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An important update, still kinda hiatus though.

Well my mom sat down with me on Sunday and talked to me about my situation. I guess my mom and dad were discussing and kinda butting heads about it, but it was a unanimous decision with my parents and other family members that i'm much better off back in Hawaii. So i'll be moving out of my mom's and in with my dad's, my flight is on the 31st.

If I can't find a place for my cat, my auntie is willing to take her. Though she wants to have a monthly fee, which is understandable to get basics like cat food and such. Though i'm worried how much my mom told her about my cat's health and if she can handle the seizures.

There's a lot of stuff I have to do to get my cat back in Hawaii, mainly she has to get another rabies shot. We're trying to make sure she doesn't get put in temporary quarantine, it's apparently a stressful environment with a lot of chemical. My mom doesn't think she'd survive it. Though i'm also worried about her being placed alone in the cargo area of a plane for 7 hours, considering how she was in the plane over here as my carry on.

There's a lot of stuff I have to go through to pack up, I kinda haven't started yet. I really hope me moving in isn't going to affect the room arrangements too bad. I'm STILL trying to find a good animal crossing map, i've been at it since Dec. 23rd..

Sorry if my description of my situation seemed extremely alarming, I kinda feel like I exaggerated a bit. My mom and step dad aren't so bad unless there's conflict, I don't hang much around them anyway.

[deco-crossing]

Kind of an update on current issues. I guess you could say im still on "hiatus".

Well, I guess i'll start on the bad news.

I've labeled the family in my current home, more of my mom and step dad, as toxic. They always have to be right, never really want to listen to the other side of the story, constantly judge the things I like, my mother is just very judgmental in general, I don't get any positive attention, and other issues. I've always been somewhat distant from my mom so i'm trying to do more so.

I finally brought the issue up to my dad, because I honestly can't take this anymore and I can't see dealing with it for another two more years. He offered to move in with him as long as I intend to go to college, which is extremely reasonable. I've been worried about him not having any space for me though, but if he insists then maybe he'll make room. Plus they can't have pets so my cat couldn't stay with me, which isn't gonna happen. I refuse to leave my cat here alone with these people. They already neglect a dog(to be honest, he is truly an asshole to deal with), I wouldn't want my cat who has seizures to be neglected.

Hopefully my auntie would be willing to take my cat in. Though i'm worried about her getting along with the other cats. Lava is kind of a bitch and Hobbes can be a butt. They also have fleas there too. But they're both indoor and kinda special needs cats(I think both of them have sensitive stomachs), so maybe she would fit in.

I have family in Hawaii who's been begging for me to come back, and I know I have a big family back there that loves me and enjoys my company. I just regret not I talking to them more, I really don't like facebook or phone calls.

Something tumblr related, I feel like i'm following too many blogs that have a negative view of men in general. Of course there are many terrible men, I must be lucky to have not dealt with them. But I grew up being the only girl of four boys (total), I've been friends with many guys. My friendship's with men have always been better that with women. But i've been having such negative views of them lately it feels unnatural. Though tumblr has also made me feel somewhat self conscious about being part white, even though im probably not the "white people" they're complaining about.

I guess time for good news.

I at least have a way out of my predicament.

I bought Fantasy Life, it's really fun!

I'm starting a new Animal Crossing town, but it's taking a while to find a good map.

I now have money again to buy things, so hopefully I can get Captain Toad: Treasure Tracker, and SSB WiiU with the Gamecube controller port. I wanna get an Amiibo too but i'm not sure who to get.

[deco-crossing]

My laptop charger died and I finally got a new one today. There was a huge windstorm while it was gone, we lost power a few times. And somehow I got svchost.exe Trojan.Agent from doing absolutely nothing on my computer.

Wowee wow wow, what a week.

[deco-crossing]

I feel like I might be becoming depressed. I do get seasonal depression in the darker month because of the lack of sun. Last year I started  to take a 2000IU vitamin D pill everyday, now i've been taking two. But I still feel like i'm slowly becoming more and more sad.

I've been losing motivation, today it took me a bit to even leave my bed. I feel like i'm self-loathing myself a lot more than I normally am(I have quite low self esteem anyway). I've been eating less, idk if it's because i'm trying to lose weight or feel like I don't deserve it. It's been a bit harder to fall asleep. And I just feel kind of empty. I know I should really be getting a job, but i'm scared. I just feel so useless.

I try to be peppy and care a lot about my friends, I always ask how they are and try to be there for them. But when it comes to me, I feel like they don't care or at least don't try much to make me feel better. I get so much more emotional now compared to when I was younger. I was a lot stronger or at least I could conceal it better. I just feel so emotionally weak and it fucking hurts.

Maybe I'll finally have the courage to even ask my mom to get help. But she's already spent a lot of money on my teeth and now my eyes, then there also school on the way. She's always complaining about me getting a job. Even if I ask she'll probably be all nosey wondering what's wrong. There's a good reason why i've never shared my feelings with her, she doesn't know how to handle other's feelings or at least mine.

My senior year I broke down crying my eyes out for 3 days in a row during lunch because of my issues. That happened during the winter. In the Spring I got sent to the counselor due to a concerning self portrait I made. The assignment was a realistic self-portrait made from pastels, three things I hated. I was feeling more emotionally better but I still did something a bit depressing since that's all I could think of. But the counselor made me either work things out or force me to see a shrink, they told my mother too. That evening was pretty emotional, my mom kept trying to get me to talk about things. She was so concerned about money and saying that going to see a shrink would go on permanent record like it was a bad thing. So I broke a bit and told her about some smaller things, convince her that's all that was wrong. And that's how close I was to actually getting help.

I don't feel like reading this over to see if it makes sense so w/e.

[cartoonhangover]

Bee and PuppyCat Episode one is finally here!!! WATCH NOW

[fruitfoul]

[tinyredbird]

THIS MAKES ME VERY VER YVERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HAPPY

[sweat-refrain]

Visit Original Link

Moon River, wider than a mile

I’m crossing you in style, someday

Oh dream maker, you heart breaker

Wherever you’re going, I’m going your way

Two drifters, off to see the world

There’s such a lot of world to see

We’re after the same rainbow’s end, waiting, round the bend

My Huckleberry friend, Moon River, and me

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I got physical copy Mariokart 8 the other day plus pre-ordered the DLC aaannd got a Diancie code!

I know you're suppose to get free stuff when you pre-order both DLC packs but is that only for pre-ordering it digitally? I mentioned it to the lady who checked me out but she had no clue. I really want multicolor yoshis, weh.

[realestmatt]

Zach always being helpful

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I wasn't expecting to be interested but Fantasy Life looks really cute! It's too bad my ass is broke, I don't even have smash. QQ

[hassansan]

[natazilla]

[deco-crossing]

Sorry for the lack of everything.

I've been going through some issues lately and I don't have much original content either. I've been wanting to get ssb and MarioKart 8 but i'm having money issues right now. I'll try to at least reblog things for now.

I was gonna do a url change plus theme change since this isn't an AC blog anymore, but i've been too lazy lol.

[deco-crossing]

I got the pokemon newsletter but no code.

Why have you forsaken me?

Update:

I got it and it's downloaded yeeee

Before it wouldn't even load, then there was just a placeholder picture saying "coupon".

[kobekai]

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Captain Toad: Treasure Tracker

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