De'Bei: my kpop fanart

[de-bei]

Soooo, this took me longer than I would have liked. But its done! So happy he is back ^w^

I haven’t been around for like... wow, nearly two years. Nothing wrong. Just a lot of work. And I have been working on my tarot cards. I’m just taking it very slowly, not really very rushed with that project. I want to enjoy it and do it in my pace.

Hope you guys are doing fine!

[de-bei]

A couple of weeks have gone by. And I haven’t really done much to be honest. Spent time just watching anime and playing Zelda BOTW. Felt like going back to my teens, when I spent summer doing this kinds of things. The only difference is that this time I had this uneasyness at the begining because I felt guilty I wasn’t working or looking for offers. At least not in a very active way. But I decided I would just take some time off and relax. I prefer to wait for an offer that I really want instead of go straight to the first thing I find just because I want to get to work. Plus I am still hoping I will be called back to my previous company when things start moving fordward again. I was realy happy with the project I was working on, and if everything goes well I may be back soon.

Now let me explain the picture. I’ve been writting around here about my Tarot cards. But I have never actually shown anything. So here you have the design of the back side of the cards. Made it completely from scratch, even if with a clear Sakura Card Captor influence.

I had to redo it. I was lloking for a web where I could print the cards, so I have more motivation to finish them. And when I found a good page with a nice price/quality ratio I went to see the dimensions and they had nothing to do with what I had used for my layouts. So I had to redesign the back side, and adjust a little the front one. And to be honest, I´m more happy with this new composition.

I still don’t know how much time I’ll be able to spend on this project. I have like a thousand other things I want to do now that I have the time. So I probably wont be showing much of the progress on this for the rest of the year. But, good news is I went through all my fanart WIPs, and after some purge I made a list of around eight pieces I decided to finish. So I may be showing some new works soon.

As always, hope everyone is okay, and stay safe!

[de-bei]

Some Yongguk, cause every once in a while I just have to do a fanart of him.

I miss him. I miss BAP. and I know we won´t get them back as a group. But at least they are all doing their thing and we get to enjoy their own music (except Himchan. Anyone knows what he´s been up to? he is kind of MIA for me). And Yongguk is halfway through his military service, so yay!

I don’t know why, but I really enjoy doing him in B&W.  I think he is the only one I have done like this a couple of times. And hopefully it wont be the last.

Hope everyone is doing fine. It looks like things are starting to go back to normal. Here there’s still some time left of quarantine. But yesterday was the first day I saw some shops open besides the super market. So things are starting to move.

These are really weird times. And my futrue is still uncertain. For what I’ve heard thing will go real slow in the industry for us artists. And it looks it can take a long time before they look to hire more people again. So I’m thinking of other options outside of film. Maybe try videogames.

There was this news last week that really cheered me up though. It seems they are going to be doing a tv series of Kingdom hearts. I’m a huge fan. Like, I got a tattoo related to the series kind of fan. So imagine my excitement when I read the news. I inmediatly went to linkedin and started looking for someone who could help me get some info. Didn’t have much luck, but I’ll keep an eye open for any news related. It would be like a dream come true to work on it. And if its in japan, even better. I’ve always loved the idea of living there for a year or so. And I would be able to visit korean pretty easily too.

And I think that will be it for a while. I finished mermay (it was really a challenge. but it’s done!). But I want to take a few days of relax on the drawing part. I’m still progressing with my tarot cards. And I’m working on a WIP I had of Daehyun from ages ago. But it may take me some time to finish anything digital.

[de-bei]

Another tribute I did for the anniversary.

This week has been a bit better. They’ve confirmed that I won’t be getting any contract extenssion. But I´ve come to terms with it and I´m looking for other options. Worst case scenario I will have some time to rest for the first time in 5 years and dedicate it to myself and my projects.Which, to be honest, kind of sounds like the best option right now. Any project that is hiring now will be crunch tim for sure, and I don’t know I want that. But we’ll see what happens.

