hi there ! You can call me Ariel and I have a painfully huge obsession with Dazai Osamu. I am 17 and I love to write especially for Dazai which is probably obvious at this point 😩
Other things about me is I'm bisexual, I go by she/her and other anime’s I enjoy currently are Attack on Titan, Sk8 the Infinity, and Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun !
Requests are open just may take a sec cause i have a few but feel free to ! <3
I don’t really write anything including dark themes but if I do so I would really appreciate if minors would not interact that of course includes anything nsfw, but you are welcome to read since I can't stop you.
If you’re 17+ this doesn't apply to you.
i also like and comment from — i-am-lokii-of-asgard
hey babes ! just letting you know i am taking requests at the moment but i have a few built up so it make take a sec to get to your request but i will get to it soon promise !! <333
YOOO YOU LIKE TBHK? A WOMAN OF CULTURE IC <333 (manga reader or nah cause if i like the anime the manga is so GOOD)
I DO OMG A BIGG COMFORT ANIME😌😌😌 i havent had time to read the manga yet but i definitely want to although i have spoiled bits and pieces for myself 😩😩
Congratulations ! You were able to snatch Dazai Osamu as your boyfriend !
With having this lovely, goofy man as your boyfriend, comes a lottt of very very hidden insecurities
Dazai doesn’t get jealous per say, more than he just feels like you could do a lot then him as a s/o
If he sees you getting a long very well with a person that’s not him that he doesn’t know ie. laughing, smiling, etc. he his definitely going to be thinking about how happier this person is probably making you
In this event, you’re going to have to figure out his mood has changed because there is no way he is going to outright tell you
If you know Dazai well enough to tell, sit down with him and wrap him in a huge hug and tell him just how much you love him and how no other person could compare to the happiness he supply’s you with each and every day
This will satisfy Osamu greatly and he will go back to normal quite quickly, trusting in your gentle and soothing words
Now if you’re being heavily flirted with and your obviously uncomfortable, the person doing so better start running for the hills because Dazai will put up with absolutely no one harassing you
“Put a hand on her again and you’ll be sorry.”
He’ll be very angry if he actually has to step in and physically stop this person from making you uncomfortable so afterward let him take his stress out on you in... a sexual sense
It’ll make him feel a lot better all around and the after care will be incredible since although the sex will be rough, he does want you to feel safe with him and know he’ll always protect you
Because at the end of the day you’re his belladonna and Dazai cares for you greatly so you can always count on him to be there for you just make sure you’re there for him too :)
Summary: Having Osamu Dazai as your boyfriend has never been boring.
A/n: This has been stuck in my head for a while and I finally was able to sit down and write it out so I hope you guys enjoy and don’t judge me too much because this is my first time writing out smut !
Inspired by: Stargazing*- The NBHD
You could feel the cool of the evening seep into your bones as you groggily sat up in your plush bed. Once, then twice, did you blink to remove any bit of remaining sleep as you looked over to the source of your annoyance.
Your phone lit up with a string of messages from only one contact; a contact that as of late had made your heart pound in a way that was indescribable in every sense of the word. Sighing, you picked up the phone and began to read over the messages your extremely clingy boyfriend woke you up with.
Could I please request a scenario where dazai reunites with a childhood friend (lowkey lover 👀) from his time in the mafia. Maybe they left or went missing or something. Thanks! :)
Reunited and it Feels so Good
Pairing: Dazai x reader
Warnings: angst, implied nsfw
Word Count: 177*
A/N: I really had fun writing this so I hope you enjoy ! <3
Wanting Dazai was like wanting something… intangible. Like, trying to catch the wisps of smoke lingering after the drag of a cigarette; or trying to keep a snowflake from melting as soon as it comes into contact with the warmth of your palm.
It hurt sometimes you wanted him so bad.
Alas, that is the fate of entwining your soul with a soul as dark and damaged as Osamu Dazai’s.
You had first met him on a rainy Yokohama evening; his bandages drenched from the rain and something a bit darker. He had walked up to you and a couple of other new recruits examining you all with chocolate eyes you were sure could see right through you.
And that’s how it all started.
