An Open Letter, Apology, Confession, Excuse
Dear Day1ners Veiwers and Friends,
Well guys- I've dropped the ball. Through a series of excuses that either are or are not valid depending on your personal opinions on commitment and life happenings, I haven't found the focus and/or energy to commit to this challenge. Days 1-11 proved to be tricky, and the guitar itself didn't stick with me or my heart. It's a language I couldn't crack, became frustrated with, and let sink to the bottom of my life inbox with a star on it reminding me to get to it when I could.
Here is what I have learned so far working on this blog:
1. Commitments are hard. They are called commitments because it's something you must choose to do- not something that happens regularly and naturally. This means it is on you (cough me cough) to see it through and not the universes job to make it happen for you.
2. Time management is everything. There is simultaneously not enough and definitely enough time in the day for everything you need. Stop procrastinating. Get enough sleep. Don't waste your lunch break watching Mad Men. Don't use cleaning your apartment as an excuse to not do the things you said you would because it's not that dirty and you're not really doing a good job anyway. Find the things that matter and do them first. Make lists. Do the things on the list. See #1 for more information on sticking with commitments.
3. I'm kind of lazy. Apparently, if the task at hand isn't something I love to do or is necessary to make money or career advancements, I put it in a special place in by brain I like to call "the back burner."
4. Writing a blog daily doesn't mean you write well daily. The point of the blog is to create engaging and interesting material to shine light on a specific experience, opinion or theory- and writing something right before bed half conscious just to complete your blog "homework" leaves you prone to typos, fragmented thoughts and rambling info. It also makes you look like the crap partner in your partner blog.
I'm not in love with myself over all of this. I'm not aiming to justify not being able to complete this months challenge, but I am hoping to explain myself some and let you guys know that I KNOW YOU'RE HERE and I'm AWARE I'M BLOWING IT and also to support Taryn and her personal journey in the Guitar Challenge because she is KILLING IT. I believe having my half baked posts next to her shining progress is doing the blog and her commitment a disservice. I also believe I will not be able to turn this challenge around for myself in any meaningful way in the next 8 days. Unfortunately, my new plan is to quietly and awkwardly moon walk out the back door and bow out of the guitar challenge, tuck my tail between my legs and regroup for May.
I love you guys and I love Taryn's singing voice and, for whatever it's worth, will emotionally eat over this whole thing.
Clear eyes, full heats, can't lose. - Jamie (or Friday Night Lights)
