Notebook
I wake up with the sun shining on my face. Two slices of bread sink into the toaster, the coffee beans into the funnel of the coffee grinder.
Thoughts rattle in my head like the wheels of a mill. What is happening in America? What in Germany? Has there been another natural disaster or a humanitarian crisis?
Two slices of bread jump out of the toaster and are greeted by the hiss of my espresso pot.
I open my notebook and the information pours over me like a torrent: Trump: Superspreader in the White House! Freedom of the press in Belarus in danger! Brazil is on fire!
As is so often the case, I pull it all in, all “information” is absorbed. But do I become more informed? Or brought into formation, with so many people who consume information en masse every day without reflecting on it until they become numb and dull.
A video title catches the eye: "Arte: Is the digital generation a sick generation?"
*click
Doctors and scientists talk about the negative influence of tablets, smartphones etc. on early childhood development. They also talk about the power social media wields over young people in constant social media frenzy.
“Unfortunate”, I think and look at my cell phone. Is there a new message? I feel empty, almost like I've been through four nights. Hangover
With the sun having already reached its highpoint, the glare of the screen is so blinding that I have to pull the blinds to see David Attenborough, whose familiar voice is coming from the speakers.
He has always been my childhood idol and at ninety-four is more passionate than ever when it comes to bringing people closer to the value of nature and the price of its loss. He draws his optimism from the young, committed people who have been raising their voices louder and louder in recent years, he says to the interviewer.
I pause and close the notebook. I pick up the cell phone, this time to turn it off. The door slams shut and I swing onto my bike.
Looking for a quiet spot in the city I find a sunlit bench, which is protected from the eyes of other park visitors by dahlia beds and hornbeam hedges.
I sit down and take the notebook out of my pocket, this time it's made of paper not of metal.
(in german, the neologism “notebook” is used synonymous to “laptop”)











