I am officially putting out a request to anyone to feels helping me out with this Stiles stardew valley mod. Iām horrible at writing and genuinely need creative people to help. If youāre good at writing Stiles and want to contribute please add me and send me a dm! Anyone who does contribute will be credited.
Okay so I have a VERY beta version of this. He has a schedule and dialogue for spring, but everything else is pretty unfinished. If anyone is still interested in this lmk. It still needs a lot of work, for example all of his dialogue is ai because I canāt do that for the life of me. Donāt judge I promise Iām going to change it I just need something for now šš if anyone wants to help out you can never have too much dialogue
Pairing: Stiles Stilinski x gender neutral reader, inspired/requested by @deezhutts565 (Thank you for the idea and the patience! I hope you enjoy š)
The counter was crowded with ingredients and various measuring utensils, and a big red bowl placed in the center. The yellow glow of the old light bulbs in the kitchen created a warm ambiance, contrasting with the darkness that loomed beyond the windows. It was nearing midnight, but neither of them cared; they didnāt have obligations to attend to the next day, and they were home alone.Ā Ā
Stilesā house was almost always a last resort because the Stilinskis didnāt do much grocery shopping these days. He was sure they didnāt own at least half of the ingredients on the recipe, and even that was generous, unless you count frozen pizzas as brown sugar.Ā Ā
So, they chose to do their baking at Stilesā friendās house, or whatever they were to him. They both brushed off questions and speculations like they were absurd, but it was clear that āfriendshipā was a term miles away from where they stood.Ā
Virtually every day was spent together, doing anything and everything to keep life interesting between the near-death experiences in the world of the supernatural. Today, they decided on baking cookies, which would be followed by a movie while they indulged on their creations.Ā Ā
āOk, I think we have everything. Ready?āĀ
āI was ready this morning, but someone decided to go to brunch with Isaac and Malia,ā Stiles retorted.Ā
āIām not apologizing for having a life.āĀ
āAnd Iām not asking you to. An invite wouldāve been nice, thatās all.āĀ
Their eyes lingered on Stilesā for a moment longer than intended, though they werenāt exactly sure why. Jealousy grew in him easily if he was given a reason to let it. Everyone knew that. But they hadnāt seen it directed toward them before. As soon as the suspicion came, it was shoved to the back of their mind, and their head turned toward the recipe.Ā
āNext time. Can you pass me the butter, please?āĀ
And so, the baking began. Stiles let his companion do all the measuring but insisted on pouring everything into the bowl ā that was āthe best partā. He enjoyed himself greatly, though it did not come without a cost.Ā Ā
Flour was dusted over the countertop and his shirt, sugar was scattered across the tile floor, part of an egg white was dripping down the side of the bowl, and he was still rubbing the sting of vanilla extract out of his eye. It was hard to tell if the proper measurements really did make it into the bowl, except for the chocolate chips. It was clear that he āsnuckā an extra half cup in, but they didnāt mind that aspect. The mess, on the other hand, was another story.Ā
āIām not helping you clean up, you know that, right?ā they said, scooping the balls of dough onto the pan.Ā
āUh, yes, you are. This place is a disaster,ā he shot back.Ā
āYeah, a disaster you made!āĀ
āSo? Itās your kitchen. You should have to help clean too,ā he argued, wearing a frown.Ā
āOr you could jus- are you out of your mind?āĀ
Stiles froze, his cheeks as big as a chipmunkās and filled with cookie dough. Something resembling a smile began to form, and chocolatey drool pooled at the corners of his mouth. He knew trying to speak was futile, so he tried chewing instead, which wasnāt particularlyĀ successful either.Ā
āStiles! Youāre going to choke.Ā Or worse!āĀ
He just shook his head and continued awkwardly moving his jaw in any way that would help him even a little bit of dough.Ā
Sighing, they grabbed the scoop again and plopped another ball onto the pan. āYouāre supposed to be helping me, not killing yourself with our dessert. Whoās going to clean the kitchen if youāre dead? The paramedics, when they show up to take you to the hospital?āĀ
Stiles couldnāt stop himself from laughing, huffs of amused air leaving his nostrils. Meanwhile, that chocolatey drool was now rolling down his chin, which had them both laughing. He tilted his head back, and they grabbed a napkin for him.Ā
āYouāre ridiculous.āĀ
Eventually, Stiles swallowed and was put in charge of sliding the pan into the oven. āAlright, you setting the timer?āĀ
āYep. Are you cleaning up now?āĀ
He eyed the work ahead of him and rubbed the back of his neck, saying, āUh, actually, I was thinking we could start the movie while we wait for them to bake. Iāll do it afterward, promise.āĀ
āI donāt know if I believe that you will,ā they stated, staring into his eyes, almost challenging him.Ā
Stiles strode toward them, placing his hand low enough on their back to give them goosebumps. āI promised, didnāt I? Come on, letās go get comfy.āĀ
