talking about when he did, so, he was always down to do some educating. "eh, i'm sure there's plenty of people who are more suited, i just got lucky that my parents are in charge of a fashion house." he states, chuckling softly. "anyway, i got you and elle something."
LANDON
Landon wasnβt too sure about that. Stas clearly knew what he was talking about when it came to fashion, or at least that was the impression he always got from him. But since this wasnβt really his area of expertise, he didnβt argue. Landon raised his eyebrows at that, not having expected the other male to get him anything. Or Elle, for that matter. βReally? Sheβs napping but she should be getting up at any moment now so you can give it to her yourself.βΒ
anastasio
stas is nodding his head with a soft smile towards the male, "yeah, figured i couldn't just get you something. or maybe i just enjoy spending money." he states, letting a chuckle leave his lips towards the other man. "let's start with yours, then." stas smirks before he's holding out a ysl bag towards the other.Β
LANDON
Landon wasnβt about to complain over Stas getting Elle something. If he was ever going to pluck up enough courage to tell the other he was interested in more than a hookup, and assuming Stas agreed, then getting on his daughterβs good side was probably a good idea. Everyone knew Landon didnβt date people who didnβt get along well with Elle. He took the bag from him, biting his lip at seeing the logo on it. Whatever this was, it was obviously expensive and allowed himself a second to feel relieved over the gift he got Stas from London. Β Opening the bag and getting the fancy decorative paper out of the way, Landonβs eyes widened when he pulled the jacket out of the bag. It was just so him. From the style, to the colour and the comfort, it was everything Landon could have asked for in a jacket. βThis is incredible Stasβ, he said, still looking at it in wonder. βThank you so much.βΒ
anastasio
maybe stas did to be nice or maybe stas thought getting landon's daughter something would give him some sort of brownie points, even if it seemed landon and stas weren't really dipping their toes in something other than hooking up, it seemed it was taking them both a while to admit anything. nonetheless, he was more focused on what he got landon right now, especially because he felt like he did a really good job with it. he's smirking softly as he watches the other pull the jacket out of the bag, nodding his head. "you're welcome. i saw it in the store while i was there and instantly thought of you, so i knew that i had to get it."Β
LANDON
Stas wasnβt wrong, the jacket was his style and something that he wouldnβt mind wearing, even if designer. What some people didnβt realise was that Landon also spent a pretty penny on his clothes. He wasnβt a stranger to designer fashion but it had to be something that felt comfortable to him. So this jacket was perfect. The irony that he bought Stas a jacket as well wasnβt lost on him. After putting the jacket back in the bag, he went to get his own gift before handing over a bag with the Burberry logo on it. βHere, I guess we had the same thought while shopping.βΒ
anastasio
hazel eyes shift as he watches landon grab a bag, eyes falling right on the burberry logo, he spent a lot of money on himself, but he never expected anybody else to do the same. "thank you, landon." he responds, taking the bag from the other before he's pulling a jacket from the bag. "wow, this is fantastic." stas states as he looked over to jacket for a moment. "i think we might both like jackets, hm?" he states, letting out a chuckle towards the other.Β
LANDON
Landon was so hopeful that Stas would like the jacket he got him. Just because it was designed didnβt necessarily mean that the other would like it but Vivi suggested he get something that he would like to see Stas in and...well the jacket seemed like a good start. It didnβt stop him from feeling nervous as he watched the other open it and the relief he felt at seeing his reaction was undeniable. βI guess youβre right, but a nice jacket is fundamental in New York. Donβt you think?β he grinned. βIβm really glad you like it though. I wasnβt sure if it was something you would go for but I saw it and thought youβd look great in it.βΒ
anastasio
stas didn't own anything like it, which meant that it would totally be a good fit for his closet because it was something different and he rather enjoyed that. the weather would probably be too warm for it soon, but, with the way he kept his house in the summer, it would probably be good for when he got cold or for cool nights by the beach at his house in the hamptons. he nods his head at the question, looking at the other with a smile. "a nice jacket is fundamental for new york indeed." he nods his head, folding the jacket into the bag. "if you think i'd look great in it, then i look great in it." he responds with a chuckle before he's casually leaning over to peck his cheek. "thank you."Β
LANDON
Landon knew the other was probably only saying that to be nice. Someone as well intended of fashion as Stas didnβt need someone like Landon to say what he thought would look good on him but he still found himself appreciating it. Viviβs suggestion actually worked out in the end and he made a mental note to get her something nice later as a thank you. He could feel his cheeks turning red at the cheek kiss but tried his best not to show it. βYouβre welcome, Iβm just glad you like it.β This was probably the best moment to bring up...whatever what was going on between them. The Beckett siblings definitely seemed to think he should make a move and Roman even told him Stas likes him but it was easier said than done. βSo I was talking to Roman while I was in London and he...told me something interesting.β Probably not the best way to start the conversation but he was going with it.Β
anastasio
stas wasnt just being nice, he really thought it was nice and would wear anything that landon wanted him to wear, if he was being honest. his gaze shifted towards landon when he heard him speak, tongue darting out to lick over his lips for a moment. βoh, yeah? whats that?β
LANDON
Now that he said it, Landon had to fight with himself not to chicken out. It didnβt really matter what Vivi said, he couldnβt just say something and move on like nothing happened if Stas rejected him. It didnβt work like that with him but...this was the same guy who barely blinked an eye when he told him he was going to have a baby soon. And who got Elle something from Paris even though he didnβt have to. Maybe Landon didnβt need to feel so scared anymore. βRoman said you like me.β
anastasio
stas hums to himself for a moment, it seems, listening to what the other male had to say. he wasn't expecting it to happen today, for some reason, admitting his feelings and what not. but, it wasn't that out of left field, either. he figured that roman or vivi would say something, the becketts seemed to enjoy to play matchmaker. he smirks for a moment, nodding his head. "did he say that?" he questions, chuckling softly. "well, i did tell him that, yeah."Β
LANDON
Landon wasnβt sure what he was expecting after saying that. Maybe Stas would try to deny it and he would drop it. He didnβt think he had the guts to push it if Stas didnβt want to talk about it. But Stas wasnβt denying it. He was acting pretty calm and rational about it all which was probably the complete opposite of what was going through Landonβs head right now. This was the same guy who was completely calm and collected when Landon told him about the baby though so maybe this shouldnβt be that surprising. βYou did?β Even though Roman really did tell him that, it was still shocking to have Stas confirm it.Β
anastasio
stas is nodding his head once more at the question, chuckling softly to himself. "i did, yeah." he tells him, fingers running through his own hair for a moment. anastasio seemed to be calm about most things these days, he liked to blame it on growing up, if it was stas a few years ago, it probably would have been a completely different story. he really wasn't the party, get drunk and high, Β hook up with hot guys all the time, stas anymore, he liked to think he was more much more mature than that now. "i hope that that isn't a problem or anything?"
