you're my fate

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[daenw]

a list of things i’ve learned:

You like honey and milk in your coffee. Which is weird. Good weird, but still weird. And you like fancy stuff, too. Like this one blend from India. I know I told you I didn’t like it, but I kind of did. I’ll buy it again, though, because you got this really content look on your face when you took your first sip.

Ever since you started watching TV shows, I can’t even keep up with some of the references you make. You soak up the information and stories like it’s water and I know you try to do it to impress me. You don’t have to, but I love that you do anyway, even if I have no clue what you’re talking about.

You get really engrossed in whatever you’re watching, too. Holed up for hours in the bedroom or a motel room, wrapped in a blanket with a bowl of popcorn in front of you. You won’t sleep unless I make you, which happens probably more often than is healthy.

You are so damn grumpy in the mornings, but you’ll get out of bed with the least amount of fuss if I make you pancakes. A triple stack with more butter than syrup and an over-easy egg on the side. You finish your breakfast and pat your stomach and I swear I’ve never seen a guy look so satisfied.

Except after I blow you. That is the most satisfied I’ve ever seen a person look.

You mouth the words as you read. I like that sometimes I can hear you reading out loud in the softest whisper when we’re in bed. I like falling asleep to it.

You play this stupid game on your phone with cats that’s not even actually a game. You refer to the cats while you’re not playing by their names and I gotta be honest, it’s fucking lame. But it’s also fucking cute.

You love when I kiss your fingertips. They’re usually freezing, so I’m happy to warm them up for you.

The look on your face when I laugh at one of your jokes is beautiful. So I’ll always laugh at them, even when they’re horrible.

I will never understand how an angel can possibly love me, after everything. Your forgiveness is overwhelming.

You love unconditionally. You love me unconditionally. I’ll love you the same.

Some of the things you say in Enochian are downright filthy. I didn’t know that, until you started teaching me the language, starting with those choice phrases.

You are never gonna drop the cherry pie thing.

You still don’t get that I’m just giving you a hard time about me not eating fruits and veggies. I’ll eat them. But not around you. Just to fuck with you.

You took an interest in cars after finding me in the garage working on Baby a few times. I know that you know how an engine works, but I’m glad you sit and listen to me blab about them anyway.

You cried when Sam graduated this summer. I didn’t. I had something in my eye. Both my eyes. Shut up.

You love bad guys and freckles. That’s definitely why you married me.

You always find the frilliest bed and breakfasts to stay at on cases. You’re right, I don’t hate them as much as I say I do. I’d even be willing to go back to the one we stayed at the day we got married. It was cozy and you were happy.

You made me feel something when I didn’t think I could anymore. You took care of me when I was at my worst since Hell. The Mark was eating me alive and you lit up this fucking void inside me. You held me while I sobbed like a damn baby. You played with my hair and whispered the nicest shit in my ear and it was so fucking sappy but I don’t think I’m ever gonna be able to repay you enough for how you made me feel.

It’s a year today since we made it official. You’re all you and I’m all me, for the first time in a while. I found this list you made last night while I was sleeping, you sappy shit. You’re reading the paper and sipping some fancy tea and looking like the biggest nerd in the world.

I’m sorry I don’t say ‘I love you’ enough. I’ll never be able to say it enough. Shit, I don’t even know if I really know how to say it right. But you say it every chance that you get. You say it before you hang up the phone, when we apologize after a fight, after we’ve fucked, when we leave and when we get back from a hunt, when we wake up and when we go to bed. I love hearing those words come from your mouth whenever you can fit them in. And I love you. More than I’ll ever be able to say.

(insp.)

[thekingslover]

Dean nudges Cas’s foot under the table at the dinner.

Cas lifts his gaze and Dean winks.

Cas narrows his eyes and tilts his head.

Dean shrugs. Then winks again as he lifts his foot higher, rubbing along Cas’s leg.

Sam, sitting beside Dean glances between them. “Are you guys doing something weird?”

Cas looks at Sam. “Dean is kicking me.” Then at Dean in accusation.

Dean throws his hands up. “It’s footsie, Cas. I’m flirting. Jesus.”

“Oh.” Cas considers, then looks back to Sam. “Never mind, Sam.”

Sam drops his head to the table.

