Lesbian Day Dreaming

This is where I dump all my nonsense.

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[agent-sarahwalker]

ok this is the one that broke me ✌🏽✌🏽

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Anyone know if empsy is back or if there’s any other blog that posts enty’s BI’s?

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[everythingfox]

snug pile

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[chubbyangel666]

[kingsroad]

THE NEXT MASS EFFECT — THE VIDEO GAME AWARDS 2020.

[chaosroid]

[daydreamsofalesbian]

My BABY?!?!?!?!?

[thinqr]

Attention

So since nobody is talking about this, I felt the need to inform y’all that this happened on Live television.

Halsey & Jade chynoweth performing ”without me“

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Being given ‘Lexa’ in the series finale

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Time in a way came to a dizzying, heart wrenching pause the day I was unknowingly lead into witnessing Lexa being killed off. I stopped watching tv as a whole right then. I went a week or more crying and sleeping off the days, unable to convey to family and friends the hurt I was feeling. It felt like I had lost a loved one. If that sounds over the top, I can’t explain what Lexa meant to me in a way that will justify to you my reaction to losing her. And that’s fine, because there are plenty of others who fully understand. It’s weird to say you have so much pain over a tv character, but what Lexa was and continues to be to me transcends that title. Seeing Adc portray Lexa, taking on her posture, stoicism, subtle softness, control, and love for Clarke causes a physical and chemical reaction in me that is felt from head to toe. I have no understanding of what takes over me and somewhat resent the power she as Lexa has over me. She is both parts everything I want and everything I admire.

I know that wasn’t actually Lexa’s return, though, and I’m willing and able to go into a full rant about how the show runner responsible for killing her off to begin with didn’t bring her back in good faith. In an interview he stated this not being the type of show to bring back the dead, conveniently ignoring that this is however the type of show to host a slew of even more wildly unrealistic feats and a terrain dotted with plot holes. To put it simply, after the targeted and petty display of homophobia that was him deciding to kill off a character he and his team assured gay fans they understood the importance of and pledged to treat with care for the sake of our underrepresented and often taken advantage of community, the least he could have done was have dropped his ego in exchange for the fan service we more than deserve. In a show with this many nonsensical twists and turns, surely bringing back a dead but overwhelmingly fan favorite and meaningful character could have been done. He chose not to. Deciding instead to merely cement a fact we all already knew in our hearts without need of his hetero, self important, half assed stamp of approval: that Lexa and Clarke are soulmates. As said, he could have done that by actually bringing Lexa back.

As it remains, though, adc returned to Lexa even if unfortunately Lexa did not return to Clarke, or us. And seeing adc as Lexa stirred up all of the emotion sensitively contained within my being - like some human snowglobe - that I try to keep settled. I’ll forever carry Lexa within me and know there will never be a character I come to feel about the way I feel about her. How incredibly bittersweet it has been to get a glimpse of what I wish could go on forever. It’s such a concentrated desire for something’s immortality. Like regretting buying only one of a thing you fell madly in love with, wishing to own it forever but fearing it may break. Except Lexa was never something I could purchase, or I’d have enough of her to last a lifetime. Sadly, instead, have to result to the self acclaimed ‘generosity’ of an under qualified yet overly confident excuse of a showrunner to get my last look at my all time favorite character. Which, given the circumstances, I suppose is better than nothing, but still nothing close to how freeing it could have been.

Thank you wholeheartedly to Alycia for agreeing to embody her once more.

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It was great to see ADC in the commander’s gear again but Lexa still deserves better.

[dreamsaremywords]

Lexa will always, always deserve better.

Reshop, Heda. We will never forget you and your legacy is going to be the only thing that lives on from this show. ♾

[wayhaught-haughtdamn]

At a later date, there is something to be said about the fact that the lesbian character keeps almost dying far more often than any of the other characters. It’s not the bury your gays trope, but it sure feels like a twist on it.

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Nicole has always been used safrificially by the writers. The difference is they never went ahead and killed her off but they have instead placed her near death time and time again to basically serve the same function. I was annoyed in the first episode when she conveniently fell injuring herself to save Wynona only to send Wynona off to save Waverly. I was like wow they started early this season. Especially combined with Nicole being a cop, you’d imagine she could handle herself every once In a while, but she’s always being saved or not managing things on her own. They’ve always made her seem pretty incapable. At least she’s not really dead but I do wish her character was given more competence. She’s not half angel, doesn’t have a special gun, isn’t an old west gun slinger, isn’t the smartest of the group, and they kind of use this as an excuse to just fit her in wherever the story needs a push. At the end of the day it comes off like okay how can we use the lesbian? Oh right: sexualize her or kill/torture her. Shock value either way.

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Also, is Dom okay?

Is she alright after that?

You can’t just take the woman who asked if Kat feels turned on when they KISS and throw her naked at a naked Kat!

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I was watching in shock at that sex scene cause A: wasn’t expecting it and B: didn’t know they could show that much skin on skin hot damn.

But honestly as I was watching I didn’t know whether I was liking it or was kind of pissed about it. We finally get this scene between Nicole and Waverly and it’s mostly blurred and shot at weird angles or with annoying obstructions and trying to cram in a bunch of different positions but lacking in the intimacy department. I would actually like to have been able to see what I was watching so that didn’t help matters. I think it was an attempt at making it artsy or maybe that was the only way they could show that much skin between them so they had to compromise? I’m not trying to complain or take away from it but ugh. If there were restrictions on how much they could show I personally would have been fine with less skin if it meant just a steadier shot of them so in love, making love, after so long apart. Just felt disconnected to me from what makes wayhaught so special.

Contrast it with the post sex scene of them so intimately on the stairs still and talking how they do with each other. That felt so much more natural to them as a couple. Wish the sex scene itself was more like that instead of shot like tiktok transitions. Sometimes less is more. But that’ll probably be the only sex scene we ever get so cheers to Dom and Kat for it. They really went all out.

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Robyn describing something that happened so long ago yet not long ago at all. A pivotal moment in their lives. And it just squeezes my heart so painfully like a hug full of sadness, how Whitney was then just a girl, no idea how much absolute highs and absolute lows were to come, how much tragedy was to come. Things were still so simple back then for her but still so entirely complicated in a way only we understand. Loving your best friend in secret. The most wonderfully natural, effortless impulses, having to be hidden and carefully self monitored. “First sight, yeah, we love without reason.”

It’s just making me really emotional because Whitney deserved so much better. Thinking about time, about memories and how things unfold, how we never have a clue how our lives will turn out, it’s just getting to me right now. “And all of my heroes die all alone.”