LANDON
βNo, no, itβs definitely not a problem.β It was actually the complete opposite of that, although Landon wasnβt quite sure how to say it. Stas was making it look so easy but he was never great about being straightforward at this sort of thing. βItβs just...did you mean you like me in the sort of friends with benefits thing going on or...?βΒ
anastasio
he's shaking his head at the next question, shifting his weight for a bit. stas supposes it's best to just keeping being honest and see where it lands the both of them, even though he's really not sure what could happen. "um, no, like, more than the friends with benefits thing."Β
LANDON
Once again, Landon was surprised. It didnβt matter how many times his friends told him the other liked him and that he should do something about it, it was always going to be shocking to him. Because he was kind of a family man, father of two and Stas was just...different. And yet here they were. βReally?β he asked, before he realised that he was probably giving the wrong impression. βI mean, me too.βΒ
anastasio
stas is nodding his head once more at the man, smirking softly for a moment. he's well aware of the fact that the two probably came from two completely different worlds, but that didn't bother him in the least bit, if he was honest. it was kind of like a hallmark movie, but, like, if hallmark movies were gay. "you do?"Β
LANDON
Itβs quite obvious who out of the two of them was more confident in this situation and who was completely out of his depth. Stas still sounded just a little bit unsure when he asked his question though, leaving Landon to think that maybe the other was just doing a better job of hiding his nerves. βI really do. And I know weβre so different, I have a kid and another baby on the way and we were friends before anything else but...I like you.β
anastasio
stas seems to be blushing a bit and he's trying his best to hide it, maybe a bit out of embarrassment or something. he knows landon would probably think it was cute or something, but, he is stas after all. "we are so different, yeah, but i like that and i think it works. i like you, too, a lot." he tells him with a smile, looking back over at him. "and, you know, um, i wouldn't mind taking us to the next...level or whatever. dating, whatever you wanna call it."Β
LANDON
Landonβs fear always kept him from living life to the fullest. Itβs one of the biggest reasons why things with Roman went so badly, by the time he admitted to loving him it was too late. But, for the first time, Landon thought it was for the best. A part of him was always going to love Roman, he was his childhood best friend after all, but that didnβt mean he couldnβt love someone else just like he loved Roman for all those years. It wasnβt at that point with Stas just yet, he wasnβt in love with him, but he did like him and there was no reason why that couldnβt lead to more. Landon was so tired of letting fear and worry lead his life and it seemed like he was being rewarded for finally taking a risk. βI think...I think Iβd like that too. Youβre more than just a friend I hook up with to me so...I guess datingβs the next step.βΒ Β
anastasio
stas is nodding his head towards the other man, fingers running through his own hair for a moment as he looked at the man once more. he was feeling rather...happy about the whole thing, if he was being honest. it's been a while since he's really liked anybody, especially when it came to him worrying about making them last and whatever. "yeah? is that so?" he questions with a smirk, "i guess it is."Β
LANDON
Landon rolled his eyes in mock exasperation. "You literally just said the same thing yourself so yeah I'd say so." Dropping the act, he moved closer and leaned in for a kiss, figuring it was the natural thing to do after they agreed that they were dating. "Dinner on me tomorrow?" he asked once he pulled back, a grin on his face. "We're dating now after all."
Description: Jaycee tells Landon sheβs pregnant and that the baby is his; timeskip: Jaycee gives birth to Baby Sebastian Beau Davies on Easter Day, with Landon by her side.
Trigger Warnings: accidental pregnancy, mentions of morning sickness, talks of labour, breastfeeding
Jaycee.
Jaycee had take five tests so far and went to the drugstore to to buy five more on her way to Landons house. Elle was at school so theyβd have time to discuss this and figure things out. Jaycee loved Landon to pieces and he has been the best friend a girl could dream of. Picking on one another with mean come backs, with nothing but love for one another behind the remarks. Truth is, sheβd take a bullet for Landon and Elle, and the fact that she was pregnant with someone she cared for and knew was a great dad. It comforted her, even though her nerves were a mess as she knocked on his door. Why didnβt she think it was weird she hasnβt had her period in four months, and her boobs have plumped up more than than usual. With her water bottle she walked in and grabbed Landons hand, her cheeks flushed from the cold air outside. βLandon, Iβm sorry to rush over here. I just. I really really need to talk to you..β she turned around and the see through grocery bag showed the test, and a urine specimen cup to use the tests in. It was visible she was nervous and scared, as she furrowed her brow trying to read him. βI um.. Can we go to your bathroom?β She needed to sit down and talk but sheβd drank so much water to retest for him, she was about to burst. Besides, theyβve both seen one another naked multiple times from the show they were on to recently a few months back.Β
LANDON
One of the benefits of being a journalist was the opportunity to work from home. It made things easier back when Elle wasnβt going to school yet and the habit stuck around, even once his daughter got older. He was much more likely to get some work done in the comfort of his own home with no one around to distract him than he was at the office. A knock at the door brought him out of his working zone and he got up with a sigh. When he saw Jaycee on the other side of the door, his confusion only grew. His friend knew that he usually spent the time Elle was at school working and didnβt interrupt him so the fact that she was here right now, looking frazzled...it worried him. βWhatβs going o-β His words cut off when he noticed what was in her grocery bag. Those were pregnancy tests. Landon felt his stomach drop to his feet and he stared at Jaycee with wide eyes. She didnβt even need to say anything for him to come to his own conclusions because why else would she come to his place with pregnancy tests? In a daze, he followed Jaycee to his he bathroom, feeling completely caught off guard. When he saw her take one of the tests out of the bag, Landon finally managed to get his mouth working again. βYouβre pregnant?β
Jaycee.
Jaycee couldnβt hold it, and nodded for him to follow her to the bathroom. Deciding the leave the door open so he could talk and watch her do the tests correctly. βI have taken fivw tests already that say I am pregnant, and I have five more to double check. Landon I donβt get it..β after collecting a sample to dip the tests in, she cleaned herself up then washed her hands. It wasnβt that sheβd think Landon wouldnβt believe her, she herself didnβt believe it. It has to be fluke or something. βAnd Iβm pretty sure when we got snowed in is when we got pregnant.β She licked her lips, it was obvious she was scared and nervous of just telling him. Walking towards his bathroom, sitting down as soon as she pulled her pants down. Grabbing the cup to capture what she needed for the other tests as well and finished cleaning up. Standing with her hands on the counter as she took in a deep slow breath through her nostrils, taking the tests she divided them up to be opened by them both. Jay laid the dipped tests on its box. βI want to keep this baby, are you okay with that.?β She asked him with panicked eyes, trying to stay strong.