In the meantime I’ll try and get back to my tarot cards whenever I can. But that will probably have to wait until next week, when I finish Mermay. It´s been a great challenge to do, but I´m starting to get tired of drawing mermaids. Next year I´ll have to prepare something different.

Regarding the lockdown, Seems there isn´t much time left until they let us go outside again. But it will be a while until things go back to normal. It will be interesting to see back to this in a few years and remember the feeling of surrealism that we all have everyday.

Anyway, next week will be my last update, cause I run out of pieces I had finished. Not sure If I´ll do new ones, or if there will be a new hiatus until I do some tarot cards. (hopefully it will be the later, cause I really want to do that project).

Stay safe and see you next week!

[de-bei]

A tribute piece  I did for Jonghyun. Rest in peace.

It´s been nearly three years since he is gone, and I still find it hard to believe it. I miss him a lot. And I know a part of me always will. We lost one of the most wonderful person in the world, and in my opinion, one of the best voices in kpop.

I can´t put to words my feelings in the matter, so I won´t even try. I just hope you like my little piece. And that it may your day at least a little bit better.

On another note, things are kind of crazy around here. Work is getting kind of unbearable, with tight deadlines, technical issues (which just won´t let me do anything sometimes), and the cherry on top, my contract is ending soon, so I have to look for other options.

Things are movng really slow here, and it seems I won´t be getting any kind extension on my contract. And since there aren´t any job offer, I´m kind of stressed out. I have other options, but I´m really not in the mood for anything at the moment. I was even looking fordward to do a personal shot at home, but Autodesk decided tha maya won´t be free anymore for personal  use and that just made me lose motivation. Of course I could try blender. But just thinking about having to learn to use a new software gives me a headache.

I´ll figure things out. I always do. But I hate this moments where the future is so uncertain. I just want it to be september already and skip all this awful months that are sure to come.

Sorry for the depressing post, but I´m really not doing that great these days. And since I decided to use this as a journal, I had to leave proof of my feelings as of now. Just so I can read it in a few months and say (hopefully) to myself  “see, everything turned out well in the end”

[de-bei]

Some vampiresque Taemin.

Did this when the Move mv came out. Those words on his shirt were just asking for this to happen. I remember having fun doing the blood. It´s barely  noticeable, but I think it´s a nice touch. Anything more would be a little grotesque.

I actually took this piece last week and teaked it a bit. I was never happy with how the hair looked, so I did it completely new. I like this hairstyle better, even if it´s not in the mv. I also added some details and the background. Added a bit more contrast on the shadows in the face, and fixed the jittery lines I had in the shirt. I´m pleased with the new version, even though it is still not one of my favourite pieces.

 Rant time:

So last week was kind of a roller coaster. The week started okay, had some new shots to work on, spent a few days just building the scene and looking for reference (which is fun when you have to look for puppy videos). But mid week my wifi started acting badly and my connection was really slow, so I wasn´t able to keep working for the rest of the week. It may sound great for some people. But for me it was really stressful and I was upset.

The good part of the week is that I had a good birthday. And I also got to do some pretty decent drawings for Mermay (which I´m doing right now. My second year attempting).

So, yeah, kind of a so so week. Hopefully this one will be better.

[de-bei]

Yet another GD. This time in another style, giving clear Cruella vibes. I always loved his split dual color hairstyle (More the pink version, but I had to use the black and white one for obvious reasons) .

So this piece I did already in my new job. I was finally working as an animator, but it wasn´t in my country. I had to move to London. It was frightening and exciting at the same time. And I´ve been here since then. So yeah, this quarantine got me miles and miles away from my family. But thanks to modern technology, I have constant videocalls with them. I guess the weirdest thing will be this week, cause it´s my birthday, and also my brother’s. And I’m turning 30, as a cherry on top. This will definitely be an anecdote to remember.

On a brighter note. Since I moved to London, I’ve been able to go to a lot of kpop concert. Here a list of them:

- GD act III tour.

- B.A.P (without Yongguk T-T).

- Yongguk (without B.A.P) (still getting over the fact they left the company and now are all doing their own stuff).

- Zico king of the Zungle tour.

- BTS love yourself tour.