The fleeting kisses, the lingering hugs, and the occasional intertwining of limbs in either your’s or Dazai’s dingy, cheap apartment.
You were naive to hold on to the hope that this… relationship the two of you had going on would last; let alone to believe you were the only person he was having any sort of relations with.
“...Dazai?”
“Hmm?”
Currently you were resting in the arms of the brunette executive. Usually, he would never allow any sort of cuddling to take place, but your body was so warm and your hair so soft.
“I’m not the only one am I?”
The hand running through your hair came to a stop.
He chuckled before resuming the soothing motions; whether it was more soothing for you or him, you both would never know.
“Does it matter? Let’s just enjoy each other while we can, hm?”
Silence overtook once more as you released a long sigh.
“I’m leaving, Dazai.”
A pause in the motion once again.
“I can’t take being in the mafia anymore so I’m going to leave in a few days, I have it all planned out.”
“Okay.” Was all Dazai could allow to leave his suddenly dry throat.
“Okay.”
Four Years Later
The sun shined brightly down on the people of Yokohama as you made your way through the crowded marketplace. You had finally returned to the city you were born in after being away for quite a while; trying to lay low from the Port Mafia after your seemingly sudden disappearance.
You thought about him sometimes.
Occasionally you wondered if his hair grew any longer, his skin any tanner, or his bandages unravelled just the smallest bit.
Looks like you wouldn’t have to wonder for much longer as you heard a deep voice call out your name.
You turned around to see the very ghost occupying your thoughts standing right in front of you as tangible as ever.
“Missed you,” he whispered out shakily as his mask slipped just enough for you to know he truly meant it.
Summary: Having Osamu Dazai as your boyfriend has never been boring.
A/n: This has been stuck in my head for a while and I finally was able to sit down and write it out so I hope you guys enjoy and don’t judge me too much because this is my first time writing out smut !
Inspired by: Stargazing*- The NBHD
You could feel the cool of the evening seep into your bones as you groggily sat up in your plush bed. Once, then twice, did you blink to remove any bit of remaining sleep as you looked over to the source of your annoyance.
Your phone lit up with a string of messages from only one contact; a contact that as of late had made your heart pound in a way that was indescribable in every sense of the word. Sighing, you picked up the phone and began to read over the messages your extremely clingy boyfriend woke you up with.
‘Samu ♡:
1:04 AM
hey baby i can’t sleep u up?
1:04
Belladonna ? :(
1:05
I’m coming over, have a surprise for us :)
He’s what?
You were now fully awake at this point and groaned at the spontaneity and impulsiveness of your brunette lover. Knowing you had no choice but to go along with his antics, you got out of your bed and quickly ran to your closet hoping the faster you went, the quicker the chills would go away as they flared your arms and legs up with goosebumps.
You were already wearing sweatpants, so you decided to just throw on a black hoodie that was suspiciously too big on your figure.
You inhaled deeply as the smell of vanilla and mint overcame your senses causing a serene smile to overcome your features. Yes, this was indeed the sweatshirt of the Osamu Dazai; a man that in the last couple of months has invaded your every waking thought and had claim over any flush in your cheeks, dimple in your smile, and crinkle in your eyes as they closed shut-tight over the unbearable laughter released at one of his cheesy jokes.
Of course that didn’t mean everything was all raised heart beats and shared smiles with the boy as dating Dazai also meant caring for him and all his dark thoughts and emotions. As well as vise versa since your life by no means was easy and perfect. However, no matter how bad things got; or who left or entered your life, you could always count on Dazai, and him you, to be there whenever life caught you both in it’s gloomy and seemingly inescapable hold.
Another smile escaped your lips and you once again inhaled the calming scent; now thinking back to how you met the lanky, mysterious, goofball.
You had moved to your new town back in your freshman year of high school which of course meant having to make new friends and basically start a whole new life in a time that was so important and vital.
You remember your first day at ADA highschool so vividly; the sweat that built in your palms, and the barely visible motion of your toes curling into your shoes from anxiety. You had thought making friends would be impossible no matter how many times your parents assured you that your “charming” personality would help you make friends so very easily.