LANDON
Landon knew that the next tests Jaycee was planning on taking would only confirm what the others said. With five tests saying that his friend was pregnant, how could it be a false positive? It was pretty much impossible but he also knew that wasn't the right thing to say right now, not when Jaycee looked so nervous already. This was pretty similar to what he'd gone through with his sister six years ago. The disbelief that this could actually happen and the fear over what it would mean. Only this time he was the father and not just a concerned brother. Jaycee also wasn't the only one in disbelief. How could he have let this happen? Whenever someone asked him if he was planning on having more children his answer was always the same. Maybe in the future. Landon still remembered the conversation he had with Alison when she was thinking of giving Des a little sibling. He understood the reasoning behind it but he wasn't ready. For six years, he raised Elle on his own. He had help from his family and friends but it was different than having a partner to share the experience with. Landon always said that the next time he did it, it would be with someone he was in love with and wanted to spend his life with. And most importantly planned. And now here they are. He shook himself out of his thoughts at Jaycee's question and nodded. Having adopted his sister's baby, there was no way that he was going to be against keeping his own. "Of course I'm okay with that, and I'm going to be involved and present. I promise."
Jaycee.
Her hip rested against the sink countertop, with her arms crossed under her newly swollen chest. Should have been her first sign because sheβs never been big up top. βI know you will, and knew you would. Youβre a great father and I know this baby wasnβt planned. But he or she never could be a mistake. I was told itβs probably be impossible to be a mom, and you know itβs something that bothered me..β picking at her full bottom lip as her eyes showing how she zoned out, knowing and feeling heβll be someone co parenting could be so easy with. βIβm just thankful itβs yours, and someone I trust. And you know Iβm going to always love Elle as mine as well. And she can still come stay over to visit with her brother or sister while itβs my time. I would encourage it.. Iβm rambling cause Iβm so nervous, holy shit Lan..β she cupped her hands over her nose and mouth as she softly cried. βWhat if Iβm horrible like my mom with my own child.. Donβt let me be my mom, please..β she shrugged softly and opened her arms needing to be held and he could probably use some comfort as well. βI have an appointment later today if you want to go. Iβm okay with Elle go if youβre okay with it. Theyβll be doing an ultrasound.. And hearing the heartbeat.β Her voice chokes up a bit at the thought of hearing something she prayed to one day hear.
LANDON
Even though this was very unexpected and not exactly what Landon had planned for the moment, he would never even think about referring to his child as a mistake. He was just grateful that at least it was with Jaycee. They might not be together like that, especially after he came out as gay, but they did love each other. She was always there for him, whether that was a shoulder to cry on or someone to help him with Elle. And he knew for a fact that she would be a great mother who would love their child unconditionally. Landon was quick to pull Jaycee in for a hug when she started crying, murmuring comforting words in her ear. βYou could never be a horrible mum Jay, no way. You treat Elle like your own and you know she loves her cool aunt to pieces. This is something youβve always wanted but thought you couldnβt have...this baby is going to be so loved and youβre going to be a great mum.β What he was saying was also a way of comforting himself. He went from planning on going back to college for his masters to finding out he was going to be a dad again. It wasnβt something easy to wrap his head around. βIβll be thereβ, he reassured. βBut Iβll try and find someone to look after Elle while weβre there. I need to wrap my head around it myself before I tell her about it. And you know that once Elle finds out sheβs going to be a big sister she wonβt keep the secret for very long.β
Jaycee.
Jaycee wanted to comfort him as well, knowing he had to be feeling some form of panic. Using her hands to rub his back, while she looked down at the tests that were all boldly positive. βThank you, that means a lot. And you know if you still want to get your masters then go for it. I got Elle when you need me to.β Jaycee would have offered that regardless, because she loves that little girl to pieces. Laughing softly at agreeing needing to wrap their heads around the news. βI still canβt believe Iβm pregnant.β Her eyes shined a bit from when she was crying, but she was beaming with a bright smile. βWell I guess after the appointment we can discuss different announcement looks. If you want to stay ahead of Miss Elle.β Smirking until her stomach growled causing her to laugh. βI canβt wait to eat after my appointment. I have to fast for blood work.β Scrunching her freckled nose as she playfully pouted.
LANDON
Landon knew that he could count on Jaycee to have his back, just like he would always have her back. She was being serious when she offered him to look after both Elle and the baby so he could get his masters done like he planned before all this happened. He just wasnβt sure he could do it now. When Elle was a baby and during the first years of her life before starting school, Landon was always around. He was present for all the big accomplishments like her first word and her first step. There was nothing he feared more than the baby not getting the same attention from him that Elle got. What if he was at a lecture that he couldnβt get out of while his child was learning how to walk? No, he would hate himself forever if that were to happen but he also didnβt want to make Jaycee feel guilty so he just smiled. βYouβre the best, thank you.β Landon wasnβt expecting his day to turn into such a rollercoaster of emotions and it was finally setting in...he was going to be a dad again. Talk of announcements brought Landon out of his reverie. Shit. He was going to have to tell Roman and Aaron about this. They didnβt deserve to find out from some announcement on social media. After the appointment I promise to take you to McDonaldβs or somethingβ, he chuckled, hearing the way her stomach was growling.
Jaycee.
Leaning against the sink counter she just dazed out looking at the test, then down at her flat stomach. Brows furrowed as she thought how this was going to go, praying she didnβt disappoint herself or Landon in being a mother. Turning to her side she raised her sweater that was baggy over her plum colored yoga pants, looking from the mirror to her stomach and yeah she was bloating but she thought it was going to be a painful period. Tiniest little bump was evident but only if you really knew how small Jaycee was. βHey Iβll take McDonaldβs. Chocolate shake sounds really good right now.β She spoke while she dropped her sweater, blushing a bit. Probably looking like a weirdo looking at her stomach, or thinking sheβll freak out over gaining weight. And to be honest she was a little, but sheβs stronger and would never ruin a chance to be a mom. βAre you okay?β She asked him in a soft tone, knowing she just fastened a seatbelt to a crazy ride for him. βI know itβs a lot.. I am still not sure if itβs true and probably wonβt until the doctors appointment.β She pulled the ends of her sweater to bunch them up into her fisted hands as she laughed softly.
