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Massive TW: this blog is mostly triggering ED content

[tylkomniej]

are we too young for this?

[dbdanax]

TW: ED vent

man idek anymore.

i want to be skinny. i always did.

but now I'm seeing people be happy. People genuinely excited for summer, for their hobbies, for everything. I'm hearing my mum telling me not to lose any more weight or it'll look bad. I'm feeling weak and depressed and terrible. I'm wondering if it's worth it.

I'm scared. I'm losing myself and I know it.

I want to be a kid again. Not worry about weight or looks or fucking situationships or anything. i want it to be socially acceptable to start crying and needing to be comforted.

i want to be happy again.

[dbdanax]

man i wish i had long legs they're so prettyyy

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

I think I'm sick again which i can use as an excuse but like hnnngghh i hate this sm

[dbdanax]

why did god have to curse me with wide ass shoulders ugh

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

man. Idk what I'd do without ana tumblr lmao

Like this shit has become my absolute obsession. Every time I talk to anyone i want to bring it up. Even just hint at it. Anything.

But i can't. I can't because they'll try and stop me. I can't because I'll feel like an attention seeker.

But here? I can say whatever about it and this community of sick lil bitches will like my post and even relate.

It's fucking amazing, i love y'all fr

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

I'm so hungry rn but i can't fxcking get past 48kg i need to stop

waa

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

Stomachaches, hunger, fatigue/weakness: validating, make me feel high n shit, cool

Headaches, chest pains, knees cracking when I'm tryna quietly squat in the bathroom: horrible. 0/10, make me wanna reconsider this whole thing

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

Got called a skinny bitch today y'all life is great

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

Doing a very intense workout, burning a shit ton of calories and almost passing out but then being able to eat more bc u of all u burned is the best fr

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

Mother said I don't eat enough lately (she knows I used to have an ed) and she hasn't said anything else about it but I'm so scared she's gonna start monitoring me again oml pray for me

[dbdanax]

TW: ED Vent

Living w ana is so weird.

Like some days I look in the mirror and I'm overjoyed, thinking all my hard work is finally paying off.

Other days, I look in the mirror and I'm terrified. I wonder if I've finally reached the stage everyone stereotypes it as, the phase where my eyes create an imaginary layer of fat around my bones and my brain prevents me from seeing through it.

And then there's the days where I pick and pull at my skin, feeling everything I've eaten, wondering if I'm actually just faking it, because there's no way someone with ana looks like this, feels like this.

It's all a confusing mess. It is not "incredible self control" or "stupidity." (both things people have said to me)

It is an illness, a hell, and it is killing us.

And we'll let it.

[dbdanax]

Ladies I've been binging like a wild boar lately help

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

i would be so much skinnier if i didn't live with other people who don't support my ED>:(

(i would also probably be dead)

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

Did a 600cal workout!!!

I'm normally more heavy on restriction than overexercising but it was so worth it, my legs are spaghetti + and i can't walk down stairs properly anymore but i feel great x

[dbdanax]

TW: ED

i love ana tumblr so much fr