˚. ㅤ𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ˚. ㅤ𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐔: 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐃𝐀𝐖𝐍
𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀 で† 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗌𝗅𝗈𝗐 𝗆𝗈𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝖽𝗈𝗎𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝗏𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗇 𝗋𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝖻𝗅𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖿𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖿𝗅𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 '𝗍𝗂𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 ; 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎

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˚. ㅤ𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ˚. ㅤ𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐔: 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐃𝐀𝐖𝐍
𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀 で† 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗌𝗅𝗈𝗐 𝗆𝗈𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝖽𝗈𝗎𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝗏𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗇 𝗋𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝖻𝗅𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖿𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖿𝗅𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 '𝗍𝗂𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 ; 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎
What should dawngyu update first?
Hunger Games AU next part
Love, After Me
this is insane it's 50/50 🤧
What should dawngyu update first?
Hunger Games AU next part
Love, After Me
MARRY ME KILL ME KISS MEEEEEEE 😵💫
i love you to the stars and back.
i know i just asked to be added to your divorcedgyu taglist but can you lowk add me to your perm list... I CAN'T WAIT TO READ ALL YOUR WRITING
hiii! omg ><
i will add you! thank you so much for the warm support :)) see you around, love~!
₊˚⊹ ིྀ 𝐎𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑: 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄
pairing: divorced choi beomgyu x female reader genre: second chance trope, romance, heavy angst, mental health struggles, hurt/comfort, beomgyu and reader are divorced, beomgyu pathetically in love with his ex-wife, beomgyu as a yearning man (more to be added)
A divorce is the death of a marriage. The life you built has been lowered into the ground, and you are expected to keep living as if something inside you wasn’t buried with it.
The shadowy ambience of the kitchen can’t hide the way that flush deepens the longer he holds your gaze, and Beomgyu is all too aware he’s treading dangerous waters. He knows this is the kind of closeness that once burned you both.
Maybe that’s why he can’t help wading into them a bit further. This line between you has stretched dangerously thin, and Beomgyu has always been a bit reckless. Maybe it’s habit. Maybe it’s the part of him that always mistook wanting for loving. His hand doesn’t brush by your waist, but it could. The possibility alone is enough to make your fingers tighten almost imperceptibly against the edge of the counter.
For a fleeting second, something stupid flickers across his face. A near smirk. A memory of who he used to be with you. He might have said something careless, pretended the past year never happened, if not for the sight of your left hand resting between you.
Bare.
Even a year later, he’s still not used to it.
Sometimes, he wishes it had ended in something catastrophic. A single, unforgettable explosion. A fight so vicious it left cracks in the walls and no room for doubt. Yelling. Accusations. Words sent flying that couldn’t be taken back, no matter how many apologies were exchanged. Something he could point to and say, there, that was the moment it died. If he’d just had a good reason, one moment upon which he could definitively hang the hat of his marriage, then maybe Beomgyu wouldn’t feel so hollow a year later.
He steps closer, close enough to see the faint shadows beneath your eyes. He used to kiss that spot all the time, when your laughter made them crinkle at the corners, when you cried over a day that had been too cruel, when you stayed up too late and pretended you weren’t tired.
He knew every change in your face once, now he only sees what he missed.
“Are you…have you been seeing anyone?”
₊ ˚ ⊹ ིྀ 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄: March 10th!
note: my slightly late kind of valentine’s fic >< i’ve been working on this all week and it has completely taken over my brain. proofreading the teaser while listening to iris was a terrible decision because why was i sitting there emotional over my own words 😭 this one is going to be really, really mature, so please MDNI. so excited (and a little unwell) about this, and i can’t wait to finally share it with moablr.
︵ ུ perm taglist: @virtaideen @buttersoob @kkyubear @seungminnieinthebuilding @itsmooniebaby @tyunarisu
ㅤ ︵ ུ 𝗍𝖺𝗀 𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗇, 𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗆𝖾 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗀𝖾𝖽!
Sorry I can’t remember if you said it before but will the hunger games fic have eventual smut in it? Not that I actually care I just couldn’t remember if I made that up 😭 love the series so far!
YES! they will get to IT. :)))
₊˚⊹ ིྀ 𝐎𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑: 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄
pairing: divorced choi beomgyu x female reader genre: second chance trope, romance, heavy angst, mental health struggles, hurt/comfort, beomgyu and reader are divorced, beomgyu pathetically in love with his ex-wife, beomgyu as a yearning man (more to be added)
A divorce is the death of a marriage. The life you built has been lowered into the ground, and you are expected to keep living as if something inside you wasn’t buried with it.
The shadowy ambience of the kitchen can’t hide the way that flush deepens the longer he holds your gaze, and Beomgyu is all too aware he’s treading dangerous waters. He knows this is the kind of closeness that once burned you both.
Maybe that’s why he can’t help wading into them a bit further. This line between you has stretched dangerously thin, and Beomgyu has always been a bit reckless. Maybe it’s habit. Maybe it’s the part of him that always mistook wanting for loving. His hand doesn’t brush by your waist, but it could. The possibility alone is enough to make your fingers tighten almost imperceptibly against the edge of the counter.
For a fleeting second, something stupid flickers across his face. A near smirk. A memory of who he used to be with you. He might have said something careless, pretended the past year never happened, if not for the sight of your left hand resting between you.
Bare.
Even a year later, he’s still not used to it.
Sometimes, he wishes it had ended in something catastrophic. A single, unforgettable explosion. A fight so vicious it left cracks in the walls and no room for doubt. Yelling. Accusations. Words sent flying that couldn’t be taken back, no matter how many apologies were exchanged. Something he could point to and say, there, that was the moment it died. If he’d just had a good reason, one moment upon which he could definitively hang the hat of his marriage, then maybe Beomgyu wouldn’t feel so hollow a year later.
He steps closer, close enough to see the faint shadows beneath your eyes. He used to kiss that spot all the time, when your laughter made them crinkle at the corners, when you cried over a day that had been too cruel, when you stayed up too late and pretended you weren’t tired.
He knew every change in your face once, now he only sees what he missed.
“Are you…have you been seeing anyone?”
₊ ˚ ⊹ ིྀ 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄: March 8th!
note: my slightly late kind of valentine’s fic >< i’ve been working on this all week and it has completely taken over my brain. proofreading the teaser while listening to iris was a terrible decision because why was i sitting there emotional over my own words 😭 this one is going to be really, really mature, so please MDNI. so excited (and a little unwell) about this, and i can’t wait to finally share it with moablr.
︵ ུ perm taglist: @virtaideen @buttersoob @kkyubear @seungminnieinthebuilding @itsmooniebaby @tyunarisu
ㅤ ︵ ུ 𝗍𝖺𝗀 𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗇, 𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗆𝖾 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗀𝖾𝖽!
₊˚⊹ ིྀ 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐃𝐀𝐖𝐍: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐋𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐄
☆⠀⸺ pairing: tribute choi beomgyu and tribute female reader
Beomgyu watches the slow rise and fall of your chest, your grip never loosens on your knife even in sleep. You are reckless and stubborn and infuriating, and he cannot imagine this arena without you in it. You are sharp, quick witted, terrifying with a bow. Your senses are tuned to the forest and you belong to it. You do not deserve this place, but it fits you in a way that makes his chest ache. He looks out into the dark and makes a promise he does not fully understand. Whatever the plan was supposed to be, whatever he was meant to sacrifice, he is getting you through this. He will see you alive at the end of it, even if it means tearing the rest of the script to pieces.
︵ ུ warnings: hunger games au! , dystopian , romance , enemies to lovers , slow-burn , politics , societal issues, power imbalance, violence! , mature! , used diff idols as characters , we're now in the GAMES!! MDNI — if any of the warnings above might be triggering for you, please step back. let me know if I missed anything. this is a work of fiction.
︵ ུ wc: 15k — see the series masterpost here. ུ previous part | next part
︵ ུ notes: part two of act two! 🤍 certainly my favorite part i wrote yet! (whipped beomgyu eheh) the next update for this series will be around mid-march since i'll be on a work trip soon and i'm currently writing a new fic! enjoy!
Trust is a strange thing to find at the end of the world.
You used to think survival meant locked doors, meant keeping your back to the wall and your heart sealed shut. You thought anger was safer than hope, that fury was steadier than faith. The arena rewarded that belief. It fed it. It carved you into something hard enough to last.
And yet here you are, with him. You have seen him scared. You have seen him furious. You have seen the way his jaw tightens when he thinks you are in danger, the way his body always shifts closer without him meaning to. You have felt his hand around your wrist at the edge of a fall.
Trusting him is terrifying.
You were supposed to be a spectacle of fire. A girl who wanted revenge and death. A tragedy waiting to happen.
Yet right now, you need to make every shot count.
You ran closely behind Beomgyu, your eyes immediately plays the scene in front of you. Jay is down, not moving, but no cannon yet. Alive, then. The District Four boy sees you and Beomgyu coming and his face twists when his eyes land on the body near you. “Jiho!” he shouts, grief tearing through the word. For a split second, he looks human.
It almost makes you hesitate. Almost.
You swing your focus to the blonde girl from Four. She and Ryujin are a blur of fists and elbows and knees, too fast and too close together for you to risk a shot. You draw in a slow breath, forcing yourself to wait. There will be an opening. There always is. Find it, you tell yourself, pulling back on the string. Find the—
Something slams into the back of your hand.
Pain explodes through your fingers, hot and blinding. You cry out and your grip fails, the arrow flying wild into stone. Your bow nearly slips from your grasp as your hand jerks away on instinct. You turn, teeth bared, and see the girl from Seven with a slingshot raised, eyes locked on you with deadly focus. A stone lies near your feet, proof. She fires again. You roll, barely avoiding the second shot, and scramble up, clutching your throbbing hand. Your fingers feel wrong, too loose and too tight at the same time. Broken? You do not have time to find out.
“Y/N!” Beomgyu’s voice calls you.
The District Four boy laughs, big and cruel, like he already thinks you are done. He never gets the chance to finish the thought. Beomgyu is on him, blade flashing. The spear comes up to block but Beomgyu does not stop, striking again and again. Steel rings against armor, then finds flesh at the knee. Blood spills and the boy’s laugh dies in his throat.
You grit your teeth and switch hands. Holding the bow steady is one thing. Drawing it is another. Your injured fingers scream as you wrap them as lightly as you can around the grip, forcing your other hand to take over the pull.
“Fuck you,” you mutter, not sure if it is meant for the girl with the slingshot, the boy in armor, or the Capitol itself.
You draw. It is sloppy and wrong and everything your body hates. You fire anyway.
The arrow thuds into the District Four boy’s raised arm just as he tries to bring his spear down. He howls, the weapon faltering. Beomgyu surges forward, seizing the moment, blade carving into the other arm. Blood sprays across stone, across Beomgyu, across the ruined ground.
He lifts his sword for the final strike.
The mountain shakes. It is not like the lightning before. This is deeper, angrier, like the world itself is turning over in its sleep. The ground bucks under your feet and you stumble, your injured hand slamming against the rock wall as you fight to stay upright. Loose stones skitter down the slope. Somewhere behind you, someone screams.
Beomgyu staggers too, barely keeping his balance, sword wavering in the air above his opponent. For a heartbeat, everything hangs there, unfinished, suspended between life and death.
Your eyes find his through the chaos.
Still here, his look says. Still with you.
You swallow the pain, raise your bow again with shaking hands, and brace for whatever fresh horror the Capitol has decided to drop on your heads next.
The ground trembles under your boots, a low, rolling shudder that rattles up through your bones. Everyone still standing near the cornucopia falters, weapons lowering for one stunned heartbeat as the mountain itself seems to groan. You almost lose your footing, catching yourself at the last second, and then you hear it before you understand it, a deep rushing roar that does not belong on dry land.
Water spills from the mouth of the cornucopia. At first it is only a sheet, silver under the moonlight, sliding over the stone. Then it thickens, pouring faster, spreading across the mountaintop in cold, fast-moving streams. It laps at your boots and you instinctively step back, but there is nowhere safe to go, only rock walls and tunnel mouths yawning open like drains.
“What the hell?” you breathe, and the words are ripped away by the sound.
The water keeps coming, curling around your ankles, your calves, tugging at you with growing force. It is not rising to drown you here. It is moving, all of it, funneling toward the tunnels that ring the clearing. Herding you. A thunderous crack splits the air and the cornucopia vomits a surge so strong it looks like the mountain itself has burst a vein. A wall of water slams into you, icy and brutal.
“Beomgyu!” you scream, stumbling as the current nearly takes your legs out from under you.
He is a few yards away, braced wide, sword discarded, both hands out as if he could hold back a river by sheer stubbornness. “Hang on!” he shouts.
“To what?” you choke back, panic clawing up your throat. You know how to float in a quiet lake, how to paddle lazily in still water on a rare summer day. This is not that. This is a flood.
Another wave crashes into you and the world flips. One second you are standing, the next you are underwater, cold swallowing you whole. Your ears roar. Your eyes sting. You kick wildly, fingers locked around your bow like it is the last piece of yourself you have left.
Your foot finds nothing but water. Then a hand closes around your arm.
You thrash on instinct before a familiar voice cuts through. “It’s me!”
You break the surface coughing, dragging in a ragged breath as Beomgyu hauls you upright. Water streams off his hair and down his face, his eyes wide and locked on yours. One arm is around you, iron tight.
“We need to—” he starts.
The river hits you again.
You go under together this time, your shoulder slamming into his chest as the current rips at both of you. The world becomes nothing but bubbles and force and noise. You try to hold on to him, to anything, but the water has its own plans.
Your fingers slide down his sleeve. You grab for him again, nails scraping uselessly over soaked fabric. For a second your hands catch, palm to wrist, skin to skin.
Then the current tears you apart.
The last thing you see before the water drags you backward is Beomgyu’s face breaking the surface, mouth open as he shouts your name, his arm outstretched toward empty space where you were just a heartbeat ago.
The water spits you out like something it never meant to keep. One second you are tumbling, lungs burning, limbs slamming into unseen stone, and the next the current loosens its grip and you are left on your hands and knees in the dark, coughing up river and air in equal, desperate gulps. Everything aches. Your ears ring. Your clothes cling to you, heavy and cold, dripping into shallow streams that slither past your palms and disappear further down the tunnel.
You push yourself upright too fast and the world tilts. Black on black, no edges, no shapes, just the thick, suffocating dark pressing in from every side. You turn in a slow circle anyway, like your eyes might suddenly decide to work if you just try hard enough.
“Fuck,” you rasp, voice swallowed by stone. You turn again, faster this time. “Fuck!”
Your words bounce back at you, smaller, thinner. Mocking.
All of that chaos, all that blood and lightning and water, just to tear you away from the one person you had left in here. You know everyone else got scattered too, but it feels personal. It feels like someone reached down, pointed at you specifically.
“Oh, you fucking asshole,” you mutter to the dark, chin tipped up like there is a camera in the ceiling. “Hope you’re entertained. Hope this is great television for you. Fuck you and your stupid goddamn mountain.”
Your voice shakes at the edges, anger stretched tight over something far more fragile. You stomp your foot and water splashes around your boot, the sound sharp in the quiet. Being loud is stupid. You know that. But if you stop talking, if you stop being angry, you are going to start being afraid, and you are not ready for that yet.
You clench your hands and pain flares bright through your fingers, hot and immediate. You suck in a breath through your teeth. The hand the girl hit with the rock throbs in time with your pulse, every movement a reminder that you are not at full strength, not even close.
You swallow hard. You cannot afford to fall apart.
“Okay,” you whisper to yourself, forcing the word out steady. “Okay. Inventory.”
You crouch and shrug your pack off your shoulders, the familiar weight grounding in a way nothing else is right now. Your quiver comes next. Your stomach drops when you feel how light it is. You tip it and shake.
Two arrows slide down into your hand. Two.
A hysterical laugh almost claws its way out of your throat and you bite it back. Of course. Of course this is what you get. You press your lips together and tuck them back carefully, like they are made of glass.
“At least I still have you,” you murmur to your bow, fingers brushing the curve of the wood. It is ridiculous, talking to a weapon, but the shape of it in your hands is familiar, solid. Something that has never failed you on purpose.
You check your bag next. Water bottle. Crackers. Sleeping bag, still damp but usable. The knife you took, heavy and real against your palm. Bits of bark for fire starter, useless down here without dry wood but you keep them anyway because you cannot afford to throw anything away. Your rope is gone. Left behind on that mountaintop with the rest of your almost-deaths.
You sit back on your heels, breathing slow, listening. No voices. No footsteps. Just the distant drip of water and the faint rush of whatever is still draining through the mountain’s veins.
Alone. The word settles heavy in your chest. Your throat tightens before you can stop it.
“Beomgyu,” you whisper before you can help yourself, the name slipping out like a prayer you do not believe in but say anyway. You picture his face when the water took you, the way his hand slipped from yours. The look in his eyes.
You scrub roughly at your face with the heel of your palm. Not now. You cannot think about him being hurt, or dead, or calling your name into an empty river. You will drown in that thought faster than you drowned in the flood.
“Move,” you tell yourself quietly. “Don’t sit. Don’t think. Just move.”
You get to your feet, one hand trailing along the tunnel wall so you know where you are. The stone is cold and slick beneath your fingers. Your other hand keeps a death grip on your bow, an arrow already nocked even though you can barely see your own hand in front of your face.
Beomgyu has the purifier tablets, the dried meat, the last two apples, and those stupidly valuable night vision glasses. You would trade just about anything to have those in your hands right now. But the thought that hits harder than the rest is simple and humiliating.
You want him here. Not the supplies. Him.
The realization sits heavy in your chest. You came into this arena ready to trust no one, ready to survive alone or not at all. Allies were liabilities. Feelings were weaknesses. And yet somewhere between snakes and fire and falling off cliffs, Choi Beomgyu slipped past every wall you had and made himself necessary.
“Idiot,” you mutter under your breath, and you are not sure if you mean him or yourself.
You push the thought away before it can soften you. Soft gets you killed. Still, as you stand there dripping in the dark, you cannot stop your mind from filling the silence with him. He would say something dry. Something about your freakish hearing. Something that would make you roll your eyes even while your shoulders loosened.
“Probably tell me I’m being dramatic,” you whisper to the empty tunnel, voice hoarse.
You straighten your spine. You might be alone, but you are not helpless. You still have your ears. You still have your instincts. You have survived worse than dark tunnels and bad odds. You shrug your pack back onto your shoulders and reach for one of your two remaining arrows, fitting it carefully to the string. Pain lances through your injured fingers and you hiss, lowering the bow again. Not like this.
You pull the knife from your bag and saw through the sleeve of your shirt, tearing off a strip of fabric with your teeth when the blade snags. You wrap it tight around your damaged fingers, binding them together. It is not a cure, but it is something. Something to hold them steady. Something between bone and string.
You switch hands, bow settling awkwardly into your weaker grip. You test the pull, slow and careful, breath caught in your throat. It is ugly. Unnatural, but it works.
“Good enough,” you murmur, letting the string ease forward again.
You move. Your good hand slides along the tunnel wall, glove damp and cold, fingertips tracing every ridge and crack. Your other hand keeps the bow close to your body. You do not load the arrow yet. You need one hand free to feel your way, to keep from walking straight into a wall or off an unseen drop.
You focus on your breathing. In through your nose, out through your mouth. Slow. Quiet. You cannot afford to panic. Panic is loud. Find an opening, you tell yourself. Find a ledge. Find sky. Even a sliver of moonlight would be enough to remind you that the world is bigger than stone and dark and the sound of your own pulse in your ears.
You turn away from the direction the water dragged you. No ledges that way, not unless you want to get washed off a cliff. So you pick a path and start walking. Every step is careful. Heel to toe. Avoid loose gravel. Avoid splashing through deeper puddles. The cold has settled into your bones now, making your shivers small and constant. You clamp your jaw to keep your teeth from chattering. You do not know how long you walk. Time stretches in the dark, thin and meaningless. Your thoughts try to spiral, try to drag you into what ifs and worst cases, but you keep pulling them back.
Listen. That is what you can do. You can listen, and then you hear it.
Footsteps.
You freeze mid step, breath stopping so abruptly your chest aches. Your hand leaves the wall and you lift your bow, nocking the arrow by feel alone. The motion is slower with your off hand, clumsier, but you manage.
The footsteps are faint. Distant.
Your heart starts to race and you force it down, pressing your tongue to the roof of your mouth, focusing on the sound instead of the fear. One set? Two? Hard to tell with the echo. The tunnels twist noise into something slippery.
You steady your breathing as best you can, shoulders lowering by sheer will. Quiet. Be quiet.
You tilt your head, listening harder than you ever have in your life, trying to pull shape and number and distance out of the dark before the dark delivers them straight to you. There’s two sets of footsteps. The chances of it being Beomgyu decreases significantly, unless he’s with his district partner or something like that. That makes your chest tighten. You’d pushed those doubts aside, the thought that there’s something he’s not telling you, that he’s got some sort of secret alliance with Ryujin, but now you’ve got no choice to consider it.
You move your bowstring into resting position. Slowly, you crouch. Your fingers fumble on the ground until you find a stone. Carefully, you straighten up again. Knowing full well this could backfire badly, you throw the rock. It ricochets off the far tunnel wall and bounces away. You draw your bowstring back again, ready to fire if necessary. But your plan was a success, and you get what you want: voices. “Did you hear that?” you hear someone whisper.
The voice is male, but not as deep as Beomgyu’s voice. “Yeah,” says another voice, distinctly feminine. “What was that?”
“Could be an animal,” the first voice murmurs. “Like that roaring we heard earlier.” There’s a pause, and then the footsteps start up again, but this time, they fade away. You’re not tempted to pursue: you’re cold, miserable, and a shit shot in the dark. Neither voice sounded like Beomgyu, so you take a different tunnel path and head in another direction.
An idea occurs to you, and you pause. You pull out your knife, and on the tunnel wall, you carve out the number twelve. Beomgyu’s got his night vision glasses: if he comes this way, he’ll see it and know you came this way.
You keep moving, counting your steps in your head and stopping every so often to carve your number into the tunnel wall with the tip of your knife. The scratches feel small and pointless, but they ground you. Proof you were here. Proof you are still here. When the cannon booms through the mountain, the sound rolls through the stone and straight through your ribs. Your heart leaps into your throat before you can stop it.
Not him, you tell yourself immediately. Not Beomgyu. Even hurt, even limping, he is the most terrifying fighter you have ever seen. He does not go down easy. He does not go down first.
The fierce certainty of that thought startles you more than the cannon did. You grit your teeth. Since when did your mind run to him like this? You were supposed to survive alone. You were supposed to need no one. But somewhere between blood and fire and nearly falling into the sky, he carved a place for himself beside you. Not in front, not behind.
Beside you.
You huff out a breath. Fine. Call it strategy. Call it better odds. Do not call it what it feels like when you remember the way he looks at you, like you are something he refuses to lose.
You keep walking. Finally, you see light.
It is faint at first, a smudge of silver against the black, but it is enough to make your pulse kick. You hurry before you can stop yourself, boots slapping softly against damp stone as you jog toward it. When you reach it, relief and disappointment crash together in your chest. It is not an exit. Just a hollow in the rock, a dead end with a narrow opening carved into the side of the mountain, about the size of a small window. Moonlight spills through it in a pale strip, dust motes drifting in the beam.
Still. Light.
You step up and peer out. The drop makes your stomach lurch. You are still high, far too high. If you tried to squeeze through, you would not survive the fall. But the air that slips in is cooler, fresher, and the moon hangs there.
This will do. One way in. One way out. You can defend that.
You sink down beneath the opening, letting the moonlight brush over your face. For a moment you just sit there, breathing, letting your eyes drink in every scrap of silver. Then the cold settles in again, deep and biting. You glance at the bundle of bark in your pack and let out a humorless laugh. Perfect kindling, and no spark to bring it to life.
“Now would be a great time, Minho,” you mutter, voice low and rough. “Anytime.”
You peel off your shirt with stiff fingers and wring it out as best you can. Water drips onto the stone, dark spots spreading beneath your knees. You tug off your shoes and socks, hissing at the chill of the air against your skin, and set them near the wall in the thin strip of moonlight, hoping it might help them dry faster. You stand just long enough to tug your pants down, wring them hard, then pull them back up before the cold can bite any deeper.
Your shirt goes back on damp and clammy, but better than bare skin. You hug your arms around yourself for a second, jaw tight, forcing your shivers to slow.
Alone. Cold. Hurt.
You tilt your head back so the moonlight hits your eyes and let yourself sit there in the quiet, listening to the mountain breathe around you, wishing the dark would give you back the one person who made it feel a little less suffocating. Crap. If it is someone else, they will see the light just like you did and come straight here. Barefoot and cold, you step away from the opening, bow already in your hands, fingers drawing the string back despite the ache that shoots through them. You steady your breathing and listen.
Footsteps. One set. Slow. Careful. Getting closer. Then something strange. A pause, and two soft stomps against the stone. Footsteps again. Another pause. Two stomps. Your heart trips over itself.
Two taps for yes. One tap for no.
The code you made when Beomgyu could not speak. The one he used again when you needed silent answers. The one that became yours and his. Your throat tightens. You press your heel into the stone floor twice.
Silence. Then, from the dark, two answering taps.
Relief hits so hard it almost hurts. Your bow trembles in your hands. “Beomgyu?” you whisper, voice barely holding together.
“Y/N?”
The bowstring slackens. Only one person in this nightmare says your name like that, like it means something. “Yeah,” you breathe. “Yeah, it’s me.”
Footsteps rush now, no more caution, and then he turns the corner into the thin wash of moonlight. He looks wrecked and real and alive. Shirt plastered to his skin, hair dripping, chest heaving. His shoulders drop the second he sees you, like he has been carrying the weight of the entire mountain and finally sets it down. He pulls the glasses off, blinking in the silver light, and for a second neither of you moves. You just stare. You need proof he is not another cruel trick. You need to see him breathe.
He exhales shakily. “I heard the cannon,” Beomgyu says, voice rough and breaking at the edges. “I thought maybe…”
You do not let him finish. Your bow slips from your fingers, his katana clatters to the stone, and you are in his arms without deciding to be. He wraps around you just as fast, hands gripping your sides like you might disappear if he loosens his hold.
You are both soaked, shivering, bruised, but the heat between you is real. Solid. For one stolen moment, the arena fades. There is no Capitol, no cameras, no mountain trying to kill you. It was only his heartbeat under your cheek and the way his breath stutters against your hair.
You smile into his shoulder, eyes burning. “You seriously didn’t think I’d die that easy, did you?” you murmur.
His fingers slide over your side where damp fabric meets skin, grounding himself. He pulls back just enough to look at you, thumb pressing into your hip like he needs to feel bone and muscle and life. “Of course I did,” he says quietly, a ghost of his usual bite in the words. “You’re useless without me.”
You laugh as you pull your arms back, and the cold rushes in the second the warmth between you breaks. “Says the one who rolled his ankle,” you shoot back. “How is it, by the way?”
“It’s a bitch,” Beomgyu mutters, and somehow that is the most comforting thing you have heard all night. He sounds like himself. “You’re good? I saw you get hit. How’s your hand?”
“Not sure. Fingers hurts.”
“Broken?”
“No clue. Might be.”
“Let me see.” You hold your hand out and try not to flinch, but you still hiss when his fingers brush the strip of cloth wrapped around them. His touch is careful, almost hesitant. “Can you shoot like this?”
You shake your head. “No. Not with any accuracy. Hurts too much.”
“How’d you make that shot, then?” he asks quietly.
You frown at him, then shrug. “Used my other hand.”
He just stares. “You used your other hand.”
“Yeah.”
There is that look again. The one that makes your stomach flip in a way that has nothing to do with hunger or fear. Like he is seeing you for the first time and deciding something important all over again. Your face heats and you turn away, grateful for the dim light. “What, you’re not ambidextrous with that sword?” you say as you head back toward the little opening. “Sorry. Katana.”
He follows. “Of course I am,” Beomgyu scoffs, but there is a thread of awe under it. “But a bow is different. How’d you get good at that?”
“Keep complimenting me and I’m going to think you like me,” you toss over your shoulder.
“Don’t get your hopes up,” he says automatically, but the bite is weak. “Seriously, though. You’re impressive.”
The word lands heavier than it should. Impressive. No one has ever called you that for anything except surviving. You swallow. “I, uh… sprained my wrist once. Fell out of a tree. Local doctor told me he was surprised it wasn’t broken.”
“Let me guess,” Beomgyu says, setting his pack down beside yours. “You panicked about what would happen if you ever actually broke it, so you taught yourself to shoot with the other hand.”
You laugh and sink down to the ground. “Am I that predictable?”
“Not even close.” He lowers himself beside you, shoulder almost brushing yours. “You know how I found you?”
Your grin spreads. “The carvings in the walls?”
“The carvings in the walls,” he confirms softly. “Who even thinks of that in the middle of all this?”
“I’m a genius,” you say. “Haven’t you figured that out yet?”
He huffs, but his eyes stay on you. In the pale spill of moonlight, his expression is unguarded in a way you have never seen before. The words heavy on his gaze.
Thank god you’re okay.
God, you feel twenty times better, like the world has tilted back into place just because he is sitting here beside you. “We should wrap your ankle,” you say, pulling your sleeping bag out and spreading it on the stone so at least your feet have something dry beneath them. “Do you have anything?”
Beomgyu’s eyes flick to your bare arm. “We could use your other sleeve,” he says flatly.
“Please. I rock the asymmetrical look,” you shoot back. “If anyone’s losing a sleeve, it’s you.”
He huffs, but sits down next to you. Then he pauses, frowns, and reaches over. You go still as he peels off his glove and presses the back of his hand to your forehead. His touch is cool and careful. “You’re freezing,” he mutters.
“No shit,” you say. “That’s what happens when a mountain tries to drown you.”
You tug your own glove off and press your hand to his forehead in return. He leans back for half a second like he might dodge, then lets you. “You say that like you’re not cold too.”
“I don’t matter,” Beomgyu says automatically.
“Shut the fuck up, yes you do,” you snap, smacking his shoulder lightly before leaning back on your hands. “Shoes off. Wet socks are a death sentence.”
He scowls but listens. “You got anything for a fire?”
“I would have started one already if I did. I’ve got bark, but nothing to light it.”
“We could—”
"Shhh." You lift a hand and he falls quiet immediately. You heard something. Faint. Metallic. A soft, distant chime. You both hold still. There it is again.
“Outside,” you breathe, scrambling up and rushing to the little opening. You shove your arms through, stretching as far as you dare.
“Y/N, what the hell are you doing,” Beomgyu says, right behind you now, hands clamping hard on your hips to anchor you. “What did you hear?”
You grin up into the night. A tiny parachute is drifting down, moonlight catching on the strings. “Told you,” you murmur.
You reach, fingers straining, and just barely snag the cords. “Got it! I got it!”
Beomgyu pulls you back in and his hands drop once you are steady. “What’d you get?”
“You really think this is for me?” you say, sitting back down and tugging the little box into your lap. “Minho is probably drunk.”
“My mentor would not gamble on me catching something off a cliff in the dark,” he says dryly.
You open the box. Gold. A cap. You flick it.
A small flame blooms between you.
Both of you stare at it like it is the most beautiful thing you have ever seen. Firelight paints Beomgyu’s face in warm gold and shadow, his eyes bright and sharp. “It’s a lighter,” you whisper, then grin wide. “Oh, Minho, you absolute legend.”
“Any note?” he asks.
You dig into the box and pull out a slip of paper. Two words.
Good job. Survive.
You show him, beaming. “I think that’s the nicest thing he’s ever said to me.”
Beomgyu huffs a laugh. “Let’s use it before you start crying about it.”
You build the tiniest fire imaginable with bark and scraps of cardboard, but the warmth still feels like a miracle. He tears strips from his sleeve and wraps his ankle tight, jaw clenched but silent. You both hold your socks and shoes near the flame, waiting for them to dry enough to put back on. The fire dies too soon, but you are warmer than before. Beomgyu presses his hand to your arm again and frowns. “Still cold?”
“I’m fine.”
“Bullshit. Move.”
He unzips the sleeping bag all the way and drapes it over both of you once you sit again. “Innovative,” you say. “And they say District 2 are the dumb ones.”
“Who says that?”
“I do.”
“You’re insane.” He leans back against the rock wall and pats the ground closer to him. “Come here.”
You roll your eyes but shift until your hip rests against his. “Satisfied?”
“Deeply,” he mutters, shoulder warm against yours.
You pull the sleeping bag tighter around both of you. Your bare arm presses to his, skin to skin, sharing heat. “You good for first watch?” you murmur.
He nods. “Yeah. I’m not going anywhere.”
His sword rests in his far hand. Your bow is within reach. For the first time in hours, your body starts to unclench. Then his fingertips touch your arm.
You go still, breath catching. He is tracing lightly over your goosebumps, slow, deliberate. Not random. Not fidgeting. A line. Another crossing it. Your mind tries to make sense of the shapes. More lines. Curves.
Letters.
You stay very still, heart thudding, as Beomgyu writes on your skin in the dark, his touch gentle enough that it almost feels like a secret. Your heart stutters so hard it almost hurts. You keep your eyes closed and force every muscle in your body to stay loose, even as your mind races. His fingertip moves again, careful, deliberate. A straight line. Another crossing it. Then a curve. He pauses, then draws a crooked little hook at the end.