LANDON
Landon looked on as his friend lifted her sweater and looked down at her stomach. This might not be the first time Landon found himself about to raise a child, but it was a completely different situation then it was with Elle. With Elle it was a completely different experience because his sister was the one who was pregnant and she never showed any interest in being the one to raise her. As much as he loves his sister, Landon never quite managed to figure out how she kept herself so detached from the situation and from the baby growing inside her. Once Elle was born, his sister signed over her custody to him and took on the role of fun aunt without a second thought. It wasnβt going to be the same this time as Jaycee was obviously going to be a very big part and it left Landon wondering about what he should be doing. Was he supposed to act like a doting father to me to his partner even though he and Jaycee werenβt together? Hopefully he would get more than enough time to come to figure it out and get used to the idea. βYeah Iβm fine. Itβs just...quite a situation and unexpected. This isnβt how I thought Iβd have my second child but it is what it is.β He knew the chances that more than five pregnancy tests were wrong were slim but he didnβt say anything. If that thought reassured Jaycee, then he wasnβt about to ruin it.
Jaycee.
βItβs not how Iβd picture having my first child. Neither of us planned this, and some how or some way we will figure it out. Weβre friends before anything and Elle and this Baby Β comes first.β She didnβt know what to expect, but she was definitely trying to hide she was upset. Holy hormones! Walking out of the bathroom after she cleaned up the mess she had made. Disinfecting the counter top was the least she could do, for getting upset and causing a scene. Uncrossing her arms from under her chest she held her hands up and looked up at him. βIβm sorry, thatβs now the right way to speak to you. I donβt doubt you want to be in this babies life, and I know youβd want to be part of everything. So if you want to discuss living arrangements we can. Iβd have my own room of course, and we can decorate both nurseries. Yours first, like I said earlier. Iβm just repeating myself, yeah?β She pressed two fingers to each temple and massaged. βI just believe you and I could make this work. I donβt expect you to want to be with me just because. And I trust youβre not going to bring just anyone into our childβs life, unless you trusted them. Because Iβve seen you with Elle, so in a way maybe it was meant to happen this way. I canβt think of my baby as a mistake.. I know that much..β she laughed softly, before placing her hand to her neck to massage it. Her other hand going to her mouth as she yawned. βSorry, Iβm just so tired. I think Iβm going to take a vacation as we figure things out, and my body adjusts to these hormones.β
LANDON
Landon wasnβt sure what he said to upset Jaycee. He was supportive and had every intention of helping raise this baby, but he didnβt think he could be blamed for being shocked. Itβs not like they planned this and now all of a sudden he found himself about to become a dad again. He was caught off guard but Landon also knew that saying all that would just make things worse if his friend was already upset with him. So while he would usually argue at being talked to like that, he knew that keeping calm was key right now so he just tried his best to smile. βExactly, Elle and the baby come first. Iβm glad weβre in agreement.β If there was something he wouldnβt settle for was for his daughter to be made to feel like lesser to the baby but he knew that Jaycee would never do that. She loved Elle too much. βWe will make this work and Iβm going to be with you every step of the way. And you know that I donβt bring just anyone around Elle so Iβll do the same with our baby. I never said this baby was a mistake Jay, no child of mine could ever be a mistake. All I said was that it was unexpected and you canβt really tell me it wasnβt. That doesnβt mean Iβm...upset about it, or anything like that.β Landon wished there was something he could say that would help the girl feel a little better about it all, but he wasnβt sure what that was. βWeβre going to be okay...I promise.βΒ
Jaycee.
Hearing him out and speaking she felt like such an ass, Landon of all people. Someone sheβs known for years and knew very well would never feel how her fears were screaming at her. Sitting on the end of his bed she sighed softly, before catching herself yawn. Placing her hands to her face as she shook her head, apologizing. βLan..β she looked up at him with pure apologetic eyes, tears threatening to fall. βIβm so sorry if I was mean, holy shit what was that?β She gasped with her hand on her chest, trying to calm herself down a bit. Taking in slow breaths, before exhaling slower to relax her anxiety of the day. βI know all of that and I know you know Elle is just as equal to me. I think I just panicked and wanted you to know everything.β Two single tears fell from each eye as she sniffled a bit, while she looked down at her hands bunched up in her oversized sweater. βYou know know..β she looked up smiling softly. βElle is going to be the best big sister there is..β she imagined her excitement in wanting to hold her sibling for the first time, was something sheβd be sure to catch not only for Landon but itβs a memory she wants for herself too. Using her sweater as she cleared her face up, she walked up to her friend and just hugged him. She needed it and she trusted his promises. βDid you know morning sickness is NOT morning sickness? Iβd like to slap whoever came up with that term.β She tried to joke as she looked up at her sweet friend, now father of their child. Together, their family will no doubt be filled with laughter and fun. βI am hoping peppermint yeah I got will help, but then I get such heartburn after drinking it.β She laughed softly.Β
LANDON
Landon didnβt hold it personally. When his sister was pregnant with Elle, he lost count of how many times she was close to snapping his head off over an innocent comment he made which she took personally. It was all part of the experience and the joys of being around a pregnant woman. Not that he was about to tell Jaycee that, he valued his life thank you very much. So he just smiled and shrugged good naturedly, which only turned more sympathetic when he noticed that she was crying. βHey, itβs okayβ, he mumbled, squeezing her comfortingly. βIβve got thick skin and I know better than to get insulted over something like that.β If there was one thing he was grateful for, it was that he wouldnβt have to ever experience morning sickness himself. It was no secret that the name was very misleading and it wasnβt only experienced in the morning. βMy sister used to swear by ginger tea and saltines. If youβre lucky, it might even help you avoid getting heartburn. Although I wouldnβt blame you if you donβt want to try, ginger teaβs disgusting.βΒ
Jaycee.