It was the end of the day and you were sure that your still very much lack of friends would mean that would be the truth for the rest of your four years in this high school you were very much forced to attend. You felt a tear quickly escape your eye as the anxiety started to take physical form; quickly you ran to a quiet corner and began to wipe furiously and harshly at your eyes as you reprimanded your sensitivity.
“What am I five? Why am I crying so hard?”
You jumped suddenly as you heard quiet giggles next to your ear.
You felt embarrassment flood your body as you wiped even harder to stop the tears. He was a bit blurry, but you could faintly make out the long, curly, brunette hair; dark chocolate eyes, and white bandages that wrapped around his long, lanky, figure. He also wore casual clothes which consisted of jeans, a hoodie, and sneakers.
Your first thought, of course besides the initial embarrassment and anger, was why he was wrapped in those seemingly endless rolls of bandages.
“Who is this weird banaged guy?” You scoffed to yourself as your sniffles came to an end.
“Done crying?” He asked teasingly, that stupid smug smile still on his face.
“I don’t remember asking for your help or comfort,” you said defensively, the venom not really reaching your still red and glossy face.
The boy laughed again good-naturedly; not intentionally trying to rile you up but he couldn’t help but think your anxiety was misplaced.
“Well then, why don’t you come walk home with my friend Atsushi and I, could be fun~,” he offered, his hand held out to you in an act of trying to make you feel comforted.
Your eyes widened as you hesitantly accepted his offer; the boy rushing you along as soon as your hands made contact, going into a rant over another boy named Kunikida mothering the absolute shit out of him.
Four years had gone by and you were both in your senior year; nothing really changing between you except the now official titles of ‘boyfriend’ and ‘partner’ which you had longed for since as long as you could remember.
Since that fateful day, you had become a part of the best group of friends you could ask for consisting of Atsushi, Kunikida, Yosano, Kenji, Ranpo, kyouka, and of course Dazai.
However, you knew you wanted something more with Dazai since freshman year and although you two were… close, he never seemed interested in more. He seemingly always had a new girl on his arm bragging about the various amounts of… sexual interactions he would have with them and each time it broke your heart a little more.
Despite all that, he would hold you whenever you were down, wiped your tears whenever they fell, and held you close when you couldn’t sleep; pressing gentle kisses when he thought you were knocked out by exhaustion finally hitting you.
Dazai had intimacy issues and fears you knew were holding him back from officially committing to you which is why you never pressed anything and kept your feelings locked up nice and tight… until a couple of months ago when it all came to a head.
Harsh words; honest words were shared by you both in an argument you thought would rip the person you had come to love and rely on most from you forever. Luckily it did the exact opposite as Dazai decided he was done with denying himself from your pure and warm love that made his dark world just a bit brighter everyday.
And now you two were inseparable; lips never too far from each other, limbs entangled whenever chance allowed. Your other friends were definitely sick of it but you both didn’t care as you denied each other from this comfort for too long to let any time go to waste.
You were snapped out of your reverie by gentle tapping at your window. You quickly turned your head to see the man of your thoughts sitting patiently on the ledge, a goofy smile etched into his pretty, pink lips.
You scoffed playfully as you made your way across the room to open the window for him. Immediately, he placed his lips on yours in a passionate kiss as his hands came up to cup your face lovingly.
“Mmm missed you so much,” he mumbled against your lips causing you to giggle.
“We saw each other, like, six hours ago!” You exclaimed slapping him playfully, causing him to release a laugh himself.
“Exactly! Now c’mon I’m taking you somewhere,” Dazai commanded you gently, grabbing your hand as he guided you out the window.
“‘Samu it’s one in the morning, where are we going?” You groaned in annoyance wanting your boyfriend to join you in bed and cuddle you back to sleep.
“Nuh uh uh~ It’s a surprise!” He exclaimed playfully booping you on the nose as you both made your way to his black range rover.
“Alright, whatever, can I at least get a hint?”
“Hmm, okay, okay, fine,” Dazai relented as he began to type away on his phone playing a song from his spotify that came out on his connected bluetooth, touch screen.
Take it from the top, if I start I just can’t stop…
You giggled silently as you shook your head, your boyfriend rolling down both of your windows and turning up the music for what he likes to call ‘the full midnight drive experience.’