You piece it together slowly.
Trust me?
Your throat tightens. Of course he cannot say it out loud. The Capitol is always listening, always watching. This is quiet. Hidden. Just you and him. You breathe out softly, then tap his leg twice.
Yes.
His hand tightens around your wrist for half a second, like he needed that more than he expected to. Then his fingertip returns to your arm. More letters. Slower this time. He pauses after each one. You frown slightly when you do not understand and tap once. He redraws it, patient, steady, even now.
Plan.
Your pulse jumps. You tap twice again. He keeps going. More letters, more pauses, more corrections when you need them. Your skin tingles where he writes, like the words are sinking past bone and into your blood.
To get out.
For a second you forget how to breathe. Out. Not win. Not survive a little longer. Out. Your whole body wants to jolt upright, to grab his shirt and demand answers, to shake him until the truth spills out of his mouth. A plan? Whose plan? Since when? Why the hell did he wait until now?
But he is still, waiting for your response in the only language you can safely use. You tap twice again, harder this time.
His fingers start moving once more. A line. Another. You tap once when you miss one and he repeats it. H. Then—
Footsteps.
Both of you move at the same time. Your eyes snap open as you roll up, bow already in your hand. Beomgyu is on his feet in a blink, katana drawn, body angled in front of yours without even looking back. You notch one of your last two arrows, jaw tight, aiming into the dark stretch of tunnel.
“Wait,” he says quietly.
“Beomgyu,” you warn, voice low and sharp.
“Please.”
The word lands between your ribs. Not an order. Not a command. A request.
Trust me.
You hate that he can still pull that from you, even now, even with a thousand questions clawing at your throat. You hate that some part of you already decided before your brain could argue. You exhale slowly through your nose.
“Fine,” you whisper. “I’m trusting you.”
You hold your breath as two shadows slip into view, your body coiled tight, arrow drawn, every nerve screaming at you to shoot first and ask questions never. They are smaller shapes, though, not the hulking outline of the District 4 brute, and then a voice reaches you, soft and unsure.
“Beomgyu?”
You know that voice. Your fingers loosen before your mind can catch up, bowstring easing back with a quiet tremor.
“Yeah,” Beomgyu answers, steady, like he has been expecting this.
The first figure steps closer and moonlight brushes his face. Heeseung.
“Heeseung?” you breathe, lowering your bow a fraction.
“And Ryujin,” he says, motioning behind him.
The second shadow moves forward and your relief dies in your throat. Ryujin’s sword is already up, blade angled toward you, eyes sharp and unblinking. Instinct drags your bow back up despite the fire in your fingers.
“Y/N,” Beomgyu says quietly.
You do not look away from her. The space between you is small, but it feels like a cliff edge. She stands the way Beomgyu does when he fights, loose but ready, like violence is just another language she speaks fluently.
“Y/N,” he says again, softer. “Trust me.”
Your hand shakes as you force the bowstring down. “Your other girl hit me with a rock and probably broke my fingers,” you say flatly, because it is easier to sound angry than scared.
“It was an accident,” Heeseung rushes out.
“An accident with perfect aim.”
“Yunjin thought you were aiming for Kazuha,” he says, glancing at Ryujin, like he was asking for help. “But you weren’t, were you? You were going for Sae.”
“Sae?” you repeat, eyes still locked on the girl in front of you.
“The District 4 girl,” he explains. He lifts both hands higher, palms out. “We’re not here to fight. Ryujin’s going to lower her sword.” Ryujin hesitates just long enough to make a point, then slowly lowers the blade, though her grip never loosens.
“You’re uninjured?” Beomgyu asks her, and something ugly twists in your chest at the concern in his voice.
“Yes,” she says, clipped. “You two?”
“Fine,” Beomgyu answers. “Where’s Kazuha?”
“Scouting.”
“The idiot twisted his ankle,” you cut in, jerking your chin toward Beomgyu. “And your ally turned my hand into a punching bag.”
“My ankle is fine,” he mutters.
“Sure it is.”
“Can you walk?” Heeseung asks him.
Beomgyu nods. “Yeah.”
“We have bandages,” Ryujin says after a moment. She shifts her bag off one shoulder, never fully taking her eyes off you, and digs inside with one hand while the other keeps hold of her sword. She pulls out a roll of white bandage.
The sight of it makes your throat tighten in a way you do not expect. Simple. Clean. Care. You hate that your first instinct is to refuse.
Beomgyu glances at you, something quiet and searching in his eyes. Trust me.
You swallow and hold out your injured hand. “Fine,” you mutter. “But if she wraps it too tight, I’m blaming you.”
The District 2 girl tosses the bandage and Beomgyu catches it easily. Heeseung’s gaze drifts to the faint gray smear on the ground near the wall. “It’s warmer in this part of the cave,” he says, then nods toward the ashes. “You two had a fire?”
“Had being the important word,” you answer.
“Ran out of fuel?” He glances at Ryujin before looking back at you. “We grabbed a few things that can burn. Could you make a fire?”
Both of them are watching you, and it is not just about warmth. It is an offering. A truce shaped like a question. A chance to sit instead of circle each other with weapons raised. You flick a look at Beomgyu. He is already watching you, expression calm, patient. He has decided. He is just waiting to see if you will stand beside him in it.
“We have a plan,” Heeseung adds carefully. “A real one. Something that could take out the competition. But we can’t do it without you. Without both of you.”
A plan. The word echoes, tangled with the letters Beomgyu traced into your skin under the sleeping bag. Trust me. Plan. To get out.
Your jaw tightens. You hate not knowing. You hate stepping into something blind. But you hate the idea of walking away from the one thread that might lead somewhere other than a grave even more.
You meet Beomgyu’s eyes for half a second, then look back at Heeseung. “Okay,” you say. “Let’s make a fire.”
Relief softens Heeseung’s face and he sinks down onto the cave floor, Ryujin lowering herself beside him with far more caution. Now that you look properly, both of them are soaked through, clothes dark with water, hair plastered to their foreheads. They look like you did not long ago. Cold. Shaken. Still pretending not to be.
Sympathy presses at your ribs and you shove it down hard. Sympathy gets you killed.
Ryujin pulls an empty cracker box from her bag, then a small bundle of kindling. You crouch and build the little pile with steady hands, striking the lighter and coaxing the flame to life. It catches slowly, licking through cardboard and dry splinters, not strong but enough. Enough to chase the worst of the chill from your bones. You pull your gloves back on once the fire is going. Beside you, Beomgyu does the same, movements quiet.
“What happened to your allies?” he asks when the silence stretches too long.
Ryujin’s eyes go flat. Heeseung answers for her. “We got separated in the flood. We don’t know where Jay or Yunjin ended up.” His throat bobs. “Yuna didn’t make it.”
Yuna. The girl with the throwing arm like a machine. Relief slips through you before you can stop it, sharp and shameful.
“Yunjin saw you aiming near Ryujin,” Heeseung continues gently. “She wasn’t thinking straight after… after everything. She lashed out.”
“Lot of comfort that is to my hand,” you say, lifting your wrapped fingers slightly.
Ryunjin asks, “But you can still shoot?”
“Of course I can.” Your gaze flicks to Ryujin. “Don’t tempt me.” Her eyes narrow, but she says nothing.
“We’re all on edge,” Heeseung says. “We’ve all lost people. But this plan… it gives us a way to stop reacting and start choosing what happens next.”
“Who’s left?” Beomgyu asks.
The fire crackles softly between you, throwing thin orange light across Heeseung’s face as he sketches lines in the dirt. “Us four,” he says, marking them. “Jay and Yunjin. Kazuha. The two from District 4. The two from District 9 who teamed up with them. The guy from 5 in that alliance—”
“Dead,” Beomgyu cuts in quietly. “Before the flood.”
Heeseung nods and wipes one line away with the side of his hand. “Okay. Is that everyone?”
“Daeho,” you mutter, arms crossed tight over your chest. “District 1.”
Another line. Heeseung hesitates, eyes flicking toward Ryujin. “A cannon went off after the flood. So someone else is gone. We just don’t know who.”
He rubs out one more line. The number left feels small and enormous all at once.
“So?” you ask. “What’s the plan?”
Heeseung sits back on his heels, fingers hovering over the rough map he has drawn. “Jay and Yunjin came up with most of this,” he says. “We just… refined it. The Gamemakers flooded the tunnels. Where is everyone going now?”
Silence stretches. Then Beomgyu says, “Down.”
Heeseung nods. “No one wants to stay up high. No one wants to wander blind through tunnels after what they just did to us. Everyone is soaked, exhausted, and thirsty. The only reliable water source is the river. It circles the mountain. Sooner or later, everyone ends up there.”
He draws a ring in the dirt, then a line through it. His hands are steady, but there is something electric under his skin now, something sharp. You study him differently. He is not just a quiet kid from District 3. There is a mind in there, fast and dangerous in a way that has nothing to do with weapons.
“We stayed near the cornucopia after the bloodbath,” he says, already reaching into his bag. “I found this.” He pulls out a heavy spool of thin, metallic wire. It gleams dull in the firelight. “I work with tech back home. This is highly conductive. There’s a lot of it. Maybe enough.”
Your brain snaps into place before he finishes. Everyone soaked. Water everywhere. Lightning that strikes the cornucopia like clockwork.
“You’re going to electrocute everyone in the river,” you say.
His gaze lifts to yours and for the first time you see it clearly, that fierce spark behind his soft voice. “Exactly. Four people make it possible. Two climb to the cornucopia and set the wire there. Two head down to the river and prepare the other end.”
“How do we connect it?” Beomgyu asks.
You already know. The realization blooms slow and terrible and brilliant all at once. Heeseung needed you. Needed your range.
“Me,” you say. “I stay back. Wrap the wire around an arrow. Shoot it across.”
Heeseung nods, almost breathless. “Yes. We tried to figure out another way, but we didn’t have the right distance weapon. Kazuha’s knives might have worked, but it was a gamble. With you, it’s not.”
Heeseung keeps talking, voice low but urgent, like if he stops the whole idea might fall apart. “It needs force,” he says, looking straight at you. “The charge will only last a second. Maybe less. The wire has to already be in place when the lightning hits. Midnight and—”
“Noon,” you finish, and he nods quickly.
You turn on Beomgyu with a triumphant look. “See? I told you.”
“I never said you were wrong,” he replies, frowning.
“You thought it.”
“Can you blame me?”
“Yes.”
Heeseung clears his throat, trying not to smile. “Ryujin and I go up. We attach the wire to the cornucopia. You two head down and get in position at the river. Everything has to be ready before noon.”
You glance at the narrow opening in the rock wall. Still dark outside. Good. Time. You need time to wrap your head around this, because it is a good plan. A terrifying, brilliant plan. The kind that wins Games. The kind that could also be a perfect setup to kill you and Beomgyu if this alliance turns.
Beomgyu’s voice is steady. “Risks?”
“Electrocution,” you offer dryly.
Beomgyu smacks your shoulder without looking at you, and Heeseung actually laughs under his breath. “Yes, that. You need to be far enough from the water. I mapped part of the arena in my head. The north side of the river has a bend where the bank rises closer to the arena wall. If you stand between the wall and the river there, you should be safe from the main current.”
“We were on the west side earlier,” you say.
Beomgyu blinks. “We were?”
You grin. “You’re not cute enough to be this clueless.”
He scowls and nudges you with his knee. “I knew that.”
“Sure you did,” you say.
Heeseung gestures at the dirt map again. Trying to shake off the smile on his lips with the sight of you and Beomgyu arguing. “North bend. You shoot from there. Wire runs through the water. When the lightning hits—”
“They fry,” you finish quietly.
Ryujin speaks, her voice calm but sharp. “What if someone finds you before then? What if you can’t take the shot?”
You lift your chin. “I’ll take the shot.”
Heeseung looks at Beomgyu. “And if she can’t?”
Beomgyu nods once. “I can.”
You turn to him slowly. “You can shoot?”
“Yeah.”
“How well?”
He hesitates just long enough to make you grin. “I’ve done it before.”
You laugh under your breath. “That’s not reassuring.”
“I’ll manage.”
“Yeah?”
“God, you’re annoying,” he mutters, but there is no heat in it. He looks back at Heeseung. “I keep her safe. She takes the shot.”
“Oooh,” you say, raising your brows. “Personal bodyguard. I feel special. Like I can’t handle myself.”
“If I give you an apple, will you shut up?”
Your eyes light up instantly. “I will consider it.”
He digs into his bag and tosses you one of the last apples. You catch it one handed, pain in your fingers flaring, but you do not care. You bite into it and juice runs down your thumb. For a moment, with the tiny fire dying between you and the mountain breathing cold air through the opening, it almost feels normal. Four kids in the dark, planning something impossible.
You chew, then glance at Beomgyu over the top of the apple. “You better not miss if it comes down to you.”
He meets your eyes, something steadier than humor sitting there now. “I won’t,” he says quietly.
“…So,” Heeseung continues, clearly waiting for the two of you to stop bickering long enough for him to finish. “Does that sound good?”
Your smile fades, slow and subtle. It is a good plan. Smart, even. Too smart and that’s what makes your skin prickle. Ryujin hasn’t said a word since laying out the wire, her gaze sharp and unreadable, fixed somewhere just past you. You can’t tell if she doesn’t trust the plan or if she just doesn’t trust you. Either way, it puts you on edge.
Beomgyu notices immediately.
“Give us a second,” he says.
Heeseung nods without argument. “Okay. Come get us when you’re ready.”
He stands, Ryujin following a beat later. You track her movement without meaning to, the way her grip tightens on her sword as she disappears into the tunnel after him. Their footsteps fade, then stop. Quiet voices murmur somewhere nearby. They’re close enough to hear you if you raise your voice.
“Well?” Beomgyu asks.
You shift, drawing your knees closer, wrapping your arms around them like it might keep your thoughts from spilling out. “This feels… complicated,” you mutter. It sounds weak, even to your own ears. “Why can’t we just kill people the normal way?”
“Wow.” He lets out a short scoff. “It is complicated,” he adds, turning to face you fully now.
“I know,” you snap, softer than you mean to. You rub your thumb against your knuckle, grounding yourself. “That’s the problem.”
You’re burning with questions, and they crowd your skull so loudly you almost feel dizzy with them. There’s a plan to break out- is this part of it? What do you need to do to help? How much does he know? How long has he known? God, you almost want to throttle Beomgyu.
“Hey,” he murmurs.
Your eyes lift from the ground to his face. You meet his gaze, and it knocks the wind out of you a little. Damn him and those brown eyes that always look soft. You want to trust him. You already do, and that’s the terrifying part.
His hand rises and you go still.
Slowly, like he’s approaching something skittish, Beomgyu reaches toward you. For a second you think he’s going to touch your cheek, but his hand drifts past, settling instead at the back of your neck. The glove is warm from his skin. His touch is careful, almost hesitant, like he is asking a question without words.
Then his fingers slide higher, threading into the damp hair at your nape. The contact is light, barely there, and somehow it steals the air from your lungs. It feels intimate in a way you don’t have practice with. You don’t freeze. You never freeze. Snakes are the exception. This is something else entirely. Goosebumps rise along your arms and your thoughts stutter, trip, fall quiet. The arena, the plan, the others waiting down the tunnel, all of it fades to a distant hum.
Gently, he tilts your head forward and leans in. His forehead presses against yours. His eyes are closed. After a second, you let yours fall shut too because you cannot figure out where else to look when he is this close, when his breath ghosts warm across your skin.
“I’m not going anywhere,” Beomgyu whispers. “It’s you and me.”
He has said those words before. Every time, he meant it. Every time, he chose you. He breathes out softly, and you feel it against your lips, your cheek, your skin. “I’m with you the whole way. No matter what.”
His fingers at the back of your head feel like they are burning through the thin space between you. You force yourself to breathe, slow and steady, even though your heart is racing like you just outran a fire. Your shoulders drop a fraction. “Okay,” you whisper back, voice unsteady in a way you barely recognize. “Let’s do this.”
“Okay.”
For a moment neither of you move. His forehead is still against yours, his hand still cradling the back of your head like you are something precious and breakable instead of a girl who can put an arrow through a skull at fifty feet. You can feel the shape of his breath, the quiet tremor in it, like he is just as affected as you are.
You cannot take it anymore. You open your eyes.
His are still closed. You are close enough to see the tiny clumps of his lashes, the faint crease between his brows, the drop of water still clinging to a strand of his hair. You have the strangest, most irrational urge to memorize this. To burn it into yourself in case the world rips him away tomorrow.
Then his eyes open, and you are caught.
You just stare at each other. The world shrinks to the space between your noses, to the quiet sound of shared breathing, to the warmth pooling low in your chest that has nothing to do with fire or blankets. His gaze flickers, quick and uncertain, skimming your face like he is trying to decide something dangerous.
For a heartbeat, you think he might close the distance. You think you might let him.
Instead, he pulls back like he has remembered where you are, what this place does to soft things. His hand drops. The warmth leaves with it, but the ghost of it stays on your skin. You sit there feeling like lightning just struck somewhere inside your chest. Your thoughts move slow and scrambled, like you have been spun in circles and set loose. You are not sure you could form a coherent sentence if your life depended on it.
A wild, traitorous thought surfaces. Did his eyes drop to your lips, or did you imagine that?
He is already turning away, already heading up the tunnel toward Heeseung and Ryujin, like he did not just tilt your whole world sideways. You are left sitting there, staring after him, heart still racing, skin still buzzing where he touched you.
What the hell just happened?
You do not freeze. Bears, fires, cliffs, people trying to kill you. You move, you fight, you survive. Snakes make your heart race, sure, but you still function.
Beomgyu, though.
He did not just shut you down. He made you feel safe. He made you feel sure about everything now.
“Fucking hell,” you mutter to yourself, taking a bite of your apple.
“Now what?” Beomgyu’s voice carries softly through the tunnel, and you look up to see him ducking back into your little nook, Heeseung and Ryujin close behind.
Your cheeks are still warm. You hope the dim light hides it. “Just mentally preparing myself for yet another trek through this mountain,” you say, a little too quickly as you straighten. “Safe to assume we’re leaving soon?”
“We should,” Beomgyu says. You take another bite of your apple so you do not have to meet his eyes. “We don’t know how long it’s going to take us to get out of these tunnels.”
Heeseung is already crouched, fussing with the coil of wire, carefully unspooling a length across the stone. “How will we know?” you cut in, “How much you need?”
“I’m not too sure,” he admits. “I think we know how to get back to the cornucopia. Just keep heading uphill and look for where the ground is still damp. But I don’t know how much we’re going to need.”
“You sure we’ll have enough?” Beomgyu asks, glancing at the wire. “We’re weaving through this whole maze of a mountain.”
He is right. You and Beomgyu do not even have a clear route down, just instinct and guesswork and whatever luck has not run out yet. Your gaze drifts to the small opening in the rock. The sky beyond it is lighter now, a pale hint of morning. Time is running thin. “We throw the spool down the mountain,” you say, pushing to your feet and stepping toward the window.
Silence. When you turn, all three of them are staring at you.
“Are you crazy?” Ryujin asks quietly.
“Yes. Nice to meet you.”
Heeseung’s eyes light up instead of narrowing. “It’s a good idea,” he says quickly. “We toss it out and you two pick it up when you get down.”
“You’re joking,” Beomgyu says flatly. “Someone else could find it.”
You shrug. “They could find it while we’re dragging it through the tunnels too. There’s no perfectly safe way to do this. This just costs us less time.”
“She’s right,” Heeseung says.
“You’re insane,” Beomgyu mutters, and you offer him a small, unapologetic grin.
He turns to Heeseung. “You too? You think this will work?”
You lean closer to the opening, peering out. The sky to the right is paling, dawn creeping closer. “You want better news?” you ask. “This opening faces north.” You glance back at him. “Perfect direction for where we need to be. And we need to move. It took us nearly half a day to hit the arena edge last time,” you remind him quietly. “Now we’ve got that long to get out of the tunnels and cover the ground.”
“Sounds good,” Heeseung says, almost breathless with the rush of it.
“They’re insane,” Beomgyu mutters.
“Or maybe genius,” Ryujin murmurs.
You shoot her a grin before Beomgyu cuts in. “Don’t inflate her ego. She does not need it.”
“He just hates admitting I’m smarter than him,” you tell Ryujin, and for a second, the corner of her mouth twitches. Not so stone cold after all.
“Alright,” you say, stepping fully up to the opening. “Heave ho?”
“One second,” Heeseung says. He wraps the end of the wire tightly around his hand twice, knuckles whitening. He passes you the heavy spool, and Beomgyu and Ryujin each grab their own sections of the line.
Beomgyu’s hand brushes yours for a fleeting second as he adjusts his grip. “Be careful,” he murmurs, low enough that it feels meant only for you.
You nod once.
You lean out into the cold morning air. The drop is dizzying, the mountainside falling away into shadow and mist. With one last glance back to make sure they are all braced, you push the spool out into open air and let it fall.
Luckily, the wire unravels smoothly, the metal whispering against stone as it feeds out. The others hold steady. You lean out as far as you dare, watching the spool tumble end over end down the mountainside. You are not impossibly high, but the drop still stretches on forever, your stomach dipping as it falls and falls until, finally, it hits and jerks to a stop far below.
“It’s down,” you call over your shoulder. “Pull?”
Heeseung gives the line a careful tug. The wire slides without resistance. “Awesome,” he breathes, grinning. “Then we’re set.”
You all move quickly after that. Bags are shouldered, the last faint glow of your fire crushed into cold ash. Beomgyu presses your backpack into your hands, then your quiver. His frown deepens. “Only two arrows?”
“Used a lot on the mountaintop,” you admit. “The flood stole the rest.”
He hands you your bow last, gaze steady on yours even in the dim light. “So you can’t miss.”
“I don’t miss.”
He nods once, like that is all he needs to hear, then looks to his district partner and Heeseung. “Don’t die,” he says, voice rough but quiet.
You shrug. “What he said.”
Heeseung smiles, a flicker of nerves behind it. “Yeah. You too. North side. Between the river and the arena’s edge.”
“North side,” you repeat, committing it to memory. Then you peel off your gloves and hold them out. “Here. I hate these for shooting anyway. You’ll need them more with the wire.”
He takes them carefully. “Why are some of the fingertips missing?”
You open your mouth, but Beomgyu cuts in smoothly. “Don’t ask unless you want a detailed lecture about accuracy and nerve damage.”
You smack his shoulder, but Heeseung only laughs softly. “Thank you. Good luck. Stay safe.”
Ryujin gives you a short nod. It is not warmth, not quite, but it is understanding. For now, that is enough. You part ways at the mouth of the dead end. Heeseung and Ryujin turn uphill, the wire snaking after them into the dark. You turn to Beomgyu, barely able to make out his outline.
“Shall we?” you murmur.
“Is this where I say ‘after you’ and you call me expendable again?” he asks.
“See, you’re learning.”
You cannot see his face, but you feel his fingers catch your sleeve, the only one you have left. “Let’s go,” he says, low and close, and the two of you break into a run.
You move fast through the tunnels, boots slapping against damp stone, breath echoing off the walls. Dawn had been creeping into the sky when you looked out that window, and every second now matters. You have to get out of this maze, circle to the north side, find the spool of wire where it landed, and reach the stretch of river that curves deep toward the arena’s edge.
Two arrows left. One shot that has to be perfect.
Beside you, Beomgyu’s grip on your sleeve tightens whenever the ground dips or the path twists sharply. You cannot see much, but you know he is glancing back at you, again and again, making sure you are still there.
You are.
Eventually, by some small miracle, the two of you burst out of the tunnels and into daylight. The forest is still a blackened graveyard of trees, trunks split and bark burned away, but here and there stubborn threads of green push up through the ash. Life, trying again. You cling to that sight more than you want to admit. You really hope this is the plan to get out of the arena, because surviving long term in this ruined wasteland feels like a slow death.
Beomgyu lets go of your sleeve. He rolls his shoulders, then flicks his wrist, testing the weight of his katana with a clean slice through the air. “Where to?” he asks, squinting up at the sun.
You tilt your head back, judging the light. It is not overhead yet, which buys you time, but not much. You track east, then point. “This way.”
“I still can’t believe you just look at the sun and know where you’re going,” Beomgyu mutters, falling into step beside you.
“What, like it’s hard?”
“I didn’t even know that was a thing before you.”
“Heeseung knew it too,” you say, quickening your pace as you round the curve of the mountain. “I used it all the time back home. I’d get turned around in the woods and just follow the sun. The sun never lies.”
“What about cloudy days?”
“I guessed. It usually worked out.”
He hums, and the two of you break into a jog. Your breath comes faster, the air still tinged with smoke and damp earth. “You think we’ll make it in time?” he asks.
You glance at the sky again. “Maybe an hour and a half. If we’re lucky,” you admit. Then a thought tugs at you. “We could cut time. Find a closer stretch of river. Take the shot from there.”
Beomgyu looks at you sharply. Something in his expression shifts, tightens. “We stick to the plan,” he says, voice firm in a way that makes you straighten without meaning to. “Heeseung’s right. We don’t want to get caught in this.”
Caught in this.
Understanding slides into place, quiet and electric. This was never about the river itself. Not really. It is about where the river runs closest to the arena’s edge. Closest to the forcefield. You are not shooting water. You are shooting the barrier that cages all of you.
“Right,” you say slowly. “We’re safest near the edge.”
His gaze softens, just a fraction. Relief flickers there. “Right.”
“Then let’s go.” You look ahead, heart jumping. “I think that’s the spool.”
You pick up speed, boots crunching over ash and brittle leaves. Beomgyu stays close as you reach the glinting coil of wire caught against a rock outcrop. There is still a ridiculous amount left.
“That was a massive spool,” you say, grinning despite everything. “They must’ve made it up top already.”
Beomgyu lifts it, testing the weight. “Enough?”
“More than enough,” you say, bouncing on your toes with nervous energy. “We could probably circle the arena twice.”
“We should anchor it,” he says, crouching near the mountain’s base, scanning the ground. “If we just pull, someone might look up and see a wire stretched across the sky. That draws attention.”
You wince. Fair. “Find soft dirt,” you tell him, sliding your backpack off your shoulder. “I have an idea.”
“Of course you do,” he mutters, but there is no bite to it now.
You kneel beside him, fingers brushing his as you dig through your bag. The sun climbs higher, light growing harsher, time slipping thinner by the second. Your heart is racing, but under the fear there is something else, bright and fierce.
Hope.
Beside you, Beomgyu is already working, already trusting you to figure out the rest. You dig through your backpack with shaking fingers until you find the knife you took off the girl on the mountaintop. The metal is still scratched and dull with dried dirt. You wrap the wire tight around the hilt, then loop it several times around the blade, testing the tension with a sharp tug. It holds.
“Drive it into the ground,” you tell Beomgyu, pressing it into his hand. “As hard as you can.”
He doesn’t argue. He slams the knife down into a patch of softened earth at the base of the mountain, then plants his boot on the hilt and forces it deeper, weight bearing down until only the very end of the grip shows above the dirt. You pull on the wire again. It barely shifts.
“Ta da,” you say, breathless and a little proud.
Beomgyu shakes his head. “How do your ridiculous ideas always work?”
“They’re not ridiculous if they work.” You flash him a grin and start moving, the spool in your hands turning as the wire feeds out behind you. “And they always work.”
“Dumb luck,” he mutters. “How much time?”
You glance at the sun, already climbing. “Not enough to walk. You good to run?”
“I’ll be fine.”
You both break into a jog, then a run. You trade off carrying the spool, one of you guiding the wire while the other keeps pace. The burned forest opens the land in a way that feels wrong, too exposed, too easy to cross. Ash kicks up under your feet. Every few seconds your eyes jump back to the sky, measuring the sun, measuring the seconds slipping away.
By the time you hear the river, your lungs feel like they are lined with fire. “Wait,” you gasp, slowing to a stumble. “Wait.”
Beomgyu stops instantly, turning back to you. You brace your hands on your knees, dragging air into your chest. He looks annoyingly composed.
“How are you not tired?” you manage between breaths.
He raises an eyebrow. “How are you this tired?”
“Because I’m normal,” you shoot back weakly, straightening. You force yourself into a walk just to keep moving. “You’re running like this on a rolled ankle.”
“It’s fine.”
“I bet it hurts.”
“Only when I step on it.”
“So… constantly.”
“It’s fine.”
You roll your eyes, but the corner of his mouth lifts, and that small expression steadies something in you. “God, you’re annoying. Alright. River’s up ahead.”
The water comes into view, a narrow stretch cutting through the ruined forest. Here it is thin enough to jump, the current quick but not wide. A perfect distraction. You slow, scanning ahead, heart pounding for a different reason now. Somewhere just beyond this line of trees, unseen but always there, is the forcefield.
You feel Beomgyu tug your backpack from your shoulders, and you stay still while he unzips it, too tired to argue. He hands you the water bottle and you take it with both hands, drinking deeply, the cool water easing the burn in your throat. When you finally lower it, you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand. “You’re less annoying,” you say, softer now. “Thanks.”
He rolls his eyes like he always does, but there is no bite behind it. “Aren’t you kind,” Beomgyu mutters, crouching by the river to refill the bottle. Water rushes past his fingers, silver in the morning light. “I’ll purify it. How much longer do you think we have?”
You open your mouth to answer, but a sound cuts through your thoughts. A twig snaps somewhere behind you.
It is faint, almost swallowed by the river, but not quiet enough to escape you. You turn sharply, eyes narrowing as you scan the tree line stretching back toward the mountain. For a second you think you imagined it, just your nerves, just the aftermath of everything. Still, your body does not relax.
“You heard something?” Beomgyu asks quietly beside you.
You nod, gaze still searching the shadows between the blackened trunks. “Yeah.” You swallow. “I think so.”
“Animal, maybe,” he murmurs.
“We haven’t seen a single animal since we got out of the mountain,” you reply, voice low. Your eyes flick upward to the branches, half expecting something to be watching from above. The forest has been too empty, too quiet. Nothing in this arena happens without a reason.
Beomgyu taps your arm gently. “We should go. We don’t have a lot of time.”
You force yourself to move. He jumps across the narrow stretch of river and turns, holding out his hand. You take it without hesitation, letting him steady you as you leap over. His grip lingers for half a second longer than necessary before he lets go and picks up the spool again. With your free hand, you scoop a few small stones from the riverbank, nearly stumbling over a root before catching your balance. Together, you start moving toward the forcefield.
As you walk, you toss the stones ahead of you one by one. The first few disappear into the brush. The fifth one hits something invisible with a sharp crack, hissing as it ricochets back toward you. You flinch, then exhale. “Found the edge,” you mutter, dropping the remaining rocks.
“Could you hit the river from here?” Beomgyu asks, shrugging off his pack and setting it down beside the spool. The wire is nearly all unraveled now, just enough left to reach.
You give him a look. “In my sleep.”
“Good.” His eyes meet yours, and for a moment the air between you tightens with shared understanding. Neither of you looks toward the river. “Then we set up your arrow and get ready for the lightning.”
The sound comes again.
You do not think. You just move. You grab an arrow, pivot toward the river, and fire in one smooth motion.
A cry splits the air.
Your arrow buries itself in a hand that had been reaching from behind a tree, fingers wrapped around a knife. The blade drops as its owner stumbles out of hiding, clutching their wounded hand. They had been crouched low, trying to cut through the wire.
You see someone.
It is Daeho. Of course it is. Even from this distance you can see the ruined side of his face, the ugly slice Beomgyu left behind, his eye swollen shut and purple. A fierce, vicious pride sparks in your chest, hot and bright, because Beomgyu did that. Beomgyu survived him once already.
You reach for your second arrow, but Beomgyu’s hand closes over yours before you can nock it. He catches your injured fingers and you flinch, breath hitching. “That’s your last one,” he says fast, urgent, and you glance up on instinct.
The sun is directly overhead. Noon.
“Fuck,” you breathe.
“Set it up. I’ll get him.”
“Beomgyu—”
“You have a job to do,” he cuts in, eyes sharp, voice steady in a way that makes your chest ache. “We do our jobs. Got it?”
You swallow everything you want to say and nod. “Remember who the real enemy is,” he says, holding your gaze. “Remember who we’re really fighting.”
Yeonjun’s voice echoes in your head, from what feels like a lifetime ago. Remember who your enemy is. You never forgot. Not really. Not even when survival shrank your world down to one person at your side.
It is the Capitol. It has always been the Capitol.
You speak, throat tight. “I got it. Please don’t die.”
His lips twitch, almost a smile, almost something softer. Then he is gone, sprinting toward Daeho, who is dragging himself upright, spear in hand, knife fallen somewhere near the riverbank.
“Not gonna fight me yourself, bitch?” Daeho shouts, voice ragged and cruel. “I know you want to!”
God, you do. But Beomgyu is right. You have a job.
You drop to your knees, shoving your backpack and empty quiver aside. You grab the end of the wire and start wrapping it tight around the shaft of your last arrow, fingers throbbing with every twist. You grit your teeth and keep going until it is secure.
