Dear Charlie, I just watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Last time I watched it I think I was seventeen or sixteen. Now I’m twenty and I feel like so much changed, but at the same time everyhing is the same…. Lately I’ve been feeling sad…. I guess I’m here because I want to tell it to someone, without actually saying it. I lost my phone 10 days ago at a party, and when I went there the next day to look for my phone I lost my keys. Yes, that’s right. I lost my keys in the SAME place I lost my phone, WHILE I was looking for my phone. Now I don’t have a phone and I don’t have my keys. Also, I bought some blueberries in the supermarkt and they opened in my bag. Now my bag is purple. I don’t have enough money to pay my rent, a new phone and I have debts with my phone company. EVERYTHING SUCKS. I really try to look to the positive side of life, and see everything as a lesson. But I feel like there is a dark cloud over my head following me everywhere I go. Or maybe it’s my period is coming. I want to cry but the tears don’t come out. I can’t even cry. I don’t know, I guess I wish I could go back in time… My father passed away last december and ever since I’ve been feeling so nostalgic of my “pass life” (life before university, I guess. Life before I wasn’t a adult). I don’t enjoy my daily life anymore, I don’t get excited about anything. I don’t care anymore about learning french or making new friends. I just want to disapper. Today I didn’t go to class because I didn’t like how I was looking. How stupid is that??? I hope this feeling goes away soon. I’m buying a new phone tomorrow. Love always, Me.