Nodding her head, sniffling as he assured her it was okay. βI just, I wouldnβt ever talk to you like that. I know weβre both mentally freaking out and thatβs okay..β Jay scrunched her nose at the idea of ginger tea, but sheβd try anything natural and safe. It was dangerous to have morning sickness so much. Not only for her and the baby, but her past as well. Thankfully sheβs strong and has a powerful group surrounding her, reminding her theyβre her family. βI will give any a try, maybe pick some up after the appointment?β She asked with a soft tone,smiling. Reaching for her pink water bottle the entire dance crew had, she took a sip of water. Drinking her water as if sheβd been dying of thirst, without being messy. βI swear I go through double waters bottles a day now.β She laughed softly, trying to stay hydrated with morning sickness was important and sheβs always been self conscious of what she puts in her body. βYou know I have nausea meds from when I.. well you know the past. And Google says theyβre safe. But, this might be the only child I ever get a chance to carry and Iβm just so protective already. Besides Iβd want your opinion on anything like that too.β She spoke with her hands, her phone went off and she saw it was and email making her smile. She opened it and saw the head shots for the girls came in and showed him. βThose two are going to keep us all stressed. Theyβre so precious.β She leans in to look at them again. βElle and Destinyβs head shots will be the models of dance for the studio. So when you walk in thereβs my girls.β Her eyes lit up as she spoke about the girls and the dance academy.Β
LANDON
βItβs okay, really...I know itβs a stressful time for both of us.β Landon wasnβt about to take it personally. This was a shock for both of them but he couldnβt even begin to imagine what it was like for Jaycee, finding yourself pregnant after being sure that wouldnβt ever happen for you...that wasnβt something Landon could ever relate to. So he was going to do anything he could to help out and make the experience a little more bearable, even if it meant buying shitty ginger tea that was never ever going to drink himself and keeping it in his cupboard. He could understand her feeling of protectiveness towards the baby. Having just found out about the babyβs existence, he already felt like he loved them so he couldnβt even imagine what it felt like for Jaycee. But he wasnβt about to force his friend to feel like shit over an opinion that he wasnβt really entitled to anyways. After all, he wasnβt the one suffering from constant nausea. βMaybe check with the doctor while weβre at the appointment to make sure? If you get their go ahead then I donβt see why you shouldnβt take them, especially if they help you outβ, he reasoned. Landon looked at the photos on Jayceeβs phone, a fond smile on his face. He loved those two girls with all his heart and it was heartwarming to see Jaycee love them just as much. This is what he meant when he said his friends in Kingsboro were like his family. βTheyβre going to get really big heads if you keep spoiling them like that.β The smile on his face made it obvious he was only teasing though.Β
Jaycee.
Leaning her head against his shoulder, instant calm at how assuring he was. He always calmed her nerves in the craziest of situations. She was so nervous joining the show with him and Aaron but Landon was just so easy to get along with, with her at least. Anyone was to say otherwise sheβd ask them what they did, no Landon. βYeah Iβll ask the doctor, cause Iβm scared Iβd the ginger tea tastes as bad as you say it does. It wonβt help me.β She giggled softly as she saw his face light up looking at the girls, those two ruled their world and they knew it. βThey already know they control our lives, and we just added to it.β She bumped his shoulder playfully, before putting her phone in her back pocket. βI just want them to always be confident in themselves, not just their beauty. So I was adamant on them shooting while doing their leaps and warm ups. Of course they had to be little divas. But those head shots are basically for you and Landon. Iβm just proud.β She smirked, shrugging her shoulders. Placing the flat of her hand her upper stomach as she felt a cold flush run over her, then got really hot. Holding her other hand to her mouth she walked fast to the bathroom and rushed before she threw up on his floor. Her long hair to the side, hoping none got in the toilet, (thankfully none did cause ew) she flushed it and rested her cheek on the cold porcelain and closed her eyes. βIβm surprised I lasted as long as I did before that happened..β she tried to joke, but wasnβt completely sure if she wasnβt going to sick again.Β
ββββTime Skip ββββ
Jaycee.
After being woken up at 3 am with her water breaking. She was so scared but Landon had been the best coach she could have ever asked for. From feeding her ice chips, to using a cool washcloth on her forehead to keep her cool. When they got there she was dilated to a five and they gave her an epidural as soon as she was in their room. It was going so fast she never let go of his hand until they were able to sleep for a few hours before it was time to push. And it was as if it all was a blur once they placed their son on her chest, Jaycee looked up at Landon crying in a sweaty tired mess. βHeβs here.. heβs so beautiful.. Hey so youβre the little dude that kicked all the timeβ she leaned her head against Landons smiling, but tired from all the pushing. They took him to weigh him and make sure he was all good before handing him to Landon, bundled up. It was a moment sheβll never forget, watch him take in his son. βHe looks so much like you.β She was still a crying mess, but she laughed. The baby wrapping his tiny hand around Landons finger, as he pouted a bit.
LANDON
It was almost like time stopped having any meaning from the moment he got the text from Jaycee at 3am, who he thought was sleeping in the other room, to tell him her waters broke. From getting dressed, to texting everyone that the baby was coming so Elle wouldnβt be left sleeping on her own, it wasnβt hard to believe that he completely lost track of time. The benefit of having to drive to the hospital so early in the morning was that the usual Kingsboro traffic was pretty much non-existent and pretty soon they were being admitted to their private room. With Jaycee being dilated to five, Landon encouraged her to get some sleep after the epidural was administered. It was going to be a very tiring process and his friend needed all the sleep she could get. The plan wasnβt for him to fall asleep as well, sitting in the chair next to the bed and holding Jayceeβs hand but having not gotten any sleep at all before getting the girlβs text, and rushing around to get everything for the unexpected labour, maybe it wasnβt that surprising that he ended up drifting off for a few hours as well. Landon tried his best to be supportive to Jaycee throughout the labour. He fed her ice chips to make sure she didnβt get dehydrated and cooled her face down with a washcloth every time it seemed like it was getting to be too much. The situation was completely different than when his sister gave birth to Elle but one thing that was exactly the same was the helplessness he felt at seeing someone he cared about going through so much pain in order to bring to life his child. All he could do was to be a supportive and encouraging presence for Jaycee. The emotions that went through him as soon as his son was born and placed on Jayceeβs chest was indescribable. That was his boy. His son. It was both surreal and one of the most beautiful moments of his life. βLook at himβ, he whispered, in awe at the sight in front of him.
One of his biggest worries after finding out about Jayceeβs pregnancy was that he would never be able to love his son as much as he loved Elle. How was it possible, when Elle was his whole world and had been for six years? It seemed impossible to think that he could hold so much love in his heart. It wasnβt something he ever told Jaycee because he didnβt want to worry her and was glad he didnβt. Because the moment the nurse handed him his son to hold, all bundled up and a small finger wrapped around his, Landon was hooked. Itβs true what people say, the moment another child is born your heart grows a little more to make space for another. His baby was barely a few minutes long and Landon already felt like he would do anything for him. βHey Baby Sβ, he cooed, tears streaming down his face and yet still able to make reference to the joke him and Jaycee had going on. He walked closer to the bed and sat down so that Jaycee would be able to get a closer look at their son. βLook angel, thatβs mummy.βΒ
Jaycee.