Ready. You reach for your bow. It does not move.
For a second you think your hand slipped. Then you look down and your stomach drops. Thin, pale roots have pushed up through the soil, winding around the lower curve of your bow, pinning it to the ground like claws.
You tug. It does not budge. You pull harder, panic rising sharp and fast, but you stop yourself before you snap the wood.
The Capitol. One last trick. One last hand on your throat.
“Fuck,” you whisper, looking up at the sun burning white above you, then back down at your trapped weapon. You pull again, useless, helpless. Your voice breaks when you shout, “Beomgyu!”
“I’m fine!” he yells back, metal clashing somewhere out of sight.
“My bow!” you cry, frustration and fear tangling in your chest as you fight the roots with shaking hands.
Beomgyu looks over at you and at how you're tugging at your precious weapon, which won't come up from the ground. You see his face go slack, but he barely has time for more than a quick glance because Daeho is in front of him. Daeho is bleeding from his temple, one long slash that runs diagonal across his forehead and crosses the one that's going across his eye, and your panic only increases when Daeho drops his spear and grabs the blade of Beomgyu’s sword with his bare fucking hands.
Beomgyu immediately tries to pull back, but Daeho twists and wrenches his hands sideways. He's got Beomgyu in both size and strength and it pays off: Beomgyu’s katana goes flying, and Daeho lunges at him, taking him to the ground. His hands are covered in blood from where he grabbed the sword.
Fuck, you have to help Beomgyu. You have to. You have to-
You stand up, arrow clenched tightly in your good hand. You won't do Beomgyu a lot of good as you are right now, weaponless, and you have a damn job to do. You stumble towards the forcefield, trying to control your breathing.
Heeseung's words echo in your head.
It's got to have enough force behind it. The charge will last for all of one second, so it's got to be timed perfectly.
Perfectly timed, huh? You can hear it. The hum in the air, the buzz in the sky. You can feel it. You feel it.
Fuck it.
Without even thinking straight, you close the distance between you and the forcefield, arrow wrapped in wire and clenched tight in your hand, and you lunge.
Your arm flies forward and as soon as you feel the resistance, the very second you feel the point of your arrow dig into the edge of the forcefield, there's a resounding zap. You can feel the tingle, the shake of the ground.
For a second, you're gleeful. You timed it perfectly. Then, the lightning courses through you, and you go flying backwards.
Your heart stops before you hit the ground.
Far above the arena, in a room of glass and polished steel, the head Gamemaker watches you draw your bow and aim, not at the river like the others expect, but at empty space.
To the audience it looks like madness. A girl on the edge of a ruined forest, soaked in sweat and smoke, firing her last arrow into nothing.
But the Gamemakers know better.
They know where the forcefield curves, where it hums just beyond sight, where lightning has been striking on a perfect schedule like the heartbeat of a machine. They lean forward in their chairs, fascination lighting their faces, because they see the line you are drawing. They see the wire. They see the timing.
Your arrow leaves the string. It flies clean and true, a silver thread trailing behind it like a stitch meant to tear the sky open. The tip hits the forcefield.
For half a second, nothing happens.
Then lightning comes down exactly where it always does, bright and violent and blinding, and the charge surges through the wire, into the barrier, into the invisible cage wrapped around the arena.
Every screen in the control room goes black. Not flickering. Not glitching.
Black.
The head Gamemaker blinks, waiting for the systems to reboot, for the feeds to return, for the cameras to reassert control over the chaos below.
They do not.
Around him, dozens of monitors reflect nothing but the pale, stunned faces of the people who thought they controlled everything. Technicians freeze with their hands hovering over controls. Someone swears under their breath. Someone else whispers that this is impossible.
The head Gamemaker stares at his own reflection in the dark glass, his mouth slightly open, the illusion of power draining out of his expression one silent second at a time.
For the first time since the Games began, they cannot see you.
And for the first time, they do not know what happens next.
"What the fuck did she do!?"
Beomgyu watches.
He watches as you, the stupid, foolhardy idiot that you are, grab the arrow in your hands. Your goddamn bare hands, and he knows exactly what you're going to do. You stupid, stupid idiot.
So he scrambles. He shoves Daeho off of him, his priorities changing like the flick of a switch, and he kicks Daeho hard enough that he knows he's got at least a second or two to move, to do something, anything. He needs to help you. Fuck, he needs to take care of Daeho first. He told you he could handle it.
Beomgyu scrambles in the dirt, fingers reaching for where his sword was thrown, and just as Daeho lunges at him, howling “You're going to die, Choi Beomgyu!” he twists and swings.
Beomgyu's katana slices off his head.
At the same time, the lightning strikes and he watches. He fucking watches.
The world turns white the moment your arrow strikes, a flash so violent it swallows the sky and the earth in the same breath. Beomgyu is thrown back like he weighs nothing, his body skidding across dirt and ash, stones biting into his skin as he tumbles through the clearing. His back slams into a tree hard enough to knock the air from his lungs, and for a second he can only sit there, dazed, ears ringing, vision washed out by light that does not belong to any sun.
He swears under his breath and tries to push himself up, palms slipping on loose gravel. Tiny rocks grind into his skin, but he barely feels it. His sword is still in his hand out of instinct alone, fingers locked around the hilt like muscle memory is the only thing left working. He squints, blinking against the glare, trying to understand why the whole world looks like it has been set on fire.
Then it clicks. The brightness is not fire. It is not lightning either. It is the arena, stripped bare. The forcefield is gone. The invisible wall that has penned him in, that has caged all of you like animals for the Capitol’s entertainment, is gone. Overhead lights blaze down, harsh and exposed, revealing every scar of the ruined forest, every broken branch, every patch of scorched earth. The sky above looks wrong, too open, too real.
It is down. The forcefield is down.
You did it.
His head snaps to where you were standing. You are a few feet away, thrown like he was, only you did not have a tree to stop you. You lie facedown in the dirt, limbs slack, bow still tangled with wire. You do not move. Everything else falls away. The lights, the smoke, the distant chaos, all of it fades into nothing.
There is only you.
Beomgyu drops his sword without realizing it. He's shaking. It hits the ground with a dull thud that he does not hear. He drags himself forward on shaking arms, breath coming in sharp, uneven pulls that scrape his throat. His heart is beating so hard it hurts, a brutal pounding that makes his vision pulse at the edges. He has felt fear before, in flashes, in the split second before a blade comes too close, but this is different. This is not fear for himself. This is something raw and unbearable, something that claws up his spine and lodges in his chest.
He has lived with anxiety like a quiet ghost in the back of his mind, a whisper that never quite leaves. This is not that. This is a scream. This is a wave taller than he is, crashing down and dragging him under. He cannot think, cannot breathe properly, cannot do anything except get to you.
He reaches you and grabs your shoulder, fingers digging into fabric, into skin beneath it, desperate for any sign of resistance. He rolls you onto your back. Your body turns too easily. Your head lolls to the side. Your eyes are closed.
“No,” he breathes, the word breaking apart on the way out. It is not loud. It is not a shout. It is a plea, thin and shaking and disbelieving.
No.
He refuses.
He presses two shaking fingers to the side of your neck while dropping his ear to your chest, desperate for the smallest sign that you are still here with him, still tethered to this ruined, broken world. He listens so hard it hurts, like he can force a heartbeat into existence through sheer will alone. Nothing answers him.
The silence is unbearable. It roars louder than any cannon, louder than the lightning that tore the sky apart. For a boy who has learned to live with noise, with chaos, with the constant hum of danger, this quiet of yours is the most terrifying thing he has ever known.
“You,” Beomgyu says hoarsely as he pushes himself up onto his knees, tears already blurring his vision, “are not dying on me.”
He said he would get you out. He promised himself that, somewhere between the tunnels and the fire and the way you kept looking back at him to make sure he was still there. You were supposed to make it to the end. You were supposed to see the sky without a dome over it. He cannot let that promise turn into a lie.
CPR. He knows this. He learned it once, half paying attention, never thinking he would use it like this. His hands fumble as he tips your head back, lifts your chin, and presses his mouth to yours. He breathes into you, once, twice, watching for your chest to rise like it is the most important thing he has ever seen.
Then his hands move to the center of your chest, fingers laced together, arms locked. He starts compressions, counting in his head even though the numbers slip and blur. Thirty. It is supposed to be thirty? Is he pressing too hard? Not hard enough. He has no idea. There is no instructor here, no calm voice guiding him. There is only you, too still beneath him.
“Come on,” he rasps, voice breaking apart. “Breathe, damn it. Please.”
He loses count somewhere in the teens but keeps going, because stopping feels like giving up and he will not give up on you. He leans down again, breath into your lungs, willing your body to remember what it has always known how to do. He pulls back and starts compressions again, harder now, panic sharpening every movement.
Your laugh flashes in his mind, bright and stubborn. The way you roll your eyes. The way you always walk half a step ahead like you are daring the world to keep up. He clings to those images like lifelines while his hands press down over and over, each push a silent plea.
“Come back,” he whispers, tears falling freely now, landing on your skin. “Please. You said you weren’t going anywhere either. You don’t get to leave me. Not like this.”
His arms are shaking, chest tight, breath coming in broken pulls that barely feel like enough. Fear wraps around his ribs and squeezes until it hurts to exist. Still he keeps going, because the alternative is unthinkable.
“Breathe,” he begs, voice cracking wide open. “Please baby, just breathe.”
For one horrible second nothing changes, and then your body jerks under his hands. A sharp, ragged gasp tears out of you like your lungs have finally remembered how to work, like the world has decided to give him one more miracle. Beomgyu freezes, eyes wide, hands still hovering over your chest, tears spilling faster than he can stop them as relief crashes through him so hard it almost knocks him over.
Your body jerks like lightning is still living in your nerves. A violent cough tears out of you and you roll to your side, hacking up water and air and the taste of metal. Your hands claw blindly at the ground until one of them catches fabric. His sleeve. His arm. You cling without thinking, and even through your numb fingers, the contact burns warm.
“Beomgyu,” you rasp, voice wrecked and thin. “Did it… did it work?”
For a second he just stares at you like he is afraid you are a hallucination that will disappear if he blinks. Then he moves all at once. One hand slides under your head, cradling it with a gentleness that does not match the blood on his knuckles, and his mouth crashes against yours.
It is not soft. It is not careful. It is desperate and shaking and real. A kiss that says you are here, you are alive, you are not allowed to leave me. He pulls back only long enough to press his lips to your forehead, lingering there like a prayer, before he drags you against his chest and folds around you, sheltering you from a world that has done nothing but try to tear you apart.
There is no grand music, no cinematic swell of fate. Just the sound of his ragged breathing in your ear and the violent thud of his heart against your cheek. His lips had fit against yours with terrifying ease, like something that had always been meant to happen and had simply been waiting for the right moment to hurt this much.
He is yours. Completely yours.
Your arms feel too heavy to lift, but your hands tighten in the front of his shirt, fisting the fabric like you are afraid he might be the one to vanish next. Your eyes sting and you squeeze them shut, telling yourself it is the aftershock, the adrenaline draining out of your system. You know that is only half the truth.
“Yes, you idiot,” he whispers hoarsely into your hair, voice breaking in the middle. “It worked. Don’t you ever scare me like that again.”
The fear that gives him away. It sits wide and unguarded in his eyes, spills into the tremor in his hands, into the way every breath he takes sounds like it might fall apart halfway through. He is on his knees in the dirt, soaked through, bruised, barely standing, and still he holds you like you are the only solid thing left in the world.
You let out a small, broken laugh against his chest, the sound fragile as cracked glass, and then you hide your face in him, fingers fisting into his shirt, clutching at his side and his back as if you are afraid he might dissolve into smoke. He feels you shaking and realizes, distantly, that he is shaking too. The tremor passes between you, back and forth, like the echo of everything you almost lost in a single, terrible second.
He cannot stop the thought that claws its way up his throat. What if you had not woken up?
The world after that is a blank wall in his mind. A place with no sound, no color, no reason to keep moving. He refuses to look at it for more than a heartbeat. He cannot survive in a future where you do not exist.
A distant whirring cuts through the ringing in his ears, low at first, then louder, heavy blades slicing through the sky. Aircraft. The sound of the Capitol, or maybe the sound of the end. He does not know which, and he does not care as much as he should. He moves just a little, trying to see, and in doing so he creates the smallest space between your bodies.
Your hand tightens immediately, gripping him with sudden strength, pulling him back like gravity itself is afraid to lose him.
“Don’t,” you whisper, voice thin and frayed in a way he has never heard from you before. Soft. Scared. “Don’t leave me.”
He folds back around you without hesitation, arms closing tight, chin dropping to rest in your hair. “I’m not going anywhere,” he says, and the words come out rough, soaked in everything he cannot say without falling apart. “It’s you and me.”
Around you, the arena is still ruined, the sky still roaring, lights still glaring down like judgment. But in the circle of his arms, with your heartbeat stuttering against his ribs and your breath warming his skin, the world narrows to something small and fiercely precious.
You're safe in his arms.
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☆⠀⸺ pairing: tribute choi beomgyu and tribute female reader
Your gaze snaps back to the Cornucopia. Bows and arrows gleam among the weapons, familiar shapes that pull your attention. You need them. Your body tenses, calculating distance, timing, the risk of being too slow. Your eyes lift without you meaning them to, and they meet Beomgyu’s. He is already watching you and the world seems to narrow to the space between. “Fuck,” you mutter under your breath. The timer finishes, the horn sounds, and you leap.
︵ ུ warnings: hunger games au! , dystopian , romance , enemies to lovers , slow-burn , politics , societal issues, power imbalance, violence! , mature! , used diff idols as characters , we're now in the GAMES!! MDNI — if any of the warnings above might be triggering for you, please step back. let me know if I missed anything. this is a work of fiction.
︵ ུ wc: 25k — see the series masterpost here. ུ previous part | next part
︵ ུ notes: part one of act two! okay, so the whole the spectacle of fire act is done! but i hit 40k on it so i'm splitting it into two parts for easier read! i'm just letting it breathe a little so the part two will be up on monday! hope you enjoy. 🤍
What’s the survival value of a sunrise?
The next morning comes too fast. Hands guide you where you are meant to go. Voices explain things you already know, or maybe things you will forget the second they stop speaking. You are given your arena uniform, a black long sleeve shirt made of flexible, breathable material that clings without constricting, black cargo pants with deep pockets, running shoes that feel solid beneath your feet. It is practical. Comfortable.
You are ushered onto an aircraft before your nerves can catch up with you, the roar of engines swallowing every stray thought. At some point a tracker is driven into your arm. It is large, a sharp white pain that steals the air from your lungs, and no one waits for you to recover before moving on. You are taken underground to a bunker, metal doors sealing behind you, then pushed toward a room with your name printed cleanly on the front. Inside, the room is bare except for a massive glass tube rising from the floor, a digital timer mounted above it.
Two hundred seconds, it reads. Your heart stutters.
Yeonjun stands beside it, and the moment the door closes he is already reaching for you, fingers tugging at your sleeves, smoothing fabric, adjusting seams that do not need fixing. He talks as he works, rambling instructions and where to keep your hands, his voice trying to outrun the fear written plainly across his face.
You barely listen. You watch him instead, the way his jaw keeps setting and unsetting like he might crack if he stops moving. The panic he is trying so hard to hide sits right beneath his skin, his eyes too bright, his mouth set too tightly. His hands shake when he thinks you are not looking.
“Here,” he says, stepping back to reach for something. He presses a pin into the right side of your shirt. It is circular, about the size of a large button, gold catching the low light. A ring frames the image inside. A bird in flight. “It’s your district pin.”
A mockingjay.
“Thank you,” you say quietly. The words feel too small for everything he has done. “Thank you for everything.”
He swallows and nods, fingers lingering near the pin. “Mockingjays, despite the Capitol’s best attempts, they’re survivors. No matter what the Capitol tried, they never got rid of them.”
It is you. It has always been you. He grips your shoulders, hands firm, grounding. “Trust the pin,” he says, and his voice shakes despite himself. “Trust the pin. Promise me, Y/N.”
“What?”
“I need to hear it from you,” he insists, eyes searching yours. “I need you to trust me. Trust the pin. Promise me.”
“I’ll trust the pin,” you say, without hesitation.
His face softens, “You’ve got this.” He pulls you into a hug. “Just remember who your enemy is.”
You nod against his shoulder, then step back before either of you can falter. You turn toward the tube and step inside. It hums as you enter, the door sealing shut in front of you. The floor begins to rise and light spills down from above, growing brighter by the second. You look back one last time. Yeonjun meets your eyes and gives you a smile that is all faith and fear tangled together, and then he is gone, swallowed by the walls as the arena opens to receive you. The platform shudders once, then stops. You straighten yourself instinctively, shoulders back, chin lifted, forcing your body to stand steady even as your pulse hammers against your ribs.
You are in the arena now.
The sun crashes into you all at once, blinding light so sharp it makes your eyes sting. Heat presses down on your skin, and a strong gust of wind slams into you hard enough to send you stumbling backward. You catch yourself just in time, boots scraping against stone, heart jumping into your throat. You breathe and take in what surrounds you. Your lips part despite yourself. You are standing on the top of a mountain.
Brown dirt and jagged rock stretch out in every direction, uneven and unforgiving. The ground slopes and drops away, the height dizzying when you look too long. At the center of the circular clearing stands the Cornucopia, smaller than you imagined but no less striking, a tent like structure gleaming gold beneath the sun. Weapons and supplies spill out around it in chaos, metal catching the light, packs and tools scattered like offerings.
The arena walls rise around the clearing in rough stone ridges, some towering high, others broken and climbable if you are desperate or stupid enough to try. Your eyes trace the terrain quickly. Tunnels cut into the rock at different points, dark mouths leading somewhere unseen, and your jaw tightens. You curse quietly, wishing for trees, for shade, for the familiarity of forest and water, anything that feels like home. District Twelve taught you how to survive among coal dust and roots, not exposed stone and open sky.
The timer ticks down to thirty seconds.
You force yourself to focus, scanning the tributes around you. To your right stands the girl from District Six, pale and shaking, her eyes darting everywhere at once like prey already running in her mind. To your left is a boy from District Eight, breathing too fast, fists clenched, terror written plainly across his face. You look farther out. Sunoo is positioned across the clearing, too far to reach, but his posture is solid, his jaw set with quiet determination. He looks ready to move, ready to fight for every second he gets.
Your gaze snaps back to the Cornucopia. Bows and arrows gleam among the weapons, familiar shapes that pull your attention like gravity. You need them. Your body tenses, calculating distance, timing, the risk of being too slow. Your eyes lift without you meaning them to, and they meet Beomgyu’s.
He is already watching you and the world seems to narrow to the space between you. I want to be allies. “Fuck,” you mutter under your breath.
The timer finishes, the horn sounds, and you leap.
You should be feeling anxious, stressed, or scared. You should be terrified, bones shaking with the knowledge that the odds are stacked so violently against you. Everything in you should be screaming to run, to hide, to beg the earth to swallow you whole.
But you are not.
Your feet slam against the ground as you sprint forward, faster than you have ever moved in your life. The rock beneath you is brutal, nothing like the soft forest soil on the outskirts of District Twelve. Instead of slowing you down, it throws you ahead, every step sharp and clean, every breath burning in your chest. Your heart pounds, but it is steady. Focused. You dip low as you pass the pile of supplies. The backpack you marked flashes beneath your hand and you wrench it free in one smooth motion, swinging it over your shoulders without breaking stride. Survival secured, for now. Now you need a weapon.
You hit the center alongside the fastest tributes, bodies colliding and scattering in every direction. The Cornucopia looms above you, chaos erupting beneath it. You angle toward the inner wall where the bows and arrows rest, already reaching, already planning, when a battle cry splits the air.
You drop instinctively, heart spiking, and something whistles over your head, close enough to stir your hair. Shouts and metal crash together around you. You don’t think. You scramble for whatever is closest, fingers closing around cold steel. A sword. You yank it free, the weight of it almost pulling you off balance. The blade bites at your skin as you fumble for the grip, nicking your fingers, and you hiss as warmth slicks your palm. It is too long, too heavy, unfamiliar in your hands.
Shit. You don’t know how to wield a sword.
Another cry splits the air and you react on instinct alone. You roll onto your back and bring the sword up in front of you, one hand clenched desperately around the handle while the other slides up to pinch the blade near its tip. The metal shrieks, the impact rattling through your arms and nearly tearing the weapon from your grip. Whatever hit you skids away with a violent scrape.
Your vision finally snaps into focus. It is the boy from District Seven, you think, eyes wide and sweat streaking down his face as he lifts his axe again. His hands tremble around the handle, knuckles white, breath coming in ragged gasps. You are still on the ground. You are still holding a sword you do not know how to use. “I’m so sorry!” he shouts, voice cracking even as he raises the axe high over his head.
The apology gives you just enough time. You roll hard to the side, dirt and stone tearing at your clothes as you tumble away. The axe crashes down where your head would have been, the impact shuddering through the ground. The boy wrenches the axe free and lunges after you, face twisted with panic and resolve all at once.
Then his body jerks sideways. A knife sinks into the side of his head with a sickening sound, and his momentum carries him past you before he collapses in a heap. Your neck snaps to the side, pulse roaring in your ears. The girl from District Five. Kazuha, you think. She stands over him for half a second, expression hard and focused, already pulling her blade free. Ryujin is beside her, moving with the same efficiency, eyes scanning for the next threat. Kazuha glances at you once, her stare stern. Then they are gone, disappearing back into the chaos together.
You lie there for a heartbeat longer than you should, fingers still locked around the sword, chest heaving, mind struggling to catch up. What? Why did she save you?
You scramble upward, muscles screaming as you shove yourself behind a stack of tall supply crates, wood splintered and stacked unevenly, barely enough cover but better than nothing. You press your back to them and try to breathe. The arena is alive with sound now. Screams tear through the air, metal clashes against metal, bodies collide somewhere. Your head spins. You need a plan. You need something solid to grab onto before panic eats you alive—
A strong hand clamps around your arm and yanks. You whirl instantly, sword jerking up in your grip, fingers tight and clumsy around the handle as you swing blindly, heart slamming into your throat. “Hey!”
It's Beomgyu.
For a split second your brain refuses to catch up. This is it, you think wildly. You should have expected it, of course he would find you. Of course he would strike now, when everything is chaos and blood and instinct. He is close enough that you can see the grit on his cheek, the tension in his jaw, the way his eyes flick briefly to the sword in your hands before snapping back to your face. He's gonna kill you—
Then you see what he is holding. Your bow. Your arrows. Your fucking bow gripped in his hand, the quiver slung over his shoulder. He has your quiver too. He taps his chest quickly. Your eyes follow the motion, a gold mockingjay pinned against his shirt, catching the light. The calm you did not even realize had settled over you evaporates instantly, replaced by panic so fierce it makes your vision blur. Confusion crashes into it just as hard. Why does he have your weapon? Why does he have your pin?
Trust the pin. The words slam into you all at once. Yeonjun’s shaking hands. His voice pleading. Beomgyu’s eyes on you across the arena before the horn sounded. Everything collides inside your chest.
“Bow and arrow, right?” Beomgyu snaps, dragging you back into the moment. He jerks his head toward the sword in your hands. “Swap.”
Fuck fuck fuck fuck Choi Beomgyu. You meet his eyes, searching for hesitation, for betrayal, for anything that tells you this is a mistake. You find none. You loosen your grip on the sword. He steps in at the same time, movements quick, shoving the bow into your hands as you pass the useless blade to him. Your fingers close around the familiar curve of the wood and something inside you steadies instantly, like your body finally remembers who it is.
Beomgyu does not thank you. He only smirks, fierce and wild, already turning away. “Try to keep up,” he says, hands grab a random pack on the ground.
"Twelve!" He shouts when you don't respond, "Come on!"
You snap out of it and your feet move, following the dark line of his back through the chaos. Your fingers set an arrow on instinct, muscle memory guiding you as you draw and keep it ready. No one comes close to you. They circle wide, wary, as if the space around you has turned sharp. All around, tributes clash and scatter, bodies colliding and breaking apart again. Beomgyu cuts toward the edge of the clearing and you chase, bow still raised, eyes flicking to the sides in case someone is brave enough to try. He heads straight for one of the tunnel mouths carved into the mountain, and when you reach the edge you look down and your breath stutters. The ground is far below, the forest a dark sprawl waiting to swallow anyone who falls. The height makes your stomach twist, but it also makes something else spark in you.
A way out.
The rock here slopes just enough that you could slide, and you spot a narrow ledge about twenty feet down, pale stone cutting across the cliff. You glance left and right, both ends of the ledge vanish into tunnels that burrow into the mountain, black and waiting. The arena feels wrong, like it is herding everyone into those holes on purpose, like the Gamemakers want the tunnels to be your only choice. You bare your teeth to yourself, the taste of anger thick in your mouth.
Fuck tunnels. Fuck the Capitol. You glance up and find Beomgyu already halfway to the tunnel, one hand braced against the rock wall, the other gripping his sword. “What are you waiting for? Come on!”
You look back at the Cornucopia. Most of the tributes have scattered, but four still linger, watching you like predators. One of the boys breaks from the group and starts toward you. Your breath catches. The tunnels gape behind Beomgyu, dark and swallowing, and you know what waits inside them. No light. No distance. No space for a bow to matter. Blindness would turn your best weapon into dead weight. If you go in there, you go in wrong. “Don’t even think about it,” Beomgyu warns, stepping back toward you as if he can physically drag you the way he wants you to go.
You turn and loose an arrow. The District Four boy jerks aside just in time, spear raised, eyes flashing as if he is deciding whether to throw. You do not have time for this. You do not have arrows to spare. The moment stretches, thin as wire, and something in you snaps. Fuck it.
You meet Beomgyu’s stare once, then vault over the lowest part of the rock wall and throw yourself into open space. Gravity takes you immediately, ruthless and fast. Your free hand scrapes along stone, skin burning as you try to slow yourself, boots skidding and sending loose rock and dust into the air. The mountain drags you downward in a blur of impact and breath and fear, until you hit the ledge below with a hard jolt that rattles your bones. You stagger but stay upright. The bow is already back in your hands, another arrow drawn, your chest heaving as you lift your gaze.
Beomgyu comes over the edge a heartbeat later. You almost shoot him, there is a very real second where your fingers tighten and you consider it, but then his boots hit the stone beside you and the moment passes. “You’re fucking insane!” he snaps, breath sharp from the jump.
“You didn’t have to follow,” you shoot back, already scanning the ridge above you, bow lifted again.
“You’re insane,” he repeats, and you wish you could prove it by putting an arrow through him. You almost do, too, until your eyes catch the pin on his chest and something ugly and complicated knots in your stomach. “Come on. Move.”
He turns toward one of the narrow openings carved into the rock, and you follow despite yourself, walking backward with your arrow still aimed at the sky. You hear footsteps scrape above you and a head appears over the ledge.
You don’t think. You fire.
The arrow strikes true, straight through the center of the District Four girl’s forehead. She drops out of sight without a sound, her body swallowed by the height. Your breath stutters. Your hands shake around the bowstring. You have killed someone. You have actually killed someone.
“Twelve,” Beomgyu says. “Come on.”
Beomgyu’s voice is low and unexpectedly soft. When you look up, his gaze skims your face as if counting you back into yourself, as if saying You're okay. There's no time to break apart now. You did what you had to do. His frustratingly deep brown eyes seems to steadies something deep inside you that you didn’t know was trembling.
You look away, refusing him any vulnerability, swallowing the sob that claws at your throat. One last glance steals up to the sky, a cold blue expanse indifferent to the suffering below, and you let it anchor you. You step forward, into the tunnel, and with each echoing footstep, the world of light and death recedes behind you, leaving only the hum of your own pulse and the heavy realization of survival.
The tunnels swallow sound, swallowing space, swallowing time.
It is dark enough to make your chest tighten, but your eyes slowly adjust, shapes emerging where there were none before, the faint outline of Beomgyu moving ahead of you. Your fingers brush the stone walls as you go, grounding yourself. Light begins to bleed in from the far end of the tunnel, thin at first, then brighter, and relief floods you so sharply it almost makes you dizzy. You have never liked the dark.
The light pours in all at once and you squint as you stumble out of the tunnel, air rushing cool. You find yourselves on a narrow path carved into the side of the mountain, a rough ledge that curves along the rock face, eerily similar to the one you slid down when fleeing the Cornucopia. You are lower now, noticeably so, the ground no longer dizzyingly distant but still far enough to make any descent reckless. Trees crowd closer below, their tops swaying in the wind like they are waiting for you. Beomgyu doesn’t say anything at first. He simply drops down onto the edge of the path, legs dangling over open air like the height means nothing to him. He exhales and tilts his head back toward the sky. “Rest,” he says finally, voice firm. “We’re far away now.”
The moment he says it, your body rebels. Your legs buzz with leftover adrenaline, your chest still tight with urgency. Standing still feels wrong, dangerous. You glance down the path, eyes tracing the curve toward the next tunnel opening that would take you back into the mountain. “I could keep going,” you say, already half convincing yourself.
He looks at you then, unimpressed. “You’re breathing hard,” he says flatly. “You’re tired.”
“Sure,” you reply, swallowing, “but I can keep going.” Beomgyu does not argue. He sets his sword down beside him and pulls his pack into his lap, methodically opening it. He ignores you completely.
You pull an arrow from your quiver, notch it, and draw the string back until it hums with tension, the tip aimed squarely at the back of Beomgyu’s head. Your arms are steady despite everything, despite the adrenaline still buzzing beneath your skin. “Give me one reason I shouldn’t shoot you right now,” you say.
You do not understand him. You do not understand why he is so determined to stay at your side, why he went as far as dragging Yeonjun into whatever silent agreement this is. The questions pile up faster than you can sort through them, and every instinct tells you that evasiveness in the arena gets people killed. Nothing about this makes sense. Beomgyu does not turn around. He does not even flinch. He keeps rummaging through his pack like there is not an arrow trained on his skull. “Yeonjun,” he says simply, as if that explains everything.
And fuck him for it, because he is right. You do not trust Beomgyu, but you trust Yeonjun, and Yeonjun told you to trust the pin. The gold mockingjay on Beomgyu’s chest catches your eye, irritating and undeniable, and it feels like being cornered by your own promise. With a frustrated sound, you let the bowstring slacken. The tension drains from it and from you all at once. You slide the arrow back into your quiver and shrug the heavy backpack off your shoulders, irritation simmering under your skin. You drop down beside him and let your legs swing over the edge of the ledge, the open air yawning beneath your feet. “I hate you,” You mutter, “You’re irritating as hell.”
“Glad we’re bonding,” Beomgyu replies dryly without looking up. He glances into his pack again. “You get anything useful?”
“How do I know you won’t kill me?” you counter instead, eyes drifting to the terrifying distance between you and the trees below. One shove. One misstep. Either of you could be gone in seconds.
“Because I would have already,” he says, finally looking at you, expression flat and almost tired. “Anything else?”
You could shove him off the ledge while he is sitting right there. You could draw your bow and end it cleanly. You do not need him to survive, but you have seen him fight. You have watched him move in training, fast and ruthless, all sharp instincts and precision. In a place like this, that makes him dangerous, yes, but it also makes him useful.
Trust is a luxury you do not have. You exhale slowly, resignation settling in your chest. Fine. You will go along with it. Not because you believe in him, not because you want to, but because the arena does not care what you like. For now, Beomgyu stays, whether you trust him or not.
You set your bow down carefully beside you and let the quiver slide from your shoulder onto the path, the sudden lightness making you roll your neck once in relief. Your shoulders ache now that the adrenaline has begun to ebb. You unzip the backpack you grabbed in the scramble and dig inside, fingers brushing past unfamiliar shapes until you pull out the first solid thing you find. A small box. You turn it over once, then snort. “Crackers.” Crackers. Food.
You have been running on instinct and survival and blood pounding in your ears, and somehow you nearly forgot that hunger will be just as dangerous as any blade in this place. You will have to fight for food here. Every bite will matter. “Dried meat,” Beomgyu says, pulling an item from his own rucksack and tossing it lightly between his hands.
“Rope,” you add, fishing another thing out of your pack.
“Water purifying kit.” You pause at that, brows knitting together. That would be useful, if you could actually get to water. And even then you would still need something to carry it in. As if on cue, your fingers close around metal.
“Water bottle,” you say, a little too brightly, lifting it up. It is light but sturdy, the kind meant to survive being dropped from heights. Durable. Useful.
Beomgyu leans closer, peering at it. “Anything in it?”
You twist the cap open and look inside. Empty. Your brief optimism collapses instantly. “No.”
“We’ll get to water,” he says, brushing it off like it is inevitable. He reaches back into his bag. “Sunglasses.”
You blink at him. “We’re in an arena designed to kill us and they give you sunglasses?”
He hands them over anyway. You slide them onto your face, squinting experimentally. If these are sunglasses, they are terrible ones. The glare barely fades at all. “I’ve seen those before,” Bepmgyu says thoughtfully, and before you can stop him, he plucks them straight off your face. You consider, very briefly, breaking his fingers. “Night vision glasses,” he finishes.