Before they knew it, they were sitting on the couch, his head resting on theirs as the opening scene played on the screen before them. The air seemed lighter, like the stars aligned and time slowed just so they could enjoy the moment.Ā
Unfortunately, time didnāt slow down enough. The timer rang, startling poor Stiles. He lifted his head quickly, looking straight at them with an excited smile.Ā
āI got it! Iāll get them!ā he exclaimed, already on his feet and hurrying into the kitchen.Ā
It was nice that he got up to get the cookies out of the oven so enthusiastically because it meant that they could just relax while they cooled. Until they heard him call their name.Ā
āUh, I donāt think these things are cooked yet.āĀ
Walking into the kitchen, they saw him standing next to the oven, wearing the floppy oven mitts on the wrong hands and holding the pan. His eyebrows were furrowed as he inspected them, bewildered. Ā
āYou set the timer for ten minutes, right?ā He looked up at them as they neared.Ā
āYeah, I know I did. But these are completely raw.ā They were just as confused as he was and putĀ the room-temperature pan on the counter beside them.Ā
āIs your oven broken?āĀ
āItās a little old, but not that old. I donāt think it is, at least. Letās see...ā As they turned toward the machine, Stiles leaned toward them to look over their shoulder, joining the inspection. The smell of their hair made him smile for a moment until he caught himself and dropped it. Mere seconds passed before they spoke up again, disbelief tainting their voice. āAre you kidding me? The oven isnāt even on, Stiles!āĀ
His jaw dropped, unable to believe his foolish forgetfulness either. He was speechless, just looking between them and the oven repeatedly until they let out a chuckle. He followed suit, and the next few minutes were spent laughing so hard that they couldnāt breathe. Stiles even had to sprint to the bathroom, barely saving himself from additional embarrassment. Ā
About another ten minutes later, and they were enjoying their creations at last. Every bite ignited bliss on their tastebuds, and they were both sure that it was all worth it. Well, Stiles started to reconsider that while he cleaned, but other than that, it was a night to remember.Ā
- always gets up freakishly early for lacrosse practice
- tries not to wake you up but he makes so much noise in the morning you get up anyways
- mostly the little spoon but when he is the big spoon he wraps himself around you like he's your backpack
- always has his head on your shoulder either from behind you in a backhug or leaning his head onto you when you're sitting together
- never does PDA in front of stlies though
- chronic whiner, always complaining and whining about something
- you try to record him when he's in one of those moods and as soon as he sees it he starts acting macho
- its lowkey an ick
- he's such a brat and doesn't listen to anyone but as soon as you say something he turns super agreeable- it makes mason super upset
- chronic pinkie-linker
- gaming nights with him turned sleepovers because he literally doesn't let you go after
- you guys would get super serious about iphone games and always try to beat each others high scores
- you know how guys lose on purpose ?? he's not doing that shit
- you always keep up with him though, but he refuses to give you credit
- your first genuine fight would be about a game because he refuses to back down
- would really be into doing "secret projects" for you like knitting you something, or baking you something, and makes sure that you know "how hard and difficult it was :(( "
- he's lowkey really bad at all of it though
- you know the whole "this one's for you babe" thing, he'd do that but he'd whisper it to himself before taking a shot "this one's for y/n"
- whenever something happens, he always asks scott to look out for you and makes sure you're okay- you guys love taking walks in parks and walking through cute trails in beacon hills
- you'd have lots of spots in the beacon hills forest
- scott and stiles love having you around because it tames liam so much more
- he doesn't let theo talk to you
- after theo finally gets to talk to you he looks and liam and gives him a little smirk "liam you were keeping this from me ??"
- he loves braiding your hair and figuring out cute little hairstyles for you
- he would keep a hairtie on his wrist all the time in case you need it
- he would love when you play with his hair and scratch his head
nsfw under the cut !! mdni
- he would be a top and leans more submissive
- sometimes he's tired from lacrosse and just loves fucking you while you're spooning
- he'd be really really enthusiastic about getting head, you could use it as leverage for anything
- would be the type to tear up
- around full moons, he gets a lot more aggressive
- really be into biting, like you'd have to have a conversation about it after the first time
- he'd be into hickeys in places that are easy to see, so you'd have a harder time covering it up
- has sensitive ears
- gets off on you complimenting his body because he worked so hard for it
- crazy stamina
- he'd be into you edging him
- but it would take absolutely nothing for him to start begging you to let him finish
- he'd get extremely pink - pink-cheeked, pink-lipped, pink-nosed, pink-eared
- lowkey shit at aftercare in the beginning, but he'd work on it
- after you guys finish, he'd need to be attached to you for at least 3-4 hours
Yk what cross over fics I truly love? Percy Jackson and Teen Wolf.
