confused, but alive..

im scared. my names atticus, i think, and all i know is that staying still is a death sentence.

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Have you heard of The Backrooms?

Chances are, if you’re here, you haven’t. Most people don’t go to The Backrooms on purpose. No clipping out of reality is a little more common than you’d think.

This is Atticus. He’s trapped in The Backrooms, and his past is unknown. It’s up to you to help him figure everything out.

WARNING!!

This blog contains derealization, unreality, limimal spaces, blood, inhuman creatures, mentions of insanity, and panic attacks. Do NOT follow if any of these trigger you.

Stay safe out there.

@lognumberwhoknows

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entry number nineteen.

ok, ive written answers to everything i had left to reply to. if any of you want to ask anything again, go ahead. ill reply to everything.

uh, thats pretty much it. found a few documents, ill try and show you later.

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🖇It’s been a bit of a while since I’ve written one of these notes. Stay safe out there, traveler! Watch out for all the wacky folks round these parts. Specially that Jerry fella. Real tricky guy📎

entry number eighteen.

i found another one of these notes. who's jerry? guess ill watch out... uh, stay safe too, whoever you are. maybe youre reading this, maybe youre not. either way...

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Holy shit. I've been reading up on your situation and I've been doing some research and I just think I figured out what you are. I can't believe I didn't think of it before, it seems obvious in hindsight- especially with the Partygoer incident. They were right, you're supposed to be dead. I don't know how you survived. Do you really want to know? It's a bit much to take in, especially with the history behind your kind.

answer number twenty-five.

you really think you've got it? well, with the way you phrased it, im not so sure, but

actually, no, i want to know. maybe histories dont matter here but everyone has them anyway, except me. and it seems important with the way everythings happened... yes, please tell me. what am i? what happened? why am i meant to be.. dead..?

the lights went out again. i hate the dark. to be honest, it... really, really scares me.

its okay, atticus. they'll come back on soon... they always do...

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This is Rhill again. I know this means little to nothing coming from an entity, but you look nice to me! The particular color of your mask really goes with your hoodie! <] 🛸🪸

answer number twenty-four.

... thanks. it means a lot, really. i dont think im really in any position to discriminate between humans and entities anyway, given everything. as long as you arent a partygoer... or trying to kill me, haha... yeah.

im no style expert, either. i think this hoodie was black once, but im so clumsy i kept tearing it and having to fix it with anything i could find. i guess maybe thats an upside if the backrooms, if there ever was one? taught me how to sew. plus, i met evan, and hes pretty cool.

thanks again, rhill. hopefully ill talk to you in person sometime..?

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Hello Atticus! I have sent Evan a similar post, however that was before I got caught up on your situation! My name is Rhill, and I run a help desk within most of the same levels! I know you got hurt, and it could be bad news bears if that got infected, so if you need some supplies to help with that, come find me! My station is a little weird and always in a different spot within the levels, but that’s just how the Backrooms work I guess. I will ALWAYS be at my desk, simply not to get assumed as a Partygoers situation. I understand if you do not trust me and do not want to risk coming to find me, but I will have gauze and meds at the ready! I do not have much because I have not been scavenging in a while, but I have enough to spare for a wanderer! As long as you are confident in finding me and my station, then my station will find you! I wish you and Evan the best of luck! [Tell Evan I said hello!] 🛸🪸

answer number twenty-three.

hi, rhill. thanks for your offer of help. its always nice to know that there's other people around. i mean, obviously i know that there is, but sometimes... being here feels so isolating. feels like i should be used to it, but im just not. at least evan's here, and you. maybe we'll come visit sometime. my leg's slowly been getting better with the supplies evan and i have found, but anything helps, really.

evan says hi back, too.

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Hi, I just found your blog and it seems like we’re in similar situations… thank god I’m not alone. Haven’t seen another person in weeks and it’s good to know I’m not the only one. If you have any advice on how to survive like this, please let me know.

Again, it’s good to know I’m not alone so thank you.

answer number twenty-two.

hey there. its good to see me and evan arent alone. i really don't like being alone, which is weird since youd think id be used to it by now. in terms of advice... i dont know. be careful? if you have a bag, take all the supplies you can hold. sometimes things just kinda.. disappear, so its always good to have backups. maybe we could meet up sometime, or something..? thatd be nice.

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hi!!! anon here!! i’m so sorry for not responding, i’ve been rlly busy :/

i’ll hopefully be able to get back to you with some info later this week but i’m not sure.

let me just say you look adorable by the way lmao. i love your mask 🥺

for someone trapped in a never ending hell you are very simp worthy :D

update me on anything that happens- you know, if you have a lot a time on your hands, you could look thru the laptop more.

stay safe!!!!

anon

answer number twenty-one.

its fine, i get the feeling. i really appreciate you sticking with me through all this.. stuff.. happening. you and evan and all the other people i guess are talking to me.

thanks, by the way. im glad you think im adorable. :). evan showed me the smiley faces. also im not sure what simp worthy means since evan wouldn't tell me (he just laughed) but im glad that i at least look presentable to some extent. ill make sure to update you on anything i find.