Your head snaps up. “Night vision glasses?”
Beomgyu looks at you then, one eyebrow lifting. “You sound excited.”
You press your lips together, trying and failing to smother the small spark warming your chest, and you turn away before he can comment on it. “How did you know?” you ask instead, letting the question sound casual even though it is not, “about the bow. The arrows. I never told anyone.”
Beomgyu stills for a moment, “First day of training,” he says finally. “You went straight for the weapons. Picked up the bow, set the arrow, tested the draw. Then you put it back the second I walked over.” He shrugs, eyes dropping to his pack as his hands keep moving. “Most people couldn’t even string the thing without swearing. Even Ryujin needed a few tries. You didn’t hesitate. You didn’t think. That kind of ease doesn’t come from guessing.”
The realization settles uncomfortably in your chest. So you were never as invisible as you thought. You huff softly and roll your shoulders. “Guess I’m better with it than I give myself credit for.”
He lets out a quiet scoff, not looking up. “That’s one way to put it.”
Silence stretches between you, filled only by wind and the distant, hollow sounds of the arena below. “Do we have a plan?” you ask at last, staring out over the ledge instead of at him.
He looks up, brows lifting slightly. “A plan.”
“Yes,” you say, firmer now. “A plan to stay alive. Because if you’re tying yourself to me, you’re doing it on my terms. I know where I’m going. You don’t have to follow.”
Something in his posture eases, tension draining from his shoulders like he has been waiting for this. “Alright,” he says. “What’s the genius idea?”
You point down toward the valley, where green presses up against stone like it is trying to reclaim the mountain. “Trees.”
He blinks. “Trees?”
“I need cover,” you say, standing and reaching for your bow. “I need space. I can’t fight properly boxed in like this. Down there I can see, I can move, I can shoot. There’ll be water, wood for fire. We won’t freeze the first night.” You pause, then add quietly, “That’s where I survive.”
He studies you for a second longer than necessary, then nods once. “Fine.”
“Good. Then let’s go.”
He gestures down the path with an exaggerated flourish. “After you.”
You snort. “Absolutely not. Expendable people first.”
His eyebrows shoot up so high you almost laugh. “You’re insane.”
You shrug, tightening the strap of your quiver. “You’re the one who wanted to be allies. Plus,” you add, glancing pointedly at the gear in his hands, “you’ve got the night vision.”
He sighs, but there is something like amusement in it as he slips the glasses on. Without another word, Beomgyu starts down the narrow path, careful and steady, and you fall in behind him, close enough to follow his steps, close enough to hear his breathing, the two of you moving together toward the trees like the mountain is finally loosening its grip.
You hate the dark. Not in the dramatic way people talk about fear, not with shaking hands or whispered confessions, but in a quieter, more practical sense. You simply do not like it. Darkness takes away distance and choice and the space you need to think. You have been in the mining tunnels of District Twelve before, lungs burning with coal dust, walls closing in around you, so this is not unfamiliar. Still, that does not make it easier. In the dark, you cannot maneuver the way you want to. You cannot see an exit before you need it. It presses too close and asks you to trust what you cannot control. Beomgyu proves to be a capable guide, as far as guides in an arena built to kill you can be. His voice stays low and steady as he moves ahead of you, warning you when the tunnel narrows or widens, pausing when the stone underfoot shifts. At one point he stops entirely, murmuring something about a split in the path, and you tell him to take the route that feels closer to the outside of the mountain, closer to air and light. He does not question it. He just nods and moves.
Time stretches thin and strange underground. You lose any real sense of it, but you can feel the steady downward slope in your legs, the subtle promise that ground level cannot be far now. Your calves burn. Your shoulders ache. Still, you keep going. Then Beomgyu stops.
“What is it?” you murmur, straining your eyes uselessly into the darkness.
“It opens up,” he says quietly. “Big. A cavern. Maybe half the size of the training center.”
Your breath catches. Even half that size is massive, a space large enough to hide danger in every corner. “What’s the ground like?”
“Uneven,” he answers. “Real bad.”
“How many ways out?”
“Five,” he says after a pause. “That I can see.”
“Which one do you like?”
You cannot see his face, but you can picture the look he gives you. “Which one do I like?”
You lift a shoulder in a small shrug. “The Capitol probably planted something awful behind all of them. We’re walking into a mess no matter what.”
“Your optimism is truly inspiring.”
You huff softly, fingers tightening around your bow. “That’s me. A glowing beacon of hope. Alright. Lead the way, Mr. Doom and Gloom.”
“If the Capitol doesn’t kill you,” he mutters as he starts forward again, “I will.”
You let out a soft small chuckle, and step after him, senses straining. You cannot see the cavern, but you feel it. The air shifts, opening up around you, cooler and heavier, carrying sound in a way the narrow tunnels did not. The darkness remains absolute, hiding the height of the ceiling, the distance between the paths, the shape of the ground beneath your feet. You move carefully, every step slow, knowing that in a place like this, one wrong move is all it takes. Your toe catches on stone and pain jolts up your leg as you stumble, arms flailing for balance before you manage to steady yourself. The sound echoes too loudly in the cavern, scraping against the silence.
“Watch your step,” Beomgyu says, his voice flat but sharp.
“A little late for that,” you mutter, irritation flaring as you straighten. “You could’ve at least warned me that the ground was trying to kill me too.”
“Quiet.” The single word lands heavy. The tone shifts instantly, Beomgyu's humor evaporating, and you freeze where you stand. Every muscle locks. If sight has abandoned you, then hearing is all you have left, and you cling to it desperately.
There is a sound in the dark. Scratching. Light and skittering, like small claws dragging over stone. Your chest tightens as panic rushes in hot and fast. Capitol mutts you can handle. Mutated creatures, engineered horrors, at least you can see those. This though, this unseen thing moving around you in the dark, it makes your skin crawl. “We need to go,” you whisper, dread bleeding into your voice.
Beomgyu’s hand clamps around your arm and you nearly jerk away on instinct. “Move,” he hisses.
He takes off running and you have no choice but to follow, trusting him blindly because he can see and you cannot. The ground is treacherous, uneven rock slamming into your feet at the wrong angles, ankles screaming with every misstep. You barely manage to keep upright as the darkness swallows you whole. Then Beomgyu stops so suddenly you almost crash into him. There is a sharp whoosh of metal cutting through air, followed by a high, animal cry and a heavy thump against the stone. You both go still. The silence feels fragile, stretched thin.
Beomgyu lets go of your arm, leaving you exposed in the dark. “It’s a bat,” he murmurs, disbelief and disgust tangled together. “That is a huge bat.”
Bats. Of all things. Your stomach twists. “Do you see any more?” you whisper. For a heartbeat, there is no answer. When he speaks again, it's quieter. “We should run.”
“How many?” you press, dread coiling tighter in your chest.
The answer comes in the form of a screech that cuts through the cavern, followed by the unmistakable sound of wings beating the air. “Go!” Beomgyu shouts.
You run. You do not know where, only that forward is better than staying still. One hand stretches out blindly in front of you, ready to catch stone before your face does, while behind you Beomgyu swings his sword in wide arcs. Something hits the ground with a wet sound. Then another weight crashes into you, landing hard on your shoulder. You scream, pure instinct, and slam your bow against it. The thing peels away, but not before its talons dig into your skin, sharp and burning. It was heavy, far heavier than it should have been.
You are no longer running. Neither of you are. Beomgyu slashes wildly, connecting only every so often, while the bats circle and shriek above you, their wings slicing through the air. You swing your bow uselessly, not aiming so much as trying to keep them away, to survive the next second. You end up back to back without meaning to, bodies brushing as you move. The only reason you know he is still there is the solid bump of his shoulder against yours, grounding you. In the dark, with monsters screaming around you, it is the closest thing to reassurance you have.
You hate this. You hate every second of it, the suffocating dark, the shrieking wings, the way the Capitol turns fear into spectacle. Fuck their mutts and fuck their games and fuck the hands that built this place just to watch people break. Your chest burns with it, anger tangled with terror, and it spills out of you sharp. “Give me the fucking glasses!” you shout, voice tearing through the chaos.
Beomgyu laughs once, breathless and harsh, his sword biting into something solid with a sickening sound. “What, you gonna leave me blind in here?”
You know exactly what he means. With the glasses, you could see the exits, map a path, maybe run and never look back. He could not. And yet he is still there, shoulder to shoulder with you, blade flashing, never once turning away even though he could have. The realization hits harder than the fear. You grit your teeth.
“Just give them to me,” you snap, panic bleeding into fury. The glasses are shoved into your hand a second later. No argument. No hesitation.
You drop low, knees hitting stone as you fumble the bow aside just long enough to shove the night vision glasses onto your face. The world snaps into shape. You grab your bow again and stand, breath catching as the cavern finally reveals itself.
Beomgyu had not exaggerated. The space is massive, swallowing you whole, the ground a chaotic sprawl of craters and jagged rock that makes your stomach twist when you realize how close you came to breaking something. The ceiling looms far above, easily twenty feet high, riddled with small tunnel mouths where shadows twitch and vanish. The bats come into focus and your heart sinks. They are enormous, bodies nearly the size of your head, wings stretching wide and powerful. You have seen bats back home in District 12, harmless shapes flitting through dusk. These are wrong, familiar and monstrous all at once, like the Capitol took something ordinary and twisted it just enough to ruin it. You try to count them and fail. Too many. At least a dozen, maybe more. You force yourself to breathe, fingers tightening around the bow as you do the math anyway. Twenty two arrows. That has to be enough. It has to be.
“Get down!” you shout, as you lift your bow, fear sharpening into focus.
Beomgyu drops without complaint, flattening himself against the ground with his sword still raised in front of his face, all sharp instinct and trust. You do not spare him a glance. You pull your first arrow from the quiver, muscle memory taking over as you notch it and draw. The bowstring hums and the arrow flies.
It takes the first bat clean through the face. The creature falls with a shrill, broken cry that echoes through the cavern before it hits the stone with a dull thump. After that, something in you settles, clicks into place. The fear burns away, replaced by focus so sharp it almost feels calm. The bats circle, screeching and darting, waiting for an opening, but you are faster than their hesitation. Arrow after arrow leaves your fingers, each shot true, each impact followed by a cry and the heavy sound of a body hitting the ground. You move without thinking, twisting, ducking, dropping to one knee as another dives too close. Fire. Cry. Thump. Down, down, down. The cavern fills with noise and then slowly, impossibly, it does not. Your chest is heaving by the time you reach for another arrow and find only one left. You draw it anyway, bowstring pulled tight, eyes sweeping the cavern in a full circle. The ceiling gapes above you, empty. The tunnels are still. No more wings. No more shrieks.
Shit. You actually did it. You ease your grip and slide the last arrow back into your quiver, hands trembling now that the adrenaline has nowhere left to go. If you were not still buzzing with leftover panic, you might have called it fun.
“Holy fuck,” Beomgyu breathes. You take the silence as permission and sink down beside him, the stone cold beneath you as you try to remember how to breathe normally. He sits up, sword still in his hands, eyes scanning shadows that no longer move. For a moment, neither of you speaks. “Did you get them all?” he asks eventually.
You pull the glasses from your face and tap his arm with them, done with seeing monsters where there are none. “See for yourself.”
Darkness rushes back in, but it feels different now, quieter. You hear him stand, footsteps careful as he surveys the cavern. You stay where you are, letting the rush drain from your veins, grounding yourself in the sound of your own breath.
After a while, he says, “How many arrows did you have?”
“Twenty two.”
A pause. “You killed twenty one bats.”
You huff, fingers brushing the feathers of the single arrow left in your quiver. “Wow. You can count. Yeah. One arrow to spare.”
“So you didn’t miss a single shot.”
You shrug, a small, tired motion. “Like I said. Half decent with a bow and arrow.”
“Half decent, my ass,” he mutters, and you can hear the reluctant awe in it.
Your lips twitch despite yourself. “Be a dear and collect my arrows,” you say lightly. “Since you’re admiring my handiwork.” He scoffs, but his footsteps move away all the same, metal and feathers clinking softly as he starts gathering them from the stone.
There is an unpleasant, wet sound as Beomgyu pulls your arrows free, flesh tearing in a way that makes your stomach twist even after everything else. When he comes back, he drops the bundle into your lap without ceremony. You count them one by one, grounding yourself in the familiar rhythm, making sure all twenty one are there before sliding them back into your quiver. Only then do you push yourself to your feet, legs still shaky but holding. “Shall we?” you ask, voice lighter than you feel.
Beomgyu scoffs somewhere in the dark. “Which tunnel?”
“Whatever one looks best.”
He snorts. “How the hell can a tunnel look good?”
“Which one’s the prettiest?” you press, because humor is easier than thinking about where any of them might lead.
“For fuck’s sake.”
You roll your eyes even though he cannot see it. “Fine. You choose, asshole. Just pick one.”
He goes quiet, considering, and then you feel a tap against your shoulder. Your hand comes up on instinct, ready to swat him away, but he speaks before you can. “Can you follow?” he asks, steady and serious, “or should I grab you?”
There is no teasing in it. No edge. Just practicality. Back at the bloodbath, the path had been narrow, obvious, and panic had carried you forward without thought. Here, you have seen the ground, the holes and broken stone waiting to ruin an ankle or worse. You swallow. “I’ve seen what it’s like. I’ll take the guide.”
He reaches for you carefully, fingers warm as they settle around your wrist, and then he draws your hand to him. Your grip finds his sleeve and tightens, knuckles brushing fabric and muscle beneath. “You trust me?” Beomgyu asks, quiet but heavy, like the answer matters more than he is willing to admit.
You do not look at him. You do not let yourself think too hard about it. “I trust Yeonjun,” you say instead, because that much is true and solid and safe. “Lead away.”
That seems to be enough. Beomgyu starts forward, and you go with him, steps careful, fingers locked into his sleeve as the dark swallows you both and the tunnel carries you deeper, together.
Time slips past you and by the time you finally stumble out of the tunnels, the sun is gone. Night has settled in, quiet and blue, and the first thing you do is let go of Beomgyu like the dark itself has loosened its grip on you. Fresh air fills your lungs, cool and clean, and it feels almost dizzying after hours of stone and dust. Trees rise up around you, endless and familiar, their silhouettes layered into the distance, and somewhere close by you hear rushing water. You close your eyes for just a second and the arena falls away. You are back beyond the fence, back in the wild edges of District Twelve where the woods breathe and the world makes sense. The feeling hits harder than you expect. Your chest tightens, eyes stinging, because you did not realize how badly you missed this until it was right in front of you again. Home, or something cruelly close to it.
Beomgyu starts toward the sound of water and you fall in beside him. From the mountain above, you remember how the river curved around its base, and you figure if you keep moving away from the stone spine of it, you are bound to hit water eventually. You do. Five minutes later the river opens up in front of you, dark and glinting under the moon. Your throat aches with thirst, your body begging you to drop to your knees and drink until you cannot anymore, but Beomgyu is already pulling out his purifying kit, already holding out a hand for your bottle. You force yourself to breathe and wait. “How long more?” you ask as he tips the iodine into the water, watching it cloud.
“Half an hour,” he says, screwing the lid back on.
You scowl. Half an hour feels like a lifetime. “Tell me you’ve got a watch in that bag.”
His mouth twitches. “Want the glasses?”
You shake your head, glancing up at the sky. “Moon’s enough. I’m fine.”
And you are. After the tunnels, this feels generous. You know how to move in the woods at night, how to listen, how to let your eyes adjust. You grew up with this kind of dark. Neither of you suggests a fire. It would be stupid, loud, inviting. Most of the dangerous tributes are probably still trapped in the mountain, tangled in tunnels and stone, but you know better than to assume safety. Some ran instead of fighting for supplies. Some people do not need weapons to kill. You have seen the tapes. You sit there, side by side, the river murmuring, the forest watching. When the silence starts to itch, you break it. “Why the sword?”
Beomgyu glances up, blade resting across his knees as he rinses it clean. “Katana,” he corrects. “Because it works.”
You snort softly. “You don’t just swing it. You know it.”
He nods, simple and unguarded. “Yeah. This, or knives.”
“Knives,” you echo, eyebrows lifting.
“Mostly close combat,” he says. “But I can throw if I need to.”
You think of training, of how easily he moved, how vicious and precise he was when it counted. You think of yourself with a bow in your hands, how that felt like breathing, and how lucky you thought you were to have even one thing you were good at. Careers are built differently. They are shaped for this from the start. The river keeps flowing. The moon keeps watch. And for the first time since the horn sounded, you are not running.
“What was it like?” you murmur, the question slipping out before you can stop it. When Beomgyu finally lifts his eyes to you, you add quietly, “Being raised as a Career tribute.”
He does not answer right away. Instead, he goes back to his sword, running the cloth along a blade that has been clean for a while now, like he needs something mindless to anchor himself. Finally, he speaks. “Hell,” Beomgyu says, voice flat and honest, and you do not push him for more. Some words are heavy enough to stand on their own.
Silence settles again, thicker this time. It is broken abruptly by music. The Capitol anthem swells through the air, polished and cruel, and Beomgyu’s head snaps up on instinct. You follow his gaze, watching the Capitol seal bloom across the night sky in sharp, glowing lines. Right. The dead. You count automatically, the distant echo of cannon fire replaying in your head. Eight.
The first face appears and your stomach twists. The one you shot. Your eyes flick toward Beomgyu and you see his shoulders sag just slightly, something loosening there. No one from One or Two appears, and the relief that flickers across his face only makes the questions pile up in your mind. Why is he here with you? Why not them? Why not a neat, brutal alliance like everyone expects? You think of Kazuha, of how she moved with Ryujin. Pieces that do not quite fit.
The girl from Five follows. Then both tributes from Six. You recognize the boy instantly, the one who almost killed you at the Cornucopia, and your jaw tightens. The boy from Eight appears next. He looks impossibly young, all wide eyes and soft features, and your chest aches. Then both tributes from Ten fill the sky, and your stomach lurches hard. They are children. You cannot stop thinking that. Children dressed up for slaughter.
The last face flashes into place and the air leaves your lungs. Kim Sunoo. Your blood goes cold and hot all at once, a sharp burn behind your eyes. You had known, somewhere deep down, that he was too good for this place, too bright. His smile comes back to you uninvited, warm and easy, like the world was kinder than it ever really was.
Then the anthem ends. The seal dissolves. The sky goes dark again, like nothing happened at all. Sixteen left. You turn your gaze back to the river, breathing through the ache, swallowing the sob that claws at your throat. Your eyes flicker to Beomgyu and you catch him already watching you, like he has been waiting for the moment you would look up. His mouth parts, like he is about to say something, anything, but you do not let him. “Save it,” you say quietly. “I wasn’t that close to him.”
The lie sits heavy in your chest. Kim Sunoo’s bright smile flashes through your mind anyway, warm and vivid and painfully alive, and you have to look away before it breaks you.
There is a sudden flash that nearly blinds you, the sky splitting open in harsh white light. You squint hard, heart jumping, just in time to see a jagged bolt of lightning slam straight into the top of the mountain. Thunder cracks a breath later, loud enough to shake the ground beneath you, but there is no rain, no storm rolling in behind it. Just that single, violent strike, like the arena itself flinched. Neither you nor Beomgyu speak at first. You both listen, straining for a second sound, another warning, anything. Nothing comes. “Did that hit the Cornucopia?” you ask finally. “Or was it just… random?”
“Nothing’s random in here,” Beomgyu mutters, his eyes still fixed on the mountain, jaw tight.
You let out a slow breath. If there is no cannon, then at least no one was there. Anyone left at the Cornucopia would have been dead on impact. Which means the remaining tributes are scattered now, either lost in the tunnels or hiding down here at ground level. The thought settles uneasily in your chest. There is something else gnawing at you too, a question that followed you out of the dark tunnels and refused to stay behind.
“That was your first kill,” Beomgyu says after a moment, his voice quieter. “The girl from earlier?”
You nod, unable to find words that feel right. He watches you, searching your face for something. “Well,” he says eventually, not unkind, “there’s more of that to go around.”
The words land heavy. You think of home, of Kai and Hiyyih, of whether they are watching right now. You wonder what it looks like on screen, watching you loose an arrow and end a life without hesitation. A girl who did nothing wrong except exist in the wrong place at the wrong time. “I thought I was a good person,” you say softly, the confession slipping out before you can stop it. “Or some bullshit like that. But I don’t think good people kill. Or at least… they don’t kill easily.”
The river keeps flowing beside you, uncaring. The mountain looms in the distance, scarred where the lightning struck. And somewhere deep inside, something shifts, quieter and more dangerous than fear. You keep your eyes on the ground, staring at dirt and stone like they might swallow the words you just said. You did not plan to say them.
“I don’t think there are good people,” Beomgyu says.Your head lifts at that. He is not looking at you, his gaze fixed on the water as it slides past, dark and restless under the moon.
“Good people don’t exist,” he adds quietly, like the thought has been living in him for a long time and only just found its way out.
You listen as he speaks, voice low, uneven in places. “Some people are better than others. Sure. But no one is just… good. Everyone has reasons. Everyone wants something.” He trails off, breath catching, then finally turns to you. “No one’s good,” Beomgyu says, clearer now. “Especially not in here.”
You are not sure if he means the arena or the world beyond it. Maybe there is no difference anymore. The Capitol’s shadow stretches far, into the districts, into people, into choices. You press your lips together and nod once, because you understand more than you want to. “You should sleep,” he says after a moment. “I’ll take first watch.”
Your heart beats once, hard, and then you answer, “Okay. Wake me when you want to switch.”
He does not make a big deal of it. Just a small nod, almost imperceptible, before he leans back against a tree, sword within reach, eyes already scanning the dark. You lie down carefully, the forest wrapping around you, the river’s steady sound easing the tightness in your chest. There is so much you do not know about him, about why he chose you, about what he is really thinking. Tomorrow the Capitol will try again. Mutts, traps, blood, spectacle. You will need every ounce of strength you have. And if Beomgyu is truly on your side, maybe, just maybe, you will live long enough to see another sunrise.
You settle into the ground, curling slightly on your side, the forest cool against your skin. Your eyes stay open longer than they should, tracing the shapes of branches overhead, listening to the river’s quiet insistence as it moves past you like it always has, like it always will. The night is dangerous, you know that, but for the first time since the Games began, it is not screaming at you. It is almost gentle. Your gaze drifts to Beomgyu’s back, the solid line of his shoulders outlined by moonlight as he keeps watch. He does not move much, but enough to remind you he is awake, alert, alive. It is strange, the way a presence that should make you wary instead brings something close to calm. Not trust, not entirely, but a fragile sense of not being alone.
Sleep creeps in slowly, soft and heavy, tugging at your thoughts. The fear dulls at the edges. Your breathing evens out. There is a quiet, unfamiliar peace in knowing someone is standing guard while you rest, even if tomorrow promises violence and loss all over again.
As your eyes finally close, the last thing you see is Beomgyu’s silhouette against the trees, and for a fleeting moment, the world feels almost safe.
You wake with your eyes half-slit, sunlight pressing through your lashes. You had been waiting for Beomgyu to shake you awake at some point in the night so you could trade watch, so the brightness makes your chest jolt. For a stupid second, you think he left. That he took advantage of your sleep and disappeared into the trees without you. When your vision clears, he is exactly where you left him, sitting with his back against the trunk, knees drawn up, sword resting close to his hand. His head tilts slightly, as if he has already noticed you stirring.
He did not leave. He let you sleep through the night.
“You didn't fucking sleep?” you call out.
“Good morning to you too,” he mutters, voice rough.
He passed you an apple. “I've been thinking. You hit every single one of those bats in nearly the exact same spot. Dead center in the face.” he says.
“Yeah.” You glance up at him. “What’s your point?”
“You’re good at this,” Beomgyu says. There is something almost entertained in his voice, as if this is not the conclusion he expected to reach. “I’ve never seen anyone with your level of accuracy.”
You snort and slide the arrow back into your quiver. “When you grow up on your own and you need to eat, you get good at something. Especially with my brother, I picked archery. So yeah, I’m half decent.”
“Your brother?” he repeats, arms folding over his chest, the corner of his mouth twitching.
“He's dead.” you echo, Jungwon's face flashing on your mind. “He taught me that if you hit an animal in the eye, you don’t ruin the meat. You waste less.”
He studies you for a moment, like he is trying to imagine a smaller version of you standing in some dusty market with dead animals in your hands. He observed how you were avoiding the topic of your brother, so he says the next thing in his mind. “You’re insane.”
Your half smile comes back.
“There’s still something you’re not telling me. It doesn’t make sense. I told you I had no interest in an alliance, and you still went behind my back for this.” You tug at the pin on your chest. “What, obsessed much?”
“Obsessed,” Beomgyu repeats flatly, folding his arms. “You’re flattering yourself.”
You tilt your head. “The facts speak for themselves, Beomgyu.”
He straightens when you say his name, and for a moment the air between you tightens. You hold his gaze. He knows you have him cornered. Either he gives you something better than excuses, or you decide what to do with what little truth he is offering. He looks at you for a long second more, then exhales and turns his face away. “My mentor wanted it,” he says. “He saw your Reaping. He suggested it. Kept pushing even after you said you’d go solo.” His gaze stays fixed somewhere past the trees, like honesty might burn if he looks straight at you. “He told me to wear the pin. Said I’d understand once I got in the arena.”
You shrug. “It’s believable that this wasn’t entirely your idea, considering you’ve threatened to kill me twice and complain about me nonstop.”
“You’re easy to complain about,” he shoots back.
“I live to serve.”
Something almost like a smile tugs at his mouth before he can stop it, and the sight of it makes your own lips curve in answer. “So what’s the plan, then?” he asks. “Ally.”
He drags the word out like it tastes bad. “Well, ally,” you echo, just as mockingly, “I was thinking not dying would be a solid start.”
“Fair enough,” Beomgyu says. He tosses his apple into the air and catches it, already moving, sword in one hand and pack settling onto his shoulder. “Then let’s go.”
He follows the river’s edge until it narrows enough to leap across, landing lightly on the opposite bank. You jump after him, boots skidding on wet stone before you steady yourself. “Where to?” you ask, glancing back at the mountain looming behind you. The tunnels still feel like open mouths waiting to swallow you again, and you have no desire to return to them, so crossing the river feels like choosing air over dark.
Beomgyu keeps his eyes fixed ahead, away from the mountain, away from everything familiar. “I want to see how far we can go,” he says.
Something sparks in you at that. “Testing boundaries is one of my favorite hobbies,” you reply. “I’m in.”
You think you hear him scoff, but he does not turn around, and you cannot tell if it is annoyance or something closer to a smile. You decide it is probably the second one. As you walk, the thought creeps in that the Capitol is watching, as it always is. Cameras hidden in bark and stone, lenses drinking in every step you take. You wonder if this is what the audience sees right now, the two of you wandering and arguing instead of killing. Unless someone else is spilling blood, you are probably boring television. On impulse, you stop and raise your middle finger to the trees, turning in a slow circle so no direction is spared. If they are watching, you want them to see it.
You want them to see you alive and you're mad.
“Why,” the President demands, stabbing a finger toward the massive central screen, “is she still alive?”
The room feels smaller when he is in it. Forty gamemakers sit at their stations in tight silence, faces washed pale in the glow of dozens of monitors. Every tribute in the arena is displayed somewhere across the wall, shifting angles, live feeds, no moment unobserved. And there you are, centered on the largest screen beside the District Two boy, arm lifted high, your defiance unmistakable.
Jiwoo, the master gamemaker watches you for a second too long before answering. “She is a fan favorite,” he says at last.
The President slams his fist against the table. The crack echoes. Several gamemakers flinch. One drops a stylus. No one dares pick it up. “She should not be a fan favorite,” he spits. “She should not be alive. She should be dead.”
Jiwoo folds his hands behind his back to keep them still. “We released the bats,” he replies calmly. “Only her and the District Two tribute encountered them. No one else. They neutralized the threat faster than projected.”
“Then escalate,” the President snaps. “You have more assets. Use them.”
Jiwoo’s gaze shifts to the screens again, to the forest, to the two figures moving through it together. “If we overwhelm them too obviously, the audience will notice,” he says carefully. “The illusion of fairness is part of the spectacle.”
The President turns on him, face flushed, eyes bright with something colder than anger. “The only illusion that matters is control. Send the message clearly, put that spectacle on fire. Rebellion does not survive.”
You and Beomgyu walk in a quiet that feels almost fragile until a sharp crack splits the air and a bolt of lightning tears down from a cloudless sky. The sound rolls through the forest, deep and unnatural. Both of you stop at once, eyes snapping toward the mountain in the distance. You cannot see the exact point of impact through the trees, but the peak is still visible above the canopy, and smoke curls faintly from near the summit. It is the second time you have seen it strike there, and with the sun blazing overhead, there is no pretending it is weather.
You tilt your head back, squinting at the sky, judging the sun’s position the way you always have. “Noon,” you murmur.
Beomgyu glances at you. “What?”
“It’s noon. Sun’s right above us.” You look back at the mountain, unease tugging at your thoughts. “Noon and midnight?”
He considers that, jaw tightening slightly. “If you’re right, there’ll be another strike tonight.”
“Unless the Capitol’s just doing it whenever they feel like it,” you say. “Just to mess with us.”
“Also likely.”
“Great,” you mutter. He pushes a low branch out of your path. You duck past before he lets it snap back into place behind you. The forest begins to thin as you walk, the dense cover giving way to wider gaps of grass and stretches of exposed stone. You have been moving for hours now, the rhythm of it settling into your legs, the mountain slowly shrinking behind you.
“How close do you think we are?” you ask, stripping a bit of dry bark from a tree you recognize as good for starting fires.
Beomgyu shrugs. “No idea. Hopefully close.”
You are not even sure what close means, not exactly, but you are glad to keep going. Anything is better than turning back toward that mountain and its waiting dark. You let the conversation fade and focus on the sounds around you instead. Wind slipping through leaves. The soft crush of grass under your boots. The distant rustle of something small moving through brush. You have always been good at listening. Back home, that is how you survived, standing still for long stretches in the woods beyond District Twelve, letting the world speak first, waiting for the faint shift that meant something living had wandered into range.
You slow your steps and try to separate the forest from yourselves, filtering out the rhythm of your own movement. No birdsong, which sits wrong in your ears, but you have heard small creatures scurrying through leaves and scratching along bark. Squirrels, probably. Something to eat, if the Capitol has not twisted them into something else. Then you hear it. Faint, buried under the rustle of wind and branches, but steady. A thin vibration, like a wire pulled too tight.
“Wait,” you say quietly, stopping mid-step.
Beomgyu halts beside you. “What?”
You tilt your head, narrowing your eyes, trying to place it. It is not wind. Not water. Not animal. It hums, low and constant, like the air itself is holding its breath. You take a careful step forward, then another, hand lifting slowly in front of you. Your fingertips meet nothing and everything at once. There is a sharp snap of energy and your hand jerks back on instinct, a startled breath catching in your throat. It does not burn, but it vibrates through your bones. The air in front of you ripples faintly, a shimmer bending the light. Forcefield.
“Well,” you mutter, flexing your fingers. “We found the edge.”
Beomgyu is at your side instantly. “Are you okay?” he asks, already reaching for your hand. He turns it palm up, inspecting your fingertips like you have just brushed fire. “Seriously? You just walked into a forcefield.”
“I noticed,” you say, but you let him hold your hand, too thrown off to pull away. His fingers are warm and careful as they trace over your skin. “It didn’t hurt. Just surprised me.”
“How did that not hurt?” His voice carries something close to disbelief, and something else you do not want to name. His thumb brushes lightly across your fingertips as his eyes lift to your face, brown and intent. “How did you even know it was there?”
You realize all at once how close he is, how long he has been holding your hand, and you pull back, curling your fingers into your palm. Your chest feels tight in a way that has nothing to do with the arena. “I heard it,” you say, clearing your throat. “Didn’t know what it was, just a hum. A buzz. Really faint.”
He listens for a second, head tilted, then shakes it slightly. “I can barely hear anything, and we’re standing right next to it. That’s insane.”
You shrug, trying to play it off. “Occupational hazard. Hunter and all.”
He steps away from the invisible barrier and starts walking along it, keeping a careful distance. You fall into step beside him. His mouth curves just slightly. “Yeah. That fits you.”
You walk beside him in a quiet that feels different now, heavier, like something has shifted and neither of you has named it yet. His hand on yours, the way his voice softened, it lingers under your skin in a way that makes you restless. You have spent days telling yourself not to trust him, building careful distance, reminding yourself that he is a Career, that people like him do not care about people like you. And maybe he still has his own reasons for staying close, reasons he has not said out loud. But the concern in his voice had not sounded fake. It had sounded real, and that unsettles you more than cruelty would have.
“Up on the roof,” you say. “When you said you hated them, was that just to get me to trust you, or did you mean it?”
“Real,” Beomgyu answers without hesitation. He flicks a glance at you. “Though I don’t know why you’re asking when you’re just going to doubt me anyway.”
“I’m trying not to,” you admit, picking at the string of your bow. “Trusting you is just… hard. Given everything.”