- Super M we are the future tour.

So there´s one advantage of living in London. I got to see most of my favourite koreans.

Funny story with the Zico concert. I was on my way to work, checking instagram on the bus. When I see a post from him letting us know he was already in London. I was perplexed. I knew he was on tour. But I don´t know why I thought he was doing the asia part first, and that there was still time for the europe ones. So I hadn´t checked dates or tickets or anything. But I was wrong, and the concert was that night!

So first thing I do when I arrive at the office is check for the venue and tickets available. I wasn´t convinced I could go so I didn´t buy any. And I strugled all day trying to decide what to do.

In the end I just went straight to the venue. Took the underground as fast as I could, and hoped I would arrive in time. I did, and I was lucky enough there were some tickets left. So I bought one. And it was one of the best concerts I´ve been to here (the Big Bang one I went to when I was still in uni is still number one). It was a rather small venue, so even from my spot on nearly the last row on the second floor, I had a great view. And Zico was really good on stage.

[de-bei]

Another GD with really glowy hair. (The fact is I just didn’t want to render the hair, so I just made it glow and went with it.)

This is a piece I did as a background for my cintiq when I first got it. That’s the reason for it’s unusually horizontal composition, and the empty space is for my different icons for programs and such.

When I look back to when I did this fanart, it just feels so long ago. I remember I was back at my brother’s place. After a year of working in another city things got quiet in the industry, so I had to go back. And I was yet to be hired as an animator (I had done animations in the projects I was working on, but I also did a lot of other things). It just felt like no one was willing to give me a chance as a junior. At least in my country. That’s why I started applying outside.

It was really stressful. I sent my cv everywhere. Europe mostly, but also China, Canada, and I think some even in USA. I was desperate. And then, I got a job offer. And what did I do? I turned it down. And it was the best decission I could have done. Now I see it. It gave me the chance to take another job offer later in London, and that lead me to where I am. And I’ll talk about it in another post. But at that moment I felt stupid. I went with my guts, who were telling me the project wasn’t worth all the trouble of going to a small expensive city in a country that speaks a language I don’t understand. That it was too rushed (they wanted me there in like, three days basically) and that if they were so desperate, the job was going to be tight deadlines, long hours, and bad quality of animation (it was for a tv series, and they usually just want to make as many seconds per week as possible with mediocre standards). So yeah, my guts were right, and I’m so glad I followed them. Because a month later a was in London, one step closer to one of my dreams...

To be continued...

[de-bei]

On these uncertain times, a little GD to cheer you all up. Hope everyone is doing okay!

After three years of being MIA, I’m back! And who better than GD to celebrate? Funny enough I was gone more or less as long as he was for his military service. And even though he hasn’t made a proper comeback (It’s been nearly half a year, and we are still waiting...) I decided it was time for me to, at least, try to be more present here.

I don’t know if anyone has missed me. But I certainly like to be back, because I want to use this platform as some kind of journal. With everything going on, I think it’s good to have a little record of things so in the future we can see that not everything was shit this year XD.

So, after a very long time, I checked my profile around here. And I have some updates if anyone is interested. (If not, just skip all the text bellow).

I’ve been using this account to follow artist lately, and not so much to upload my fanarts because I’m in a little hiatus on digital art. I’m trying to upgrade my sketching skills this year. And also trying to develope a personal cartoonish style. (I’m a 3D animator, so I feel it can be useful, and overall fun. So I can kill time at the office while waiting for stuff, drawing everything and anything I want.) So since the begining of the year, I’ve been doing a drawing a day. Random stuff, just anything I feel like at the moment really. Most of it fanart, and some kpop related. And I’m pleased to say that I only missed one day, and that I’m starting to see some progress already.

I´ve done some cute things I can upload here if you guys want to see them. But for now I’ll keep this account for my digital, more polished stuff.