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mod/ooc post

writing this out of code because it's important and i really can't be bothered. im super sorry for the lack of any recent activity. a lot of shit has happened in the last couple months that has utterly destroyed all of my motivation for this blog and arg. i have some drafts that i'll work on and queue when i get the time, but for now im taking a break and im really sorry. please dont send in any (lore) asks until ive posted all the drafts (ill make it clear when ive cleared everything out). thanks for your patience with me right now.

- mod cipher ⚡

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entry number eighteen.

havent gotten a lot of anything recently. i hope you guys are still out there. did something in my photo scare you off? hope not, haha...

i think im getting paranoid. evan and i should probably move again before something.. happens, or something. i dunno. staying in one place isnt the greatest idea, i know that much.

sorry for not updating in a while. not much has happened.

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entry number seventeen.

here.

i got evan to help me take a picture of myself. i hope it helps in.. whatever way. maybe theres something significant to you guys in it. i dont know. i look kind of stupid in this hoodie, haha. ...

ugh. the shadows are starting to creep me out now. i need a nap.

yeah, goodnight.

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Hi! Anon here, and here's some info I could find. But first, some code was left in your tags again. Here it is.

"#It wasn't supposed to happen like this.#I wouldn't have told you to do it if I knew..."

Weird! Anyway, here's that partygoer stuff.

Apparently, there was a few wars between humans and partygoers. I think we've established that you probably had some sort of past here, so maybe they knew you from that? I can give more info if you think this could be it.

Sorry for the late response. How is Evan?

Stay safe buddy! ^-^

answer number twenty.

hi, anon. the codes are... weird and vague. who are they talking to, do you think? you, or...?

wars between humans and partygoers is.. kinda weird, i guess. i mean, weve established im not human, right? do you think there were other things helping the humans? or is there something missing? more information might be helpful.

were there any entities that opposed the partygoers? other than humans, at least.

the late response is fine. i didnt notice or anything. times weird here, im sure you know that. evans fine. i think he talked to someone new recently but im not sure.

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hi!!! anon here!! i’m happy to hear your leg is feeling better, that’s great.

anything on your computer that’s out of the ordinary would be great to see. i’ll try to help analyze it as well as i can.

-anon

answer number nineteen.

sorry i didnt get to you earlier. somehow i only just saw this, haha. um. i hope my leg doesnt get any worse. do you know anything about the partygoers.. attacks or whatever? actually, do you know anything more about partygoers you could tell me? i found something... weird, and i think it might be related to what happened and stuff. ill post it next, i think.

your help is great. thanks. i really appreciate how much youre doing for us. ill make sure to post some of the stuff ive found for you to look at.

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entry number sixteen.

my leg feels a bit better. i can walk a short while on my own if i lean on the wall. ive mostly been resting, though, finding more weird... diary entries, i guess, and poetry and stuff.

maybe if you want to see some ill paste it in.

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oh??? my god???? are you okay??? (anon here)

Okay holy SHIT. You fucking had contact with a Partygoer??? And it didn’t kill you??????

I.. I guess that could be more conformation that you aren’t fully human or something, Atticus, to be honest. I’m sorry.

I think.. it could be possible that specific Partygoer knew of you. Another thing could be he was from your past life, before, the time you can’t remember.

Maybe he doesn’t like you just because your a Faceling? (possibly)

Whatever it is, keep your eye and ears open. I suppose you could try to go on the offense and figure things out, as, to be completely honest, i doubt you have any other choices at this point. Just… be careful. Good luck, man.

God, this is so shitty. Let me know what’s happened. Anything else happening, though?

I’ll look into a way to help your leg, maybe.

stay safe,

anon

answer number eighteen.

man. i know. i guess at this point i cant be human, huh? its.. not that much of a loss, i guess. what does what i am really mean here anyway? i dont get murderous urges or whatever and i feel in control of myself, like i always have. just means i look weird and... i dont know. have some weird history with partygoers i guess??

because it acted like it knew what i was. i dont know how much you heard- i know evans recorder was on at some point but i dont know how long- but it said it thought all of us were dead or whatever. i dont know whats the deal with facelings, but if theyre like, extinct i guess that confirms it. it didnt confuse me for a, person or whatever, because if it did it would have just killed me or turned me into one of them. it also said something about a war..? i dont know what any of it meant, but thats no surprise at this point. it would seem i know very little.

oh yeah, and im okay apart from my leg. evans not hurt. a bit bruised, i think he hit a wall or something while he was hiding, but thats nothing major i dont think. nothing else is happening but i have been getting to look through a whole heap of files due to the whole "cant really walk" thing. if i find anything interesting ill make sure to post it.

thanks for checking in, anon. i appreciate it.

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entry number fifteen.

i went through and checked everything i had open, but there havent been any new notes or anything. evan got back a while ago with some stuff, so we cleaned my leg up with some almond water and bandaged it up. not sure if thats like, safe to do, but who cares at this point?

i havent found anything else on the computer. more poems, some useless text logs of conversations. ill keep looking, i guess. not much else to do.

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entry number fourteen.

that thing was so fucked up! it scratched the hell out of my leg. i cant even walk without evans help now. hes going to go look for crates though, so maybe therell be something that can help.

why didnt it kill me, though? weird as hell, but not as bad as anon made it seem... it acted like it knew me. like it.. knew what i am. it was probably bluffing. maybe it just wanted to freak me out..?

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