“So are we going stargazing?!” You yelled over the wind and music.
“Yep!” He yelled back cheerily taking one hand off of the wheel to rub at your thigh comfortingly.
“Pull it out of park put in drive, I can feel your heart beating with mine, underneath the stars, lookin' for a sign glowin' in the dark 'til the sun shines, made it pretty far on the first try, might've set the bar a little too high, started with a spark, now we're on fire-”
You both yelled together which winded up with you both laughing uncontrollably. Dazai continued to sing along with the neighborhood as you took this as a chance to examine how gorgeous this man truly was.
His silky, curly brunette hair went everywhere as the wind entangled with it, his dark chocolate eyes shined with the headlights from the cars going on the opposite side of the freeway, his bandaged hands gripped at the wheel allowing you to see every vein and bone from his knuckles, and his face was flushed pink from the yelling and wind.
You laughed freely as you once again joined in with his singing; utter and complete joy filling you both which was rare.
Eventually, you both reached a secluded park with a hill; perfect for sitting and stargazing. Once you both got out, Dazai layed out a towel for you both to cuddle on without getting soaked from the freshly sprayed grass.
You both giggled loudly like the teenagers in love you were as you made yourself comfortable on your boyfriend’s chest; his lanky arms coming to wrap themselves around you, one occasionally letting go to point out the constellations or meteors blinking past in the inky sky.
You had to hold in your snickers whenever he would wrongly name a constellation but nonetheless; you would place a soft kiss on his cheek and thank him for teaching them to you.
Soon, the soft kisses on the cheek would turn to passionate kisses on the lips as Dazai changed his position to where he was on top of you. He began to leave a trail of kisses down your jaw to your neck; the juxtaposition of his warm kisses to the cold air surrounding you both caused small whimpers of pleasure to leave your lips.
“‘Samu…” you called breathily causing your boyfriend to look up from the dark hickeys he was ever-so-carefully placing on your collarbone.
“What is it, my belladonna?” He asked teasingly, returning to his methodically placed kisses.
“More…” you whined as arousal began to pool in your gut.
“As you wish.”
Dazai kissed lower down your belly to the elastic band of your panties. After leaving a couple small kisses on your hip bone, he looked up into your eyes for confirmation it was okay to go further. You nodded urgently and placed your hand in his soft locks as if to urge him on. He let out a chuckle at your eagerness but complied nonetheless; you were his princess and whatever you asked of him he would do, even at the cost of his own wellbeing.
After pulling down your sweatpants and panties, he immediately attached his tongue to your clit; moving it in small circles he knew would make you fall apart. Your whines and whimpers fuled him on as your fingers harshly pulled on his locks.
“‘Samu… want your fingers” You ordered in between moans.
“Where baby, tell me,” he whispered, placing a soft kiss on your clit.
“inside…please!”
“As you wish.”
Dazai slowly placed his ring and middle fingers into your tight cunt, “Fuck belladonna, so wet for me,” he all but moaned as he gently moved his fingers around trying to find the spot that would have you fall apart all over him.
“‘Samu there! Please!” You gasped as he found your G-spot; not letting up until your back arched and you cummed all over his fingers.
“Good girl; my good, pretty girl that’s it,” he whispered gently as he coaxed you down from your high.
He licked away all the wetness from his fingers as he came back up to meet your lips in a passionate kiss filled with lust and love.
“‘Samu, want more..” you begged softly against his lips.
“Mmm what could you possibly mean~” your boyfriend teased causing you to groan.
“Oh like you don’t want the same thing I can see your hard-on from here,” you teased back looking down to see he was indeed impossibly hard in well fitted grey sweatpants.
“Ha-ha touché, belladonna.”
You both shared a loving laugh as you once again met in a kiss, your hand cupping the back of his head to bring him even closer. Dazai separated for a second to take off his pants and underwear letting his painfully hard cock hit against his abdomen, Dazai letting out a hiss from the cold hair hitting it.
“Need you baby, please,” you whined as your boyfriend soothed you with a kiss to the neck as he began to line his dick up with your wet pussy.
“Almost in, tell me if it ‘urts,” he mumbled as he began to fill you up.
You gasped, never truly used to his size but feeling complete nevertheless.