[2-fast-2-curious]

The Story of Romeo and Juliet Condensed Into a Single GIF

[destielmybeatingheart-deactivat]

Destiel Deaf/Blind/Mute Rec List

[ART SOURCE]

UPDATED 22/07/2013

Title: Unsaid  Word Count: ~6,800  Summary: AU in which John and Mary both died in the fire and Dean is deaf. He lives in an orphanage, and he’s just six months short of eighteen when someone in charge decides that a deaf kid must go well with a mute one and gives Dean a new roommate. deaf!dean mute!castiel

Title: Rough Gold Summary: When Castiel’s Grace is lost in the battle against Lucifer, he reverts back to an angel in physical form. It isn’t pretty. muteduetotrueform!cas

Title: Sang Castiel Word Count:~5000 words Summary: Castiel has the power of transforming any human or animal into stone, he merely has to start talking to a person. He lives in solitude until two hunters track him down.mute!castiel

Title: Unsuffer Me Word Count: 22000 Summary: After the end of the world I just wanted to rest and chill out, not to re-build my life from scratch around the fact that I can’t hear shit and that I look like the fucking phantom of the Opera. mute!dean deaf!dean [personal note…this is GLORIOUS]

Title: Dream As If You’ll Live Forever Word Count: 5,999 words. Summary: Cas hasn’t spoken a word to anyone in years and is a drifter who works various odd jobs to finance himself. Dean is a guy with a violent temper who grew up in foster care and has just gotten out of prison for a stupid judgment call. The two cross paths in a pay-by-the-week boarding house run by an eccentric older couple (Bobby and Ellen). mute!castiel

Title: In the Silence Afterward  Word Count: 13,080  Summary: After Lucifer rises, Dean goes mute. mute!dean

Title: The Sound of Silence Word Count: About 2k Summary: Dean’s not in control when it happens, but he’s finding ways to come above it. mute!dean

Title: Keep Your Eyes on the Road Ahead Word Count: 4170 Summary: Castiel is falling and Dean doesn’t know how to stop it blind!castiel.

Title: I Don’t Want To Go Back Alone Word Count: 12695 Summary: Dean is the new kid, Castiel is blind. Romantic angst and fluff ensues. blind!castiel

Title: Retreat into Silence Word Count: 16,881 Summary: Something very traumatic happens to Dean while he’s with Sam (or Sam was away) which causes him to stop talking, *again*. Sam didn’t know about the first time, and has to ask Bobby (or John) about what happened after his mum died. mute!dean

Title: My Eyes Are An Ocean Word Count: 10,300 Summary: It’s amazing what you decide you can get away with when you can’t see a damn thing. blind!dean

Title: The Mute!Cas Verse  Word count overall: ~ 130,000 so far Story Summary: This is the story about Cas falling and being rendered mute, and all of them sort of taking it from there. mute!cas

Title: I Hear You Loud and Clear Word Count:1549 Summary:Dean saw the new kid in his first period class with an interpreter. deaf!castiel

Title: See no Evil Word Count: 37,368 Summary: Dean’s life is about as normal as can be, he has his job and his brother and is perfectly happy. Then Cas, a blind pianist, enters his life and everything gets turned upside down. blind!castiel

Title: Yellow Moon Word Count: 11548 Summary: Castiel Novak hasn’t said a word for three years. The mountains and a beautiful boy might give him a reason to speak. mute!castiel

Title: Don’t Panic Word Count: 7298 Summary: Dean is a Secret Service agent. Castiel is his ex-KGB handler. mute!castiel

Title: That One Summer We Spent Inside Word Count: 5859 Summary: Dean wakes up from a coma after an accident and finds himself sharing a room with a blind boy his age, Castiel. blind!castiel

Title: Revved Up Like a Deuce (Another Runner In The Night) Word Count: 2326 Summary: The last thing he ever saw was the light of Castiel’s grace. Blind!Dean

Title: The Words Not Spoken Word Count: 2028 Summary: The last words Dean ever spoke were to his brother. mute!dean

Title: In the land of the Emotionally Repressed, Dean Winchester is King Summary: Dean does his best to cheer Castiel when Cas is disheartened by recent events and is left blind. blind!castiel

Title: The Piano Man Word Count: 8177 Summary: Sam meets brothers Gabriel and Castiel when they move in to town, and takes them to meet Dean. After a few secrets are shared, Dean forms a strong bond with Castiel. mute!castiel

Title: Touch Word Count: 4217 Summary:At six years old Dean lost his hearing completely in the fire that took his family. The first time he saw the blind boy he knew he was destined to fall for the shy creature. deaf!dean blind!castiel