He lets out a short breath. “Yeah. Fair.”
“Do you trust me?” you ask.
“Yeah.”
You blink at him. “Just like that?”
“Sure.” He looks at you when you stay quiet, like he realizes he owes you more than that. “I trust you not to stab me in my sleep. I trust your word. Everyone else plays a part in here. Smiles for the cameras. Pretends they’re softer than they are. You never did that. So yeah, I trust that you are exactly who you say you are. And I trust that you’re not my enemy.”
Not my enemy. The words echo against something Yeonjun had told you before the Games began. Remember who your enemy is. It was never Beomgyu. It was never the others thrown in here to survive. It was always the Capitol.
“They killed your brother,” Beomgyu says quietly, like he is stepping into deep water. You do not ask who he means. You do not have to. Your silence stretches between you, heavy and full, and that is answer enough.
“When it first happened, I felt hollow,” you say, your voice far away, like you are speaking through years instead of air. “I barely spoke. Food tasted like nothing. I just… existed. I would hide somewhere no one would look and cry until I couldn’t breathe.” You swallow, the memory sitting sharp behind your ribs. “And then one day it stopped. I woke up and the tears were just… gone. I wasn’t sad anymore.”
You stare ahead at the trees, at the dappled light that does not care about any of it. “I was angry.” The word is small. Too small. It cannot hold the sleepless nights, the way your hands would shake for no reason.
“Mad. I was furious and I stayed that way. Four years of carrying it around. Every step, every breath, just anger with nowhere to go. I didn’t know who I was without it, but I didn’t know what to do with it either.” You continue, voice smaller. “My brother was the soft side of me. After he was gone, that was gone too.”
“And then there was the Reaping,” Beomgyu says, softer now.
“And then there was the Reaping,” you echo. A thin, humorless smile pulls at your mouth. “I hate admitting it, but part of me felt relieved. Like finally, all that anger had a direction. A target, better than letting it rot inside me for the rest of my life.”
He studies you for a moment, something unreadable in his expression. “You talk like you’re planning to die in here.”
“Aren’t I, though?” You glance at him, lips curving faintly. “You really think that even if, by some miracle, I’m the last one left in here, the Capitol’s just going to let me live?”
He watches you for a second, face carefully blank. “They’d catch hell if they killed you after you won.”
You shake your head, a dry sound leaving your throat. “No. They’d make it look like something else. An accident. A mistake. Like what they did to my brother.”
Beomgyu exhales through his nose. “You heard it here first,” he says, voice low and edged. “If Twelve dies in some tragic, suspicious way, it wasn’t her idea.”
You laugh, and the sound surprises you with how real it is. It feels strange in your chest, like a memory from another life. “You can stop calling me Twelve, by the way. I do have a name.”
“What do you want me to call you?”
“My name would be a start.”
His mouth twitches. “Yeah? You’re okay with that?”
“Mm.”
He says your name, testing it, and it sounds unfamiliar coming from him, like it belongs to someone else. You huff under your breath, not sure what to do with the way it lands. He looks like he is about to say more when a sharp, high-pitched beep cuts through the air. Both of you freeze, heads snapping up, hands tightening around your weapons. The trees are thinner here, the sky more open, and it only takes a second to spot the silver shape drifting down. A small parachute. A sponsor gift.
“That’s for you,” you say. “I’m pretty sure my mentor has written me off.”
Beomgyu lets out a quiet breath that almost sounds like a laugh but does not argue. He steps forward and catches the package as it drops, and the beeping stops the moment it hits his hands. You watch as he peels back the wrapping and opens the small box inside. He pauses before touching what is in it, pulling out a folded slip of paper first. His eyes move over the words, then he hands it to you. You read it with a faint frown.
Don’t mention the scent. - S
“They’re from my mentor,” Beomgyu says quietly, holding your gaze a moment longer than usual. There is weight in the look, a silent reminder to remember the note, to act like nothing is strange. You give a small nod and hand the paper back, understanding enough not to question it out loud.
“What did you get?” you ask.
He reaches into the package and pulls out a pair of gloves. Your eyebrows lift immediately. They are sleek and dark, made from material far too fine for anything you have ever owned. Beomgyu slides one on, and it molds to his hand like it belongs there. He flexes his fingers, studying the fit. “Durable and light,” he murmurs. “We trained with these back home. They’re good.”
Gloves seem like an odd gift in the middle of a killing field, but then he reaches back into the box and pulls out a second pair. He holds them out to you. You hesitate only a second before taking them. The material is smooth, almost like leather, but thinner, lighter. You slide one on and your mouth curves before you can stop it. It fits perfectly, warming quickly against your skin. You flex your hand, testing the grip. “Wow,” you breathe, turning your wrist in the light.
Then you notice it. A faint scent clinging to the fabric. You keep your expression neutral as you draw in a careful breath. It smells like roses, soft and clean and completely out of place here. Not unpleasant, just… deliberate. You say nothing. Do not mention the scent. You are not sure why it matters, but you trust the urgency behind it. “Your mentor sent a pair for me too?” you ask, sliding on the second glove. “That was nice of them.”
“Or maybe our mentors coordinated,” Beomgyu says, flexing his fingers again like he still cannot quite believe the fit.
You snort. “Minho coordinating anything would be a miracle.”
His mouth twitches and you grin back without thinking. The moment passes quickly, and he looks back toward the open stretch of land behind you. “We’ve hit the edge. Nothing out here but the forcefield. If we want water, we should head back toward the river. We can make it before dark.”
You nod and turn, starting the long walk back toward the mountain. He falls into step beside you. “Do we have dinner plans?” you ask lightly.
“We still have some apples left,” he says without missing a beat.
After a few steps, you stop and turn toward him, holding out your hand. He looks at it, then at you, clearly unsure what you are doing. “Allies,” you say.
His brows lift. “We weren’t already?”
“No. I didn’t trust you. And you were annoying.”
“Were?”
“Are. Sorry. Present tense.”
His lips curve before he reaches out and clasps your hand, shaking it once. “Allies, then. Even if you’re insufferable.”
“Rich, coming from the guy who keeps twirling his sword like he’s fighting ghosts,” you shoot back, starting to walk again.
“It’s a katana,” he says, matching your pace. “And I’m keeping my wrist loose.”
“You don’t see me shooting imaginary people.”
“Shut up.”
“You shut up.” It is stupid and pointless and strangely easy, this back and forth, and for a little while the forest does not feel quite so suffocating as the two of you head back toward the mountain together. For a little while, you have a small smile on your face.
You reach the river while there is still plenty of light left in the sky, and the two of you waste no time setting up a small fire. The air is cool near the water, the sound of it moving over stone a steady backdrop. Between the two of you, you have a fair amount of supplies for now. Crackers, dried meat, a few apples. You both nibbled on some of the crackers earlier, but you know better than to rely on that kind of food for long. While Beomgyu settles to rest, you sit back on your heels and peel off your gloves, setting them beside your pack. They are good, better than anything you have ever worn, but your bow matters more than comfort. You dig your knife out and start carefully working at the fingertips of one glove, slicing away small sections.
Gloves are safer. You know that. Your brother used to scold you about it all the time, pressing worn leather guards into your hands and telling you that protecting your fingers meant protecting your future shots. Maybe if you had time, you could get used to these, adjust to the slight difference in feel. But time is the one thing you do not have. You have been shooting for nine years. The pads of your fingers are already thick with scars and calluses, nerves dulled and skin long past saving. A little more damage will not change much. What will change things is a shot that misses by even a few centimeters because you could not feel the string right. So you keep cutting, shaping the glove into something you can live with, something that lets you survive.
“You’re cutting the fingers off your gloves,” Beomgyu says, breaking the quiet. “How stupid can you be?”
“I need to shoot,” you say, sawing carefully through the tip of the glove’s middle finger. “And I need to be exact. I can’t afford anything between my fingers and the string.”
“That’s how you ruin your hands.”
“Probably.”
He shifts closer, frowning. “I’ve trained with a bow. Safety gear is non negotiable. Gloves are important. You can mess up the nerves in your fingers.”
“Already did.”
His head jerks slightly. “Already did?”
You look up at him, unimpressed. “I’ve been shooting since I was nine. You do the math.”
He does not look convinced. “All those years and you never wore gloves.”
“I tried,” you say, pausing your cutting. “My dad had an old pair. Took days to adjust. My aim went to hell. That’s days without food. Days without anything to trade. We didn’t have the luxury of practice mistakes.”
He goes quiet at that, and you know he does not fully understand. How could he? In your district, skill meant survival. If you could not bring something back, you did not eat. Simple as that. You force your shoulders to loosen. “I did try,” you add, softer. “It was fine, eventually. But the pain stopped after a while. Just numb. Couldn’t really feel much.”
“That would be nerve damage,” he says quietly.
You give him a thin smile. “Then yeah. Guess I have nerve damage.”
He looks at your hands, then back toward the direction of the forcefield. “That’s probably why you didn’t feel it much.”
You blink. “What?”
“The shock. It should have burned. You barely reacted.”
The realization settles slowly. You think about picking up hot pots and not noticing right away, about holding your fingers too close to flame without feeling the heat. Things you never questioned because you were always trying to survive.
“Huh,” you murmur, slicing off another fingertip of the glove. “Guess that explains it. One down.”
“You’re insane,” Beomgyu says, though there is less bite in it now.
You lean back slightly, bow resting in your hand as the light begins to thin between the trees. Night creeps in, soft and quiet. Part of you wishes for the fancy night vision goggles Careers get, but you do not really need them. You hunted in the dark plenty of times back home, when animals were bolder and the woods belonged to you. The moonlight here is more than enough. Maybe fifteen or twenty minutes pass before your eyes snag on a ripple in the grass. You are moving before you even think about it, an arrow already notched, bow lifting in one smooth motion. Your breathing slows, your world narrowing to the faint sway of green blades under moonlight. It could be food. It could be a mutt. With the Capitol, there is no harmless option.
The movement disappears, but you hold your aim, string drawn tight, muscles steady. You wait. Another shift, low and quiet, only a few feet from where Beomgyu sits. You track the sound, heart thudding in your ears. A small shape parts the grass and a narrow head rises into view, and you release.
The arrow strikes clean, and a thin, strangled sound slips into the night as the body collapses. Beomgyu is on his feet in an instant, blade out, eyes sweeping the area. He follows the line of your shot. “Careful,” you call down. “I don’t know what it is.”
He approaches cautiously and nudges the body with the tip of his sword. “Get down here,” he says quietly.
You sling your pack and quiver over your shoulder and climb down, bow still in hand, fingers gripping bark as you descend. When your boots hit the ground, you move to his side and look. Your stomach tightens. “Is that a…”
“It’s a snake,” Beomgyu says.
You crouch slowly. It is long but thin, its scales a dull green that melts into the grass. No wonder you almost missed it. Your hands shake slightly as you pull your arrow from its skull and slide it back into your quiver. You hate snakes. Always have. Too quiet, too sudden. District Twelve had plenty, and none of those encounters had ended gently.
“You think it’s alone?” Beomgyu asks.
You open your mouth to answer, but a cold prickle crawls up your spine. You freeze, head lifting, ears straining. Then you hear it. Hissing.
Snakes. Of all the things the Capitol could have thrown at you, it had to be snakes. You could handle claws and wings and teeth, but this, this crawls under your skin in a way nothing else does. Your hands shake as you notch an arrow, breath coming in shallow pulls. “Fuck, fuck, fuck,” you mutter, barely aware you are speaking out loud.
“You had snakes back home?” Beomgyu asks quietly, eyes never leaving the shifting grass.
“Some,” you manage, though the word sticks in your throat. He glances at you then, catching the edge of panic you cannot hide. The grass ahead ripples again. Your vision starts to narrow, the world shrinking down to that sound, that movement. You feel like you might choke on the air.
Beomgyu’s hand finds the back of your shirt and gives a firm, careful tug. You step back with him, slow and controlled, boots sinking into the damp earth near the river. His palm presses lightly between your shoulder blades, steadying you, keeping you from bolting or freezing completely. You stop at the water’s edge, bow still raised, string taut.
The grass parts. A narrow head rises, tongue flicking.
You draw back fully, ready to release, but more movement ripples through the green. Another snake slides into view, then another, scales catching the faint light. The grass seems to come alive, writhing and spilling forward. There are too many. Green black bodies twisting over one another, pouring out like the ground itself has turned against you. You could empty your entire quiver and it would not matter. Your heart slams against your ribs, breath shaking, eyes burning. For a second, you think you might break, right here, in front of him.
It feels personal, like the arena reached into your worst memories and dragged them out into the open. You know that is not how it works, that the Capitol cannot possibly know this fear so well, but the cruelty of it still lands deep, sharp and deliberate all the same.
“Hey,” Beomgyu says quietly beside you. “Stay with me.”
“Trying,” you breathe, teeth clenched so tight your jaw aches.
The snakes keep coming, but they do not strike. They fan out across the grass in slow, sinuous waves, heads lifting, tongues flicking as if tasting the air. Your arrow feels useless now, a single thread against a living carpet. You ease the tension on the string and slide the arrow back into your quiver, fingers clumsy. Your other hand pulls your knife free instead, the familiar weight grounding in a way the bow suddenly is not. They are not lunging. Not coiling to strike. They are circling. Curious. Testing. Why?
A scream rips through the trees and you flinch so hard it hurts. Beomgyu’s hand closes around your arm, firm and steady, keeping you from folding in on yourself. Both of you turn toward the sound. Even the snakes seem to pause, heads angling the same way. Another scream, closer now, ragged with terror. Branches thrash and a tribute bursts from the treeline and into the river, stumbling, splashing. You recognize him too late.
“District Seven,” Beomgyu murmurs.
Some of the snakes peel away from you at once, drawn to the chaos like iron to a magnet. You cannot move. The boy in the water thrashes, voice breaking as he shouts for something, anything. Then the snakes surge. They pour off the bank and into the river in a writhing wave of bodies, climbing over him, wrapping, biting. His screams turn sharp and frantic, then hoarse, then nothing. The water churns around him until his limbs stop fighting and go slack.
The cannon fires. The sound echoes through your bones. You swallow hard against the sob rising in your throat. Venom. Of course. Of course the Capitol would send something that kills slow and painful. But the question pounds in your skull. Why not you?
“Not the water,” Beomgyu says under his breath. “Trees. We climb.”
“Why aren’t they attacking us?” you whisper, air snagging in your chest. He does not answer, but he moves, hand slipping from your arm as he heads for the nearest tree. Instantly, several snakes lift higher, tracking him.
And then it clicks. Don’t mention the scent. The gloves. You look at him and he looks back, and in that moment something passes between you, a silent understanding that feels bigger than fear.
“Y/N,” he says, soft but urgent. “Come on.”
Hearing your name steadies you in a way nothing else can. You grab the bark and pull yourself up, muscles trembling, heart slamming. Beomgyu climbs beside you, close enough that you can hear his breath. The snakes swarm the base of the tree, bodies piling and twisting over one another like a living nightmare.
“Holy fuck,” you whisper.
“Keep going,” he says.
You climb higher, until the ground feels like another world. Slowly, the sounds below soften, the mass of scales spreading out again into the grass. Your breathing steadies. Your hands stop shaking. The night air feels thin and cold in your lungs. You look down at the shifting dark below, at the place that tried to swallow you whole, and you lift your hand toward the sky, middle finger raised to the invisible eyes watching from above. Up here, with bark under your palms and Beomgyu close enough to feel, you realize something quiet and fierce. The arena is designed to break you, to turn you into something small and desperate. But you are still here. Still choosing. Still fighting.
And you are not alone in it.
The anthem jerks Beomgyu awake, the sound echoing thin and distant through the trees. He does not need to look to know whose face will be in the sky. A second later, lightning cracks down onto the mountain peak, bright and violent against the dark. Midnight, then. The pattern holds.
He shifts carefully, trading the rope to you and helping tie you in with steady hands. You barely stir, exhaustion dragging you under the second you settle back against the trunk. Your head tips to the side, fingers still curled tight around your knife even in sleep. He looks down. The snakes have thinned, only the occasional ripple in the grass hinting that a few still linger. By morning, he hopes, they will be gone.
His gaze drifts back up to you. You have been sharp edged and unshakable since the Reaping, moving through danger like you were built for it. Seeing fear crack through you tonight had done something to him. It had made you real in a way the cameras never could. Not just the girl who flips off the sky and shoots things dead between the eyes, but a person. A person who has lost too much and is still standing anyway.
And you have no idea what is really happening.
He knows you have sensed it, that something about him does not quite add up. You are too perceptive not to. The question coils in his chest. Should he tell you? Soobin would not hesitate to say no. This is not part of the plan.
But the thought will not leave him.
He wants to tell you everything. Why he pushed for this alliance. What the pin meant. Why your survival matters more than you think. You walk around convinced you are already dead, that the Capitol will never let you leave alive. He knows that is not true. Not if he can help it. The thought lands hard.
Since when did your survival become something he feels in his chest like this?
He was supposed to play his role, keep the audience watching, buy time. Soobin had made it clear. If that meant you died later, that was acceptable. Necessary, even.
It is not acceptable anymore.
He watches the slow rise and fall of your chest, the way your grip never loosens on your knife even in sleep. You are reckless and stubborn and infuriating, and he cannot imagine this arena without you in it. You are sharp, quick witted, terrifying with a bow. Your senses are tuned to the forest like you belong to it. You do not deserve this place, but it fits you in a way that makes his chest ache.
You are exactly what Soobin needed and that realization hurts more than he expects.
Because now you are not just part of a plan. You are you. The girl who laughs too loudly at her own jokes, who flips off the sky like it can feel insult, who is still soft enough to break over snakes and still fierce enough to climb anyway. Beomgyu looks out into the dark and makes a promise he does not fully understand. Whatever the plan was supposed to be, whatever he was meant to sacrifice, he is getting you through this.
He will see you alive at the end of it, even if it means tearing the rest of the script to pieces.
You're shaken awake by Beomgyu jostling you around, yelling in your ear.
“Fire, come on, come on!” Beomgyu is saying, already fumbling with the rope at your waist. You surface from sleep into chaos. Smoke claws into your lungs before your eyes even focus. You blink hard, trying to understand, and then the world snaps into place all at once. Dark gray smoke rolls through the trees, thick and choking. Below, flames tear through the underbrush, bright and hungry, racing up trunks and leaping from branch to branch.
“What the hell!” you cough, fingers shaking as you fight with the knot. “Why didn’t you wake me?”
“It just started!” Beomgyu shouts over the roar. “Everything went up at once!”
You believe him. This is too fast, too sudden, too clean to be anything but the Capitol’s hand. The rope finally comes free and you stuff it into your bag, grabbing your things as Beomgyu swings himself down. There is a loud crack and the trunk jerks beneath you. The tree is going. No time to climb.
“Jump!” you yell.
“What?” You scan once and spot another tree only a few feet away that is still standing. You do not let yourself think. You leap.
Branches slam into your arms and chest as you crash into the other tree, hands grabbing for anything solid. Your pack nearly slides off your shoulder but you wrench it back into place. The gloves scrape against bark instead of skin, saving you from tearing your palms open. You twist back toward the falling tree. “Beomgyu!” you shout, reaching out.
He swears and launches himself across. His hand catches your forearm and you clamp down on his wrist, muscles screaming as his weight drags you down. His boots scramble uselessly for a second, sword still clutched in his other hand, before he manages to hook an arm over a branch. You haul back with everything you have and he pulls himself the rest of the way in. He squeezes your arm once. No words. There is no air for them anyway.
You start down the tree fast, smoke burning your throat. When you are close enough, you drop. The heat hits like a wall. Flames swallow the forest in every direction, devouring leaves and branches in seconds.
There is only one direction that is not already gone, back toward the mountain through whatever stretch of forest is still standing. Toward the place you swore you would not return to, because it is the only place left to run.
You risk one glance back at the tree just to make sure he is there. Beomgyu is almost down, slower with one hand tied up by his sword, boots slipping on bark blackened by heat, but he makes it. Relief hits you sharp and quick, gone just as fast because there is no time to feel it. You already have your bow, quiver, and pack slung over your shoulders, so you hit the ground running as soon as he does. He lands hard, coughs like his lungs are tearing themselves apart.
“Mountain!” you shout.He nods once, short and tight, and you both run.
You vault over a fallen trunk, boots pounding earth that is already too hot, and sprint for the river. You hit the narrowest point and jump. Your foot skids on the opposite bank, shoe plunging into the water, but you do not slow. You cannot. You will not. Something flares in the corner of your vision. You turn your head and your stomach drops.
A fireball is screaming toward you.
“Down!” You grab Beomgyu by the shoulder and drag him with you as you slam into the ground. The heat roars over your back as the fireball tears through the air where your heads had just been.
“Go, go,” he chokes, voice shredded.
You shove yourself upright. He is still moving. That is enough for now. You run again, batting at your sleeve when you realize it is on fire. When did that happen? You smack the flames out with your palm and keep going, lungs burning, vision blurring. Forward, you tell yourself. Just forward.
Another roar splits the air. You do not even think. You drop again, dragging Beomgyu down with you. He nearly crashes on top of you, catches himself with a hand inches from your face. The fireball whistles past, close enough that you feel the skin on your neck prickle.
“Up,” you rasp, but when he stands he stumbles.
Your heart lurches. Is he choking on smoke? Is there something in it? Of course there is. Of course the Capitol would lace the air with something just to make it worse. Do not you dare pass out, you think wildly, eyes locked on him. Not here. Not now.
The mountain looms ahead, dark stone rising through smoke like a promise and a threat all at once. You grab him with one hand, fingers digging into his arm, and with the other you clutch your knife like it might cut through fire itself. You haul him toward the tunnel entrance, boots slipping on loose rock.
They are trying to split us, you think. Flush us out. Herd us like animals. You will not let them take him. Not like this. Not burning. Not choking.
You drag Beomgyu over the threshold and into the tunnel, heat falling away in a rush that almost makes you dizzy. The air is cooler but thick with dust and stone. You both collapse a few steps in, coughing hard.
You turn to him immediately. “Breathe,” you say, even though you are barely managing it yourself. “Come on. Stay with me.”
His eyes are red, watering, but they find you. “You’re on fire,” he croaks.
“I put it out,” you snap, then softer, “I’m fine. Are you fine?”
He nods, then shakes his head like he cannot decide. You feel his eyes scan you and you almost laugh. He is the one who could barely walk and he is checking you. Even now. Even like this. You want to yell at him and thank him at the same time.
One hand locks around Beomgyu’s arm while the other grips your knife so tight your knuckles ache. You drag him over the stone lip and into the tunnel, boots scraping rock, lungs clawing for air that does not taste like smoke. Heat chases you to the entrance, snapping at your back like a living thing, but each step into the mountain steals a little of its bite. Darkness closes in fast, thick and swallowing, the kind you used to dread, the kind you swore you would never choose again. Still, you pull him deeper, coughing, blinking tears from your eyes, trading fire and light for cold stone and shadow because at least down here the Capitol cannot burn you alive.
By the time you drag Beomgyu into one of the tunnel entrances, he sounds like he is hacking up a lung. He has not spoken since the fire started, and you tell yourself it is just the adrenaline wearing off, the smoke finally catching up to him. The two of you sink to the ground a few meters in, still coughing, gasping, bodies folding in on themselves as you fight to clear your throats.
Your head swims as you try to think. District 12. The mines. Tunnel collapses. You remember the men who made it out, faces grey with dust, lungs sounding like they were tearing themselves apart. You had been a kid then, watching from too far away, convinced they were going to cough something vital out onto the ground. What did they do after? Sit upright. Slow breaths. Deep in, deep out.
You force yourself to straighten, pressing your back against the cold stone wall. Every inhale burns, every exhale rattles, but you keep going, counting it out in your head until the panic loosens its grip just a little. You turn to Beomgyu, voice shredded as it claws its way out of your throat. “Beomgyu,” you croak. “Sit up. It helps.”
He fumbles with his pack, sword slipping from his hand and clattering uselessly against the stone as he drags himself upright. You do not waste a second. You reach for his bag, fingers shaking as you dig until you find the water bottle. You are not sure if water helps with smoke inhalation. You are not sure of much right now. But you take a sip and the fire in your throat eases, just enough for you to decide it is better than nothing. You crawl closer to him, knees scraping stone, and when you are within reach you take his hand. Talking hurts too much, so you keep it simple. “Water,” you manage. “Tap twice for yes. Once for no.”
He is coughing too hard to nod, chest heaving, but his fingers move against yours. Twice. Yes.
You uncap the bottle and press it into his hand. He drinks like he has been stranded in the desert, gulping down at least half of it, choking as it goes down too fast. You stay close, one hand settling on his shoulder, telling yourself it is to steady him, to help if he collapses. You do not question the way you need the contact, the solid reassurance that he is still here, still breathing. When he finally lowers the bottle, he passes it back to you. You finish what is left, the water cool and grounding as it slides down your throat. “I’ll get more,” you say hoarsely, even as you picture the fire outside, the smoke, the chaos. Water is survival. You do not know how far these tunnels go or when you will see a river again.
Beomgyu taps your hand once. No.
“We’re going to,” you start, then break off into another cough, eyes stinging. “We’re going to need it.”
Again, he taps once. No.
You frown and shift, bracing your hands to stand, but his fingers close around your wrist. Not tight, not desperate, just enough to stop you. You look at him, and when he speaks his voice is wrecked, scraped raw by smoke and heat. “We stick together,” he rasps.“Don’t.”
Sticking together. You let out a slow breath and sink back down, turning so your back rests against the same wall as his, shoulders close enough that you can feel the warmth of him through the fabric. It steadies you more than you want to admit. “Alright,” you say quietly. “I’m not going anywhere.”
The two of you sit there, backs against stone, lungs slowly relearning how to work while the world outside crackles and roars like it is ending. Smoke drifts past the tunnel mouth in tired grey waves, and every now and then something collapses out there with a distant, splintering crash. You keep your ears open between your own ragged breaths, waiting for footsteps, voices, anything that means other tributes are running for the same shelter. No one comes. It is just you, Beomgyu, and the sound of the Capitol playing god with fire.
You do not know how much time passes before Beomgyu’s coughing eases into something less violent, but eventually his breathing evens out enough that he can speak. His voice is still rough when he asks, “How bad is it out there?”
You lift an eyebrow at him. “Am I allowed to check now?”
“Dumbass. Just—”
“Yeah, yeah, I got it,” you mutter, pushing yourself to your feet. Your legs protest, but you ignore them and move toward the tunnel entrance, keeping low as you step just far enough outside to see.
The world looks like it has been chewed up and spat back out. The fire is not raging the way it was, not that wall of living heat that chased you through the trees, but it is still there in ugly patches, flames licking at whatever is left. The ground is black and blistered, more trees lying broken than standing. Smoke hangs low, turning the air into something heavy and bitter. You can still see the river through the haze, a thin silver line cutting through the ruin. Water. You swallow against your dry throat. “It’s a wasteland out here,” you call back, eyes scanning for movement. “I think we could—”
A streak of orange tears through the air. You do not even finish the sentence. You throw yourself sideways just as a fireball slams into the rock beside the tunnel entrance, exploding in a burst of heat and sparks that makes your skin sting. Ash rains down over you as you scramble back inside, heart hammering.
“Maybe not,” you cough, brushing soot from your pants.
“They’re trying to force us into the mountain,” Beomgyu says, already on his feet despite the way he still looks a little unsteady. His jaw is tight, eyes sharp now. “Burning everything else out so we’ve got nowhere to go. Whatever they want, they want us in here.”
“How thoughtful of them,” you mutter. Your throat aches, but the need for water aches worse. “We still need water.”
“Doubt there’s a miracle spring waiting for us in these tunnels.” He bends to grab the empty bottle, turning it in his hand like it might magically refill. “You’re right. We get some now, let it settle while we move.”
You huff a humorless breath. “We could try staying put, but they’d probably flood the place with lava or something just to keep it interesting.”
“Don’t give them ideas,” Beomgyu warns, but there is the faintest curve to his mouth. Even half-choked on smoke, he still finds room for that. “Alright. We go together. Watch each other’s back.”
“What, you going to slice a fireball out of the air?” you ask.
His expression does not shift. “Maybe.”
You roll your eyes, but it steadies you, this stupid back and forth in the middle of hell. “Fine. I’ll try not to miss if one comes at us. Teamwork.”
“Only way this works.” His gaze locks with yours, something serious settling there beneath the sarcasm. “Ready?”
You tighten your grip on your bow, nod once, and force your voice not to shake. “As ready as I’ll ever be.”
Leaving your packs tucked just inside the tunnel mouth so you can move faster, you and Beomgyu make a break for the river. Heat rolls across the ground in waves, smoke clawing at your lungs, but you keep low and run. One massive fireball tears through the air and forces both of you to dive into the dirt, hearts slamming, but after that the sky stays mercifully quiet. A burning tree crashes down a little too close for comfort, sparks bursting like angry fireflies, yet you clear it and reach the water.
You drop to your knees at the bank, hands shaking as you plunge the bottle into the river. The water looks almost peaceful compared to everything else, cool and indifferent as it rushes past. Beomgyu keeps watch, sword drawn, eyes scanning the treeline while you screw the cap back on. Then you run again, feet pounding over scorched earth, flames crackling behind you like they are laughing at the effort. This time nothing chases you but the smoke.
You stumble back into the tunnel entrance breathless but unburned. Beomgyu immediately grabs his bag and pulls out the purifier, movements quick and efficient despite the lingering rasp in his breathing. “The sooner this is done,” he mutters, working the filter into place, “the sooner we can drink it.”
“Not arguing,” you say, dragging your own pack back onto your shoulders. Your muscles protest, but you ignore them. “Are we moving?”
He seals the bottle and shoves it into his bag. “You want to?”
“I do.” You nudge a loose stone with the toe of your boot, watching it skitter into the shadows. “If we sit here, they’ll just find a more creative way to kill us. Flood it. Gas it. Something dramatic.”
Beomgyu straightens, adjusting the strap across his chest. “Please stop predicting our deaths out loud.”
Your lips twitch despite everything. “Fine. We go deeper into the creepy murder tunnels to avoid the very obvious death traps outside, and then what?”
“Then,” he says, glancing down at his sword, now streaked with ash and grime, “we run into other tributes. And we kill them.”
“Charming,” you reply. “After you.”
He gives you a flat look. “I’m still the expendable one?”
You offer him a bright, infuriating smile. “I don’t hear you volunteering me.”
“I hate you.”
“Feeling’s mutual. Lead the way, expendable one.”
He turns, but you catch the faint sound of a breath that might be a laugh, swallowed quickly as he steps into the dark. You follow close behind, the tunnel air cool against your smoke-burned lungs, the light of the burning world shrinking behind you until it is nothing but a dull orange glow at your backs.
The tunnel shudders without warning, a deep groan rolling through the stone like the mountain itself is clearing its throat. Dust sprinkles from the ceiling. The ground vibrates under your boots and for one tight second you are back in stories of cave ins and buried miners, lungs full of dirt and no sky left to look at. Beomgyu’s hand finds your sleeve in the dark, fingers closing tight, and you reach for him on instinct, gripping his arm. You stand like that, braced together, until the shaking fades and the silence rushes back in, heavy and close.
“Unprompted earthquake,” he asks quietly, letting go, “or lightning strike?”
You flex your fingers, forcing your breathing to slow. “Lightning, probably. Feels about noon. But I wouldn’t put it past them to mix things up.”
“Fair.” You hear the soft rasp of a zipper. “Hungry?”
“I could eat,” you admit. The word hungry feels different now. It is not the dull, familiar ache from home. It is sharper, threaded with the knowledge that there might not be more later. “How bad are we?”
He rummages a moment. “Two apples after this. Most of the dried meat. Some crackers.”
You do the math automatically. Stretch it, ration it, make every bite count. District 12 taught you that much. “Better than nothing,” you murmur, taking the apple he presses into your hand. You bite, and sweet juice floods your mouth so suddenly it almost hurts. “God. That’s so good.”
His footsteps start again and you hurry after the sound, one hand skimming the wall so you do not walk face first into stone. “You don’t get many apples back home?”
“Sometimes,” you say between bites. “Random tree here and there. Never like this.”
“They probably pump them full of chemicals,” he mutters. “Capitol perfection.”
You shrug even though he cannot see it. “I’m going to die anyway.” There is a pause, the kind that feels like an eye roll you cannot see, and then the quiet crunch of him biting into his own apple. You smile in the dark, small and unseen.
You walk as you eat, the tunnel sloping upward more often than not, the air cooler but thinner somehow, like the mountain is swallowing sound and light the deeper you go. Your steps echo too loudly. It feels wrong, this much emptiness. The Capitol loves spectacle, loves blood where people can see it. Endless dark stone does not make for good entertainment.
“They’ve got something planned,” you murmur, licking juice from your thumb.
“Yeah,” Beomgyu says ahead of you, voice low and certain. “They always do.”