So this means that I’m not doing any digital fanart this year. At least not on my usual style. Cause between the daily drawing, work (yes, I’m working from home for now), and life in general (even in quarantine there are a lot of things to do), I just don’t have the time or energy to spend +10 hours in a piece, which is the average time I spend in one. That’s why I’m not planning to do any big piece. But I may end up doing one or two, depending on how things go. (And if GD does a comeback, that will be  a very good reason to just lock myself one weekend and do a piece to celebrate).

But, good news is that I actually have around 10 pieces I did in the last couple of years that I never put here for some reason (honestly, I just forgot to). So in the next weeks I’ll upload a piece every monday, with a little rant, maybe telling things that happened to me these years, or just anecdotes on my quarantine.

As always, hope you guys like it. And stay safe!

[de-bei]

And more Yongguk, cause I’m just happy he’s back.

[de-bei]

Forgot to upload this here.

The king is back!

[de-bei]

I wasn’t planning on uploading this here (this kind of things I share it on my instagram @pgdebei . Here I prefer to put only fanarts). But since @yongguk-hell-chyeah nicely showed it yesterday, I thought “what the hell. this is also some kind of fanart”

So here you have, a Matoki I modeled in Maya for practice, and that a friend kindly printed in 3D.

9 hours of relearning how to use the tools, watching a lot of tutorials for certain things and a lot of patience were totally worth it the moment I had it in my hands.

As always, hope you guys like it!

[de-bei]

What program(s) do u use to make ur art?! I'm so in love with ur work, you've given me inspiration to try and start making some of my own. I'm pretty good at drawing and after seeing ur art, I really want to try digital art! Ugh show me ur ways cuz ur art is amazing!!! 🙌 😭

First of all, I’m glad you like my work ^w^ I don’t get much messages, so thank you for writting! And if you post something one day, I’d love to see it. Message me or something and I’ll check it ;)

I use photoshop cs6.

If you want I can give you some tips that’ll make working on photoshop more confortable and easy.

One important thing to keep in mind, more so if you haven’t worked much digital, is how to prepare the file you’ll work in. I use a big canvas (A3 size to start, and then I cut from there if I want a different formart, like square, horizontal rectangel or even circle) and  I use a high resolution too. 300. And I change it when I have the piece finished and I want to print it in a different size or something. But with 300 you can work little details that with a lower resolution maybe you can’t even notice.

(here is where you can change the size and resolution)

I always work with references. Sometimes is just one photo I just copy. Others I take the face from here, the hair from there... and make a collage.

I try different brushes. But mostly I end up using this default round fan brush.

(second to last one, on the second row) (sorry about the photos, but I’m taking them directly from the internet)

What I do is change the opacity and have active the pressure of the brush (this is if you have a tablet, which I totally recomend you get if you don’t)

Apart from this I don’t do anything special.

I work with a lot of layers. And when I like something, but want to try different things with it, I use a different layer over it, or just duplicate the layer I want to keep clean (in case you want to use what you previously had) and block that layer to be safe.

I work with the keyboard shortcuts. B for brush, E to erase. Alt for the Eyedroper (this one is really useful to pick colors on the picture and blend colors easily using a low opacity) and a lot more you can learn and that makes work just easier and quick.

I also use a lot of masks and groups to put some layers that can be considered a same object (example: with the faces, I have a base layer with one color, another layer with the lights and shadows, another for some brightness like nose or lips, and the sparkle in the eyes, and I put it all in a group and put a mask in that group so it is transparent around the face to see the background. That way I can move all the face together and put together better the composition when I have the background done).

And the most important thing is just drawing. Practice as much as you can (everyday, once a month, it doesn’t matter. Just keep drawing) and with time you’ll get better. You’ll find some tircks that work just fine for you. And if you like to experiment, you’ll see that there’s a lot of ways to do something and get the same result. Just find whats confortable for you. And if you have toruble with something, or want to try some effects, but don’t know how, go to youtube. There’s a lot of tutorials and speed paintings that help a lot.

And, if you are serious and want to do something more than just drawing for pleasure. If you ask yourself “how do they make it so appealing and so simple at the same time?” learn about composition and color. There’s a lot of theory in art. Even if it seems chaotic and random. There’s always an intention behind. And you can transmit that intention better if you know the theory.

