most of the time i'm unhappy

20 | 165cm | SW: 83,3kg | CW: 81,3 kg | GW1: 75kg | GW2: 65kg | GW3: 55kg | UGW: 45kg | i'm not promoting eating disorders or any other mental illness.

[thinspiration50110]

I shouldn't know...

I shouldn’t know that you can lose 2lbs in one day with enough effort.

I shouldn’t know that if you drink something right before you purge it helps all of it come up easier.

I shouldn’t know that I can survive on a serving of carrots, almonds, and cherry tomatoes every day.

I shouldn’t know that I can silence the hunger pains by chugging a liter of water.

I shouldn’t know that if you don’t eat all day and then climb stairs up to the apartment it feels like you’re going to collapse.

I shouldn’t know all of this. But I do. And that’s my reality. And I hate it.

[kinaari]

“I think most of who I was has died.”

(via poetrypoemprose)

[3am-coffeee]

The thing that sucks is when you have so much love to give and are so capable of making people feel loved but no-one will give you a single look because of your appearance….

Someone who knows… (via 3am-coffeee)

[deadmasochist-blog]

I have reached the point in my life where I just want to stop existing for good.

[pommivarjend-blog]

[itsfairykei]

Depression is not what a lot of people think it is. 

It’s not a beautiful light skinned emo teenage girl with black hair and thick eyeliner. It’s a devastated person with unwashed body, teeth, hair, without any strength to even take a shower.

It’s not just making cuts across your wrists. It’s cutting, scratching, burning, biting, every possible part of your body. 

Even eating is difficult. Eating too much or starving all the time is damaging to our body, mind and soul.

It’s not sitting in bathroom and crying. It’s laying in bed unable to move at all.

Stereotyping depression needs to end, and people need to be aware of the presence of mental ilnesses.

[upadekaniola]

[there-will-be-violence-deactiva]

[there-will-be-violence-deactiva]

[wastedadventures-blog]

I’ve never believed anyone who said they loved me. That doesn’t mean I haven’t loved, I just learned to do so without expecting anything in return.

Wasted Adventures (via wastedadventures)

[nolongerwaitingtomoveon]

Reblog this if nobody has ever been interested in you.

[docsliq]

[machetelanding]

[nocturnedreamer]

Sometimes I want to disappear. I guess someone might miss me, but does it really matter? Nobody needs me. I’ve never really had solid friendships. My friend status always ebbs and flows. I’m either alone or smothered. Eventually they’ll all leave me. Do I even deserve anything at all? I’m lazy. I procrastinate. I’m a failure. I don’t even try anymore. I don’t know what I want. I have no goals. I’ve given up. I’ll never be anything. I’ll never be important. I’ll never be successful. I will always be nothing. I am and always will be insignificant.

[hellolottieuniverse]

No matter how hard I try I will always be left out, will never be as important as them, will always be forgotten and the only reason someone calls is because they might need something from me. I feel unwanted and worthless. They make me feel unwanted and worthless. But they’re all I have…

(via hellolottieuniverse)

[crushedhope]

[faded-and-dreaming]

Nobody loves me. Nobody ever will. Nobody needs me. Nobody ever will. Nobody wants me. Nobody ever will. Nobody sees me. Nobody ever will. Nobody misses me. Nobody ever will. I only exist when it’s convenient for someone.

Nobody Ever Will (via faded-and-dreaming)