“Okay?” He asked gently and you nodded kissing his cheek giving him the silent permission to keep going.
“Feels so good ‘Samu!” You moaned as he picked up speed.
“Fuck you’re so tight baby, always so good and tight for me,” your boyfriend praised as he kept up a gentle pace trying to bring you both to your respective highs.
“Gonna cum ‘Samu,'' you whimpered as you felt the coil in your abdomen beginning to snap.
“Go on belladonna, cum for me,” he praised as you did just that; the fast tightening of your warm cunt milking Dazai’s cock as he began to cum with you.
Dazai collapsed on top of you, burying his head in your warm neck and you wrapped your smaller arms around his waist.
“Love you so much ‘Samu,'' you whispered as you felt soft kisses being placed on the dark hickeys your boyfriend left prior.
“Love you more, belladonna; thank you for always being by my side,” he whispered back.
After indulging in each other’s warmth and comfort for a while longer, Dazai cleaned you both up with the towel and dressed you both as he then gently picked you up and placed you in the back seat to lay down as you had fallen asleep.
He took a warm blanket he always kept for you in the trunk and tucked and buckled you in as he took his place in the driver’s seat and drove you both back to your house.
Once you both arrived he took you in arms and walked you both up to the front door where he used the key you gave him to let you in. As quietly as possible, he then took you both upstairs to your room where he tucked you in again and then got comfortable in the bed next to you; gathering you in his arms and then pressing a kiss to your head.
Yees! I'm a writer myself and usually I write him with those diagnoses, because it kind of makes sense to me?? 🤷♀️😅 not just because it gives depth to his character, but also explains some of his thinking and actions in certain situations he gets put in whether physical or emotional
It literally makes so much sense to me too, i totally get it and often write him the same way !! Dazai’s mental illnesses definitely do explain his thinking a lot of the time especially joining and then his actions shown during his time in the Port Mafia. He is just such a interesting character and i love him and analyzing him deeply !💗
Fluffy headcanons of Dazai reacting to his so taking care/cheering him up after having a rough day?? I'm a slut for fluff xD
I too, am also a slut for fluff 😌‼️
Dazai reacting to his s/o cheering him up
Warnings: slight mention of suicide because it is Dazai :)
It’s not too often that Dazai lets the perfectly calculated mask he has worked so hard to create slip; if only just a tiny bit
He never thought it would be possible for him to be so vulnerable around another human being, that’s before he met you of course
You were just a regular civilian that had barged into the ADA office one day pleading for help as you were being targeted by ability users
Right when you had stepped in Dazai had thought you were probably one of the most beautiful people he had ever seen
He shook it off though because he and Kunikida had to get right on the case
After the whole thing was over and Dazai had used no longer human to defeat the ability users, you had immediately thanked him for his help and he of course responded with:
“Well of course! It would be unthinkable to leave such a tender and kind person alone to fend for themselves! But if you do have a moment, I was wondering if you would like to commit a most glorious and wonderful double suicide with me?”
To Dazai’s surprise you just giggled madly and took his outstretched hand in yours
“Why don’t you start by taking me on a date first?”
And he did again and again until it had now been a year since you both have decided to be in a relationship and even more recently move in together
You knew very little about Dazai’s past even after being together for so long but you didn’t mind at all
You knew that Dazai had a reason he didn’t want to share with you his mafia past and you respected that, respected him, so you never brought it up unless he did so himself
That was until one day you were cooking in the kitchen when the all too familiar opening and closing of the front door was heard
“Osamu i’m in the kitchen and i’m making your favorite! Crabs-”
You were interrupted by long, lanky, bandaged arms snaking around your waist and dark chestnut locks nuzzling into your neck
Yes Dazai was VERY keen on affection but it wasn’t too often he seeked it without making a big dramatic statement out of it which is how you knew something was up
“Osamu sweetheart, is everything okay?” You aksed softly while brushing your hand through his hair gently, now turned so you were facing him
“I had a run in with Akutagawa today, haven’t seen him in ‘while,” he mumbled into your neck and you knew what was happening immediately
Akutagawa was in the Port Mafia and Dazai had hinted at having a complicated history with him
You moved yourself and Osamu to the couch after turning off the stove and laid down as Dazai snuggled into your neck again after getting comfortable on top of you
You resumed running your fingers through his fluffy hair while occasionally pressing kisses to his head and hands
“We don’t have to talk about it at all because I would never push you to do that but just know I’m here and you do have the option, I won’t ever leave you no matter how dark your past may be.”
