[crystallinedreamshop]

Happy Valentine’s Day 🥰💖💎

[deependdesert]

change its for me

I need to do what I need to do, to take my life back. I need to go back to doing what makes me happy and what makes me tick, if that includes blogging then so be it. Here I am. 

[deependdesert]

Uhgggg so into guys lately. The beard, the hair, arm, chest,hands skin fuuuuuckkkk my life and a half.

[deependdesert]

I spoke to Michael for the first time maybe nine or 10 years today.

[deependdesert]

Sober one day!

No alcohol. Actually hard.... sigh day 2 here we go

[deependdesert]

Can you please stop being on my mind! Always. Just driving me nuts.

[deependdesert]

I regret deleting everything about you.

[deependdesert]

Today officially going sober from alcohol. I think my liver hates me now and i truly get drunk almost every day lately. Need to be better.

[deependdesert]

I have to stop looking/hearing for you, its not healthy.

[deependdesert]

Forever and always

[deependdesert]

The problem with looking for signs about you is most things...remind me of you. Hard to tell whats clear and my ego.

[deependdesert]

I’ve been getting drunk for more than 21 days straight and sometimes at work because now we work at home... why not. Honestly it’s just way more entertaining and easier to do.

[deependdesert]

I regret treating you like shit bc the truth is you didn’t deserve it.

[deependdesert]

I stopped drinking about 10 years ago now I’ve had three drinks for three nights in a row. I’m trying to think of words to say but, keeps me in silence. Guess I’m ashamed. I don’t want to ever repeat who I was and what I went through. But it feels like the only way I can relieve stress lately.

[deependdesert]

Writing

Picking up something i once loved is hard to do. For I see love as something you love and let go.If it comes back it was always meant to be. Its kind of what you learned when you were seven, you thought life was so big. It took forever for your birthday to come around, this is when you realized there are seasons and the concept of time. Creative writing has always come back to me after what seems like years, maybe months. The truth is i dont make time to write, or express myself any longer. I have created a life but i have no art. This makes me sad. I want to challenge myself to write again.

[refiningfire]

[adrenaline]

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