an escape from my demons

just a place I can vent,

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Iv had enough of being pregnant, people who says its the happiest time of their lives had it easy, i'v been constantly ill since 10 weeks and not morning sickness but uti's I go in today and I'm basically told everything is all in my head, iv ruined my OH weekend plans he wanted to go fishing, and i just keep getting asked why I'm so ill and always on antibiotics, I hate this so much, I cant wait for this to be over, I'm so miserable my depression is not helping but I hate making others miserable cause I want to make sure everything os okay,

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10 miles that's the distance between mine and my boyfriends house, not far at all really but I cant see him we both have no money due to him starting a new job and my work screwing my pay up, he has hardly any petrol in his car so cant get to me and I would walk but I'm not aloud the doctor has told me not to over do it, and the fact I walk to and from work which has a massive hill in the middle hurts enough let alone walking all that way and end up hurting myself of even the baby, I'm just so down I don't know how to keep happy. How do I smile when I know I have debt to pay off, a baby to supply for, a deposit to save up for a house, how do I smile when I cant even afford to feed myself, I'm wearing clothes that dont fit around my growing belly... What's the point really, maybe this is the worlds way of saying give up while your ahead... What is the point?

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Cheese...

Love laying down watching catfish knowing my man is looking after me, so he's making me cauliflower and broccoli cheese tonight while I'm watching catfish,

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Husband:  You know we really should concentrate on getting just the essentials for the baby.  There’s a lot of cute baby stuff out there but it’s not really useful.

Me:  Yeah you’re right.

Husband:  Oh I made a small Pottery Barn Baby order because I had a 20% off coupon.

Me:  What did you get?

Husband:  *unintelligible muttering*

5 days later:

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My other half did something like that but it was a Darth Vader baby grow.... I'm 14 weeks we have 6 till we can know the gender....

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naughty...

So since being pregnant all I have wanted to do is shag, I can be exhausted but as soon as it comes to crawling into bed with my OH i wake right up, and he cant get enough which is good, we do t know what it is but pregnancy has turned us into animals for each other, and well R has gone for a job interview so I'm in his room while his parents are down stairs and just fave myself an amazing orgasm, can't wait till R gets home iv left the vibrator under his pillow and under my clothes is a sexy body suit he does t know i have....

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naughty...

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Holy mother of god, since iv been pregnant iv been more a meat eater then sweet eater, but right now chocolate cake sounds like the best thing in the world, and ill cry if I dont have some.

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something new...

So this morning iv been looking at wedding dresses, R and I are planning to get married but wont be till after baby is born at Xmas, and then we have to save for the wedding, so much to do, before Christmas, got to find a house, get baby bits, which my mum has helped alot by saving stuff from my youngest sister, R needs to find a job, actually have money seeing as between us we have a total of £3.... Ohh and pay for a £500 holiday by next week.... Dont know how that's gonna work.

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Edinburgh, Scotland

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Cant wait to go back, am thinking of planning a hidden holiday away for OH, baby and me next year as he's never been,

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A journey up the Faerie Pools.

Isle of Skye, Scotland

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One place I have wanted to visit,

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Lost dogs return home after owners cook sausages near where they went missing

The family of a pair of handsome miniature schnauzers were distraught when they disappeared in thick fog while on a walk in the hills.

oh my god

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no escape routes

Iv never been in a position, where I could never ask for help from family, but right now I'm in it, my mum os not working at the moment due to my baby sister having diabetes and getting used to that as it still new, my nan is supporting my mums loss of income, iv had my hours reduced and due to a major fuck up at work I'm £200 pounds down, so other then paying rent I'm screwed, I can't get any food or anything, my poor bf is trying to get a job but its like life is kicking him while he's down, so we are both laying on each other for support, and I tried to stay strong and not show how miserable and scared I am, but I'm terrified, I know it will get better but when and how long have we got to struggle. And there's nothing work can do I told them and they cant do shit and its there fault. I guess I just have to deal with the storm as it blows past....