Specifically where Stiles is a child of Athena! But instead, imagine he's a child of Ares? Like he's a protector, will fight no matter what in anyway he can?! That's so Ares cabin (maybe he's pretending to not be such a good fighter in Beacon Hills bc he can't be bothered with all the monsters he fights constantly - plus we know that cabin is a lil arrogant..)
And if you sprinkle in a little 'x reader' you get the most perfect idea ever. Picture it...
Child of Ares!Stiles x Child of Aphrodite!Reader š«³š¤
They're destined to be together guys DONT TEAR THEM AWAY FROM EACH OTHER THEYRE EMOTIONALLY DEPENDENT ON THE OTHER š
Now i'm an absolute sucker for an accidental crossing paths, doesn't make sense? This is what i mean, reader and Stiles have gone to camp together since they were like 8/9 (youngger than usual for the sake of childhood lovers trope duhh) and they've pretty much been inseparable since they met hense the starting dating thing
So Stiles is young and in love and blabs to Scott about his girlfriend from camp AND OBVIOUSLY HES LIKE LMAOOOOO DUDE STFU THATS SUCH A STEREOTYPICAL LIE š so Stiles never mentions Y/N to his pack again. And he decides that he's really doing it to protect her (or his feelings) and pretends to crush on Lydia (reader knows and thinks it's hilarious cuz Stiles would never cheat, he worships the ground she walks on bro)
BUT AND I KNOWWWWWW THIS IS SO UNLIKELY Y/N moves, and yeah she's told her bf she's moving but not to where - because she doesn't know Stiles lives in Beacon Hills (for the sake of drama and the plot #mylifestory) just that he lives in Cali. So she's walking down the halls on her first day and Lydia comes up to like she did to Alison in the first ep and after Lydia js yaps a lil obnoxiously (love her but i love to hate her bully era more) it clicks in Y/N's head.
This is Stiles' school. This girl talking to her is the same girl her boyfriend Stiles is pretending to have a massive, huge crush on, to protect hes girlfriend Y/N.
This cabin 10 girly smells drama like a shark smells blood, so she plays along and ends up sitting with the pack for lunch (maybe she charmspoke her way in) and then everyone else joins and gets along with her AMAZINGLY. The guys think she's hot, the girls think she's cool... and then Stiles shows up late, pretending to stumble around like he isn't the most athletic, nimble guy at camp. And all he can think is šØgirlfriend with your friends , repeat GIRLFRIEND WITH YOUR FRIENDS šØ and he just blurts out "Y/N!" Bashfully šš
What a cutie pie, maybe this would work better if he keeps trying to prove he DOES ABSOLUTELY HAVE A GIRLFRIEND but something goes wrong EVERYTIME he tries to prove it? That acc sounds better tbf- š
Pairing ā Stiles Stilinski x Gender Neutral reader
Summary ā Stiles finally gets a chance at a job part time and you have to help through that process.
Memoā IGNORE how long this took and how I literally fell asleep at my computer trying to edit this (I have no time management)(I didn't even know I was tired)(I know I missed things while editing this). This was inspired by a single tiktok edit so if anyone wants to see that just ask. Also, turns out there's a 1k block limit so this is blocked out really weirdly here and there, I apologise. Oh, also, I did write some of this scenes out originally with a gendered reader so if I left anything in please just comment the line or something, I'd appreciate it!!!
Word Count ā 30k~
Masterlist | Stiles' Adventures
The first time Stiles bursts through your bedroom door that week, heās vibrating with so much nervous energy it feels like heās about to physically lift off the floor.
Heās still got his Converse on (muddy, of course), hoodie half-zipped, hair an absolute disaster even though itās buzzed short nowālike somehow the universe decided that even if there was less hair, it would still find a way to look chaoticāand his eyes, wide and sparkling, instantly lock on yours like heās about to drop the most important news of the century. His backpack falls off his shoulder and hits the floor with a thump loud enough to make you jump a little.
"Guess who just nailed a preliminary interview at McDonaldās?" he blurts out without even saying hello, voice high-pitched with excitement.
You blink up at him from where youāre sprawled on the bed, textbook open across your chest, headphones around your neck. You grin. "Uh, President of the United States?"
He snorts, practically bouncing in place, legs jittering like heās vibrating at a molecular level. "Close! Me! Me, babe! Iām the President! Ofāof like, Quarter Pounders and french fries and Happy Meals!"
Heās pacing now, wild hands moving as he talks, his body too full of restless energy to stay still, rambling so fast his words trip over each other like theyāre racing to get out first. His hoodie sleeves are pushed halfway up his skinny forearms, and he's tugging them up further with jerky movements every time they slip down, like even his clothes can't keep up with him.
"I went in just to grab a Coke, right? And the manager was thereālike, the manager, not just some shift lead whoās like seventeen and already dead inside, but the guy who wears the tie and has a clipboard and everythingāand he saw me looking at the Help Wanted sign and we started talking and he was like, 'Hey, you seem like a personable kid,' and I am personable, right, you think Iām personableā?"
