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Things had been rough lately. Daveed was busy with his rapping career while you were still in New York working on your college degree. Everything felt different now. Especially since Daveed was here all the time. You had only started dating him when he was in Hamilton.
Your relationship back then was perfect or goals as some people would say, usually Lin. You were even friends with all of the cast and crew. After the shows would get over late at night when you were already home in bed Daveed would still come over. He would always bring you something or leave a note that he came to check if you were okay. Everyday he would call you just to hear your voice.
Those days were gone and it seemed like Daveed wasn't there anymore. There were no phone calls. He hadn't visited in months. Not even a video chat. You could hardly get a text from him every three days.
Today was the breaking point. You had just got back to your apartment from a long day of assigned work to do and people being rude. Your best friend had been ignoring you through this time to top it all off. Everything was wrong and you couldn't contain your feelings in your head any longer.
You grabbed your phone from your bag and dialed Daveed's number. You didn't even know where in the world he was right now from his lack of communication so you didn't even know if he'd pick up. The phone rang in your hand for what felt like forever until it was picked up.
"Hello?" he asked into the phone.
"Hey." that was all you managed to say while you were still standing there on the verge of a mental breakdown.
"Did you need anything?" Daveed asked making you take deep breaths.
'He doesn't even care.' you thought.
"I just...I miss you. I haven't had the greatest day." you said into the phone then heard some laughing in the background and Daveed saying something not even paying attention to the phone call.
"Oh yeah." Daveed laughed into the phone.
"Were you even listening?" a tear slid down your face as you asked the question.
"Yeah. Of course." he said in a fake caring voice. You couldn't hold back anymore. It's obvious that he's already thrown the towel in for this relationship. This can't be a one sided relationship anymore.
"Why are you like this?"
"What?" Daveed asked dumbfounded.
"You don't care anymore. I don't matter to you anymore. You hardly talk to me or text and we used to talk all night with each other." you said to him. It was silent for a moment before he spoke up.
"Y/N it's just you know..." the line went silent for a minute.
"Go on then, tell me." tears were falling from your eyes and you felt your heart breaking with every second,"Tell me you don't love me."
Silence was all you heard. Emptiness and heartbreak filled the air.
You were right. He didn't care. Even worse he didn't love you anymore.
Then you thought of the last time you actually saw him.
***
"I'm going to call everyday. Okay?" Daveed said holding your hands.
"Promise?" you smiled up at him.
"I promise." he smiled back,"I love you baby. I got to go."
"I love you too. Stay safe."
"I love you!" he shouted back at you going into the airport to leave.
***
"I'm sorry Y/N."
That was all he said. That was it. Nothing else.
You ended the call. Anger and heartbreak was all you felt and you were about to explode with all of that emotion. All you did the rest of that night was go over all of your memories. You had spent over one year of your life with him. He knew everything. He was always there back then and now he doesn't even care that he just broke your heart.
AH SO I HAVE EASE ON WATTPAD AND SERIOUSLY I'VE FELL SO BEHIND BECAUSE OF SCHOOL WORK AND JUNK LIKE NO THIS IS NOT OKAY 😭 ! i'm gonna have a catch up day tomorrow probably but i am in L O V E with this story and just ahh
"You can't do this Philip!" I say as Philip shows me his fathers dueling guns.
"Y/N I know he's your father but what he said about my dad was wrong and he didn't even try to negotiate with me. I'm sorry." he says looking me in the eyes with anger. Not towards me but at my father.
"Philip what my father said was bad enough. I can't lose you." I say as he then puts his hands on my waist kissing me,"Not only that Philip but you know he doesn't like you already. You need to call the duel off."
"Y/N I can't do that. It'll make me look weak." he said still resting his hands on my waist.
"You're setting up your own death Philip. I'm going to talk to my Father about all of this. It needs to end." I say pulling out of his grip.
"No you can't do that. I don't want to bring you into this mess." Philip said grabbing my hand pulling me back.
"It's kinda hard to not be in this mess when he's my father and you are my boyfriend Philip. I just want to keep you safe."
"You don't need to do that Y/N. Everything is going to be okay. I promise." Philip says grabbing both of my hands.
"I want to believe you Philip. I just can't." I say looking at the ground and he lifts my chin up so I'm looking him in the eyes.
"I'll come right back here after it's over. Let's just relax while we can Y/N. I miss you." he said.
"I still don't like you dueling with my father or anyone in general. Please Philip-" I was cut off by Philip kissing me. We kiss for awhile until we need air,"I wasn't done talking." I say and he just shakes his head then walks over to his bed laying down.
"Come on." he says and I follow him over curling up to his side,"I love you Y/N."
"I love you too Philip." I sit up from my position to look at him. His eyes were closed and he looked peaceful. I smile and place a kiss on his lips. His eyes open surprised making me laugh a little sitting up then getting up.
"No you can't leave me before we've even started." Philip whined.
"We were starting what exactly?" I ask as he smirked,"And you know I wouldn't leave you." I laid back down beside him and he sat up this time.
"Good." he said before kissing me like I did to him,"You are perfect."
"You are exaggerating." I say making him roll his eyes.
"What do I have to do for you to believe me?" Philip asked and I smirked.
"Maybe don't duel with my father and kiss me again." I said.
"Now that second one I will surely do no matter what but we've been over the first one and not gonna happen babe." he says and I sigh before he kisses me again. I smile into the kiss and he laughs falling back besides me.
"I have no clue what I'll do if you die." I sigh.
"You don't need to think about that because I won't." Philip says placing a kiss on my nose and I smile,"I love you Y/N."
"I know." I say and he turns to me with a funny expression on his face,"I love you too." I laughed.