You could feel Dazai smile just a bit into your neck as he squeezed you slightly
Maybe one day he would feel ready to dive back into his past with you but right now he felt safe and warm in your arms and that’s all he really needed
I FOUND YOU AND YOUR BLOG. I LOVE IT. I LOVE YOU. YOU'RE AMAZING. THANK YOU FOR BLESSING ME. 💓🥺
i’m looking through my inbox before i go to sleep and found this gem and wanted to say thank you so very much for your kind words i’m glad my lil blog born out of my love for dazai is able to bring you joy and i love you too !!💗💗🥰🥰
A few years after the irl dazai’s death there was actually a book written about of how he had so many signs of not just mental illness like depression, anxiety and ptsd but also ADHD and Asperger’s syndrome, by a doctor or psychiatrist?? but it is sadly only in japanese but you can find it on amazon
omg thats super interesting!! ahhh i wish it was i. english because i would definitely buy that book immediately as i’m already reading no longer human and would love even more insight into Dazai’s mind ! it’s actually really cool to relate with him in that regard since i have all of those illness except asperger’s syndrome 😀 thank you again for sharing that with me !💗
Ayyyyyy time to hide behind the false safety of anon lol. Could you write something with Dazai and an s/o with Rejection Sensitivity Disorder? Im so happy to have a blog like this to follow sonce Dazai is my Main Man!!!!
so 🧍 i know i’ve been m.i.a for a while because i’ve been going through a whole lot but my love for dazai has been so intense lately so i thought writing some head cannons could cheer me up so here i am 😎😎‼️‼️ also i have ADHD and i find myself relating with RSD quite a lot after looking into it further so i hope these are good !!💗💗💗💗
Dazai with a s/o that has RSD
Warnings: tad bit of angst with Dazai’s past but really none
It’s actually kind of funny because Dazai exhibits traits of ADHD from time to time especially at the ADA which i realize could just be aspects of his fake comedic persona
So if you have ADHD in general I think he would find some of the traits endearing such as ranting about your passions or telling him stories and then getting distracted 500 times with other different stories
“Belladonna, as much as I love hearing about the bird you saw on your mission, i’m much more concerned about the part where the man was trying to kill you with his ability-”
He might even lowkey take advantage if you also work in the ADA office 😭🤚🏻
“Oh, you can’t focus on your work either? why don’t we go cuddle on the couch and take a nap then :)”
When you get into the more darker side of dealing with ADHD such as RSD, Dazai is right there next to you listening and taking notes mentally as to avoid you ever being put into a situation where your RSD gets the better of you and really upsets you
It almost brings up bad memories of his time in the mafia because he definitely wasn’t shy with giving out harsh criticism and making people feel awful about themselves and sacred of him
He even begins to lightly fear being around you and having those tendencies come out which could lead to you breaking up with him
Osamu despite himself really grew to love you and at this point could not imagine his life without you which is utterly terrifying because he hates being put in vunerable positions where he has to rely on people
Epecially because he always loses people he loves
Without him voicing any of this you assure Dazai he has never made you feel anything but loved and that you would talk with him if any comment or action he made toward you caused your RSD to be triggered
Sometimes even light teasing can trigger RSD in individuals and that’s a big part of his faux personality
If it really bothers you he does his best to tone it down and keep it as light as possible but it is a big part of who he is so in a sense you kind of have to get use to his teasing comments
But somehow you have weaseled your way in to the Osamu Dazai’s heart which means you undoubtedly mean the most to him and are his most treasured and loved person
That means he would do anything to protect you and make you feel comfortable if that means he has to closely watch what he says, or make someone suffer for not watching what they say towards his precious belladonna
I hope these were okay and that you liked them let me know if anything was inaccurate or if you would like something changed even tho i know it’s been a while since you requested these😭💗💗💗