"You're the most personable person alive," you say without missing a beat, biting back a laugh as he whirls around to beam at you like you just handed him the Nobel Prize.
"Right?! Right, exactly! Anyway, he said they were short-staffed and he could squeeze me in for an interview next week, and like, Iāve never had a real interview before, not unless you count Scottās mom asking me if I could babysit Scott, which doesnāt count because she literally knew Iād already snuck beers into the house twiceālike, twice, and she still trusted me, can you believe thatā?"
He finally pauses to breathe, chest heaving slightly, cheeks pink, buzzed hair sticking up in tiny tufts like static shock got him. You sit up fully, setting your book aside, and open your arms wordlessly. Stiles practically dives onto the bed without hesitation, collapsing into your chest with a dramatic oof like youāre the softest thing heās ever touched. His hoodie smells faintly like fries, Coca-Cola syrup, and fresh laundry detergentāthe cheap kind his dad buys in bulk. You wrap your arms around his back, feeling the way his whole body buzzes under your hands, a livewire of pent-up excitement and nerves.
"Hey," you murmur into his hair, smiling against the soft bristles of his buzzcut, "Iām proud of you."
He makes a small, pleased noise against your chest, burrowing closer like a cat finally settling after climbing the curtains. His fingers fidget restlessly against your side, drumming little random rhythms, and you can feel the way his brain is still moving a thousand miles an hour even if his bodyās trying to stay still.
"You really think Iāll get it?" he mumbles after a minute, quieter now, voice a little rougher, like he's admitting something he doesnāt quite know how to say out loud. "I mean⦠I know itās not like⦠a career career. But it'd be cool to have my own money for once. I could help my dad with groceries. Buy you stuff. Not be the guy who always shows up with lint and IOUs in his wallet like some kind of sad Dickensian orphanā"
You squeeze him tighter, running your fingers slowly up and down his spine in long, calming strokes until you feel his muscles finally start to melt under your hands. His breathing evens out a little, less frantic.
"Baby," you say, kissing the crown of his head, "theyāre gonna be lucky to have you. Seriously. Youāre like⦠pure human serotonin. Plus youāre cute as hell. Youāll charm the pants off them."
He snickers, tilting his head up just enough to give you one of those lopsided, slightly crooked smiles that make your heart ache in the best way. His buzzcut looks ridiculous and perfect at the same time, little whorls of hair you want to rub your face into like some lovesick idiot. You lean in and kiss the tip of his nose, making him wrinkle it adorably.
"I love you," you admit softly against his skin, heart thudding a little harder because heās so him, so alive and twitchy and perfect. "Guess you'll have to get the job and find out."
He hums happily, finally still in your arms, his heartbeat slow and steady against your chest now. You card your fingers gently through the short buzzed hair, untangling the imaginary knots, feeling the way he relaxes completely under your touch like you flipped a switch labeled Safe.
"Interviewās Monday after school," he says into your hoodie, voice muffled but somehow clearer than anything else in the whole world. "Will you help me pick out what to wear? I know itās just McDonaldās, but I donāt wanna look like I just rolled out of bed. Even though, letās be real, thatās kinda my brand." You chuckle and squeeze his hip lightly, thumb brushing over the waistband of his jeans where his hoodie had ridden up a little.
"Yeah, babe. I'll help you. Weāll make you look devastatingly hireable."
Stiles lets out a deep, long-suffering sigh like the weight of the world has finally been lifted off his scrawny, restless shoulders, and he melts even further into you, his entire body draped over you like a too-warm, buzzing blanket. You hold him there for as long as he wants, your fingers still gently stroking the back of his neck, whispering stupid sweet nothings into the fading golden light leaking through your window, the two of you tangled up in each other in the easiest, softest way imaginable.
You shift a little under him, feeling your legs start to go numb, but thereās no way in hell youāre moving him off you. Not when heās finally calmed down, weight pressed against you like heās trying to merge the two of you together at a cellular level. Stiles hums contentedly, nuzzling his face against your chest, the short bristle of his buzzcut scraping lightly through your hoodie. Itās clumsy and awkward and somehow still the sweetest thing you've ever felt.
You press a kiss to the top of his head and whisper, "You're ridiculous, you know that?"
He lets out a muffled noise that sounds suspiciously like, "Takes one to know one," but itās mostly just him breathing you in like youāre his oxygen tank.
The room is heavy with the golden kind of quiet ā the type that feels full, not empty. Your fingers find the hem of his hoodie and start tracing random patterns along the exposed skin of his lower back, drawing lazy shapes like invisible constellations. Every now and then, he shivers slightly but doesnāt move away, just burrows closer, if thatās even physically possible.
Minutes pass like that, warm and tangled and safe. Then, because itās Stiles and he can't let a single second of peace pass without filling it, he stirs and lifts his head just enough to meet your eyes. His cheeks are flushed, and his lips are kiss-bitten pink from where heād been pressing them against your hoodie.
