declan king

25. photographer. Maine

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shxdesofsagc·:

she was sure this would keep them from talking at least. she had never been good with words, and her feelings at that moment were so complicated, she couldn’t exactly explain herself. and she knew she wouldn’t have to. or declan would have to do the same for himself, for kissing her back, for pulling her closer. sage exhaled, looking down, though not pulling back a little more.  truth was, she missed everything about west ham, even her family. she missed new york. she missed school. she missed him. what they had. if they could only go back to those days, where she felt special and important. “i’m– i miss you,” she whispered, afraid of her voice cutting.

“i miss you too. god, sage, i’ve missed you so much you have no idea.” sage was one of the few things that reminded declan of their old lives, that maybe not everything was lost for them and the people stuck in new ham. he didn’t really know what was going to happen with everything, but having sage beside him gave him the comfort he so desperately needed. “i don’t know what we’re supposed to do with this whole thing...”

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shxdesofsagc·:

sage looked down, feeling every single one of his words. she was stubborn. she had fought for years to get her independence back, to make it to new york, to parsons. it really felt like her life was actually happening the way she wanted it. boyfriend and all. but just like that, it had all started coming down, and it was hard not to blame herself for it. at this point she was even wondering if they would both be trapped had she gone with him. “i…” sage bit her lip. she didn’t know what to say, or how to put her ideas in order in the first place. “declan, i–” and just like that, she went for a kiss, one she wasn’t sure would be welcome, but acting out of impulse was one of the things she did best.

declan was taken aback at first. he honestly wasn’t expecting sage to kiss him but, obviously, he kissed her back. he had wanted to do that since the day he first saw her again. he had never really gotten over her-- but he for sure thought that she hated him. declan wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her closer for a few seconds before pulling back just slightly. “sage, we-- we can’t do this...”, he was lying to himself, but he knew that for this to work, for them to work, they had to actually think with their heads and not their bodies.

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shxdesofsagc·:

she attempted to laugh, because things were ironic and she hadn’t even thought about that. and now she was, and she couldn’t help the feeling of a sharp knife in her stomach. she could have moved in with him. in the end, nothing had happened with her career, an they would have both ended up here anyway. she sighed, following him with her eyes to the couch. his apology cut even deeper– she had not been expecting him to say that. ever. they were both too proud for that, but things had changed. sage didn’t respond right away, but a few seconds later she went to sit with him in the couch. “would you be sorry even if we weren’t stuck here?”

“i was sorry from the moment i left. i didn’t want to leave-- not without you. but you broke my heart, sage. the moment you chose your career over us. and i know it was selfish of me to maybe ask that, because i know how much your career meant to you, but i loved you. more than i ever dared to admit. and i was mad, hurt, disappointed... you didn’t want to go-- what was the point of me staying there any longer?”

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shxdesofsagc·:

“i mean… yes, that too,” she laughed, blushing a bit. she felt flattered, all jokes and awkwardness aside, that he had come and found her for just that, but there was more to it. “just– everything. being stuck in a small ass town, US being stuck in the same small ass town, you taking my photo– i…” she exhales with a little laugh. “i’m talking out of my ass, i’m sorry,” she said, feeling slightly ashamed that she had even spoken up– now that her words were out she could tell her thoughts were stupid an somewhat pointless, but she couldn’t help but to feel she was going insane.

“i honestly don’t know if the world is trying to tell us something or not. i just find it funny that you didn’t want to move with me, i leave, and we just somehow end up in the same fucking place together. and now there's just no way out. like what the fuck does that mean?” declan sighed, putting down the camera and just sitting down on the couch. “sage-- you have no idea how sorry i am” he said, but he couldn’t really look at her. honestly, declan didn’t really want to have this conversation but as soon as she had spoken, his words just came out as well.

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gwendolynmilo·:

Gwen couldn’t contain her eyeroll as the boy spoke. “So, what you’re telling me is you do not want any?” she asked holding the bottle out for him to grab if he would like, “Because you see, I look at it more as, I have nothing else to do with my time, and I just really want to drink” informing him.

declan reached out for the bottle and took a long drink. “i never said i didn’t want any”, he said as he handed the bottle back. “thanks, by the way. but, yeah i figured. it’s the same excuse everyone uses. nothing better to do, might as well drink myself numb. i’m pretty sure everyone’s gonna end up becoming an alcoholic, honestly.”

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kaideffs·:

“ugh, so no blow job, then? boring! because i’m a guy i don’t express my emotions, c’mon.”

“i really am sorry to disappoint. jeez, never? like-- doesn’t it feel like shit keeping it all bottled up?.. oh god i sound like a woman.”

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kaideffs·:

“what happened to you being strictly straight? someone a little curious? i’m not even going to dignify that with an answer.”

“if i was honestly, truly, curious, trust me, you’d know that. what, why not?”

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kaideffs·:

“is it a blow job? oh god, tell me it’s a blowjob. just because i’m a natural caregiver and thrive in that environment doesn’t mean you’re special.”