The tunnel stretches on, and the mountain keeps its secrets. You have been walking long enough that time feels meaningless, just the scrape of boots on stone and the echo of your breathing chasing you down the tunnel. Side passages split off now and then, dark mouths opening into deeper black, and each time Beomgyu warns you under his breath before you both choose the main path, wider, safer, if anything in here can be called safe. The air tastes like dust and old rock, and you find yourself wondering if the sky outside is already dark, if night has fallen without you seeing it. Then you hear it. Soft. Wrong. You stop mid step and Beomgyu nearly walks into your back.
“What?” he asks quietly.
“I thought I heard something,” you murmur, straining your ears.
Something presses into your hand. His night vision glasses. You slide them on, the world shifting into eerie green. Two branching tunnels sit in your vision, one behind you to the left, another farther ahead on the right. You notch an arrow and move a few careful steps into the first one, scanning every shadow, every jagged edge of stone. Nothing moves. Nothing breathes.
You back out and check the other tunnel. Still nothing. The silence presses against your ears. “I swear I heard something,” you whisper.
“Even if you did,” Beomgyu says, close behind you, “do you really want to go looking for it?”
Fair point. You lower the bow, pulling the glasses off and handing them back. “Okay, lead on.” his fingers catching your sleeve to guide you forward again.
A few minutes later, a pale glow appears ahead. Daylight. Without meaning to, you both quicken your pace, drawn toward it like moths to something that is not quite flame. The tunnel opens onto a narrow path carved into the mountainside. The sun hangs low, painting the sky in dull gold, but below you the world is ruined. What was once green forest is now a charred expanse of black and gray, smoke still curling from fallen trees. It looks like the end of the world.
You step closer to the edge, heart heavy. “They really didn’t hold back, did they?”
“No cannons,” Beomgyu says thoughtfully, moving a little higher up the path.
You glance at him. “So you think this was just to herd us in here, not kill us? Because dropping a burning tree on our heads felt pretty personal.”
“Kill you,” he corrects. “You’re the special one.”
You snort. “I feel so honored. Guess that makes you special by association.”
“Lucky me.”
“You asked for this. You—”
Footsteps. You cut yourself off, already moving. The arrow is on the string before you fully turn. Beomgyu is beside you instantly, shoulder almost brushing yours as he draws his sword, both of you careful of the narrow ledge and the long fall waiting just beyond it.
A figure rounds the bend ahead, boots scraping stone. A silver spear catches the dying light, gleaming like a threat made solid.
District 1. The boy with the perfect posture and the colder eyes. Daeho, was that his name? You do not hesitate. The arrow is gone before the thought even finishes forming, slicing through the air toward Daeho’s face. He drops low, spear flashing up on instinct, and your shot whistles past, vanishing into the tunnel behind him with a sharp clatter against stone.
“Nothing personal,” he says, voice tight, a strip of his sleeve burned clean off. “I just need to kill you.”
You already have another arrow notched, string pulled back to your cheek. “What, did they put a leash on you?” you ask. “You their dog?”
He exhales hard through his nose. “Shut up.”
“Y/N,” Beomgyu warns.
You glance over your shoulder and your stomach drops. Two more tributes step out from the opposite tunnel mouth, boots scraping the ledge. The boy from District 11, the one who bumped fists with you after your interview, and a girl with uneven, singed hair. Both armed. Both looking like they have already made their choice. You turn back to Daeho, jaw tight. “Ambush,” you mutter.
“It was easy,” Daeho says, almost smug. “Heard you coming. I ducked into a side tunnel, they went ahead. Perfect spot.”
He is not wrong. The ledge is barely wide enough to stand shoulder to shoulder. One bad step and it is a long fall into nothing. No room to dodge, no room to run. Daeho tilts his spear toward your bow. “Put it down and maybe I’ll make it quick.”
You do not even blink. You swing your aim to the pair from Eleven instead. They slow when they see the arrow trained on them. Beomgyu shifts with you, back nearly brushing yours as he turns to face Daeho again, sword raised, body angled to keep both threats in view. The girl from Eleven grips a mace. The boy holds an axe. Close range weapons. Dangerous, but only if they get close enough.
“You’re teaming up with him?” you call out. “That’s low.”
“But he’s right,” the boy says, voice steady even if his hands are not. “You two together? Scores like that? You’re too dangerous.”
“You have to go,” the girl adds softly, like she is apologizing.
You let out a humorless breath. “He’s just mad he only got a seven.”
“Still talking,” Daeho snaps from behind you. “All that crap about not caring if you win, about burning the Capitol down. If you meant any of it, you’d just stand there and die.”
You keep your bow drawn, arms trembling with the strain. “Yeah, well,” you say, voice sharp as broken glass, “lying down and dying doesn’t exactly send much of a message either.”
Beomgyu’s back is almost touching yours, heat and breath and the quiet rhythm of him steadying himself. You know that stance now. He is about to move. You keep your bow raised, eyes flicking once to his shoulder, waiting for any sign. Daeho is still talking, still trying to sound in control, but you are no longer listening to the words. You are listening for Beomgyu.
Two quick taps land against your side. You almost grin. Good.
“You’re so full of shit, Daeho,” you call, voice bright with something that almost feels like laughter.
Beomgyu moves forward and you loose your arrow in the same heartbeat. It flies past him and slams into the District Eleven girl’s shoulder. She screams, stumbling backward into the tunnel wall. You already have another arrow up. You aim low this time. The District Eleven boy charges anyway, and your shot buries into his thigh. He grunts, falters, but keeps coming, axe raised.
“Beomgyu!” He is there instantly, sliding in front of you like a wall, sword flashing as he meets the boy head on. Metal rings against metal, sparks biting the dim air of the ledge. You stagger back a step to get a clearer shot and risk a glance behind you.
Daeho is retreating. No, not retreating. Fleeing.
Your stomach twists. His hand is mangled, two fingers gone, blood pouring down his wrist and dripping onto the stone. There is a deep slice across his face, from hairline to cheek, one eye squeezed shut as red runs down into it. You did not even see Beomgyu land those hits. He must have moved like lightning.
Pathetic, you think as you draw and fire again. Your arrow catches Daeho in the back of the calf. He howls and stumbles, then vanishes around the curve of the tunnel. All that talk, and he runs.
You start after him on instinct, rage buzzing hot in your veins, but the sound of steel scraping stone snaps your focus back. Beomgyu grunts, forced back half a step as the District Eleven boy swings again.
You spin. The girl from Eleven lunges clumsily with her mace, injured arm hanging useless, and Beomgyu pivots to intercept. His blade arcs in a clean, brutal line.
There is a wet sound, an arm flies, fingers still curled around the handle of the mace as it tumbles across the ledge and disappears over the side. For a split second, everything feels unreal, like the world has tilted sideways. Then the girl’s scream tears through the air, high and raw and animal.
For a moment your stomach lurches so hard you think you might actually be sick. Beomgyu had slipped past the first swing, and in one brutal, flashing arc of steel, the District Eleven boy’s axe arm was gone. The sound it made when it hit the stone will stay with you. He just stands there for a second, staring at the place where his limb used to be, face drained of all color, before he folds in on himself. Blood pours from his shoulder in violent pulses, splattering the rock at his feet.
Beomgyu does not hesitate. He turns toward the girl as she charges, grief and fury twisted together in her scream, mace lifted high. You do not give her the chance to bring it down. Your arrow flies before you even register the decision, and it strikes clean between her eyes. She drops like a puppet with its strings cut.
The cannon fires. Beomgyu looks at you, and for just a heartbeat there is nothing in his expression but relief. Not triumph. Not bloodlust. Just relief that you are still standing.
Then the ledge shifts.
The District Eleven boy, dying but not dead yet, tips backward over the edge. His remaining hand lashes out blindly and catches in Beomgyu’s pant leg. The pull is sudden and vicious. Beomgyu’s body jerks forward, balance lost, boots skidding on loose grit.
“Beomgyu!” He is already moving. His blade flashes again, severing the man’s hand at the wrist. The body drops, vanishing into open air. But the momentum has already dragged Beomgyu halfway over. His hips slam into the edge, torso scraping stone, legs dangling over nothing.
Your bow hits the ground as you run. “Are you okay? Come on, come on,” you breathe, voice breaking as you grab his wrist with both hands. He could probably haul himself up, you know that, but you cannot stand there and watch. You pull anyway, desperate, like if you let go he will slip through your fingers and disappear.
He lets you help. Kicks once against the rock, then rolls back onto the ledge with you. The severed hand finally slides from his pant leg and tumbles over the side. The two of you scramble backward together until your backs hit the cliff wall. You are still holding his hand, knuckles white, and neither of you seem to remember how to let go.
For a long moment there is nothing but the sound of your breathing, harsh and uneven, and the wind moving through the broken mountain air. Another cannon booms. You both flinch, and you know without looking that the boy from Eleven is gone.
Neither of you let go. His hand is locked around yours, fingers tight and almost trembling, like he is afraid that if he loosens his grip for even a second you might slip through it. You feel the shake in him, small but there, and it sends a strange, aching warmth through your chest because Beomgyu does not shake. Not when he fights, not when he threatens, not when he stands in front of danger like it is something he was born to face.
But he is shaking now.
You cannot stop seeing it, the way he tipped over the edge, the empty air behind him, the split second where his weight was gone from the ledge. If that man had held on a moment longer, if Beomgyu had been even slightly slower with his blade, he would have disappeared over the side and there would have been nothing you could have done but watch him fall.
The thought makes your stomach twist. Since when does the idea of losing him feel like this? Since when did that possibility terrify you?
There was a time you were sure he would be the one to kill you. A time you watched him like a threat, measured the distance between you like it was a battlefield line. But somewhere between shared watches in the dark, stupid arguments, and the quiet way he stayed when you almost fell apart, the line moved. You stopped bracing for his blade and started looking for his shadow beside yours.
Now the idea of this arena without him in it feels wrong in a way you do not have words for.
You look at him and find his eyes already on you, wide in a way you have never seen before, breathing still uneven. There is blood all over him, streaked across his clothes and jaw, but he is not looking at himself. He is scanning your face, your shoulders, your arms, like he is checking for damage he might have missed.
“You good?” he asks, and the question comes out rough, almost unsteady.
“Am I good? You’re the one covered in blood.”
He shakes his head slightly, still staring at you like he does not believe what he is seeing. “I’m fine,” he says quickly. “That’s not what I meant.”
You try to swallow the tightness in your throat and nod. “Perks of a long distance weapon,” you manage, your voice thinner than you want it to be. “I don’t have to get that close.” Your eyes flick to your bow on the ground, then back to him. “You? Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” he repeats, but his hand tightens around yours again, like he needs to feel that you are still there. His gaze drags over you one more time, searching. “None of it’s mine,” he adds quietly, and for once he sounds less like he is reassuring you and more like he is trying to convince himself.
The two of you stare at the blood darkening the dirt, the metallic smell still thick in the air. “How the hell did you manage to cut his arm off?” you ask, looking at him like the answer might still be written somewhere on his face. “You’d have to swing ridiculously hard and hit the exact right spot and…”
“You just answered your own question.”
“Asshole. Don’t do that,” you mutter.
“Do what?”
“Scare me like that. I thought he was going to pull you over, for fuck’s sake.” Your voice tightens at the end, betraying more than you mean to. You squeeze his hand once, hard, then let go so you can push yourself to your feet. “And thank you for the backup,” you add over your shoulder as you move down the ledge.
“What happened to District 1?” Beomgyu asks while you retrieve your bow.
“He ran like the coward he is,” you say, anger slipping into your tone. “Talks big, sets up an ambush, then bolts the second things get messy. But you definitely did some damage.”
Beomgyu gives a small nod. “Good. Arrow count?”
You twist your quiver around and count by touch. “Eighteen. I might be able to get a few back.”
“Alright. Which way do you want to go?”
You do not answer right away. Instead, you walk to the other side of the path where the girl from District 11 lies still. You swallow back the nausea and pull your arrow from her forehead, then the one from her shoulder. Your hands are steady even if your stomach is not. Ammo matters more than comfort in here. When you turn back, Beomgyu is watching you quietly, waiting. His question still hangs between you, heavy and practical. You both know you are supposed to move, clear the area so the Capitol can collect their dead. You have never been good at doing what they expect.
“Do we have to go yet?” you ask, tucking the arrows back into your quiver. “Can we just sit for a bit?”
He studies you for a second, like he is measuring more than just the time. Then he nods. “Yeah.”
You sink back down where you were earlier, setting your bow and quiver within reach before leaning against the mountain wall. Your body feels like it has been wrung out, muscles trembling now that the fight is over. The forest below is nothing but blackened skeletons of trees, smoke still drifting through the air, but the sky above it is streaked gold and orange as the sun sinks low. It is wrong that something so ruined can still look beautiful.
Without really thinking about it, you reach for Beomgyu’s hand again.
He takes it immediately, fingers lacing with yours, grip firm and warm. Neither of you says anything. For a moment, the Games feel far away, like the world has shrunk down to this narrow ledge, the fading light, and the quiet proof that you are both still here.
Beomgyu is not walking evenly. You hear it before you really notice it, the faint hitch in his steps, the way one foot lands just a fraction heavier than the other. You think about saying something, about asking if he is hurt, but his pace never slows and you know him well enough by now to know he would brush it off. You tuck the worry away for later, for when you finally get a chance to sit without the world trying to kill you.
“You know,” you say lightly, trying to distract yourself, “for a place designed to torture us, it has nice sunsets and sunrise.”
Beomgyu lets go of your sleeve as you both step out of the tunnel and onto another narrow ledge. The drop beside you is steep, a long fall into blackened forest, but at least this time there is no one waiting to ambush you. You squint at the sky, streaked with deep orange and gold, smoke thinning just enough for the colors to bleed through.
He scoffs. “Yeah. Give us something pretty to look at before they kill us.”
You stop walking for a second, letting yourself breathe it in. You do not know how many sunsets you have left, and that thought presses quietly at the back of your mind. “I used to do this,” you murmur, more to yourself than to him. “Find the highest spot in the woods outside Twelve and just sit there until the sun went down.”
Home feels far away and too close all at once. You wonder who is watching, if anyone still believes you are alive.
“You coming?” Beomgyu calls, already a few steps ahead. You laughed., mutter idiot, moving after him.
A few hours later, you and Beomgyu finally find a place to stop. The tunnel bends in a way that creates a shallow corner, wide enough for two of you to sit with a clear view of both branching paths. You settle into the inner spot with your bow across your lap and the night vision glasses perched on your nose, the green glow making the stone walls look even colder than they are.
You break the quiet with what has been bothering you since sunset. “What’d you do to your leg?” you ask, keeping your tone light. “Or ankle. Or foot.”
There is a brief pause. You cannot see his face clearly, but you feel his attention turn toward you. “How’d you…” he starts, then trails off, and you cannot stop the small, knowing twitch of your lips. “Ankle,” he finishes. “Hit Daeho, heard you yell, turned to get back to you. Stepped wrong. Tweaked it.”
You wince, guilt settling heavy in your stomach. “How bad?”
“Walking’s fine,” Beomgyu says quickly, like he can hear the blame in your voice. “I can move. I can fight. It just hurts like a bitch.”
“We could wrap it.”
“Morning,” he replies. “When there’s light.”
You nod, though he probably cannot see it. You hope he is telling the truth, that this is not pride talking. Either way, you insist on taking first watch. He argues at first, but he is tired and you are stubborn, and eventually he gives in and stretches out along the wall.
Surely the Capitol cannot throw something else at you tonight. Snakes last night, fire this morning, an ambush in the afternoon. That is enough chaos for one day, even by their standards. Games are supposed to last weeks, sometimes longer. This is only your third night.
Only three days. It feels like a lifetime. The anthem drifts faintly through the mountain, warped and distant, but you do not need the screen to know who it is for. You sit there in the green glow of the glasses, bow in hand, listening to the song echo through the tunnels and wondering how many more nights you and Beomgyu will get to hear it together.
You are so deep in your own head that the first growl almost slips past you, threading low and ugly through the tunnel air. You freeze, every sense snapping tight. “Are you kidding me?” you mutter under your breath as you reach back and pull an arrow from your quiver, eyes narrowing into the dark stretch of tunnel you think it came from, the path leading back down the mountain. You rise slowly, careful not to let your gear clink against the stone, and take a few cautious steps forward. Nothing. Just black rock and stale air. Then it comes again, deeper this time, vibrating through the ground more than the air.
“Y/N?” Beomgyu’s voice drifts from behind you, rough with sleep. “What?”
“Shh,” you whisper, lifting your bow as you edge farther down the tunnel.
He is on his feet in seconds, the soft scrape of metal telling you he has his sword in hand. “What did you hear?”
“Growling,” you murmur. It comes again, longer now, and your skin prickles. “You hear that?”
“You’ve got freak hearing,” he grumbles, moving closer. “I can’t hear any—”
The next growl rips through the tunnel, loud enough that dust shakes loose from the ceiling. You do not look back, but you can almost feel his expression change. “Heard that one, did you,” you say dryly.
“Glasses,” he says, and you pass the night vision goggles back to him, letting the darkness swallow you whole. He moves ahead of you, footsteps light. He barely makes it three steps before a roar explodes through the tunnel, so loud it feels like it claws at your ribs. Your hands tighten on your bow. You are so tired of this.
“Other way,” you say immediately.
“Yeah,” Beomgyu answers, no hesitation. You both snatch up your packs and break into a jog just as another roar rolls after you. You follow the sound of his steps, trusting him to keep you from slamming into a wall, lungs burning as the tunnel twists. The air feels thinner, tighter, and then suddenly the ground levels out and the darkness thins.
You burst out into open air.
Beomgyu stops so fast you nearly crash into his back. The words die on your tongue as you take in the sight in front of you. You are at the top of the mountain, back in the clearing where the bloodbath began, the cornucopia gleaming under cold moonlight like some sick joke, and you are not alone.
Shapes stand all around the clearing, frozen in the same stunned realization. A cluster of three to your left, the two from District 4 and another you do not recognize. Daeho is across the clearing, doubled over, blood dried down one side of his face. On the right, the Careers have grouped up, the girl from Two, the tribute from Six, the girl from Seven, and with them the tall boy from Three. More figures spill out of other tunnel mouths, gasping, wild eyed.
Every remaining tribute. All of you, dragged here like pieces on a board. “Fuck,” Beomgyu breathes.
You do not argue. The silence stretches, thin and brittle, everyone waiting for someone else to move first, like maybe if no one does this will all dissolve into some bad dream. The growls drove you here. This is not coincidence. This is the Capitol tightening its fist. You lift your bow and notch an arrow, the familiar motion steadying your hands. “How’s your ankle?” you murmur, not looking at him.
“Fine,” he says, voice low. “You trust me?” He jerks his chin toward the District 4 group. “We go for them.”
You don't question his words. Lightning strikes the cornucopia, and everyone moves at once.
The lightning does not send everyone charging like you expect. For one suspended, breathless second the entire mountaintop freezes, white light seared into your vision. Everyone stalls. Everyone except Beomgyu. He is already moving, already sprinting straight at the District 4 boy with his blade drawn, a shout ripping out of him like he has been waiting his whole life for this exact moment. You force your body to follow, dragging yourself out of that stunned pause before panic can root you in place. Chaos erupts all at once. Metal clashes. Someone screams. Boots scrape against stone. You turn toward the District 4 alliance just in time to see another figure slam into the fight from the far side. Ryujin. She collides with the District 4 girl, spear meeting steel in a blur of vicious, practiced strikes.
That leaves Beomgyu facing two. The District 4 boy and another tribute you think is from Five rush him together. One wears a helmet, the other some kind of chest armor that gleams dully under the moon. You do not hesitate. You fire. The arrow slams into the District 4 boy’s side and ricochets off with a hollow clang. Armor.
You adjust and aim for his face, but the District 5 boy shoves into your line of sight. Your arrow cracks against his helmet and bounces away. He stumbles but stays upright. Your stomach drops. At this rate, you are nothing but background noise.
Think. You drop to your knees, shrugging your pack off your shoulders as your fingers fumble for your rope. In front of you Beomgyu lunges, blade driving toward the armored boy’s chest, and the strike glances off uselessly. The recoil jars up his arms and he stumbles half a step back.
His ankle. Your chest tightens so hard it hurts. He cannot take two armored tributes head on, not with a bad ankle, not for long. You risk one quick look across the mountaintop. Ryujin and the District 4 girl are a storm of movement. Daeho is trying to retreat toward a tunnel, but the boy from Six is chasing him down. None of that matters. None of them matter. Beomgyu matters.
Your hands move on their own, tying the rope tight to the base of an arrow. The rest of the coil spills at your knees like a lifeline waiting to be used. You notch the arrow, breath coming fast and sharp. Behind you, steel scrapes stone. A presence. You twist just as a knife slices through the air where your neck was a second ago. The brown haired girl you noticed earlier lunges again, eyes wide and feral. Over her shoulder you glimpse her partner from Nine circling toward Beomgyu, machete raised, waiting for the perfect moment to join in.
Three on him, and more closing in. The girl in front of you slams into you before you can get another shot off. The two of you crash to the ground hard enough to rattle your teeth. Your bow skids away across the rock. You grab her wrist with both hands, straining to keep the knife from plunging into your chest. Her breath is hot and ragged against your face. Your arms shake under the pressure. Somewhere to your right you hear Beomgyu grunt, a sound of pain he tries to swallow down, and it tears through you sharper than the blade hovering over your heart. Fear flashes hot and wild. You cannot lose him here. Not like this.
You bare your teeth at the girl, breath hitching. “Five person alliance,” you choke out, muscles screaming as you hold her back. “What, you needed a whole army to feel brave?”
The girl throws her weight against your arms, face twisted with effort, and your muscles finally give in a different direction. Instead of pushing up, you shove her knife hand sideways. The blade buries itself in the dirt beside your ear with a dull thunk. You do not hesitate. You draw your fist back the way they taught you, tight, thumb tucked, and slam it into her jaw. Pain shoots up your knuckles but she cries out and rolls off you, scrambling, stunned. You are on your feet in a breath, heart crashing against your ribs, when a scream rips across the clearing. “No!” someone howls. “No!”
A cannon fires. Your eyes fly to Beomgyu on instinct, terror already clawing up your spine, but he is still there, still moving, still alive, locked in that brutal mess of bodies and weapons. The scream must have come from the other side, from the Career pack. You do not have time to look. You do not have time to care.
The girl from Nine rushes you again, empty handed now, desperation replacing strategy. You reach for an arrow but your fingers close around the one tied to rope. Not now. Swearing under your breath, you snatch the knife from the ground instead. She does not see it until it is too late. Your blade drives into her shoulder and her scream is sharp and shocked as you wrench it back out. She stumbles away, clutching the wound, blood soaking through her sleeve.
You turn, already searching for him.
Beomgyu’s back is nearly to the rock wall. The District 4 boy is down several meters away, struggling to rise, but the other armored tribute is still on Beomgyu, pressing, relentless. Two on one again. Nowhere to retreat. You cannot see blood from this distance. You cannot tell if he is already hurt. All you know is that he is running out of space.
Your knife falls from your hand as you grab your bow. The rope coils at your feet like a living thing. You lift the bow, aim past the blur of moving limbs, armor flashing under moonlight. Legs move too fast. Chests are plated. Helmets hide faces. This has to be perfect.
You draw back, breath trembling. “Thread the needle,” you whisper, voice barely there. “Thread the needle.”
You let the world narrow to a single line through the chaos. One opening. One heartbeat. You exhale and release. Your arrow slices through and buries itself in stone just behind Beomgyu and the District Five boy, so close it steals the air from both their lungs. The man flinches, just for a second, and that second is all Beomgyu needs. He drives his foot into the man’s chest and forces space between them, then turns and slashes at the District Nine boy. The blade catches flesh. The boy cries out and stumbles back, clutching his side as blood seeps through his fingers.
The armored one charges again. You yank the rope.
It snaps taut in an instant, a line pulled straight through the battlefield at the perfect height. The boy runs right into it. His throat catches, his body jerks, and he goes down hard, limbs tangling as he crashes to the ground. The jolt rips the rope from your hands and you stagger forward, but you do not need to hold it anymore. Beomgyu is already there. He moves like he has been waiting for an opening his whole life. His blade drives down and does not come back clean. The man thrashes once, twice, then goes still.
A cannon fires. The sound rolls through your bones. One less. You turn just in time to see the girl from Nine retreating, her injured arm cradled to her chest, the other boy shouting at her to move faster. They disappear into a tunnel, leaving her knife buried in the dirt like a forgotten thought.
Jay, another career, is locked with the District Four boy now, grappling near the edge, boots scraping rock. Somewhere beyond them Ryujin clashes with the other girl from Four, weapons ringing in sharp, frantic bursts.
You grab the abandoned knife and your pack in the same motion and run to Beomgyu, shoving the blade inside and yanking the zipper shut without looking. “You okay?” you ask, breathless as you reach him.
He is limping. He is breathing hard. He is staring at you like you are something impossible. “You’re fucking brilliant,” he says, voice rough, eyes wide in a way that has nothing to do with the fight.
You bark out a laugh. “Did you hit your head? You were the one out there playing hero with a busted ankle.”
“Would’ve had them easy any other day,” he mutters, glancing down at his leg like it personally offended him.
“I know,” you say softly, and you do. You look at the way he is standing, the pain he is pretending not to feel. “How bad?”
“I’ll check later.” His gaze lifts to the rest of the clearing. The battle has fractured into smaller storms. Steel flashes. Someone shouts. Someone else falls. No one is watching you.
You could run. “We can leave,” you whisper, urgent now. “Let them finish each other.”
He turns to you, and there is something steady in his eyes, something that pulls you in and holds you there.
“Is today a day you trust me?”
Your breath catches. It is such a small question.
You think of the burning trees, of your body tipping into harmful air and his hand clamping around your wrist so hard it bruised. You think of smoke in your lungs and his voice cutting through it, checking you first. You think of snakes and the way he never let go first. You think of how, even now, he stands angled toward you instead of toward the enemy, like the greater threat is not them but the possibility of losing you.
This arena was built to rot trust from the inside out. It was designed to make you suspicious, to make you cruel, to make you survive alone. And yet, he's asking for your trust.
“Yeah,” you say, and your voice is softer than the wind moving through the ruined trees. “I trust you.”
He looks at you, something in his shoulders eases, something tight and invisible unraveling. As if he had been braced for rejection and only now allows himself to breathe. “We take out the two from District Four,” he says, but the words are secondary. The real promise is in the way his gaze never leaves yours. “Then we go.”
Trust is not safe. Trust is stepping forward when the ground has already betrayed you once. Trust is handing someone your pulse and believing they will not crush it. You lift your bow. Your hands are steady.
“Okay,” you answer, heart hammering, not from fear this time but from something far more fragile. “After you.”
You follow him into the fight, into the fire, into whatever waits beyond this broken mountaintop, knowing that for the first time since your name was called, you are not walking alone.
What's the survival value of a sunrise?
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this is amazing
₊˚⊹ ིྀ 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐃𝐀𝐖𝐍: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆
☆⠀⸺ pairing: tribute choi beomgyu and tribute female reader
You want the capitol to burn. You don’t just want the capitol to burn. You want it to explode. Every last one of those affluent, entitled, insufferable motherfuckers; you want them to sizzle over a slow flame, to roast, to burn alive. Every bizarre, overengineered building with its pointless, convoluted architecture, you want it reduced to rubble. You want President Kim, tied to a stake, to feel the slow, torturous crawl of fire consuming him until there’s nothing left but ash. No, you don’t just want to watch it happen. You want to do it yourself.
︵ ུ warnings: hunger games au! , dystopian , romance , enemies to lovers , slow-burn , politics , societal issues, power imbalance, violence! , mature! , used diff idols as characters , MDNI — if any of the warnings above might be triggering for you, please step back. let me know if I missed anything. this is a work of fiction.
︵ ུ wc: 15k — see the series masterpost here. ུ continue to next part
︵ ུ notes: it’s been a long time, hasn’t it? i’m actually tearing up as i type this. i found my way back here again, and it feels like coming home. my love for writing never left me and i hope this fic says all the things my heart can’t. thank you for being here. i hope you enjoy every word. the next part will be up on the within the week 🤍
When you wake up, the other side of the bed is cold.
You reach for it out of habit, fingers searching for warmth, but all you find is the rough canvas of the mattress cover. You’ve noticed the pattern by now, your body seems to remember the date before your mind does.
Today is the day of the reaping.
The reaping for the Hunger Games, a spectacle the Capitol calls tradition. A televised reminder that the districts belong to them. That disobedience has a price. It isn’t about justice or chance, it's about punishment. Every year, two names are taken from each district. One boy. One girl. Children between twelve and twenty, chosen by chance and sent to die for it. Their lives folded into slips of paper and dropped into a glass bowl, as if that makes it fair.
They call it a lottery. You’ve always known what it really is.
Your hands move slowly as you fold the thin sheets, your fingers stiff from the cold. Your back aches from another night spent on the hard floor, every muscle protesting when you straighten up. It should feel normal by now. You have done this every year, on the same day, in the same room. Still, the pain never really fades.
Because every reaping day, every Hunger Games, leads you back to the same memory. The day your twin brother, Jungwon, was taken. The day the world learned how to be cruel in a way you would never forget.
Don’t worry about me, Y/N.
I’ll make it home to you.
You force yourself to breathe, even as your vision blurs every time his last words echo in your head. It has been four years now. You were sixteen when his name was drawn from the bowl, when the square went quiet and the world tilted. You still remember the sound you made, a broken gasp that felt like it tore out of your chest. You remember how he hugged you, tight and desperate, as if he could hold you in place with his arms. You remember his mentor pulling him away, fingers digging into his sleeve while you reached for him too late. You remember shaking as you watched the Games, your hands pressed to the screen, your heart pounding so loudly you thought it might give you away.
You remember the way hope flared in your chest when he ran through the forest, when he was still alive, still fighting. And you remember the scream that ripped out of you when he died, the sound of your own voice turning unrecognizable.
Four years of mourning. Four years of waking up and going to sleep with the same wound. Four years of grieving the last family you had.
District 12 was the worst of the districts. You could not count on your hands how many children you knew who were already orphans, how many families had been broken by Peacekeepers, by hunger, or by the mines that swallowed people whole. Death was so common it had learned how to live among you.
You lost both of your parents to sickness.
The wooden floor creaks beneath your bare feet as you move through the house. It is small and worn down, every wall stained with years of coal dust and time. It feels too big. Too empty.
How can a home that once held four people ever feel the same again?
You sit in the hush of the kitchen, nudging your food across the plate without tasting it. You try to eat, but even the faint smell of it turns your stomach. Hunger lingers in you like a shadow, yet your body refuses to listen. At last, you rise and rinse your face with cold water, letting it sting your skin awake. Your gaze drifts to the clothes you set out the night before, folded and waiting. Outside, the world is still wrapped in dark. The sun has not yet dared to rise.
Is the night truly darkest before dawn?
You change into your hunting clothes, the fabric fitting tighter than what you usually wear, pressed close to your skin. You reach for your bow, fingers settling around the worn grip, steadying yourself with something that has never failed you.
Is the night truly darkest before dawn?
“Our last year, huh,” Kai says quietly. “Who would’ve thought we’d make it this far.”
You let out a small huff. “I caught some rabbits.” You barely finish speaking before he reaches for your bag. “You know how to skin them by now, right?”
“Of course, ever so generous angel.” He laughs, eyes bright with the simple relief of knowing there will be food tonight. “I’ll share them with the kids too.” But as he takes the bag from you, something in his expression shifts. The smile fades, replaced by something heavier. “Do me a favor,” he says.
You tilt your head, studying him. “What?”
“Don’t volunteer.”
You blink, caught off guard. “Why the hell would I do that?”
“Everyone knows,” Kai says. “They whisper about it, about how you were always sharp even as a kid, how you never learned how to bend. They say if you’d been born in another district, you would have stood a chance at a life that didn’t end in poverty.” His jaw tightens. “They talk about how you changed after your brother.” He stops, breath catching, then forces himself steady. “They say you want blood. That you want the Capitol to pay. That you’re just waiting for the right moment.”
“That I’ll win the Games?” you cut in.
“So don’t volunteer,” he says, voice rough now. “Don’t. It’s stupid.”
“What, you think I’d lose?”
“Don’t ask me that.”
“Oh,” you say, dry and hollow, pressing a hand to your chest. “Such faith. Truly touching.”
Kai’s shoulders sink. “You know that’s not what I mean. We both know the Games don’t care how good you are. They don’t care how angry you are either.” His voice drops. “I promised your brother I’d keep you alive.”
“Don’t,” you say, cutting him off. “Don’t bring him into this.”
Kai lets out a breath through his nose and looks anywhere but at you. You have fought about this before, more than once. He knows how deep your hatred for the Capitol runs. He has seen it grow, slow and violent, ever since your brother died. You are a thing wound too tight, always on the edge of breaking. A ticking bomb.
He watches you whenever the Peacekeepers pass, terrified that one wrong look will be enough to set you off. He watches when someone is dragged into the street and punished, afraid you will step forward and never come back. He watched you through the last three reapings, heart in his throat, waiting for you to shout that you would volunteer. Every year, he notices the ways you change. How you wake before the sun. How your words grow fewer. How your grip tightens whenever he touches your hand by accident, as if you are holding yourself together by force alone.