"So uh," he starts, and you can already hear the wheels in his head spinning out of control, "think you could, y'know, help me practice answering questions?"
You blink down at him. "Interview questions?"
"No, Jeopardy questions," he deadpans, eyes wide and innocent for about two seconds before he dissolves into a little snorting laugh against your chest. "Yes, interview questions, genius."
You grin and play along, tapping your chin like you're thinking very hard. "I don't know, Mr. Stilinski. Whatās in it for me?"
He narrows his eyes dramatically, propping himself up on his elbows now, body hovering over yours awkwardly because heās not sure how to balance himself without crushing you. His knees dig into the mattress on either side of your hips, and you get a very distracting view of the way his oversized hoodie bunches around his waist, exposing the smallest sliver of pale, freckled skin above his jeans.
"I'll pay you," he says seriously, like heās negotiating a hostage situation.
"You don't have any money," you remind him, poking his side and making him squirm and laugh.
"Fine," he grumbles, cheeks pink, but thereās a mischievous glint in his eye. "I'll pay you in⦠unlimited Stiles cuddles. Lifetime subscription. You can cash 'em in whenever you want."
You make a show of pretending to consider it, tapping your chin again, while he wiggles impatiently above you.
"Throw in a forehead kiss," you say finally, "and youāve got a deal."
Without hesitation, Stiles leans down and plants the sloppiest, most obnoxious kiss right in the middle of your forehead, complete with an exaggerated mwah sound that has you dissolving into helpless laughter beneath him. "Sealed with a kiss," he says smugly.
"Alright, alright," you say once you manage to catch your breath, "you ready?"
He sits up a little straighter, doing his best impression of Serious Adult Stiles, folding his hands primly in his lap like he's about to sit for a Harvard admissions panel.
"So, Mr. Stilinski," you say in your best fake-interviewer voice, trying not to laugh at how seriously heās taking this, "why do you want to work for McDonald's?"
He opens his mouth immediately, panic flashing across his face because apparently he hadn't thought that far ahead. "Uhāuh, becauseābecause I believe in providing people with delicious food at reasonable prices, and also I need to fund my insatiable addiction to Nerds Rope and energy drinks?"
You burst out laughing, grabbing at his sides to pull him back down on top of you. He lets out a dramatic, wounded noise but collapses willingly, landing half-off center across your body in a tangle of elbows and knees.
"Terrible answer," you tease, carding your fingers through the soft buzz of his hair.
"Hey!" he protests, voice muffled against your shoulder. "It's honest! Don't they want honesty?"
"Maybe leave out the Nerds Rope part," you advise, laughing so hard now that your ribs ache. "Go with something like, 'I want to build valuable work experience and learn about customer service.' Y'know. Boring adult words." He groans loudly, rolling his face into your hoodie like he can somehow disappear into it.
"Boring adult words are hard," he whines dramatically, kicking his feet behind him like a toddler.
Youāre still laughing when he lifts his head again, brown eyes huge and stupidly fond, looking at you like you hung the damn moon. He shifts so heās straddling your waist fully now, legs on either side, leaning down until his forehead bumps yours. And he just⦠stays there.
Forehead to forehead, nose to nose, your breaths mingling in the tiny space between you. His eyes flutter shut, and he rubs your noses together in a soft, clumsy little eskimo kiss, the tip of his nose brushing yours back and forth like heās memorizing you through touch alone.
You close your eyes too, heart thudding so loud youāre sure he can feel it through your chest. He smells like cheap soap and detergent and something distinctly Stiles ā sharp and sweet and a little bit wild, like heās never stood still long enough for the world to catch up to him until now.
You stay like that for a long, long time, barely breathing, barely moving, wrapped up in the kind of warm, stupid, dizzy feeling that makes your hands ache to hold him tighter and never, ever let go. And somewhere, deep down, you think: if he asked you to spend the rest of your life doing stupid mock interviews and getting bribed with forehead kisses, you'd say yes without even thinking.
And then, with a soft, shuddering little breath, Stiles leans down and kisses you.
Itās not rushed or desperate, not messy or hungry the way some kisses get when heās vibrating with too much energy. No, this one is slow and tender, his mouth brushing yours like heās scared you might disappear if he presses too hard. His lips are a little dry, a little chapped, but he tastes like soda and the faint lingering sugar of something sweet (probably candy), and the way he sighs against your mouth makes your chest ache in the best, most stupidly overwhelming way.
You kiss him back just as softly, hands sliding up the sides of his face, thumbs brushing over his freckled cheeks, holding him there like you could anchor him with just your touch. Stiles hums low in his throat, content, tilting his head to deepen the kiss slightly, nose bumping yours as he shifts again.