“i’m not gonna tell you anything. oh, really? so i’m not special to you? not one little bit? not at all... are you sure?”

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kaideffs·:

“i swear if you’re just getting my hopes up for nothing or to be cruel, i’m gonna be crushed. ugh fine, i’ll break out my first aid kit and disinfect you.”

“i promise you’ll get something for your birthday, that’s all i’m gonna say. oh please, you say that as if you wouldn’t be happy to take care of me.”

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kaideffs·:

“funnily enough my birthday’s actually tomorrow, so let me know so i can change my sheets just for you. it could always be worse, but if you don’t take a risk you don’t get the reward.”

“like i said, you’re just gonna have to wait and see. it might be a surprise, i wouldn’t want to ruin that for you. yeah, i mean, i guess you’re right. but if i get punched i’m coming straight back to you so you can deal with my face wounds.”

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gwendolynmilo·:

Gwendolyn was having an off day, well as off as someone could for what was happening right now. She didn’t want to stay in her house, she felt as if she was closed off right now, which was very rare. Wrapping her hand around the neck of the champagne she dragged it off thee counter and carried it out the door. Walking to the park she let out a sigh before popping off the top of thee bottle. Taking a sip of it she could feel someone’s eyes on her, “What?” was all she spat out to the other looking her way.

“oh, nothing”, declan said as he shrugged and crossed his arms over his chest. “i think it’s becoming more and more common these days for people to just drink themselves to death in a public place, but go on.”

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kaideffs·:

“wait really? you promise? gosh gonna get me all hot and bothered over here. i think you’re already pretty shameful so why not take the risk.”

“i don’t know if i can promise that. you’re just gonna have to wait and see what happens. i-- shameful? i mean, i could be worse. right?”

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kaideffs·:

“yeah or just fuck me, both amazing options. one more so. but i mean, her fist can’t be that strong, doubt it’d hurt you too bad.”

“maybe for your birthday. or for christmas... i could just show up at your house naked with a bow in my head. i know it wouldn’t hurt but it’d be like.. the feeling of shame, you know?”

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luxdela·:

“I’m better than family, c’mon, you chose me. You’re not just stuck with me because of our parents. If you really think about it it’s worse because you had way more feelings for Sage than River had to me. So you kinda just stomped on her heart and all your history when you left…. Just a thought, no judgement from me.” Lux could give him a hard time because they were that close, but she also didn’t want to rub salt in the wounds. “I don’t know if I should be offended or flattered that by that.”

“you saying i chose you makes me feel like you’re some sort of pokemon, honestly. i’m stuck with you because i adore you, what can i say-- i- lux, c’mon, don’t. she was the one who decided her future alone was more important than her future with me. i was just the one who left. i wouldn’t have if she hadn’t stomped on mine first”, he shrugged. it still hurt, but he knew there wasn’t really much left to do. “why would you be offended? i mean, do you want to tell me all the details about your night with my best friend? because that would just be extremely weird for me, babes.”

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offacadss·:

      ‘ i’m sure i’m just saying what everybody else already thinks of you, sweetie. ’ phoebe guessed declan was just one of those people that rubbed you off in the wrong way, not matter what they did, at least he was ONE of those people for her. sure he wasn’t for others, but for her he was. ‘ what now, you want me to thank you for giving such a shallow description of me ?  ’  phoebe never tried to be on friendly terms with declan, not even when it was for river. ‘  at least we have that in common; not l i k i n g each other. what a RELIEF.  ’ 

“you know, you’re the only one here who doesn’t really like me. everyone else just loves me”, he said with a shrug. “have you ever thought about it though? do you know why you don’t like me? because i would just absolutely love to hear it.”

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kaideffs·:

“i probably won’t ever get over it, you might have to put me out of her misery. why don’t you go out and get her then? don’t give up, you gotta try a lil harder than that.”

“maybe i just have to put you to sleep, man. like how they did with the dog in Marley and Me. that’s how i’ll do it. because she hates me, kaide. i’m gonna try and talk to her but i’m pretty sure she’d just like punch me in the face.”

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luxdela·:

“Oh I guess you just love me too much to ever be an asshole to me, huh?” she teased, a smile pulling at the corners of her lips. “So you….ghosted her?” she gave him a look, raising her eyebrows. “You and River are one in the same, I swear, it’s no wonder you two are besties. Have you spoken to her since? Or are you still pretending she doesn’t exist?” she shook her head in mock disappointment at Declan’s confession. “Wow is my sexualith that repulsive to you?”

“i do love you lots, that’s why i’m always nice. and protective. like i said before, you’re family-- hey, hey, no, that’s totally different. i loved, sage. i mean, i know i was a dick but it’s not the same as river. and yes, yes we have spoken because, lord knows why, she ended up moving here to the same place i told her to come in the first place and she said no. so yes, we’ve talked. and i cannot stop thinking about her.” a soft chuckle left his lips as he shook his head. “it’s not that it’s repulsive, but you’re like my little sister i really don’t want to hear the details of your sex life.”