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Honestly I donāt recommend this blog to anyone itās just my vent space where I come to scream into the void
perceive at thine own risk.
Whatās the point of speaking if no one listens
He has returned. Haunting me like a shadow sneaking up. I had nearly forgotten, but then in the shake of a pillow, the truth has been revealed. He wriggles there, unseeing yet knowing me.
Will I be seeing him again? Will every shadow or piece of lint reflect his dark and scaly visage? I might never know peace even if I can forget again for a time.
Why does living have to be so painful. I go in to my doctor saying Iām in immense pain. Her solution is Iām too inactive and have to work out. But Iām in this much pain because Iām active. I donāt have any more to give.
Every moving spot is a bug my brain says
I just wish it would stop hurting
Had to get a tooth pulled due to massive cavity. Im in massive pain but they will not help me. got period probably because I forgot to take contraceptives. I didnāt think I did but I must have because Iām bleeding. And I have a UTI because I donāt drink a lot of liquids and I keep falling asleep with pants on. (Im insanely susceptible). Iāve isolated myself from my friends who I miss but also largely hate and I canāt bring myself to talk to them again.
Everything is my fault. Sure I can rationalise things but self loathing is stronger than logic.
I just want it to stop hurting
Feels like Iām dying. I had so much hope and it was snatched away like that.
Idk what Iām doing anymore
I donāt exist
Not in the literal sense but in the sense that to other people, Most people who have known me, probably donāt ever think about me.
Iām not missed.
Sometimes ppl think I mean something more than what I say. Just because I remark on a detail of something they infer my judgement about it.
Sometimes I realise I am utterly alone
Try to do something: too tired
Try to sleep: too awake
Iām so tired but no matter what I do I canāt sleep
Hopefully Iāll get sleeping meds soon. This canāt go on.
The great plus about crying is you get to sleep easier
Just wanted to listen to a nice audio book to sleep and now Iām crying.
Thereās this character whoās obviously written to be autistic. And all the descriptions just remind me of my childhood and sensory and social struggles and how everyone just thought it was fine.
Now Iām an adult who canāt get diagnosed because I was āfineā as a child and no one caught it then. My psychiatric treatment place said they were considering an assessment but thatās going nowhere. Iāve tried to stop talking about or thinking about it, because what if thatās not it. What if Iām just obsessing over it or being on of those self diagnosing people. What if Iām just weird and thatās it.
Half the point of listening to something in bed is to keep my thoughts from running away so I donāt spiral and start crying. Now Iām sobbing and writing this hoping it might put an end to the spiral for now.
I think Iāll put on a podcast or something.
When my sister is in town even my mom talks over me. I feel so abandoned