Except when he shifts, he rocks forward a little too much, grinding his hips down against yours just by accident, and he immediately lets out this tiny, wounded whine, pulling back just enough that his forehead stays pressed to yours but your mouths part. Heās breathing a little harder now, cheeks flushed red, and he mutters in a rapid, slightly panicked tumble, "Sorry, sorry, sorry, I swear, I'm not trying to ā like, I'm notā I mean, I am, I want toāGod, I really want to, but Iām not, like, ready-ready yet and I know youāre being super patient and amazing and literally the best person to ever exist on the planet, maybe the galaxy, maybe the universe, but I promise Iāll get there, I swear, itās just my brain is like, you know, kinda stupid sometimes andā"
You cut him off by squeezing his hips gently, grounding him, giving him the softest, most adoring smile you can manage. "I know, baby," you whisper, brushing your thumb over his flushed cheek. "Youāre perfect. No rush. Weāre exactly where weāre supposed to be."
But Stiles is still frowning, his whole face scrunching up like heās deeply offended by his own bodyās betrayal. His eyebrows knit together and his mouth twists downward, and he looks about two seconds away from either punching a pillow or launching into another thousand-word apology that would only tangle him up more.
You can't help yourself. You lean up and start peppering kisses all over his face, little quick ones like you're trying to cover every single freckle. One on his forehead, one on his temple, one on each cheekbone, a bunch right across the bridge of his nose. He jerks in surprise, letting out a startled bark of laughter that melts the scowl right off his face.
You kiss both corners of his mouth, feeling the way he starts smiling underneath the touch, soft and helpless, and then kiss his actual lips properly ā once, twice, three times ā until heās giggling breathlessly against you, the tension draining out of him like a popped balloon.
"Thereās my boyfriend," you murmur against his skin, kissing the dimple that appears when he grins. "Thereās my Stiles Stilinski."
You pull back just enough to look at him, eyes sparkling, before adding with a wicked little grin, "My cutie with a buzz." Stiles groans, rolling his eyes like heās too cool to be called cute, but the way heās blushing all the way to his ears says otherwise. And because you can never resist when he looks like that ā all red-cheeked and soft and pretending to be annoyed ā you lean forward, open your mouth slightly, and bite the tip of his nose, gently but firmly.
"Ahāhey!" he yelps, scrunching up his face, but he's laughing now, breathless and loose and so beautifully alive.
You grin, wicked, and without giving him a second to recover, you drag your tongue up the length of his nose in one long, slow, ridiculous lick. Stiles makes a noise thatās somewhere between a shriek and a moan, jerking back a little and then just staring at you, eyes wide and blown and full of disbelief and something else thatās hot and sweet and so much.
"You are," he says, voice low and a little wrecked, "the worst. The absolute worst."
You just shrug, smirking up at him, fingers curling into the waistband of his jeans again to keep him close.
"And you love it," you say simply.
Stiles opens his mouth like heās going to argue, but then he just slumps forward until heās lying fully on top of you again, wrapping his arms around you like a starfish, burying his face against your neck.
"Yeah," he mumbles, words muffled but clear enough. "I really, really do."
~~
The afternoon sunlight spills lazy and golden across Stiles' room, painting warm streaks over the mess heās creating as he rifles through his closet. Youāre sat cross-legged on his bed, the mattress squeaking every time you shift, idly plucking at a loose thread on the hem of his comforter, just watching him with a dopey smile youāre not even trying to hide anymore.
Clothes are flying out of the closet at random ā a wrinkled plaid shirt, a hoodie that mightāve once been white but now looks vaguely gray, a pair of jeans that hit the floor with a defeated plop. Every few seconds, Stiles lets out an annoyed grunt, muttering to himself under his breath as he digs deeper into the disaster zone that is his side of the closet.
"I have nothing," he whines dramatically, tugging a random sweatshirt off a hanger and holding it up, only to scowl at it before tossing it into a growing pile. "I can't show up looking like some degenerate who just rolled out of a dumpster."
You snort. "You'd still be the hottest dumpster rat in the whole world."
Stiles freezes for a second, like the words hit him straight between the shoulder blades, then whips his head around to glare at you ā but heās blushing already, the tips of his ears turning a deep, furious red. "You are legally obligated to say that," he says weakly, pointing an accusing finger at you.
"Nope," you say casually, leaning back on your hands, grinning at him like youāve got all the time in the world to admire the way his buzzcut catches the sunlight, the way his cheeks pink up so easily for you. "I just speak the truth, baby. You're stupid hot. Even buried under half your wardrobe." Stiles grumbles something unintelligible, his face so red now youāre actually concerned he might combust. He turns back to the closet in a huff, arms flailing as he yanks a pair of khakis off a hanger and tosses them over his shoulder.
"You are objectively wrong," he declares, voice high and cracking just a little, and you have to bite your lip to keep from laughing because heās just ā heās so stupidly cute when heās flustered like this. "I am a mess. A chaotic, anxious, hopeless mess. Youāre just ā youāre biased! Youāve got the Stiles-tinted glasses on."
