Daughter of the Moon

I kinda want to die, but Nickelodeon has me on suicide watch. Anyway, Doug is on next. Stay tuned.

[deadpan-cynicism]

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Ray-Ban Sunglasses

[adhdwerewolfgf]

mr sandman

man me a sand

[deadpan-cynicism]

Still not dead!!

Very much finally over the ex, having an ok year actually, not nearly as sad, still really hot, just generally in a good place!

That’s all thanks!!

[deadpan-cynicism]

Stuff is different!!

Everything is way better than it was and I’m stoked. Thinking I’m asexual (or grey ace) and single again, but super happy about it and glad to be single. No more pressure to have sex, no more guilt trips, finally have the freedom to figure out what I’m doing. Never come on here anymore (obviously), but wanted to share with anyone who may be worried I died that I’m not dead just doin ok! 💕

[deadpan-cynicism]

I thought for sure when you disappeared after the car crash you got hella into opiates or something. Car crash and possible injury/pain plus general sadness isn't a good combo.

No thank god, stopped doing opiates like 4 years ago! Been clean for a long time now :) just got super overwhelmed after the crash and the death of a close friend, then a major job change. Just been leaping all over the place and haven’t had time for tumblr. Thank u for checkin in ❤️

[deadpan-cynicism]

I only come on here to cry about my ex

It's been a while since I was active on here. I came back recently to peruse the "shoplifting haul" tags and, conveniently, just started having nightmares about my ex all over again. Thank god work reminded me of my tumblr. It's been almost 3 years since I started dating my ex and I'm still super stuck. I'll go months without any heartache, months without nightmares, months without missing my ex or his kid, then I'm hit with it all at once. Hit with the regret of how I acted during our break up, regret of how I acted during our relationship, the realization all over again that dreams are dreams and wishes are wishes, but the reality is that I'll most likely never speak to either of them again and continue being a cold, distant bitch like I have been since we split. Not to say that this is his fault for leaving; he had to take care of himself, and after all of this time, I respect that. I've just morphed into a completely different person and I can't even really remember who I was before the heartbreak. Usually when an ex would leave and I'd have dreams about us being happy or reuniting or even fighting or anything, it was almost kind of comforting? Like, if I missed them then it was a nice reminder of them. I just had a lengthy dream (nightmare, they're all nightmares) last night about this ex and felt sick to my stomach when I woke up. Now I don't want to do anything today. I just want to go back to sleep. I don't even know where I'm going with this pathetic rambling and I don't care. I'm financially stable, very attractive, independent and well-off for the first time ever and yet all I want is a re-do on the past three years.

[deadpan-cynicism]

can't tell if you had a queue set up for jan 1 or are back from the dead

Am back-ish?

[deadpan-cynicism]

oh snap! is that about the guy with the kid who you were heartbroken over?!? i thought he was a good one

So I haven't been on in forever. I'm just on because I'm in LP now and want to creep on all of the "haul" tags lmaoBut I saw this in reference to the last post I wrote about, yes, the dude with the kid. This year is year #4 since we started dating. It's a bit ridiculous how heartbroken I remain, and with heartbreak comes wavering emotions. I'll feel fine and over it for months, then suddenly I'm flooded with nightmares about him and his kid and I'm devastated all over again. He wasn't the perfect partner. He had some really finicky flaws that I think I hone in on now because hating him feels easier than anything else, but he really was one of the good ones. A really, really good one. Not sure what else to say about that one. 😕💕

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.

Uma Thurman (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[aveoi-deactivated20150922]

*tries to get eight hours sleep in 3 hours*

[mi-ki-ki-m]

[deadpan-cynicism]

my therapist: how has the past week been for you?

me: idk i don't remember

[showerthoughtsofficial]

When medication says “do not operate heavy machinery” they’re probably mainly referring to cars, but my mind always goes to forklift.

[renovation]

[fannylikes]

[bitchvirgo]

my kink is being a meaningful part of someone’s life

[glumshoe]

#tie me up and tell me I’m important

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Never let the sadness of your past, and the fear of the future, destroy the happiness of the present.

Unknown (via onlinecounsellingcollege)