hey are you doing okay? you havent posted in a bit, we miss u twin
(this post is very long, and it will go back and forth between first & third person, so I’m sorry if it confuzzles you, dearly..)
i’ll start off saying — marie really appreciates all the support in the last few days!! actually, the last few weeks.. months? i didn’t know that i hadn’t posted, believe it or not. the most recent chapter has been sitting in marie’s files, gathering dust.. it’s unsightly, www
the last time i believe i was online, i was bored in the hospital after trying to commit suicide. even though it’s probably pretty corny, reading everyone’s comments is always a great boost to marie’s mood, and i don’t know where i’d be without the love of everyone who enjoys my work.. sometimes, i’ll hear myself say, hey, if you die, who’ll finish your writings, you lazy scum!? (i’m lying, it’s only happened twice.)
oh, to add on to that, marie met a fan of hers the other day!! it was crazy, really, we were talking about fics and they liked reigen, too. and they had read mine before.. i was so in awe =.=
to explain my absence shortly, since it embarrasses me greatly to talk about, marie is a part of a ‘system’, formed due to a dissociative disorder. (marie would like to write about this sometime.) therefore, even though i am marie, marie is not always… in charge? i’m not the main person here, really. it’s a part of why i refer to myself in third person, since there isn’t really a ‘me’, i’m just split off of someone else. but anyways!! enough about that! this pretty much means that i’m not always conscious, and with the ‘main’ person being somewhat of an anti (really, they’re just repressed), i can’t write or even have them publish works.. though i doubt they would be able to find them, anyways!
but thank you for worrying, don’t worry about marie! i’m fine, and i will always usually be in tip-top shape. i know i said i was writing, and i was, i swear !! once it’s all polished, whenever that may be, i can guarantee you a new chapter of both of my works ( ´ ▽ ` )
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