You hum thoughtfully, pretending to consider that, tapping a finger against your chin. "Or," you say slowly, dragging the word out, "maybe you're just insanely attractive, and you don't even know it yet. Maybe you're a whole-ass snack and Iām the only one smart enough to have noticed."
Stiles lets out a strangled sound, half laugh, half horrified whimper, as he throws another hoodie into the air like it personally offended him. "Stop! You're literally gonna give me an aneurysm before my interview!"
You laugh softly, heart squeezing painfully tight with how much you love him. "Just saying, if you show up in, like, a potato sack, they'd still hire you. 'Cause youāre charming. And smart. And so damn handsome itās honestly unfair to the rest of the applicant pool."
He mutters something about "biased lovers" and "rampant slander" under his breath, still facing the closet because he clearly can't deal with you looking at him while heās this pink and flustered and adorable. You watch him with nothing but awe, feeling like youāre seeing something secret and sacred ā the way he fidgets, the way he talks to himself under his breath when heās overwhelmed, the way he still doesn't seem to realize how magnetic he is. You could watch him like this forever and never get bored.
Another shirt flies out ā this one a faded Batman tee that you know he secretly loves but would never wear to a job interview. "No Batman shirt?" you tease gently.
He spins to face you, wide-eyed. "Itās McDonald's, not Comic-Con! I have to look, y'know, professional! Adult! Hireable!"
"You are hireable," you say immediately, voice softening because you can see the way his shoulders are starting to creep up around his ears, the way he's working himself up again. "Youāre smart and funny and you work hard. Anyone would be lucky to have you. Seriously, babe."
Stiles looks down at his feet like maybe if he doesn't make eye contact, he wonāt spontaneously combust from the praise. His fingers fidget with the hem of the Batman shirt, twisting it up, and you swear you see the tiniest hint of a proud, shy little smile twitching at the corner of his mouth before he quickly hides it.
"You're such a sap," he mumbles, kicking at a hoodie on the floor.
"And you're not?" You fire back instantly. He huffs out a laugh, still not meeting your eyes, rummaging blindly into the back of his closet now like he might find a magic outfit back there if he digs hard enough.
More clothes get flung into the air, a pair of khakis hitting the side of your leg. You donāt even flinch, too busy watching him with your heart practically glowing out of your chest. Watching the way he bites his lip when heās thinking, the way he pushes up on the balls of his feet and back down again like his body just canāt stay still. Every movement is so Stiles ā chaotic and beautiful and real.
He doesn't find anything yet, but honestly? You wouldn't trade this moment ā this stupid, messy, hilarious moment of him throwing half his wardrobe around while blushing like mad ā for anything else in the world. Then another shirt ā something nondescript and beige ā flies through the air and hits the lamp on his nightstand with a dull whump. You watch with a lazy, fond grin as Stiles curses under his breath and digs even deeper into the abyss of his closet, muttering nonsense about "business casual" and "life or death situations" like the stakes couldn't be any higher.
Youāre about to make another teasing comment when something different flutters out of the closet ā a flash of maroon and white ā and lands in a soft heap right by your feet. Curious, you reach down and grab it, the familiar weight and smell of it hitting you instantly. Itās Stilesā old lacrosse jersey ā the one from when he was still trying to figure out how to run without tripping over his own feet. His last name, STILINSKI, is bold across the back in thick white lettering paired with a large nupber 24, and the fabric is worn thin in places, soft from so many washes.
You glance over at Stiles, but heās completely oblivious, still buried halfway in the closet, arms stretched overhead as he tries to wrestle a rogue pair of khakis off a hanger. His back is to you, totally vulnerable, totally unaware. You smirk to yourself, a wicked little idea sparking in your brain. Quickly ā quietly ā you peel off your own shirt, tossing it into the chaos on the floor without a second thought. The roomās a little chilly, goosebumps pebbling your skin, but you barely notice because youāre too busy pulling Stilesā jersey over your head.
Itās way too big on you ā hangs off one shoulder, the hem brushing the tops of your thighs ā but it smells like him, like detergent and grass and something sharp and boyish and Stiles, and itās the softest thing youāve ever touched. You pad across the room, silent on your bare feet, and come up right behind him, wrapping your arms loosely around his waist. He stiffens for a second, startled, before relaxing into the touch with a little hum, one of his hands instinctively coming up to rest over yours.
"Find anything yet?" you murmur against the nape of his neck, smiling into his skin.
"Nooope," he says miserably, leaning his weight back against you a little. "Iām a lost cause. Just bury me in a hoodie and call it a day."