Title: Stitches Word Count: 23452 Summary: Castiel survived Leviathan–but only barely. Vessel mauled and eyes destroyed, Cas is barely clinging to what’s left of his grace when Dean finds him naked and alone on the reservoir’s edge; in a panic, Dean brings him home to the cabin where he and Sam have been holed up off the grid. What follows is the slow process of the angel’s recovery and the unexpected changes that come with his being blind, and in the three months this takes, their little family slowly begins to patch itself back together in forgiveness, love, and darkness. blind!castiel

Title: Show me How to Live (And I’ll Show You How to Love)

Word Count: 28780 Summary: Dean’s broken and he’s 95% sure he’s always been broken. He’s a Fed because he used to believe it would do some good and now? He’s not so sure. Castiel knows he’s broken and he can’t be fixed. He does as he’s told, kills who his uncle tells him to kill, and pretends that the nightmares don’t wake him up anymore. But they find some solace, some peace in each other, until the day it all comes crashing down. mute!castiel

Title. Putting The ‘Christian’ In Hans Christian Andersen Word Count: 7,000 Summary. With apologies to a certain fishy fairy tale mute!castiel

Title: Come Outside Word Count: 30 677 Summary: Castiel is afraid to leave the house. His therapist and brother help him to make friends, resulting in meeting Dean, a shy mute who might just be the only one capable of getting him to come out of his shell. mute!castiel

Title: Hummingbirds  Word Count:  23,700 Summary: Castiel is rendered mute after being taught a painful lesson, but that enables Dean to learn a few lessons of his own while holding onto something important for him. mute!castiel

Title: Black Glass Word Count: 60598 Summary: The Winchesters live in the middle lands, away from the politics and blood shed of the north, but one day John Winchester discovers a dead body and a nearly-dead, winged child in the woods. Dean names him Cas, and they quickly discover that he is mute. Through certain events they learn that not all is as it seems when soldiers from the Empire raid their homeland, searching for mute men with wings. Cas and Dean, now grown, flee their home and attempt to escape the Empire’s clutches. Dean is captured and held by the pseudo emperor, Michael, and Cas journeys to strange and otherworldly places halfway across the world to gain power to save Dean, all the while battling others with selfish ambitions of their own.

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cas pinning dean’s wrists above his head while he’s riding dean’s cock, leaning so close to dean’s lips yet refusing to kiss him and looking into his eyes while he rolls his hips brutally  ಠ◡ಠ

[transdreamsicle]

i really need more of dean getting himself off. palming the head of his cock and massaging his balls until he’s so hard it hurts, edging himself over and over and fighting himself because he wants to draw it out more, savor it more but he also wants to come so fucking badly. and when he does finally come it’s with a rumbling groan and afterward he just lays there all sated with a cute little smile

[deancas-fics]

Rating: T

Word Count: 2464

Summary: “You know, I always maintained that it’s better if we don’t know our own future.” Castiel says as he sets Dean’s hand down.

“What, is it bad?” Dean stiffens in his seat

.“No, not at all. Quite the opposite, you have a bright future.” He pauses, before speaking up again. “Would it be entirely inappropriate if I told you that your palm said I should take you to dinner this Friday?”

[mther]

I was looking through my old folders on my laptop that I havent opened in forever, and I came across a lot of stuff I’ve written, but never posted or finished so lmao, have some deancas trash writing I did forever ago

[mther]

“Dean?” Castiel asks. They’re sitting in Dean’s room, Dean in his bed and Cas sitting against the frame on the floor. Music is playing, which Castiel recognizes as Led Zeppelin’s The Rover. Castiel has been in this room so many times. The first time when he was eight years old and Dean was nine. It was summertime, the windows were open, you could hear birds singing if you tried hard enough. Though, Dean’s room never was very quiet. With all the music playing or the TV on. Cas didn’t mind though. It was nice being in a room that wasn’t kept organized and straight like his.

“Yeah, Cas?” Dean said. They’re both only sixteen, but their voices are deepening every month.

Cas took this opportunity to stand up from his spot on the floor and sit on the foot on Dean’s bed. That is until Dean looks at him funny and Castiel moves himself closer to Dean.

“Andy asked me out,” his voice was hushed and the words came spilling out of his mouth quickly.

Dean looked at him, eyes wide and mouth slack. Castiel swore he saw something flash through Dean’s eyes. Like a swift movement of something. Anger? Shock? Jealousy? Castiel quickly shrugged off the absurd idea of Dean being jealous.

