Dead In Side

Hi, I'm Denyel, 21, in California.

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When he moved out he took my favorite knife. An today I went looking for the back up and it's gone too. An I dont know if that's a good thing or not, but I needed it...

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Someone asked me yesterday if I thought this was the real deal. And I realized as I said I hope so, that I really do. I really do hope this is it. I hope this is what it feels like to love someone. I hope that this sinking feeling u give me, the extraordinary high I get from you, the smiles I catch, and the fullness I feel when it's about you. I hope this is it. I want you to love me the way I love you, and I want this to be it, and I know it's unlikely. An I know you might not feel the same. But I pray, to your God, or mine or any, that maybe it is. Because I feel at home, at peace with you by my side and I wouldn't want it any other way.

[wwhatfinn]

[lostinxneverland]

“I just want to get out of here. I want to call you and tell you everything that’s wrong and i want you to tell me that its going to be okay. I need you to tell me its going to be okay.”

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I need a moment to vent, an not in a bad way per say. But it's a long post so if you dont make it through I understand. So I've met the guy of my dreams. Mostly. He makes me so happy, and he makes me feel like there is more to life than i have been feeling recently. I fell in love with this guy, who i am still just getting to know. And he knows it bc he told me first. But it drives me crazy, because every bone in my body tells me to run. Not from him. But because everytime I think I'm happy it bites me in the ass. So my mind keeps saying run. Keeps telling me to tell him to go and never turn back. But I dont want to, I truthfully want to be happy with him and I just dont think my mind is going to allow it..

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#relatable

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You come to learn that the depression never really goes away, you learn to live with it. You find people who will fight it with you, and hold your hand through the worst of it. It's hard to learn new methods of dealing with it, and moving forward. It's hard when you don't have the support system you really need at times. An some day just really suck. But you move forward and you learn to do it all on your own at some point.

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I gave you every bit of me I had. I loved you with every bit of my being more than I've loved before. I drug my heart through the dirt to stay by your side. Now when I finally gave up finally shit out and pushed you away because you were slowly ducking the life from me. You want to try. Now you want to act like it was all you that you had the effort. I have nothing left for you, or for me. So please just let that sink in, for the first time in years I let a man in and he showed me exactly what they can be...

[bnmxfld]

[dead-in-side]

People make mistakes, some bigger than others. And some times you need time to process them. You can choose to forgive, but the least you should do is try and get past it. Life has to go on, with or without someone, don't let life stop for stupid stuff. Move on, no matter how much it hurts you or them...

[apikaliaa]

Hopefully someday you’ll look at me the same way I look at you.

a.a.

[little-random-thoughts]

i think i lost you. the funny thing is that i don’t think i ever even had you.

2:30 pm

[its-im-possible]

“Falling for someone doesn’t mean they’ll catch you.”

R.H Sin, Whiskey words & a shovel III

[lifelongsymphony]

10.45 pm. I crave for your company. Then I remember that we’re not even together.

[books-n-quotes]

“I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break.”

— Marya Hornbacher, Wasted

[kushandwizdom]

“When you love someone so much, you’ll have to let go of them at some point for them to be happy.”

— And you’ll be happy, because they are too // R.K (via goodquoteco) Click here, for more inspirational quotes

[whitepeopletwitter]