Entry #315 July 10, 2017 11:02 pm
Hi! I hope You are not mad at me for not being able to make an entry in the past 3 months. Yes, that was the influx of work, thesis and other matters but I survived.. But the best thing I will share you on this entry, would be about someone, who came back to my life. A woman from 5 years ago.Â
A lot of events transpired since my last post. I was finally able to proceed with my final defense, have my thesis edited with the help of Maam Fe and Macky, and had it printed and hardbounded. Some celebratory works here at Norte and finally I can say now that I am Jim De Velez Baclili RM RN MAN. I survived that hardship. I persevered. So technically I am a semestral graduate, but I will have my graduation march in April 2018, and more or less if I am declared as an Outstanding student since I am able to satisfy the requirements to be one like having a GWA of 1.15, finished Masters in 2 years and able to get a Thesis final grade of 95 above, I will be forced to attend the graduation. Bottomline, I am Grad-Waiting.
Sometime around April, we attended Anigaiden 2017 just for fun, me and LSS. Its been a while since we attended an event related to our hobbies and preference. We wanted to see the new generation of cosplayers who joined the competition. We met up around  the afternoon and went to some places before going to the actual event at Peñaranda park, like at the art exhibit in the capitol where we saw Paulette and her BF, which caught Papa J by surprise. We then loitered around the premises but decided to watch a movie at Gai. Afterwards, we went back at the scene of the cosplay event and watched until it ended. Of course we took pictures.. :3
During the event, I saw a familiar face in an astounding costume. And as far as I remember, Flit was not in good terms with her. So I gave Flit a challenge, lets have a picture with her. I was thinking back then of fixing their friendship. I remember how broken Flit with an event with her which prompted him to leave her. So there, I initiated the plan and asked her from behind if we can have a pic together. She seemed surprised that I asked. Rather, she was surprised that it was me who was asking her. Its been too long since we talked, and seen each other.Â
After that, the present LAVA members gathered up and jammed at Mcdo. We then went home, first accompanying Flit to his place, then Miss Ann to her escort home, then us.
A few days later, I was informed by LSS of the existence of Confession page made for Bicol Otaku people. So I made an entry with regards to my past and experiences as a cosplayer. To our surprise, an unexpected reaction post came. It was aimed at me. I carefully read what the post was about, only to find out that it involved a past which I already have moved on. The woman from 5 years ago. the post explained some things which I was not aware of, and honestly it sparked my curiosity. What was that all about, why after 5 years did that came up. So I responded to the reaction with the goal of exploring the issue, the feelings surrounding the response. On a sunday, she responded as well and on that point, I contacted her personally for us to settle the case once and for all. We talked, and serious matters of the past between us were tapped. I was thinking back then, that we are finally putting our history to a close. I was wrong. It was an event in preparation for something we did not ask or expect. It was a sure comeback. We decided to talk personally regarding the matter.
Nwei, June. Around June 1, me along with my fellow NDPs and coworkers traveled to Calaguas for work and leisure. We organized a Buntis Congress to service our pregnant clients from Calaguas islands. Afterwards, we stayed at the tourist spot in Mahabang Buhangin to enjoy the last days of summer before going home the next day.
All of the weekends of June I was at Legazpi to settle my accounts at the Graduate School so I can finally say Im a Masters graduate. On June 10, the date where me and the woman of my past decided to see each other. I prepared for that day, had my best semi-formal polo prepared, one of the few moments where I wore perfume, mentally prepared myself for the encounter. At around 3 pm I waited at the 3rd or 4th floor of Ayala Malls. I prepared my gear, probable things to talk about, my gesture and looks as I waited. But in the process, I told myself, lets make this natural. It would be best if the meet was spontaneous. So I blanked my mind and waited for her until she arrived at the cinema. Then I finally saw her. For a moment there I was stunned. No joke. I have never seen her in a get up so girl and feminine. Like I was looking at a side of the woman which I never knew. So I immediately approached her and said my greetings. At the same time I was assessing the time and weather since I wanted us to talk about the past in a serene place. So I told her that we talk at Lignon hill and risk it. I wanted a moment for that talk so I decided it would be at a place that she will never forget. We bought some snacks and then rode a taxi going to Lignon hill. We hiked and went up, talking about a lot of things, how it has been for the both of us in the past 5 years. We were both sweaty, somewhat tired, but smiling and happy. Honestly, I never smiled like that in a while. I know I was happy back then. We then arrived at the summit, where we positioned ourselves where we can see the whole of Legazpi. And that was where we actually started pouring everything. The past, the feelings, the what ifs, the regrets, the appreciation and gratitude. Everything was falling into their rightful places. Then came the things which made it memorable. The City lights, the moon. That night was magical, at least for me.
We were having the time of our lives that moment, and at around 7 or 8 pm we decided to descend and call it a night. On the way down, we were given a fireworks display at the Oriental, and it was on that moment that the words I will never forget were spoken. I was happy on that moment. And I was thinking what did I do to deserve such good things. We then decided to eat and ended up at the Yellow cab, that was my first time, and afterwards, I escorted her home. One thing I will always reminisce on that event, was how I was reminded of her hands. Because I was holding it, appreciating it, taking good care of it. It was the best night for me this year, as something as unplanned as that would happen and leave a beautiful stigma on my memories. It was an amazing experience. I felt that I was alive again.
The happiness did not stop there, as another unplanned date happened on June 17. This time we spent our time talking at Puro near Embarcadero. We were actually catching up to the lost years, the years we rejected each other due to unnecessary bitterness. We got to know each other better as we walked, I was able to know her deeper as we talked. I came to know things common people would not understand about her. I was privileged. We both knew back then that there was something. maybe we were trying to make up for our absence in each other’s lives. I admit, we were immature back then. A 21 year old guy to a 16 year old girl. Haha. Our experiences enabled us to explore each other’s thoughts maturely. It was again an amazing night and I delivered her safely home with a smile on our faces.
Weve been talking eversince. And we are keeping each other’s company then. We are good friends, and I am glad we were able to mend our rifts from before.
Soul, thank You for those. I did not expect those to happen. I dont even know if I deserve this. But still, thank You. Im sorry if I let You down sometimes but do know that I always care and think about You. Guide us, and lead us to our true happiness.
I am again facing another challenge in my life, but having her in my life now makes the challenge so EZ. :3