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[dumplingdean]

dean is such a soft, sweet lover. like. he’s the one to grip onto hips and let people ride him while he just moans softly and he melts into touches and kisses and everything about the way he moves is so smooth, like water, but his hands are like earth, the way he keeps them anchored to skin. the way he always needs to have that connection. and he’s so attentive of his lover’s needs, but at the same time, when he finds someone who wants to take care of him, it’s the best thing in the world because as much as he doesn’t want to admit it, he loves when someone dotes on him. he loves when someone touches him and kisses him and tells him just how worthy of love he is. my precious boy!!!!!!

[ehghtyseven]

But… imagine Dean is a Kindergarten teacher

And Cas volunteers as a recess/lunch supervisor

And Dean has been crushing on him all along, and always brings him coffee - just how he likes it - when he’s outside in the cold, and bakes cookies for the days Cas is working (oatmeal raisin, because Cas once let slip they’re his favourite).

And then some of Dean’s class come up to him when they’re making Valentines cards, and ask if he’s going to give one to Mr Novak, “Because you like him, right?”

And Dean stammers, trying to explain “it’s not like that" but the kids insist and drag him over to one of the tables to help him make one.

And at lunch time, Dean is towed across the yard by three very excited five-year-olds and blushes furiously when he sheepishly hands Cas an oversized card that is drowning in glitter and multi-coloured, cut-out paper hearts.

And the little ones tug at Cas’s hands, looking sad, and ask “Don’t you have a card for Mr Winchester?  Don’t you like him back?" and Dean tries to mouth that it’s okay; to let Cas know that he doesn’t mind, though he thinks actually his heart might be breaking a little, because he always hoped…

And Cas blushes, reaching into his pocket and bringing out a small envelope which he hands to Dean.

When Dean opens it, he finds just a simple piece of paper, with the words “I like other food, besides cookies.  Want to get dinner with me some time?" with a tiny heart drawn next to it.

And when he looks up, Cas is beaming at him, and he just knows he has a stupid, goofy grin on his own face, but he doesn’t care.

And three five-year-olds skip off across the yard, giggling, to play on the jungle gym.  Because Mr Novak and Mr Winchester are being all weird and smiley, and “eww, that’s gross.”

[deansmom]

AU (ao3): Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak are two of the biggest movie stars on the planet and they’ve been secretly dating for the better part of two years. When Dean’s public girlfriend, upcoming indie actress Jo Harvelle, ‘breaks up’ with him to start dating Charlie Bradbury coincides with him landing the role of a lifetime opposite Cas, that whole “secretly dating” thing? Yeah, that’s shot to hell.

The kicker? There’s some leaked pictures of the two of them having sex on set, never-ending questions on the press tour for their movie and even with all of that, it’s an accidental slip-up during a panel with fans that kills them.

(Dean swears he didn’t mean to answer that girl’s question with “well when you’ve been with someone for as long as we have” but Cas is just glad he said it at all.)

[deancas-fics]

Rating: NC-17

Word Count: 23,620

Summary: Castiel works as a tech consultant at an electronics store themed after Heaven. He’s given a ticket -sorry, Prayer- from Dean Winchester, a man who set his laptop on fire. It’s important he fixes it fast and does’nt fall for the guy on the other line. Really important. He keeps telling himself that, anyway.

[casinpurplepanties]

but what if cas rides dean with so much effort? like when he was an angel, he was controlling, able to fuck himself on dean with powerful movements that were graceful and articulate. and as a human, cas struggles, because every time he thrusts down, he can feel it jab at his prostate, knees locking hard around dean’s hips, one hand clenching the sheet, eyes shut. and eventually he gets frantic and harder, faster, whimpering, gasping and just taking more and more of dean. and slowly, his thighs begin to burn but he can’t bring himself to care because its so fucking pleasurable and he’s so damn close…

[deancas-fics]

Rating: T+

Word Count: 38, 621

Summary: Dean Winchester, a popular 11th grader at Lawrence HIlls HS, famous for his skill at baseball, is growing tired of dealing with all the insufferable teenagers he calls his “friends.” By chance, he runs into Castiel Novak, a very strange-seeming kid, and 11th grader who just moved in this year. Dean has heard rumours and whispers about this Castiel, but never actually meets him until one evening at a baseball practise, and he finds himself evermore interested in this mystery kid...

[deancas-fics]

Rating: M

Word Count: 56,972

Summary: Dean's determined not to stay in one place for long--he's enjoying his new-found freedom too much. Castiel might be the one to make him stick around.

[perlukafari-deactivated20161116]

but dean letting his daughter take a nap on his chest, while she clings to his shirt with her tiny little hands and nuzzles the top of her head against his beardy chin, and then he ends up falling asleep as well and doesn’t wake up until cas kisses his forehead and tells him it’s time for lunch.