Look at him, and the way he just kept looking at his dad was enough to bring more tears. Jay was exhausted and honestly wouldnβt have made it through without how he comforted her. After they got her fixed up and comfortably resting on an ice pack, thankful that she was still numb. The doctor congratulated Landon and handed him a pack of cigars, as they let them know the lactation nurse would be in soon. Scooting over so he could sit better the best she could. βHey my sweet little miracle, look at you.β She cooed, sniffling. The moment he was on her chest, Jaycee was so helplessly in love with their son. Looking into Landons eyes, both of them a teary mess, her chin trembled. βThank you for giving me the best gift there is.β Her voice broke, her eyes filled with so much love and joy. Watching her best friend hold their son was something else. Jaycees eyes were heavy as the days of not sleeping weighed on her, but she was trying so hard to fight it. βI canβt stop staring at him, heβs.. Perfect. Our little Easter Bunny.β She ran the tip of her pointer finger over his nose. βHe is definitely playing by his own rules, already.β She joked sleepily as the lactation nurse came in, and helped Jaycee learn how to hold him right and he latched right away. The nurse gushing how amazing he was doing and that she wasnβt even needed. Of course Jaycees heart swelled when she said that, but she just watched him in awe. Bonding even more over feeding him, gently caressing his head. βI love you so much, every breath I take is for you. I will love you beyond my last breath.β Tears still flowing, as she laughed a bit. Still in awe and shock he was in her arms, nursing. Once he was done and she was able to burp him, handing him back to his daddy. βYou ready to go see daddy again, I know he canβt get enough of you either.β She felt so happy and drowsy. βIf I fall asleep Iβm sorry in advance.β She joked knowing better.
LANDON
This was one of the most emotional moments of Landonβs life so he couldnβt even begin to imagine what it felt like for Jaycee. His friend thought sheβd never get to have something like this and now here they were, looking down at their son. Jaycee was right in calling him their little miracle. βThank youβ, he said, voice breaking as he got emotional again. If someone had told him a year ago that he would be here, looking at his son with Jaycee right there with him, he would have laughed. Now he couldnβt imagine his life any other way. Landon watched with a fond smile as Jaycee fed their son and then took him back in his arms once he was done. βI canβt believe youβre even apologising. You literally just gave birth Jay, Iβd be worried if you werenβt sleepingβ, he said, although his eyes barely left their babyβs face. βGet some sleep love, weβll be right here when you wake up.βΒ
Jaycee.
Jaycee couldnβt say anything when he thanked her back, all she could do was nod as she choked up. The baby was making the cutest noises as he stretched and yawned. βI think he thinks itβs nap time too, look at you taking all the credit.β She joked, leaning over to kiss their son on his head, as a tear slid down her cheek. βYou should get some sleep too, lord knows Iβm not big enough for this bed to take it all up. If you decide to chill with him in your arms and watch tv you wonβt bother me.β She a assured him, turning on her side to face them but giving him enough room to be able to lay on his side or back. Not even remembering when she fell asleep for a good four hours before she popped her eyes opened, looking around. And smiled when she saw the baby resting on Landons chest and theyβre out. The nurse came to check on her and the baby quietly helping her to the bathroom. About 30 minutes passes when she emerges showered in her nursing gown she got with its matching floral robe, and fluffy slippers, feeling more alert and fresh. Gently crawling into the bed, wincing a bit.
Description:Β Before going to the airport for their trip to London, Landon makes a quick detour at Stasβ place to tell him Jayceeβs pregnant and that the baby is his.Β
Trigger Warnings:Β nothing, I thinkΒ
LANDON
Landon wasn't planning on making any detours before going to the airport to catch their flight. They were very early but Elle was so excited about going to London to visit grandma that they were ready a lot sooner than he would be if he was going on his own. His daughter wasn't amused when he said that he needed to make a quick stop to talk to a friend first but promising to let her watch a couple of YouTube videos while he talked to Stas worked a charm. Landon knew that wasn't exactly star parenting but he really needed to talk to his...friend, fuck buddy, something more? With Stas leaving for Paris before he got back from London, that didn't leave him with many options and this was something the other needed to hear from him. Him and Jaycee were going to announce the pregnancy at some point and he wanted the people he was close with to hear it from him. He knocked at the door and smiled when the other answered. "Sorry, it's so last minute." And strange. It wasn't every day that he hung out with Stas with his daughter there.
anastasio
stas seemed to have been running all over his house since he got home last night, having to pack a few bags to leave for paris sometime that day because he had some morello business to do for his parents and probably for the launch of his own morello line in the future that he was secretly working on. he had to make sure he had the right clothes and all of his work things in order and packed, which was why he was up early. he knew landon was coming over, for what? he had no idea, but he knew that he'd be glad to see landon, he was always glad to see landon. he's running down the steps of his home when he hears the knock on his door, knowing that it was landon there. he's walking into his foyer, opening the door to the vestibule before opening the front door to welcome there. "hey, no problem." he states, motioning both of them inside.
LANDON
Landon followed him inside and got Elle settled with his phone and a playlist of her favourite videos. He could tell that Stas was busy so he was even more grateful that he was taking the time to talk to him at the last minute. "Is there somewhere we can talk a little more privately?" His daughter knew that she was going to be a big sister but this still wasn't something that he wanted to do in front of her. So he followed him to another room and tried not to look as nervous as he felt. They weren't together or anything like that. On the contrary, they both had the tendency to insist they were just friends but it was still going to be a shocking announcement. "So...here's the thing. You know Jaycee right?" What a stupid question. Somehow this was even harder than when he told Roman and Aaron. "There was this holiday party last December, we were both drunk and...hooked up. Now she's pregnant."
anastasio
stas let's landon get his daughter settled somewhere in the living room once they were in the house, nodding his head at the question. "um, yeah, we could go into my office over there." he points to the french doors before he's leading landon inside, shutting the door over, but not all of the way, just in case they needed to listen for elle. "sorry it's a mess in here, been working on some stuff and trying to figure out what i need to take with me for meetings and whatever." he states, chuckling for a moment before he's leaning against the desk, looking towards landon. stas is nodding his head as he listened to landon, smiling softly. "really?" stas questioned before he smirks softly. "that great, lan, i'm happy for you."Β
LANDON
Landon was never the sort of person to comment about other people's mess. His office was a disaster most of the times and he was the only one who could find anything in it so this wasn't anything he wasn't used to. That, and he had other things to worry about at the moment. He wasn't sure what sort of reaction he was expecting from the other but it definitely wasn't something so...calm. It caught him off guard and left him staring at Stas with wide eyes, almost like he was waiting for the other shoe to drop. "Thank you?" It came out sounding more like a question than a statement.