You are a ticking bomb. He has known it for a long time.
And what frightens him most is not the question of if you will, but when.
You’re back in your cold, empty home.
Your hands smooth over your blouse, straightening it as best you can. Somewhat formal. It is tradition, after all, to dress your best on this day, no matter how hollow it feels.
The Reaping. Reaping number one hundred and twenty-one.
You can’t remember when the age range changed, shifting from twelve to seventeen, then twelve to twenty. The Capitol offered some weak excuse about fewer children being born each year, and you almost laugh at the absurdity. Who in their right mind would bring a child into a world like this?
I promised your brother I’d keep you alive.
Kai’s last words echo in your head as you move through the house. You hate that he always brings your brother into it at times like this. You hate that it still works, and you hate yourself most of all for letting it. You stop in front of the cracked mirror. A dull gray collared shirt hangs from your shoulders, paired with black pants that have lost their color years ago. Dark, muted. Safe. You tug on your old boots and lace them tight, almost finished when a voice calls from outside. “Y/N?”
“I’m coming,” you answer quickly, grabbing the door and stepping out into the pale morning.
Hiyyih is waiting by the fence. She smiles when she sees you. “You look pretty, sister.”
A small smile tugs at your lips. Hiyyih’s presence has always carried that soft, innocent edge. She is all that remains of Kai’s family, both of their parents swallowed by a failing mine when they were just children. She’s fifteen, and even though her laughter, her stubbornness, her way of seeing the world is the opposite of yours, it hasn’t stopped her from calling you her sister.
Kai comes up behind you, steps silent. His eyes find yours, and he shoots a look loaded with unspoken meaning. Then, in that quiet, controlled tone he always uses when he’s trying not to let his worry show, he says, “Let’s go. We don’t want to be late.”
District 12 is miserable.
You have always known that, but Reaping Day makes it impossible to ignore. Parents cling to each other and to their children as if their arms alone can keep fate away. Some of the younger kids are already crying, faces blotchy and terrified. Coal dust coats everything. Shirts are stained. The streets look as tired as the people standing in them.
“Don’t volunteer,” Kai whispers when he manages to slip close to you. His mouth is near your ear, his voice barely there, because words like that are dangerous. A disturbance, the Capitol would call it. Enough to earn him punishment.
You shoot him a warning look.
When you do not answer, his hand starts to shake. It grips your forearm. A Peacekeeper could hear him. He knows it. You know it, but fear is louder than sense. “Don’t kill yourself.”
“What are you doing, boy? Back to your lane!” a Peacekeeper snaps.
Kai is shoved away before either of you can react. You flinch as the sharp click of a gun being cocked cuts through the square. A warning. A reminder.
You close your eyes. It is moments like this that make your hatred burn hottest. When the Capitol shows you exactly how small you are. How easily you can be moved. How little your life is worth. You are not people to them. You are livestock, herded into rows and counted and culled. Cattle dressed up as citizens, waiting to be chosen for slaughter.
Kai. Hiyyih. Jungwon.
Is the night truly darkest before dawn?
Don't volunteer. I beg of you. Don't kill yourself. I promised your brother I’d keep you alive.
The words stack on top of each other until you can hardly breathe beneath them. You stay beside Hiyyih the whole time, a silent agreement between you both to not let go, to face whatever comes together. Step by step, you check in with the Peacekeepers and shuffle forward into line, bodies pressed close in the sea of fearful faces.
“Welcome!”
The microphone screeches, a high-pitched feedback that makes your teeth ache, and then the Capitol floozy appears at the center of the stage. Her hair is sapphire blue, poofed impossibly high like a cloud someone trapped in color, her pastel outfit puffed around her like candy. Glitter rains down with every exaggerated shift of her towering heels, the sun catching the shimmer like a spotlight just for her.
She blinks her oversized eyelashes, scanning the crowd, a wide, cheerful grin plastered across her face. You fight the urge to vomit. How can someone smile like that when everything around her is pain?
“Welcome to the 121st Annual Hunger Games,” she chirps, voice sweet and sharp all at once. “Now, to introduce one of District 12’s previous victors, who will be serving as mentor this year,” she continues, “Mr. Minho!”
The district’s only victor. The man who won twenty years ago. You don’t think you’ve ever seen him sober.
There’s a brief, tense pause before Minho stumbles onto the stage, and it surprises no one that a bottle swings loosely in his hand. He lurches forward, tilting it to his lips, taking a long, sloppy swallow before his arm drops, the glass wobbling like it might slip and shatter at any moment.
You can’t look away. Not just because he’s a mentor now, but because he was your brother’s mentor too. The man who trained Jungwon, who watched him fight and die, now swaying in front of the entire district like he’s trying to hold himself together with alcohol and willpower alone. His eyes wander over the crowd, slow and scanning, and then they land on you. Something passes across his face in that instant. Was it guilt that flashes? Or your face reminds him of another child, another blood on his hands?
This year is your last year on the reaping. Your last year.
"Our victor of District 12, everyone!" The Capitol's escort says, forcing a smile.
No one claps. No one ever does.
“And now,” she continues, voice dripping with cheer, “for the selection of the male tribute who will represent District 12 in this year’s games—”
She prances toward the bowl, glitter catching the sunlight and throwing shards of color over the gathered crowd. Her long nails scrape through the thousand folded papers, and finally, one is selected. She struts back to the microphone.
“Kim Sunoo!”
A young boy steps forward, too small, too young. His face is almost childlike, soft and unformed, lips trembling as if the world has just begun to press its weight against him. He shuffles forward sheepishly, the Peacekeepers looming beside him. On the stage, under the Capitol’s relentless glare, he trembles, swallowed by the enormity of what is about to happen.
The woman’s hand dives again into the bowl. “And for the female tribute,” she says.
You feel it before you hear it. That hollow drop in your chest. The sense of something terrible already moving toward you. Your heartbeat thunders in your ears until it sounds like water rushing, drowning out everything else. Hiyyih’s hand tightens around yours, and for a second, the world tilts, unreal and weightless, as if you are standing at the bottom of a lake.
“Huening Hiyyih!” The name splits the air.
You gasp, fingers locking around hers as if you can keep her there by force alone. Whispers ripple through the crowd, sharp and startled, and beside you Hiyyih makes a small, broken sound you barely recognize as a sob. You turn to her, and she is already crying, eyes wide and terrified, lips parted like she wants to speak but cannot.
Peacekeepers begin to move toward you. Their boots cut through the space between rows, heavy and final. You look down at Hiyyih, at how small she is, how thin her arms feel in your grip. She is lifted almost off the ground when they reach her, her body too light, too fragile in their hands. “Wait—”
A lump rises in your throat as she cries, your hands trembling around hers. You turn your head, searching the crowd, and find Kai. His eyes are wide, glassy with tears, the people beside him trying and failing to hold him still.
His gaze meets yours. Pleading.
Is the night truly darkest before dawn?
You give him a look that is steady, unwavering; a resolve carved from years of shadow and grief. All the doubts that clawed at you, all the questions of whether this goes against what your brother would have wanted, melt like frost under sunlight. In that gaze, you see it: a thin thread of chance, a fragile glimmer among the darkness, guiding your next move.
You cannot let another heart shatter the way yours did.
“I volunteer!”
The words loudly tear out of you.
It was dark after your brother died. So dark it hollowed you out. You became a ghost of yourself, moving through years that felt endless and empty. Every day since had been night, the longest night of your life. But as the syllables echo across the square — a dawn brushing light over the edges of your pain. You will get to do something. You can do something for your brother's death.
“I volunteer!” Every head turns. Every eye falls on you. Even the stage seems to hold its breath.
Is the night truly darkest before dawn?
And for the first time in years, you are not fading. You are not hollow. The silver of your resolve, fragile and sharp, burns brighter than all the shadows around you.
You have never felt more alive.
“Oh my god!” the Capitol’s escort squeals, voice dripping with excitement. “For the first time in history, District 12 has its own tribute volunteer!”
You see the Peacekeepers’ grip on Hiyyih loosen, and few start moving toward you. Unlike any tribute before you, you don’t flinch. You don’t lower your head. You step forward unyielding, toward the stage. The crowd notices. Eyes widen. Whispers ripple like silver threads through the air. This is the woman who hunts beyond the borders of their fences, the woman who survives where others falter.
A hunter. A fighter. A woman shaped by grief and fire.
Hiyyih catches up to you, tears in her eyes, she reaches for your hand, voice trembling “I’m sorry—” The Peacekeepers pulls her back before she can touch you, but you do not stop. You do not look down. Step by step, you ascend the stage. Your gaze locks on Minho. His eyes are wide, disbelief etched across every line of his face.
“Welcome, darling!” the Capitol floozy trills beside you. You glance at her. “Congratulations.”
You force a tight-lipped smile, you face forward. Every face in District 12 stares at you. No one with the likes of you has ever been seen on your district.
“And here we are,” the lady continues, voice rising over the tense murmurs, “tributes this year for District 12! Shake hands, you two.”
You sit alone in a quiet room.
It smells faintly of flowers. There’s a desk, a chair, shelves lined with books you’ve never read, vases you’ve never touched. Everything feels calm, as if the world outside could be tamed by neat lines and polished surfaces. Your eyes drift over the spines.
The door opens. “Sister.”
You turn. Hiyyih rushes across the room, throwing herself into your arms. You hold her as tightly as you can, as if the strength of your body could shield her from what is coming. Her cries press against you, wet and desperate, and you feel her fear seep into your bones. When you look up, Kai is there. His eyes are red, he paces, hands dragging through his hair, a caged animal straining against invisible walls.
“You can shoot. You can hunt. You can run. You can—”
“Shut up. Come here.” You open your arms. He hesitates only a second before stepping into you. Hiyyih’s crying grows louder between you, and suddenly there is no space left. It is a tangled, desperate embrace, three bodies clinging together like this might be the last safe place in the world.
“Give them hell,” Kai murmurs into your shoulder. Your chest tightens, your throat stings. “Make them regret it, and come back to us.”
It hits you then, the memory that curls in your chest. The way your brother’s arms felt around you that last time, the ache of losing him, the helplessness you promised you would never feel again. Pain blooms, then grief, then rage, pure and unfiltered, hot and burning through every vein.
You closed your eyes and you felt tears escape your eyes.
“Hey, Soobin.”
“Hm.”
“Shouldn’t you be more focused on your own tributes?”
He doesn’t answer. His eyes are glued to the television, watching the Reaping in District 11 unfold. There’s a weight in his stare, a search for something he cannot name yet. The tributes of District 11 appear on screen, trembling, pale, weak in his eyes. He scoffs, a quiet sound that carries both dismissal and calculation.
He has a plan. He knows it will work, but there is one element missing— one piece that could tilt every probability in his favor.
“Soobin.”
“Yes?” he replies, voice flat, still fixated on the screen as the Capitol escort with impossibly blue hair prances toward the glass bowl.
“Are you looking for something?”
“Yes.” — “Do you even know what you’re looking for?”
His eyes flick toward his own tributes. Beomgyu and Ryujin sit at the dining table, watching him with attentiveness. Two children molded by his design, trained since they could barely walk, capable with every weapon and every strategy he taught them. They are pieces of his plan, but even they cannot fill the gap he has yet to identify. His gaze lingers, on the unknown, the one variable that could make everything fall into place.
“Beomgyu,” Soobin says, “I’m still missing something.”
“I’m aware,” Beomgyu replies, his tone dry, “I asked what you’re looking for.”
Soobin doesn’t answer. His eyes are fixed on the screen. Then it happens. A scream rips through the broadcast, raw and jagged, and it makes the room still, makes the air itself pause. Everyone watches.
“I volunteer!”
Soobin straightens, the words hitting him like a shock he never expected. His throat tightens, dry and constricted. He doesn’t know why. There’s a force in your voice that pulls him, tugs at something he didn’t realize he was holding back. You step forward with certainty, with a grace born of fire and shadow, and every eye, every whisper — bends toward you. It’s effortless, terrifying in its simplicity.
It’s the look on your face that stops him. Not fear. Not hesitation. You are weightless and grounded all at once, as if for the first time in years you are allowed to breathe, allowed to exist fully, allowed to make this choice without trembling. As if the world itself has been holding you down, and finally you push against it and rise.
“This is her,” Soobin breathes, fascination threading every word. The disbelief is sharp, metallic. How could a district so low, so overlooked, so trampled, produce someone like this? A flame uncontained, fierce and untamed.
“A distraction,” he says at last, almost to himself, almost as if naming it makes it real. The missing piece of the puzzle.
"We need to talk to her as soon as possible."
Before you can fully understand what is happening, you are swept onto the train and set down in a room so rich with color and shine that it feels unreal. Soft seats. Polished tables. Vases filled with perfect flowers. For a moment, you almost laugh. One chair in this car could feed District 12 for a month, one useless decoration could keep families alive through winter. The Capitol wraps hunger in gold and calls it kindness.
Sunoo sits across from you, small and rigid, hands folded in his lap. You open your mouth to speak, but Minho’s voice crashes through the space first.
“What the hell were you thinking?”
He storms toward you, eyes sharp, bottle clenched in his hand. “What would Jungwo—”
“Don’t fucking say his name.”
The Capitol escort gasps, scandalized by your language, by your tone, by the fact that District 12 does not come dressed in manners.
“Stop looking at me like that,” you continue, heat rising in your chest. “You do it every year. This was my choice. You are not my family.” You remember every attempt he did to approach you, when your brother died. All you saw was a man trying to wash away his guilt.
The woman fumbles for words, waving her hands as if she can stitch the air back together. “Now, now, let’s not make this uncomfortable—”
“What can you do?” Minho snaps instead, turning sharply to Sunoo. The question lands on both of you, heavy and accusing.
“I can… hide,” Sunoo says quietly.
Minho lets out a short, bitter laugh. “Great. Holy shit. You’ll win.” Sarcasm drips from every word, and something ugly coils in your stomach. The train hums beneath you, carrying you farther from home, farther from graves and coal dust and the people who loved you.
You push yourself up from your seat and stand in front of him. The smell of alcohol hits you first. “You know how good my brother was,” you say angrily. “You watched him. Everything he could do, I can do too. I hunt alone. I build traps. I know how to use a knife. I know how to shoot.”
Minho opens his mouth, but you don’t let him speak.
“And you know he would have survived,” you continue. “He would have made it out of that arena if the Capitol hadn’t decided he was too dangerous to fight fairly.” Your voice lowers. “So they poisoned him in his sleep.” The room feels smaller. “Strong tributes don’t die like that,” you say. “Not unless someone’s afraid of them.”
Minho’s jaw tightens. “Don’t say that. Don’t let anyone hear you say that.”
The Capitol escort moves quickly to the door and shuts it, her hands trembling just a little. When she looks at you, her eyes are soft. Pitying. Sunoo shifts in his chair. His voice is thin when he speaks. “She’s telling the truth. Everyone in Twelve knows her.” He swallows. “The meat that gets shared. The meat that keeps kids alive in winter. It comes from her.”
You look at him. “She never misses,” Sunoo says. “Always through the eyes. So the animal doesn’t suffer. So the meat stays clean.”
The Capitol escort hesitates. “Do you… do you think you can win?” she asks carefully. “My name is Minji.”
The train hums beneath your feet and in your silence. Minho finally mutters, “Let’s eat, and talk.”
Night falls.
You sleep in a bed wide enough for four people, wrapped in sheets so soft you lose consciousness the moment your head touches the pillow. When morning light spills through the window, warm and pale, you almost pretend this is just another day. For a second, you want to stay there, buried in comfort, untouched by the world.
Then you remember.
The Capitol. The Games.
You force yourself up, limbs heavy, and dress in clothes laid out for you. Black pants made of light, airy fabric. A dark green long-sleeved shirt that slides over your skin like water. Silk. Softer than anything you have ever owned. You pause, fingers brushing the sleeve, stunned by how gentle it feels.
The Capitol has more of this luxury than it knows what to do with, and your district starves for crumbs. You want the capitol to burn.
You don’t just want the capitol to burn. You want it to explode. Every last one of those affluent, entitled, insufferable motherfuckers; you want them to sizzle over a slow flame, to roast, to burn alive. Every bizarre, overengineered building with its pointless, convoluted architecture, you want it reduced to rubble. You want President Kim, tied to a stake, to feel the slow, torturous crawl of fire consuming him until there’s nothing left but ash.
No, you don’t just want to watch it happen. You want to do it yourself.
You want to do it yourself.
You let out a slow breath and step into the hallway, barefoot and unsteady, following the quiet hum of the train toward what you think is the living room. A table waits there, covered in food so rich and bright it almost looks unreal. Sunoo is already eating, stiff and silent.
Minho sits across the room in an armchair, a drink in his hand even this early. His eyes find you immediately.
You ignore him.
You sit beside Sunoo instead, close enough to remind him he is not alone, close enough to remind yourself that you are still here.
Sunoo looks up at you from his plate. “Sleep well?” he asks.
“Yeah,” you answer. “You?”
“Yeah. I did too.” His reply is light, almost playful, and it shouldn’t be. Not after last night, not after the way the four of you talked about the arena while he quietly removed himself from the conversation, sitting there like someone already half gone. It is as if he knows what waits for him and has decided not to fight it.
“We should talk about your approach,” Minho says suddenly. You hear the scrape of his chair as he stands and crosses the room.
“For what?” You keep your eyes on your food. “I already told you what I want.”
He sighs. “I know you have your own agenda.”
“Then leave me alone.”
“You have potential,” he insists, his voice rough with something that sounds too close to pleading.
You finally look at him. “Is that what you told my brother too?”
The room goes quiet. Minho stops where he is, his expression emptying as if the words have struck him somewhere he was not prepared to be hit. His mouth opens, then closes, and whatever answer he meant to give never comes.
You turn back to your plate, but the food tastes like nothing. Heat builds in your chest, the same old anger that has lived there since the day your brother never came home. Everyone in your family is dead because of the Capitol, until there is nothing left but you.
The train hums wrapped in silk and silver and excess, carrying you toward a city that has already decided how many of you will die for its entertainment.
“I can see what’s driving you,” Minho says, his voice quieter now, like the word vendetta is something sharp in his mouth. “But if you let your anger show, you’ll make yourself a target before the Games even begin. You need to be careful. You need to look strong, not reckless. Let me make you someone the Capitol wants to watch. Someone they’ll want to sponsor.” You keep chewing, jaw tight, but slower now, and he notices. He leans forward, pressing the point. “You don’t have to stand alone in this. You could have allies. You’re blunt, you’re confident, and you’re smarter than you pretend to be. If you use that right, you won’t just survive. You’ll become something dangerous. Something they won’t know how to control.”
When you don’t answer, Minho takes your silence as permission.
“Tonight is the tribute parade,” he says, already shifting into strategy. “You need to be likable. Let them see something worth rooting for. If they like you, they’ll give you a decent score.” He hesitates, then adds, “We also got a call last night. A stylist asked for you, specifically. They usually work with the upper districts, but we’re not refusing that kind of attention.”
You let out a quiet scoff. “The stylist asked for me.”
“Yes.” Minho pushes himself to his feet. “So eat. We’re almost at the Capitol.”
When you arrive at the Capitol and are ushered off the platform, it feels like the most painful part of the journey so far. The air is too clean, too bright, and everything around you is built to remind you that you do not belong here. You are guided into a towering building and herded into a massive elevator with three people wearing makeup so strange it barely looks human. They giggle as they look you over, cooing about how pretty you are, about how they will make you the most beautiful tribute this year, as if beauty is something that can soften what is about to happen to you.
Then they strip you. Your protests stay caught in your throat as they work quickly and without mercy, removing every hair from your body. You try to curl in on yourself, to hide, to keep whatever dignity you can, but they pry your hands away whenever you cover yourself. Their touch is clinical and careless, and by the time they are done, you feel smaller than you ever have. They leave you with a flimsy robe that barely covers you, and you clutch it tight as you are led into a small waiting room and told to sit.
District 12 always looks the same in the parade. Coal miner costumes, dark fabric, soot painted onto skin like a costume instead of a lifetime. You cannot imagine what any stylist could possibly do with that, and the thought of being dressed up like a symbol of your own suffering makes your stomach twist. You have a week before the Games begin, a week to be turned into something the Capitol can enjoy looking at.
The door opens, and your body goes rigid.
A man steps inside dressed entirely in black. His hair is streaked with blond highlights, styled perfectly, and silver piercings line his ears. His eyes are sharp and foxlike, and when he smiles, it is slow and deliberate, as if he already knows something about you that you do not. He is tall and lean, with a presence that fills the room without effort.
“It’s good to meet you,” he says, “I’m Yeonjun. Your stylist.”
“I’m Y/N.” Something in his expression shifts when you say it. He moves behind you and gently turns your chair toward the mirror. His hands settle on your shoulders, and he studies your reflection.
“I know this can be a lot,” he says, his voice lower now. “But I want you to know I’m on your side.”
Doubt threading through your tone as you meet his gaze in the glass. “So what’s your plan? Coal miners again?”
He lets out a small laugh. “Honestly, your little stunt at the Reaping inspired me to dig out one of my old designs.” There is a spark of pride in his smirk. “And Soobin wants—” He stops himself too late, his mouth closing like he has said something he should not have.
“Who’s Soobin?”
“A friend,” he answers too quickly, brushing it off with a wave of his hand. “He had some suggestions, and I agree with him. If District 12 is going to walk into that parade, we might as well make it good. I already know exactly what to put you in.”
Something stirs in your chest at that, a feeling you have not allowed yourself in a long time. A dangerous excitement, like a match struck in the dark.
Yeonjun tilts his head, watching your reaction through the mirror. “So,” he says lightly, “how do we feel about fire?”
You surprise yourself by smiling.
Moving with Yeonjun feels natural, like your body already knows what to do under his direction. He dresses you in a long, sleeveless black jumpsuit with a halter neckline, simple in shape but alive in the light, the fabric catching and reflecting it with a faint, silvered glint. Black boots ground you, smoky shadow darkens your eyes, and gloves slide up your arms to your elbows. Your hair is gathered high on your head, pinned neatly into place, every strand controlled. When he steps back, you barely recognize the person in the mirror.
Now you stand beside the chariot, waiting for your turn to be called, while Yeonjun makes small adjustments to your makeup and smooths a loose strand of hair with careful fingers. “When you’re ready, press the button on the belt,” he says quietly, as if the air itself is listening. “It’s synthetic flames, but keep your hands away from your hair. Just in case.”
You nod. “Thank you, Yeonjun.” After a few minutes, he finally steps away and leaves you alone with the waiting. The other tributes have not arrived yet.
Then Sunoo appears, dressed in the familiar coal miner outfit, dark and plain beside your black shimmer. He looks at you and smiles, soft and a little sad. “You look so cool.”
You fall into a brief, quiet conversation with your co-tribute, but your attention drifts. Your eyes wander over the crowd as other tributes begin stepping forward to prepare. Faces blur together, costumes flashing with color and metal and fabric too fine for hands that will soon be bloody. You look without really seeing, moving from one district to the next, until your gaze catches on someone who is not looking away.
He is staring at you.
Out of all of them, one boy has fixed his eyes on yours. The first thing you notice is his face. It is striking in a way that feels unfair, softer than most of the boys you have known, yet sharpened by something colder underneath. His district partner is busy beside him, adjusting their costume, but he stands still. Both of them carry themselves like they were trained for this, shoulders straight, expressions carved into something proud and dangerous, already measuring the crowd and the competition.
Then he realizes you are looking back.
His stare does not break. Dark hair frames his face, making the gold crown they have placed on his head burn brighter by contrast. The costume clings to him like armor, molded and shining, as if the Capitol wants him to look like a god instead of a boy. You take in the lines of his arms, lean and muscular, a body shaped for fighting rather than running. He looks like someone who was built to survive.
And still, he keeps watching you.
It unsettles you more than the costumes, more than the noise, more than the waiting. You cannot tell if there is challenge in his eyes or curiosity, or something else entirely. All you know is that he does not look away, and the question curls in your chest like smoke.
Why you?
“Who are you glaring at? Shit, are you staring down District Two?” Sunoo whispers frantically beside you. “Stop it,” he adds, tugging at your sleeve like that might save you from whatever you have started.
“He started it,” you mutter, refusing to look away. Your eyes stay locked on the boy across the line. “You know him?”
Sunoo swallows. “You did not watch the reaping videos, did you?” he says in a rush. “He is highly predicted to win this year. Choi Beomgyu. The Capitol’s favorite, the one everyone’s betting on. They trained him since he was a kid.”
You nod slowly, the name settling into you like a stone. Beomgyu keeps staring for another long second, and then, finally, his attention shifts back to his district partner. Your shoulders loosen despite yourself, relief slipping through you when the tension breaks.
It lasts exactly one heartbeat, because Beomgyu turns away from his partner and starts walking toward you.
Sunoo’s breath stutters. “What?” His voice shakes. “Did you say something? Why is he coming over here?”
“I do not know,” you hiss, eyes tracking Beomgyu’s every step. “I did not do anything.”
He stops in front of you. Close enough that you can see the fine sheen of sweat at his temple, the sharp line of his jaw beneath the gold crown. His gaze flicks briefly to Sunoo, cold and assessing, and Sunoo understands at once.
Leave.
Sunoo hesitates only a second before backing away, swallowed by the noise and movement of the other tributes. You are left standing there, alone with the boy the Capitol has already decided will win. Beomgyu looks down at you like he is studying a weapon, and for the first time since the chariots lined up, the crowd around you seems to disappear.
It is just you and him.
Nothing is said at first. Around you, the other tributes and their stylists chatter and laugh, but between you and him there is only silence.
You are the one who breaks it. “What the fuck do you want?”
The corner of his mouth twitches, but it vanishes just as quickly. His posture stays tight, he's guarded. “What’s your game?”
“My game?”
“You’re a poor, pathetic kid from District Twelve with the confidence of a Career tribute,” he says, eyes sharp as if he is trying to peel you apart layer by layer.
“I’m a poor, pathetic kid from a district,” you reply, “who stands on the same level as you right now, because we are both tributes.”
For a moment, it looks like he is about to answer, something flashing behind his eyes. You do not give him the chance. “Fuck off,” you hiss, “or I will make sure you do not last a day in the games.”
You do not care if you have angered him. You do not care that you come from a district the Capitol expects to lose. None of that matters now. You are here because something in you decided you had to be, because the path led here no matter how hard you tried to turn away.
For Kai and Hiyyih, whose hands still shake when they think of the Reaping. For your brother, whose name still lives in your chest like a wound that never closed, and for yourself, because surviving is no longer enough. You are here to mean something, even if it costs you everything.
Beomgyu tears the cheap armor off the moment he steps into the District Two living space. The metal clatters against the floor as he yanks the gold crown from his hair, irritation written plainly across his face. Soobin is the only one in the room, and he rises at once when Beomgyu enters.
“Where’s Yeonjun?” Beomgyu snaps. “He couldn’t even style me for the parade?” He holds up the crown like it has personally offended him. “He would never have made me wear this.”
“We needed him for District Twelve,” Soobin says calmly. “And I think it was worth it.”
It was. Beomgyu cannot stop the image from resurfacing in his head. You, standing in black, wrapped in fire. The flames licking at your silhouette while the crowd forgot how to look anywhere else. You were the star of the night, the thing everyone talked about. Exactly what Soobin had wanted. All eyes drawn to you.
“So?” Soobin presses, studying Beomgyu’s face. “How is she?”
Beomgyu freezes, your voice and your stare echoing in his mind. The way you looked at him, unflinching, unbowed, as if he were not some towering Career tribute but merely a boy. He cannot remember the last time anyone from a poor district had dared to meet his eyes, to speak to him without fear curling in their throat. They knew better. They stayed quiet. They kept their heads low. They survived by being invisible.
You did not.
And in that audacity, he feels it — a pulse of both respect and wariness. Either you are foolish enough to court death, or you are dangerous enough to stand on equal ground with him.
Soobin had been right.
“She’ll do,” Beomgyu admits.
Soobin smiles, the sound quiet but satisfied, a strategist pleased that his pieces are falling into place. “You think she bites?”
“She carries herself like she does,” Beomgyu replies, voice low.
Soobin nods, his expression sharpening. “She cannot die yet. Not until Heeseung maps the arena, sets the pieces, draws the strings. She has to last at least a few days and it will not be easy, because the Capitol hunts those who burn too brightly.” His eyes darken as he remembers another fire from years past, a boy who had almost sparked hope and was snuffed out in his sleep.
“She will need allies,” Soobin says.
It is the one imperfection in an otherwise perfect plan, the one weakness that could unravel everything. This time, Soobin will not allow it. This time, Soobin will not allow it. This time, he will ensure mistakes would't happen, ever again.
Dinner that night is miserable.
Minho is in an unusually good mood, Sunoo looks lighter than he has all day, and Yeonjun has taken a seat near you with Minji laughing too loudly at everything he says. At some point, the conversation turns to you, and it does not stop. Your parade. Your flames. Your chances. You sit there while your name is passed around the table like something shiny and new.
“Oh, the way they were gushing about you,” Minji squeals, clasping her hands together. “The sponsors we could get. You might even score high.” You nod and swallow a mouthful of food that suddenly feels too big for your throat, aware of Yeonjun’s gaze on you from across the table.
“Sure,” you say, because it is easier than saying what you really feel.
Minji claps, delighted. “Wonderful. We will be in business in no time.”
Yeonjun smiles at you, softer than the others, “I’ve already got a dress ready for your interview, honey. If you liked the flames in the parade, you’re going to love it.” Normally, you would bristle at being called that. Normally, you would not care about dresses or designs or what you look like on a stage built for slaughter. But Yeonjun is different. There is sincerity in the way he looks at you, a quiet pride in his work, and you remember what he told you the first day.
I want you to know I’m on your side.
“Thank you, Yeonjun,” you say, and this time, you mean it.
“I’m excited for your next outfit,” Sunoo says brightly. “I wonder if that’s why District Two made him come talk to you.”
“District Two?” Yeonjun asks at once, lifting his head. “Who talked to you?”
“The guy,” you say with a shrug. “The one with the pretty face. What was his name again. Beomgyu. He wanted to know what my deal was and casually threatened me.”
You are fairly certain he did not actually threaten you. If anything, you were the one who did that. Still, something about his name, his face, the way his voice sounded when he spoke to you lingers longer than it should. You shove the thought away as soon as it forms. You hate him. You hate what he represents. You remember his words about poor districts and feel your jaw tighten, heat rising in your chest.
“Why would he make you a target?” Minho mutters, rubbing at his temple. “It’s the first day and you’re already marked by district two?”
“Maybe he isn’t targeting you,” Yeonjun says carefully. “The threatening could have just been a test, that’s how careers are. They size each other up. They don’t bother talking to someone unless they think that person is worth their time.”
You turn your stare on him. “You sound like you know him pretty well.”
“I hear things,” Yeonjun replies quickly. “That’s kind of my job, Y/N.”
Minji claps her hands together. “That’s good news. Career tributes have the most sponsors.”
Yeonjun nods. “An alliance could work. If he respects your strength, he might be useful. He could help you survive the first stretch of the games.”
You scoff and lean back in your chair. “Or he could choke me in my sleep.”
Minho looks at you seriously. “This could change everything.”
“All I care about,” you say, your voice rising before you can stop it, “is that the Capitol gets what they deserve.” The table falls into stunned quiet, the sound of utensils dying out one by one as every face turns toward you. Even Minji’s smile disappears. For a moment, there is only the weight of what you have said hanging in the air.
Minho is the first to recover. “You do realize they could be listening,” he says carefully.
“Yeah,” you answer, your jaw tight. “Let them listen. They already know I hate them.” He starts to speak again, but you cut him off, your eyes burning as you look straight at him. “They killed my brother.” The words land harder than anything you have said all night, and the table freezes around you. “They know exactly who I am. He would have won. There were only two tributes left. The other one was bleeding out, barely conscious, and my brother didn’t even have a wound on him. Not a cut. Not a bruise. Maybe a mosquito bite.” Your voice cracks, but you force the words out. “And they killed him in his sleep.”
It is the first time you have ever said it out loud. Not to Kai. Not to Hiyyih. Not even to yourself in the dark. Four years of swallowing it whole finally tear their way free, the shame of surviving when he did not, the rage at his mentor for letting it happen, at the crowd for cheering, at the Capitol for deciding he was too dangerous to keep alive. Your chest aches with it, raw and open. You feel every pair of eyes on you, the weight of their pity and fear pressing down until you cannot breathe, and then you meet Yeonjun’s gaze. Something in his expression shifts, a crack in the careful mask he wears, and for one awful second you think you see guilt there. The thought sends a cold shiver up your arms, and you wonder what he knows that you do not.
“I remember your brother’s death,” Minho says suddenly, cutting through the tension. “There isn’t a single person in District Twelve who doesn’t. He was too young. He was too good, but I knew he would die.”
Something inside you snaps.