Here are a couple of videos that show briefly how color and composition works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qj1FK8n7WgY&t=2s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8i7OKbWmRM&t=580s

Maybe you already know all of this. But here you have it just in case. It’s always good to check the basics once in a while.

I hope this is useful. And again, if you post something, don’t waver and show it to me (if you want, of course)

[suchpeachyicecream]

This is a rather sad time for many Kpop fans. After all, recently a lot of Kpop idols found themselves harmed, many physically. However, there are also those who are suffering from a much deeper wound, one that can’t heal with the use of cream and simple rest. One of those suffers is none other than Bang Yongguk, the leader of BAP.

Bang Yongguk has been diagnosed with panic disorder and allegedly suffers from depression. Infact, the allegedly has been suffering from depression for quite some time now.

Ironic isn’t it…. how in so many gifs he looks so happy when in reality there are so many demons plaguing his mind on a daily basis.

The pressure of being a leader…

Of being a producer/ writer…

knowing that your songs have all the power to make or break it… 

Knowing that your songs put to risk the careers of 5 other individuals as well as the whole company.

Of being a good son

All there pressures and probably more than what we know of have been piling up in Yongguk;s head, cementing their place in it, all while his mental health issues were most probably ignore. After all, is the company did not properly pay them, I doubt that they would allow Yongguk to take a breath until he broke, which he did.

Interesting how we could always see a darker side to Yongguk, yet nothing seemed to be done about it until now.

The above is a quote from his solo song AM 4:44 released in 2015. Worrying right? Well, it wasn’t worrying enough for some people who seemed to just say shrug it off and go on!

He ‘wants to leave’…  the implication of where he wants too leave to though was always quite a horrible thought.

Yet, despite all of his troubles, despite being as broken as he is, he never failed to give a helping hand. He did not just suffer, but did and still does, in silence, keeping up a mask, just so that he can hopefully help others.

And although I am forever grateful to his kindness and thoughtfulness, I truly hope he knows that it is okay to be selfish. 

That its okay to put your health in front of others.

That its okay to suffer with our keeping a face.

Bang Yongguk is not perfect. He is just as flawed, as fragile as any of us are.

The difference here, is that Bang Yongguk is pressured by society and by his work to always act fine so that his work does not take a hit. He is someone who lives in the public eye and can get criticised for absolute anything.

But I’m happy that he is finally getting help.

I really hope that the help he gets is proper.

I truly hope that after his battle, he does not end up as a stigmatised member of society.

I truly hope that he truly has people who will always support him, whether it is his parents, members, twin or any other person.

Please Bang Yongguk, get better.

Please don’t rush.

Please take all the time you need. 

I’m sure that BABY’s would much rather prefer to see a comeback with all 6 healthy, than if one to more of the members suffering and breaking because of our human greed.

Real BABYs waited before and we can certainly wait more. 

Real BABYs will wait for as long as needed, because health is what matters. Not a comeback, not an epic MV but for all to be as healthy as possible.

Real BABYs will love you and support you. We promise.

Why?

Because Bang Yongguk is for many:

an inspiration…

hope….

a reason to go forward, despite what our own little ‘haters’ say…

someone who gives us courage during bad days…

We don’t need you pat on the back to feel better Yongguk… No, we need you to embrace the journey of recovery not for us but for you. We need you to get better. To start healing.

We love you Bang Yongguk! And we will never stop!

Thank you for reading!

[bygarchive]

[de-bei]

Get well soon Yongguk! We’ll wait as long as you need.

[de-bei]

He just blinks. That’s it. 15 seconds and he only blinks (twice, but still, just minimum motion). And it killed me. Soooo, of course I had to do this. I only added the smile. It just felt right ; )

Well, another one for the collection. 

As always, hope you guys like it.

PD: I’d really appreciate if you comment. Even if it’s just “good”, “like it” or “kjafkhsdglfkjasdgñ”. Seriously, anything. Every comment and like makes me happy ^w^

[de-bei]

And, some Yongguk! Had a lot of fun with this. And the tattoo turned better than what I expected.