anastasio
he's sure most people wouldn't care about the office being much of a mess, but stas figured that he just cared too much about how he presented himself. there's a chuckle falling from his lips, fingers reaching up to push some of his hair back as he looked towards landon, mostly confused by the male's response to him. "i don't know if you were expecting a different response." he smirks softly, shrugging once more. "you having another kid isn't going to change what i think about you or, uh, how i feel about you for that matter." he tells landon, shrugging once more.Β
LANDON
Landon wasnβt expecting screaming or tears but he also didnβt think Stas would react so calmly. His words were enough for him to relax slightly. What his friend meant by what he felt about him, he didnβt know, but the fact that he wasnβt judging him for getting his friend pregnant after a hookup was enough for him. Landon wasnβt sure what was going on between him and Stas other than the obvious but at least now he would still have a chance to figure it out. He didnβt ruin things, thatβs all he could really ask for. βI donβt know what I was expecting. Everyone Iβve told so far was so shocked that I figured youβd react similarly.β
anastasio
stas didn't see any reason to be indifferent or not react so shocked or anything about the idea of landon having a child with somebody that he hooked up with months ago. shit happens and he was a firm believer in that, really. stas didn't see the idea of the other being a father to a second child to change anything between them, it didn't change anything because it wasn't like landon was in a relationship or anything. he still had a chance with landon and a chance to see what would happen with them in the future or where this thing between them was really going. "eh, i don't see a reason to be shocked or anything. it's a normal thing that happens, really."Β
LANDON
Landon wished he had the same reaction as Stas when Jaycee first told him she was pregnant. It probably would have been more comforting than the shock and disbelief he ended up offering. He was almost thirty years old so itβs not like Landon still needed to learn how babies are made but both him and Jaycee were both so sure that pregnancy wasnβt an option that it never even crossed his mind to worry the day after the party. At least Stas wasnβt choking on his pasta like Aaron did when he told him. βThat...makes sense I guess. Although I was definitely shocked when I first found out. But thanks, I should have known there was nothing for me to worry about.βΒ
anastasio
stas could understand landon's reaction when he first found out, he couldn't really even imagine how it would feel if somebody told him that they were pregnant. maybe that's why stas took it in a less shocking manner, he wasn't truly sure, but, oh well. "oh, totally, i'm sure it's shocking to find out that somebody you've hooked up with ended up pregnant. it's a lot to take in and figure out or whatever."Β
LANDON
βTell me about it, at least weβre friends. It would have been so much worse if all of this happened with some one night stand I donβt even remember the name ofβ, he said, lips twisting just at the thought of it. Jaycee was one of his good friends and Elle loved her, so at least he didnβt have to worry about co-parenting with someone he didnβt get along with. βI wanted to tell you before I go to London since youβll be in Paris when I get back. Didnβt want you to find out from some Instagram post or something.βΒ
anastasio
"that would have been terrible, especially because then you'd probably find out once the kid was an adult or something." stas responds, shrugging his shoulders towards the other male. he's nodding his head at the question, soft smile on his lips towards the man. "well, i'm glad you felt the need to tell me, at least. i suppose it is much better hearing it from you and not from, like, instagram or something."Β
LANDON
Something like that would have broken his heart. Landon might not have expected it but he was still excited to be a dad again. The thought of having a kid out there he didnβt know about was enough to stress him out. βYeah, that wouldnβt have been fair on you. Itβs why Iβm going to London. My mum would kill me if I didnβt tell her something like this in person.βΒ
anastasio
stas is nodding his head, chuckling softly at the other man's words. "i can honestly only imagine not telling my madre something like that in person but letting them find out on like, social media or some shit like that." he responds, chuckling to himself once more. "but, i hope it goes well for you, telling her and all of that. at least try to enjoy yourself where you're there, yeah?"Β
LANDON
"If your mum is anything like mine, she would kill you. And don't even get me started on my sisters, they would have my head if I let them find out I'm having another kid on social media." Landon knew it wasn't the same for everyone and some siblings spent months not talking to each other but that's what you get when you stay close to your family. "I'm sure she'll be supportive once she stops ranting at me", he laughed, shaking his head. "I'll see you when we both get back?"Β
anastasio
"madre would totally kill you and nobody would find out." stas jokes, letting a chuckle fall from his lips towards landon. he nods, "i'm sure they'll all be supportive, you have nothing to worry about." stas explains, hoping that he's reassuring the other man. "yeah, of course we'll see each other when we get back. we'll grab dinner or something."Β
LANDON
Now that it was out of the way and Stas knew why he was going to London for an impromptu visit to his family, he felt a little more relaxed. His mum was going to be supportive no matter what and now at least he knew that once he got back the two of them could go right back where they left off. He walked out of the office with Stas and back to the living room, where Elle was still sitting down with his phone in her hands. As soon as they walked in, she raised her head and directed a bright smile at him that never failed to make Landonβs day better. βReady to go angel?β he asked, bending down to pick up one of her many bags that she refused to leave in the car. βWeβre going to head off, have a flight to catch and all that. Text me about that dinner when you get back.βΒ
anastasio
stas follows landon out of the office and back into the living room where landon's daughter was, especially so that he could walk them to the door and what not. he listens to landon's words, nodding his head at the other male with a soft smile. "yeah, course i will." he states before he's leading landon and elle towards the door. "you two have fun in london, alright?"
LANDON
Important news aside, he was excited for the opportunity to go to London again. New York was great and he couldnβt really imagine himself living anywhere else at this point but London was always going to be his second home, and he knew they would both have a few days of fun with their family. βWe will.β With one last smile at Stas, he took Elleβs hand in his and together they walked out, with his daughter chatting away about all the things she was going to buy from London.Β
βI wouldnβt say I know everything about it, but a little dry shampoo and some fluffing has worked wonders for my dad.β she smiled encouraging towards him.Β βSometimes just dampening it could help, too, but I have a feeling youβd rather have a shower-less approach to this.β Although she knows Landon wouldnβt ask her, sheβll still offer to help in anyway. Not because she feels bad for him, because he is her friend.Β βOoh.. even a new style.β
Jess wasnβt wrong, just the thought of having to operate around the shower right now was enough to cause him anxiety. Landon knew that the girl would help him if he asked but he couldnβt bring himself to do that. Not because he didnβt trust her but because his pride wouldnβt let him do that.Β βA new style?β he asked and Landon couldnβt stop the look of skepticism on his face.Β
Aaron shook his head. βShe knows. Itβs be hard to keep it from her anyway. But we thought itβd be better to prepare her. It only really gets worse with age too because she really starts to notice Alisonβs missing as she gets smarter.β He sighed and crossed his arms over his chest. βIt couldnβt be worse than the first time she left for tour though. Man, you really saved my ass that time. I donβt know how you do it alone all the time. I can barely do it a few months every couple of years.β He grabbed his shoulder on his uninjured arm and gave it a firm squeeze. He remember when Landon moved in with him when Alison went on tour for the first time after they had their kids. Aaron believed that there was no way he would have made it through tour without him. And they had a ton of fun too. He kind of missed those days.