You move before anyone can stop you. Minho seems to expect it, almost as if he has been waiting for this moment, and he does not even try to dodge you. Your hands slam into his chest and then his throat as you drive him backward, forcing him to the floor. Chairs scrape loudly, and you hear people shout your name, but the sound barely reaches you. You lean down close to his face and whisper, your voice trembling with fury, “You knew. You watched him get poisoned. You could have sent something. You were his mentor.”
Minho’s eyes fill, tears spilling over without shame. “He was a good kid,” he says, his voice breaking.
Your grip tightens, your whole body shaking as your brother’s face flashes in your mind, the way he used to smile at you like the world was still kind. Strong hands pull at your shoulders, dragging you back, and you lash out blindly. “Fuck off,” you snarl, trying to shake Yeonjun away as he calls your name again and again. You do not look at him. You cannot. All you can see is blood and fire and a boy who should have come home.
You do not want to be there anymore. You leave the room without looking back, your steps carrying you down the hallway with no real destination in mind, only the need to be anywhere else. When you reach the elevators, you hesitate, then notice a plain door tucked beside them. Twelve floors, one for each district, and somehow you have wandered past your own. You open the door and find a stairwell instead, dim and echoing. All you want is air, space, a moment where no one is watching you or waiting for you to break.
You climb a single flight before another door appears, and when you push it open, wind rushes at you hard enough to steal your breath. It takes a second to understand where you are. The rooftop. You step out slowly, your breathing evening as the anger drains from your chest. It is quiet up here. No cameras. No people. The sky stretched wide above you. You walk to the edge and look out over the training center, the Capitol spread beneath you, and then you glance down, the distance making your stomach turn.
“If you’re thinking of jumping, they’ve got a forcefield down there. You’d just bounce right back up.”
You inhale slowly and turn around. It is him again. District Two. Beomgyu. Of course it is. “What are you doing here,” you say flatly. “Trying to finish the competition early?”
He stands with his arms crossed, far enough away that you have space, close enough that you stay alert, already measuring how fast he could reach you if he wanted to. “I would hardly call you competition,” he replies.
You keep your eyes on him, unblinking. “You seemed pretty interested earlier.”
He studies you for a moment, then looks away. “All bark,” he says quietly. “No bite.”
You shrug, suddenly too tired to care about posturing or threats, too drained to keep pretending he matters. “Go away.”
The words come out softer than you expect, and his eyes flicker at that, like he was waiting for claws and got something raw instead. In the short time he has known you, he has learned you are sharp, loud, ready to snap, not this quiet thing standing at the edge of a roof with the wind tugging at your clothes.
“Why are you up here, Twelve?” he asks, and you almost laugh at how normal it sounds.
“I got sick of everyone,” you answer honestly, surprised at yourself. “You?”
His gaze does not leave your face. “Only place where there aren’t any cameras or mics.” For a moment, he does not look like District Two or a Career or an enemy. He just looks like a boy who needed somewhere to breathe.
The thought unsettles you.
“We’ll be killing in the arena soon,” you say, to the sky more than to him.
“I could kill you now.”
You glance at him sideways. “And you said I wasn’t your competition.”
“You’re not. I could still kill you anyway.”
“You could try.” The words sit between you, sharp and light at the same time, and you add, almost careless, “Even if you did, I may have told my mentor and my stylists and everyone else that you threatened me today. You’d be the prime suspect.”
He studies you, then turns his face toward the city, where the buildings glow like a thousand watching eyes. You think he looks better like this, silent, unarmed by his own mouth. The space between you fills with quiet, and the sun begins to sink, spilling gold and bruised red across the Capitol.
It is beautiful, and the thought feels like a betrayal.
After a long while, he speaks again. “What did the Capitol do to you?”
The question lands too cleanly, cutting through you without warning, and your breath stutters. Why does he care? “That’s not your business,” you snap, body moving to leave.
“Nice talking to you too,” he says, dry, shaking his head.
You turn away before your face can give you away and stride toward the door, anger and something softer burning together in your chest. You take the stairs quickly, as if distance might drown out his question, but it follows you down all the same, echoing in your ribs.
You spend the next day in the training center, though it feels less like preparation and more like standing inside a living map of the Capitol’s cruelty.
Stations line the room in neat sections, blades flashing under white lights, targets reset with mechanical clicks, knots and snares demonstrated by mentors who speak as if this is all a sport. You move slowly between them, pretending to browse, pretending not to notice how the Careers have already claimed the best spaces. District 1 laughs too loudly as they throw spears. District 4 gathers around the spears and the sword rack, muscles on display like a warning. The lower districts drift at the edges, fingers brushing weapons they are afraid to choose, eyes darting whenever a Career looks their way. No one tells you where to stand, but somehow everyone knows where they belong.
It is an unspoken rule, clear as law. You do not stand with the Careers if you come from somewhere poor. You do not pretend you are equal if the Capitol did not raise you to be dangerous.
Beomgyu is there too, and you make a point of not looking at him. He moves with the easy precision of someone who has never doubted his place in the world, blade cutting clean arcs through the air, his district partner murmuring praise at his shoulder. You keep your gaze on a rack of bows across the room, studying their curves, their strings, the small differences in balance.
Sunoo ruins that effort by nudging you and whispering, almost amused, “He’s looking at you again,” and the words grate against your nerves until you want to snap. You pretend not to hear. It makes your skin itch, the idea of being watched like prey or puzzle, and you refuse to give him the satisfaction of meeting his eyes.
You stop near the camouflage station and watch a girl from District 8 smear ash across her face with trembling hands, trying to disappear into the painted wall. A boy from District 10 drops a knife and flinches when it clatters too loudly. Across the room, a Career hurls an axe and splits the target clean in half, cheers breaking out around him. The sound makes something twist in your stomach. You think of traps made from wire and scrap metal, of practicing in empty fields, of learning to aim because missing meant going hungry.
None of that belongs here, and yet it lives in your bones.
All around you, the Careers stare openly, waiting for you to move, to prove something, to show teeth the way you did before. They want a performance, a spectacle, something they can measure and dismiss or fear. You lean against a pillar and let your gaze drift over the room, as if you are simply bored.
You give them nothing. You refuse to be a dog summoned by a whistle.
You do not need to show them how you fight. You do not need to train the way they do, because you have been training all your life without weapons or sponsors or applause. When the time comes for individual scores, you will meet your bow then, in front of all of them, when it actually matters.
Until that moment, you stay still, eyes sharp, body quiet, letting them wonder what you are capable of and whether they should be afraid.
You hear the whistle blow.
The room slowly unravels as tributes begin to move back toward the elevators. It means the day is over, that you are expected to return to your floor and sit down to another Capitol meal. Out of the corner of your eye, you see Beomgyu turn from the weapon racks and walk straight toward you. He does not bother hiding it. The other Careers glance between the two of you, confusion flickering across their faces as he closes the distance with long, certain strides.
“Meet me again tonight,” he says, stopping in front of you. He does not bother to explain where. He does not need to.
You scoff and tilt your head. “And if I don’t show up?”
To his credit, he’s facially unbothered by your words. His jaw doesn’t tighten, his lips don’t twitch, his gaze doesn’t even falter from where it’s pinned to your face. You hate how indifferent he is; it makes him impossible to read. It gives you nothing to work with.
“I’ll see you there,” he replies, already turning away. A moment later he is gone, slipping back into the cluster of tributes as they head for the elevators.
You trail behind the others, your thoughts tangling as fast as your feet can move. Meet him again. The words echo in your head with no clear shape. The elevator is large enough to hold all twenty four of you with space still left over, but it feels crowded anyway. The ride is slow, stopping at every floor, the doors sliding open and shut like a patient mouth. You stand near the back, eyes drifting despite yourself toward District 2. This time it is not Beomgyu watching you, but his district partner. When your gaze meets hers, you raise an eyebrow. To your surprise, she clears her throat and looks away.
You’re a poor, pathetic kid from District Twelve with the confidence of a Career tribute.
The ride feels endless as tributes leave one by one, until it is only you and Sunoo left inside. The bell chimes softly and the doors slide open. You step out into your floor and head toward the dining room, where the table is already covered in food. Minho and Minji are seated, and your mentor brightens when he sees you.
“How’d training go?” he asks.
You cut him off before he can say more. “I’m going to eat later.”
He blinks, clearly not expecting that, but you are already turning away. You do not want questions. You do not want faces. You do not want to sit under bright lights pretending nothing is wrong.
You pass the elevator and push open the familiar stairwell door instead. Cool air rushes over you, carrying the scent of metal and sky. By the time you reach the rooftop, your breathing has slowed. Beomgyu is not there yet. The space is empty except for the wind and the distant glow of the Capitol below. You walk to the edge and lower yourself onto the ledge, the stone wide enough to hold you. For a moment, you just sit there, waiting for whatever comes next.
The sun is already sinking when he appears, the sky bruised with orange and violet. “You’re early,” Beomgyu says as he lowers himself onto the rooftop stone, keeping a careful distance between you.
“Planning to push me off?” you ask without looking at him.
He shrugs,“Don’t tempt me.”
“What do you want?”
You do not know why you chose this place instead of going back to your team, back to the people who are supposed to be on your side. Your mentor, your partner. They should be the ones steadying you, filling the hollow parts with plans and reassurance, telling you how to survive. But they do not. Their words feel like instructions, not comfort. Their concern feels heavy, like another thing you have to carry. For some crooked reason, sitting here with him feels easier. He does not tell you what to be or how to act. He throws barbs instead of promises, and somehow that honesty feels safer.
He does not like you, and you do not like him, and there is relief in that. It is simpler than standing among people who claim to care when you do not know if you can return it.
“I don’t have a game, Beomgyu,” you say before you can stop yourself. The confession slips out, raw. “I barely know what I’m doing. All I know is I’m angry, and I can’t sleep without thinking about burning all of this down.”
“Yeah?” His eyes lift to yours, curious. You look away, studying the sky instead, pretending you did not notice the way his brow arches. “So that’s it? Hate the Capitol and see where it takes you?”
You consider it. Trust is a dangerous thing, and words are weapons too. You search for something in yourself that could be used against you and find only the same fury you have carried for years. There is nothing here he can steal.
“I hate them too,” Beomgyu says into the quiet. “That makes the two of us.”
It stuns you, hearing it from him. A Career tribute, raised in strength and privilege, speaking the same hatred you do. You stare at the city and wonder what the Capitol took from him to make those words sound so true.
You let out a soft, bitter laugh. “They took everything from me.”
Silence settles again. You were not expecting to like this, not expecting to feel understood by someone you are supposed to fight. Yet you stay, watching the last of the sun disappear, and for the first time all day, you let yourself listen to what he might say next.
“Why me?” you finally ask, the question burning its way out of you. “You keep singling me out. You keep watching me. And now you’re sitting here with me on a rooftop when we’re supposed to kill each other in four days. What the hell is wrong with you?”
“I want to be allies, Twelve.”
Your brows lift despite yourself. “Did you hit your head somewhere?”
He lets out a short scoff. “No.”
“I don’t trust you.”
“The feeling’s mutual.”
“One of us is still going to end up killing the other.”
Beomgyu shifts, the stone scraping faintly beneath him. “Then make it mean something. Make it hurt them. Give the Capitol hell. I’m in.”
“No,” you say at once.
His head tilts. “No?”
“No.”
“No what?”
“I don’t want to be allies.” You slide off the ledge, your boots hitting concrete with a dull thud, and start toward the door. “And don’t call me Twelve.” The words trail over your shoulder as you push it open and shut it behind you, leaving him with the dying light of the skyline.
The last day of training passes in a strange, muted blur.
You drift from station to station, letting the instructors correct your stance and your grip, memorizing small tricks for close combat and defense. You spar once with a tribute from District 11, all muscle and grit, and the mat burns against your skin when you hit the floor. Still, you never touch a bow.
By midday, the calls begin. One by one, tributes are summoned for their private sessions with the Gamemakers, starting with District 1, of course. Ten minutes each. Ten minutes to prove you are worth betting on. You and Sunoo are left sitting side by side in the waiting room, the air thick with nerves. To your surprise, he looks calm, hands folded in his lap, eyes distant. When his name is called, he gives you a small nod before disappearing through the doors.
You are alone after that. Time stretches thin and brittle. When your turn finally comes, you step into a vast, echoing room. A shooting range lines one wall. A towering rack of weapons stands at the center, blades and spears gleaming under the lights. In the corners are smaller stations, knots to be tied, patterns of camouflage to be tested. It feels like a playground built for killing.
You walk straight to the weapons.
The Gamemakers sit above you in their high gallery, nearly two dozen of them, draped in color and excess. They are eating, laughing, talking over one another as if you are nothing more than part of the scenery. You hate them on sight. Hate the way they do not look down. Hate how easy it is for them to ignore you.
You stop at the rack, your fingers twitching as they hover over a bow. The pull in your chest is instinctive, something old and familiar. When you lift it, the weight feels right in your hands, balanced and steady.
“District 12,” you call up, your voice carrying through the room. No one turns. “Last one of the day.” The words fall flat, swallowed by their laughter.
You notch an arrow and face the range. The target seems too close, too simple. You glance up again. Still no eyes on you. A bitter breath leaves your lungs. So this is what you are to them?
Then why gather twenty four of you at all if they will not even look. Why build an entire spectacle if they cannot be bothered to watch. You draw the bowstring back, anger tightening with it, and decide that if they will not see you, you will make them.
You remember Minho’s voice in your head, Do good. But not too good. Do not give everything away.
You loose the first arrow. It strikes the target in the stomach, solid and clean, but not perfect. A safe shot. You lift the bow again, already preparing the second, when laughter breaks through the air.
You look up.
A servant is weaving between the Gamemakers with a tray of champagne, and suddenly all of them are cheering, glasses raised, their attention swallowed by bubbles and gold and noise. They do not see you. They do not care that you are here, breathing and waiting and bleeding in advance.
Heat rushes into your face.
Screw Minho. Screw restraint. Screw all of it.
I hate them. That makes the two of us.
You grab another arrow, faster this time, anger guiding your hands. You draw and release in one sharp motion.
The arrow whistles clean through the air. It strikes the champagne glass just as it reaches a Gamemaker’s hand. Crystal bursts apart with a sharp, ringing crack. Pale gold liquid explodes outward, splashing across silk sleeves and polished tables. The ruined stem spins once before falling, and your arrow continues on, clattering uselessly into the far wall. Silence drops over the room. It is sudden and absolute. Every voice dies. Every fork stills.
Every jeweled, powdered head turns toward you.
“I was worried you couldn’t see us from down here,” you say, your voice raw and blazing, louder than you expect it to be, “It must be fucking hard, looking past all this.” You let the bow slip from your hands. It hits the floor with a heavy, echoing thud, and you see one of them flinch as if you had aimed at them instead.
“Enjoy the party,” you add.
With a final glance, you bend at the waist in a slow, mocking bow. Then you turn on your heel and walk out, heart pounding, leaving their spilled champagne and their staring eyes behind you.
You have a real appetite at dinner.
You eat with vigour. Minho keeps glancing at you from across the table, brows drawn together as if he is trying to solve a puzzle. He has never seen you like this, relaxed in the shoulders, steady in the hands. Yeonjun arrives partway through the meal, hair still perfect, eyes bright when you give him a small nod in greeting. Minji talks through half her plate, laughing too loudly at her own jokes. For a brief, fragile moment, it almost feels like a normal day.
Then the television switches on.
The sound alone pulls everyone’s attention toward it. Forks pause midair. Chairs scrape closer. The host’s painted smile fills the screen, teeth too white, eyes too sharp. One by one, the scores are announced. District after district. Numbers rise and fall like dice thrown by careless gods. You feel each one in your chest, a dull thud of anticipation. Your fingers curl slightly against the edge of the table.
“And now for the District Twelve tributes,” the host says, and your spine goes rigid.
He glances down at his card. “The male tribute, Kim Sunoo. A score of eight.”
Sunoo lets out a small breath beside you, something between relief and fear. Minho nods once, slow and thoughtful. “We can work with that.”
Then the screen changes. Your face fills it, caught mid-turn, eyes sharp, jaw set. You barely recognize yourself. “A score of…” the host begins, drawing the moment thin, stretching it until it hurts.
The number spins into place. Your fork slips from your fingers and clatters softly against the plate.
“Oh my goodness,” the host laughs, delighted. “A score of twelve.”
When interview day comes, the morning passes in a strange calm. You are left alone long enough to breathe, to sit with the quiet and pretend this is just another day that belongs to you. By afternoon, your prep team swarms in with brushes and powders and eager hands, fixing your hair and painting your face until you barely recognize the reflection.
Everyone is pleased with your score, especially Minji, who chatters about sponsors and attention and how she has already been dropping your name into the right mouths. You nod and let her talk, but you know better. A high score is not a blessing. It is a mark. The Capitol has lifted you into the light so everyone can see you clearly when they aim.
Yeonjun brings the dress in his arms. The fabric is cool and soft when he drapes it over you, a spill of red that gathers at your waist and falls in heavy folds to the floor. When he turns you toward the mirror, the sight steals the air from your lungs. Scarlet wraps around you in a careful spiral, climbing over your shoulders and throat like flame caught in motion. It is intricate and dangerous and impossible to ignore.
“Well?” he asks, watching your face instead of your reflection. “What do you think?”
"It's beautiful," his expression softens.
“It’s flammable,” he adds quietly. “Just like how you liked it.” The words land too close to something you have not touched since the day he looked at you with that strange knowing gaze, the day you mentioned your brother, hung unspoken between you.
You wait until the room is empty and the air feels safe before you turn to him again. Your voice is smaller than you want it to be. “Do you know my brother?”
The question frightens you as soon as it leaves your mouth, because there is no harmless answer to it. If he says yes, it will change everything. If he says no, you will wonder if he is lying. You search his face for something solid to hold on to, knowing that whatever he says next will either steady you or split you open.
“Yes,” Yeonjun says, and there is nothing careful or evasive in his eyes. “I was only starting out back then. I was shadowing another stylist, and that stylist,” he pauses, then continues, “was your brother’s stylist.”
You go still at his answer. The room feels smaller, tighter around your chest, and he keeps talking before you can stop him.
“He talked about you constantly,” Yeonjun says. “Not about the Games. Not about winning. About you.” A faint smile touches his mouth, but it wavers. “He said he had a sister who was kind. A sister who was stubborn in the best way. A sister who shared her food even when there wasn’t much to give.” His voice softens. “He said he couldn’t wait to go home to you. That once it was over, he would never let them take him away again.”
“You were the reason he kept trying,” Yeonjun continues. “Every fitting, every meeting, every night before the cameras turned off, he talked about you like you were the sun. Like you were proof that something good still existed.” He swallows hard. “It’s strange. I remember him talking about you with so much hope, and now you're here, carrying all this grief he never wanted you to have..”
Your vision blurs before you can stop it. You stare past him, at the wall, at the mirror, at nothing at all. Your ribs feel too tight, your breaths coming uneven, shallow and sharp. You keep your mouth closed because you know your voice will break if you try to speak. You turn as if you are about to leave, as if movement will save you from this.
“I don’t want to cry,” you whisper, more to yourself than to him. “I can’t.”
“I know,” Yeonjun says quietly. “But it doesn’t make you weak.”
You shake your head. “If I start, I won’t stop.”
Then his hands are on your face, warm and steady, forcing you to look at him.
“I’m going to make you unforgettable,” Yeonjun says quietly. “Press this when you’re on stage. The flames won’t hurt you, spin once your dress catches.” His voice lowers, almost like a promise. “For Jungwon.”
He pulls you into a hug before you can stop yourself, and this time you do not resist. Your forehead presses into his shoulder, your breath catching as grief finally finds a place to land. Your eyes burn, and your hands clutch the back of his jacket like you are afraid of falling. For a moment, you are not a tribute.
You are a sister who was loved.
The waiting room is painfully plain.
One open doorway waits at the far end, curtains pulled back just enough to hint at the stage beyond. White walls stretch endlessly, too clean, too bright. A peacekeeper stands in each corner, guns resting against their chests like decorations rather than threats. In front of the twenty four chairs, a massive television flickers to life, tuned to the center stage so none of you are spared from watching what comes next.
You sink into your seat and stare at the host on the screen. His hair is an unnatural shade of purple, glittering every time he moves his head beneath the lights. His smile is wide and blinding, practiced down to the smallest muscle. Another loyal Capitol dog, dressed up in color and charm. “Welcome!” he booms, arms thrown wide. “To our tribute interviews.”
The applause crashes through the speakers, loud enough to make your chest vibrate. The audience sounds endless. They start with the girl from District 1. Chaewon, you think. She glides onto the stage in a soft pink dress, flawless and glowing, answering questions with ease. She smiles at the right moments, laughs on cue, never once looks afraid. She is everything your mentor would have wanted you to be. Everything the Capitol loves.
Tributes come and go, faces blurring together, until Beomgyu’s name is called.
He stands and moves with an unhurried confidence, he’s dressed simply, a grey collared shirt with the top buttons undone, sleeves rolled to his forearms, black slacks that fit just right. There’s no spectacle to him, no forced shine. His stylist didn’t need to try. He already knows how to hold a room.
He stops in front of you. “They want you dead,” he says quietly. “Because of that score.”
You shrug, leaning back in your chair. “Can you tell me something I don’t know?”
Beomgyu throws you an exasperated look when the security nudges him toward the stage, and you can’t help the small grin that slips out when he scowls at them like they personally offended him. For someone who acts like a menace around you, he looks almost… annoyed at being paraded.
What a pleasant guy.
You watch his interview with more attention than you mean to. He is nothing like he is with you. No sharp tongue, no lazy smirk meant to get under someone’s skin. He only speaks when the host corners him with a question, and even then his answers are clipped and bare, a word or two at most, like he is rationing them.
It is strange, seeing him like this. Quiet. Guarded. Almost bored. You know how easily he trades barbs with you, how quick his mouth is when it comes to you, and the difference settles heavy in your chest before you can name it. With you, he bites back. With them, he barely opens his mouth.
The host struggles to pull anything out of him, fishing for charm that never comes. When Beomgyu’s time is up, he leaves the stage without a backward glance, shoulders set like he has been waiting for the escape.
As he passes you, you tilt your head. “Aren’t you such an entertainer.”
He glances at you, corner of his mouth twitching in a smirk. “I aim to disappoint the right people.”
You snort. “Guess I’m lucky then.”
“Don’t push it,” he mutters, walking past.
You watch the stage again, your reflection faint in the dark screen, and wonder how much of yourself you’ll be willing to give when your name is finally called.
People file past the doorway one by one, their interviews bleeding into each other until the host finally calls your name. The sound of it feels heavier than it should. You force your shoulders back and stand. Every pair of eyes in the room turns toward you as you step onto the stage, the lights so bright they wash the world into white.
“There she is!” the host bellows, voice ringing through the hall. “Our girl on fire!”
You manage a smile, though it feels stiff on your face, something borrowed instead of owned. The heat of the lights presses against your skin as you sit across from him, hands folded carefully in your lap.
“My dear!” he says, beaming as the cheers finally die down. “Who is responsible for this masterpiece of a look? Oh, Choi Yeonjun!”
You find Yeonjun in the crowd. Against the Capitol’s riot of colors, he looks almost out of place in all black, his slacks and high neck shirt stark and simple. He offers a small, polite wave to the camera before sitting again, his gaze finding yours just long enough to steady you.
“You’ve been such a favorite,” the host continues, delighted. “Especially after that parade of yours. So tell me, anyone special watching from home tonight?”
Kai’s face flashes in your mind. Hiyyih’s laugh. The way home used to sound. No. You swallow.
“My brother would be,” you say, voice clear despite the tightness in your chest. “If he weren’t dead.”
The host falters, just a fraction of a second, but it’s enough. His smile slips before he catches it again. “I’m very sorry to hear that, dear. But I’m sure he’d be proud of how well you’re doing, right?”
“I wish,” you answer, lifting your gaze to the camera. You know who sits behind it. “The President knows all about that. Don’t you?”
The audience exhales in sharp little sounds, whispers rippling through the seats like disturbed water. The host glances up at the timer above the stage, hope flickering across his face as if it might save him. You are the first tribute he cannot steer, the first one who refuses to soften. “Well,” he tries, “why don’t we talk about the arena? Any plans you’d like to share with us?”
Your eyes stay fixed on the camera. “I’m going to get them all,” you say. “Even the ones who think they’re safe. Even the ones who think they’re untouchable. I’ll get them.”
You shift your gaze to Yeonjun. He is already watching you, waiting. When he nods, it feels like a door opening. You pinch the button hidden in your palm.
Fire answers.
It climbs you in a rush of gold and white, a living thing that coils around your dress and devours the red in a heartbeat. The audience erupts into screams, chairs scraping back as if distance might save them. The host stumbles so hard he nearly falls, one hand lifted in useless defense. Heat roars in your ears, bright and blinding, until there is nothing but flame and the pounding of your own blood.
The flames won’t hurt you.
You draw in a breath and turn slowly on the spot. The fabric of your dress collapses as you move, breaking apart like embers drifting down onto the stage. It peels away in falling pieces until the fire thins, then dies, and the hall fills with the sound of a thousand sharp inhales.
Beneath it, you stand in black.
The jumpsuit clings to you like armor, stark and severe, carving your silhouette into something sharper than you’ve ever been allowed to be. You don’t look like a girl from District Twelve anymore.
You look like a warning.
You lift your chin and stare straight into the camera. Then you turn and walk off the stage without waiting for permission, your footsteps echoing in the stunned quiet.
Your heartbeat crashes in your ears, loud as thunder now that it’s over. Your hands start to shake, the tremor working its way down your arms, but you don’t regret a single second of it.
When you step back into the waiting room, every head turns. Some tributes stare at you like you’ve done something reckless. Some look pale, like they’ve just realized how real this is. One girl covers her mouth, eyes shining like she might cry.
But others…
Others look lit from the inside. Something fierce. Something alive. It was as if you just said the words they’ve been swallowing for years.
Your gaze drifts down the line. Beomgyu is leaning back in his chair, watching you with that crooked, knowing smirk. His eyes catch yours, and before you can stop it, the corner of your mouth lifts.
I told you.
Tomorrow, the Hunger Games begin.
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゜・。・ When your name is called as the tribute for District 12 in the annual Hunger Games, you accept it immediately, this is how people like you die. There’s no heroism in it, no surprise, just the usual math of starvation and bad odds. The reaping ends, the train begins to move, and somewhere between the steel walls and the locked doors, you realize two things that could delay the inevitable.
You’re not half bad with a bow and Choi Beomgyu, the district 2’s golden boy, can’t seem to keep his eyes off you.
May the odds be in your favor.
act i ᴛʜᴇ ꜱɪʟᴠᴇʀ ʀᴇᴀᴘɪɴɢ act ii ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛᴀᴄʟᴇ ᴏꜰ ꜰɪʀᴇ part one act iii ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛᴀᴄʟᴇ ᴏꜰ ꜰɪʀᴇ part two act iv ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx ʜᴏᴀx act v ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀꜱᴛ ʜᴏᴘᴇ
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thank you for 400! ><
Can I ask one thing?
Where do you get your ideas for writing coz it feels like I don't even know how to piece it in words.
I was busy with my studies for 2-3 week and what did I saw you uploaded 2 DAMN CHAPTERS .
AND LET ME TELL YOU THOSE CHAPTERS ARE CHEFS KISS .
I can't describe how good those were the slow built of trust, the way they were surviving, and the flood scene andddd the forcefield breaking scene they were AHHHHH!!!!they touched my heart.
And what do you mean you started with new fic already. Gurl the teaser to new fic and divorced beomgyu. ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME!!!
I don't know your hands are brilliant noo no no your brain is brilliant that it wrote those fics.
You write the best fics and i know you know that just keep it up gurl.
And no need to rush yourself to write ffs fastly just go at your pace and we will enjoy the wait.
Fighting!!!
Love you Raya🥰🥰
hi!! i’m so sorry for the late reply, work kind of swallowed me whole for a bit 😭
i’ve always had a really loud imagination, even as a kid (it never shuts up), was part of the school newspaper pretty much my entire school life, so writing has always been around me in some way. i think that’s why when i write now, there are always a hundred little details and emotions running in my head. and also! it's important to outline your work, list everything, and somethings a small details comes to my mind i always write it down to my notepad! lol
thank you so much for loving the chapters so far! i love those two they have my heart ><
love, after me has been sitting in my drafts for a long time. i just couldn’t find the right moment for it, and then i heard iris a few weeks ago and it did something to me. (started writing crazily after that heh)
maybe it’s also because there was a time i almost quit writing completely. coming back to it now feels different, i think i’m more grateful for it. i let myself romanticize the process a little more :))
thank you for looking out for me! all my love 🤍
₊˚⊹ ིྀ 𝐎𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑: 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄
pairing: divorced choi beomgyu x female reader genre: second chance trope, romance, heavy angst, mental health struggles, hurt/comfort, beomgyu and reader are divorced, beomgyu pathetically in love with his ex-wife, beomgyu as a yearning man (more to be added)
A divorce is the death of a marriage. The life you built has been lowered into the ground, and you are expected to keep living as if something inside you wasn’t buried with it.
The shadowy ambience of the kitchen can’t hide the way that flush deepens the longer he holds your gaze, and Beomgyu is all too aware he’s treading dangerous waters. He knows this is the kind of closeness that once burned you both.
Maybe that’s why he can’t help wading into them a bit further. This line between you has stretched dangerously thin, and Beomgyu has always been a bit reckless. Maybe it’s habit. Maybe it’s the part of him that always mistook wanting for loving. His hand doesn’t brush by your waist, but it could. The possibility alone is enough to make your fingers tighten almost imperceptibly against the edge of the counter.
For a fleeting second, something stupid flickers across his face. A near smirk. A memory of who he used to be with you. He might have said something careless, pretended the past year never happened, if not for the sight of your left hand resting between you.
Bare.
Even a year later, he’s still not used to it.
Sometimes, he wishes it had ended in something catastrophic. A single, unforgettable explosion. A fight so vicious it left cracks in the walls and no room for doubt. Yelling. Accusations. Words sent flying that couldn’t be taken back, no matter how many apologies were exchanged. Something he could point to and say, there, that was the moment it died. If he’d just had a good reason, one moment upon which he could definitively hang the hat of his marriage, then maybe Beomgyu wouldn’t feel so hollow a year later.
He steps closer, close enough to see the faint shadows beneath your eyes. He used to kiss that spot all the time, when your laughter made them crinkle at the corners, when you cried over a day that had been too cruel, when you stayed up too late and pretended you weren’t tired.
He knew every change in your face once, now he only sees what he missed.
“Are you…have you been seeing anyone?”
₊ ˚ ⊹ ིྀ 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄: March 8th!
note: my slightly late kind of valentine’s fic >< i’ve been working on this all week and it has completely taken over my brain. proofreading the teaser while listening to iris was a terrible decision because why was i sitting there emotional over my own words 😭 this one is going to be really, really mature, so please MDNI. so excited (and a little unwell) about this, and i can’t wait to finally share it with moablr.
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ㅤ ︵ ུ 𝗍𝖺𝗀 𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗇, 𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗆𝖾 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗀𝖾𝖽!
OMG RAYA I still haven’t got a proper time to properly read your “A new dawn” beomgyu fics yet, and I saw you have uploaded like two-three chapters already and believe me when I tell you I AM BUZZING WOTH EXCITEMENT TO LOOK FOR TIME AND READ IT STRAIGHT AWAY, but I want to savour the story and not rush it yknow?? I’m torn to either finish my workload first and wait for the whole series to be uploaded OR rawdog everything and just chase the dopamine I’ve been keeping for later when my work is done. Ohh decisions decisions.
Oh other than that, I also saw your “love after me” teaser AND LET ME TELL YOU, WOW!! RAYA!! You’ve been actively writing a series and ANOTHER on that?!! That is so amazing of you. And divorce beomgyu?? Again?? OMG IF I COULD I WANT TO KISS YOUR HEAD AND BRAIN FOR THAT. Although it hurts to read but it hurts soooo good to have yearning beomgyu:( (sorry beomgyu!) That, too, will have to wait until my work is done (which is taking FOREVER I tell you) and I’ll be making all your works my end of the day reward><
Have a nice day raya!! I’ll come back againnn~~
hi baby how are you?
i actually love that you want to savour my hunger games au and yes! that story is very much a sit-with-it type of fic. i really loved writing it and it's so different to the fics i already wrote! :)))
and love, after me 😭 divorce beomgyu really has a chokehold on me i fear. i don’t know what it is about yearning, regret, and loveeeee love that just scratches something in my brain. i promise i’m not trying to emotionally damage everyone… it just happens. (okay maybe a little.) writing two projects at once is lowkey unhinged but i’m having so much fun!!! i promise.
please finish your workload first though. i want you stress-free :))) my fics are not going anywhere. they’ll be sitting there patiently like “hey… ruin your peace when you’re done being responsible.” LOL
have the best day too! come back whenever you’re ready. i’ll be here, probably making beomgyu suffer again. (this guy! this guy! heh)
raya may i please know the name of the aesthetic called for your pinned post, i need to find a pinterest moodboard like it for my journalling its just so pretty 🥺🩶
hello! it's about gothic classic dark theme kind of! :))) yes it's really prettyyyy