Landon was a firm believer that each age brought with it trials and tribulations when it came to being a parent. Babies meant sleepless nights and dirty diapers so it was anything but easy but Landon also knew that the older their kids got, the harder it was going to be to explain certain things to them. Like their parent being away for such a long time in Desβ case and why she didnβt have a mum like everyone else, in Elleβs. It was moments like this that he was reminded of just how grateful he was for Aaron; because they were always going to have each otherβs backs, even if things werenβt great between them. Whether that meant Landon moving in with Aaron to help him out while Alison was gone or his best friend taking her of his daughter while Landon was in hospital from the accident.Β βYou know Iβm never really alone. I have so many people helping me out all the time and Iβm pretty sure I would have never managed without themβ, he shrugged, knowing that he couldnβt take much of the credit.Β βYou know that Iβm going to be there for you this time round as well, right?βΒ
Β Β stas was in the neighborhood, decided that heβd pop in just to see what landon was up too.Β βciao!β he greets the other with a smirk on his lips.Β βwhat are you up to?β he questions out of curiosity, body leaning against something in the room.Β βyou free for lunch? i was around you, so, i figured iβd swing by and see if you were hungry.β @davieslandonβ
Landon was still working mostly from home. His arm was healed up nicely but after weeks of getting to wake up at whatever time he wanted to and working from the comfort of his bed, getting himself to his office felt like a chore. So a visit from Stas was a very welcome distraction.Β βHeyβ, he smiled, looking up from his computer. Landon really needed to get this article finished as his deadline was looming up but he figured he could spare an hour or two to get some lunch. The growling of his stomach confirmed that it was time for him to take a break.Β βLunch sounds great right now. Where do you want to go?β
Jess had decided bringing him flowersβ her dad always insisted on them having healing properties, if you give the right ones. Blue hydrangeas seemed appropriate. It seemed to have helped with a good day until some guys seem to take a joke out of line. She smacks the person who was holding the beanie in the stomach and snatched it back.Β βGo be losers somewhere else.β she tells them snidely and once they seem to move onto something else she hands Landon his beanie back.Β βFor what itβs worth, your hair doesnβt look that bad. With a little dry shampoo I think we could liven it up.β
Landonβs day might not be going that well but watching Jess smack the other person in the stomach was definitely making it a little better and he couldnβt hold back a little smile at the sight. βThanksβ, he said as soon as he had the beanie back in his hands and he quickly put it on to hide the mess that was his hair. βYou think so? I thought it was beyond saving at this point, even with dry shampoo. But I guess you know more about that than I ever could.β
Aaron was never once worried about Elle and Desβ relationship. Aaron and Landon were good parents. They would never bring their bullshit into their daughtersβ lives, and because of that Aaron was hopeful that their friendship would survive too.Β βIβm glad youβre doing better.β He told him, sincerely. He was still angry that Landon had the audacity to drive like that but there was nothing he could do about it now, and it had slowly been learning that lecturing people wasnβt the best way to solve issues.Β βWeβre getting ready for Alison to leave for tour. Itβs coming up quicker than I thought it was going to andβ¦β He looked over at Des and Elle playing together. ββ¦You know how Des gets when she first leaves. Iβm not ready for the temper tantrums and the sleepless nights.β He ran his hands through his hair and sighed.Β
Landon knew that Aaron was still upset about the accident and how it happened but he was glad that at least he wasnβt bringing it up right now. He felt bad enough without being reminded of his reckless he was every time he had a conversation with someone. And the accident was the only reason they even started talking again, so it couldnβt be all bad. Being reminded of Alisonβs imminent departure was bittersweet. Landon knew it was going to happen eventually and was happy his friend was so successful but it sucked to know she wouldnβt be around all the time. At least for a little while. βDoes she know that Alison is leaving soon or are you waiting to tell her?β He made sure to keep his voice low so the two girls wouldnβt hear their conversation. If Des didnβt know yet, he didnβt want to be the reason she found out. βYou know Iβm always around to help with Des if you need.β
Β Β stas was always stubborn and set in his ways, somehow convincing otherβs to come shopping with him when they probably had zero desire to do so.Β βitβs not my fault that i fall in love with men just by looking at them, it just happens.β stas states before heβs shrugging his shoulders at the man, chuckling to himself.Β βnot sure thatβs how that works, landon.β he explains, smirking for a moment.Β βreally, you donβt think so?β he questions before putting the jacket back on the rack.Β βalright, suppose iβll just get this shirt, then. want anything? my treat.β
βIβm glad you came to the same conclusion as me and the reason why it doesnβt work like that is because itβs stupid and you canβt fall in love with someone at first sightβ, he said, straight to the point as usual. βYou can have a crush on someone youβve just met or even fall in βlustβ with them but love? No way, not without feelings.β Landon wasnβt a fashion icon in any sense but he did have a general idea of what sort of things Stas usually went did and that jacket wasnβt it. The shirt was the complete opposite. βSure, that works. I donβt think I really need anything though, itβs not like Iβm going out much or have any big events planned.β
I love gossip. A bit of a bad habit. But I can see how that would be frustrating. I couldn't imagine not being able to work on things I'm passionate about.
LANDON
really? You know that half of the shit they write in there is complete and utter crap? Like when they say that "a personal friend said so and so", that's never true
uh, a few start up sin the tech sector. i'm a silent investor in the throuple nightclub in town. a few other ventures that aren't quite up and ready yet.
LANDON
youβre an investor in Throuple? Iβm guessing you know Aaron then
Β Β Β βdecided iβm in love with a guy i met at morello today.β stas states, fingers pushing through racks of clothing that he was currently looking at.Β βhad to drop something off at the office today and there was this beautiful man in the waiting room dressed in tom ford. which, i suppose is a bit offensive to be wearing in another fashion houseβs space, but, thatβs besides the point. he smiled at me and i almost risked it all, but i left and i donβt know if iβll ever see him again. could have been my soulmate, you know?β he explains, shrugging before heβs picking up a jacket.Β βanyway, what do you think of this?β
Landon still wasnβt sure why he let himself be convinced to come shopping with Stas today. Itβs not that he didnβt enjoy the otherβs company but shopping wasnβt exactly his first choice to hang out with friends. And the current topic of conversation made him roll his eyes.Β βSo youβre in love with a guy you saw once but didnβt even talk to? Makes senseβ, he said, with raised eyebrows to show exactly what he thought of all of this.Β βNext time that happens you have to make sure to ask him if heβs your soulmate.β Landon looked over the jacket Stas was showing him and shrugged. It looked nice but not exactly like something the other would usually wear.Β βI donβt know, it doesnβt really look your style even though itβs nice.β