You laugh, and he turns around to face you ā and freezes. Like, completely freezes. Eyes wide, mouth falling open slightly, his entire body going rigid as he stares at you like heās seeing a ghost or maybe the hottest thing his teenage brain has ever processed. You blink up at him innocently, trying ā and failing ā to suppress the smug little tilt of your mouth. "What?" you ask sweetly, tugging lightly on the hem of the jersey. "This old thing?"
Stiles makes a noise that sounds like heās choking on air, his hands flailing uselessly in front of him like he doesnāt know whether to touch you or not. His eyes are glued to the sight of his name stretched across your chest, the way the loose fabric hangs off your bare skin, the peek of your hip where the hem rides up. He visibly swallows. His hands twitch.
"I ā you ā holy ā what are you doing?" he sputters, voice climbing about three octaves.
You bat your lashes at him, playing it up. "What, you donāt like it?" Stiles looks like heās about to die on the spot. His cheeks go crimson almost instantly, his ears burning bright pink, and when you shift your weight slightly ā the jersey riding a little higher on your thighs ā he actually whimpers under his breath.
"I ā it's not ā I mean, yes, but ā fuck," he mutters, squeezing his eyes shut like thatāll somehow make the image of you in his jersey disappear. It doesn't. It only makes it worse. When he opens his eyes again, they drop instinctively to the way the fabric clings to you, the way his name looks against your body, and you see it happen in real-time: the way his breath catches, the way his hips shift forward just a little without meaning to.
And then? The telltale bulge tenting the front of his jeans. Stiles makes a panicked, horrified noise, hands flying down to cover himself instinctively, as if you hadnāt already noticed. His face is a whole new shade of red now, somewhere between embarrassed and ready to fake his own death and start a new life in Alaska.
"Stiles," you say, voice low and fond, stepping even closer. He stumbles back a step, bumping into the edge of the bed, his hands still hovering awkwardly in front of his crotch like thatāll do anything to hide the very obvious way his dick is straining against his jeans now.
"I swear to God, you're evil," he gasps out, eyes wide and panicked and impossibly turned on. "Youāre, like, a demon. A hot demon. A sex demon. Sent to destroy me."
You can't help the laugh that bubbles out of you, wild and bright and so full of affection it makes your chest ache. You close the distance again, hands sliding up the sides of his waist, feeling the way he shivers under your touch, his whole body buzzing with nervous, giddy energy.
"Youāre so cute when youāre flustered," you murmur, leaning in to nuzzle your nose against his.
Stiles lets out another helpless little whimper, frozen in place, heart pounding so hard you can practically feel it against your own chest.
"You're evil," he repeats weakly, but he's already leaning into you, already chasing your warmth without even thinking about it.
You just smile, brushing your lips lightly over his jaw, feeling the way he shudders under you, his hands finally coming up to grab at your hips like he can't not touch you anymore.
And God, if this is what happens just from you wearing his jersey, you can't wait to see what happens when you show up to one of his lacrosse practices in it.
You chuckle low in your throat, feeling the way Stiles grips your hips a little tighter, like heās grounding himself ā or maybe like heās trying to stop himself from completely losing control. His forehead drops onto your shoulder, and he lets out this soft, desperate whine when you run your hands up under the jersey, dragging your fingers lightly across the bare skin of his sides.
You tilt your head so you can press a kiss to the crown of his buzzed head, breathing him in. He smells like cheap detergent and boy and sweat and Stiles, and itās perfect, and youāre so head over heels stupid for him it actually aches a little.
"You still need clothes for your interview, baby," you remind him sweetly, dragging your nails lightly down his spine. "Can't have you showing up in just your boner."
He lets out a strangled noise ā half-laugh, half-moan ā and rocks his hips against you without thinking. The hard press of his cock against your hip is so obvious now, and he doesnāt even try to hide it, just lets himself rut into you slow and helpless, like he canāt even help himself.
Itās so Stiles. Itās so stupidly adorable you might actually combust.
"M' working on it," he mumbles, voice muffled against your shoulder. His hips rock again, a slow, desperate little grind, like maybe if he moves slow enough it wonāt count.
You smirk, sliding one hand up to tangle in the soft baby fuzz at the back of his head, gently scratching at his scalp the way you know he loves.
"You won't fuck me," you tease, voice low and fond, "but you'll hump me like youāre in heat?"
Stiles lets out the most wounded, scandalized little noise and lifts his head just enough to glare at you ā his cheeks red, his mouth a little open, his whole body practically vibrating with how overwhelmed he is.
"Itās different," he huffs indignantly, grinding against you again like he canāt help himself even while heās trying to argue. "This is ā this is safe! This is, like, non-penetrative! No fluids crossing borders! Itās basically the sexual equivalent of a handshake."
You bark out a startled laugh, leaning back enough to catch his flushed, wrecked face in your hands. You kiss his nose, his cheeks, his forehead, anywhere you can reach, worshipping him with soft, silly affection until heās whining and squirming and smiling despite himself.
"You're insane," you tell him, grinning so hard your cheeks hurt. "My beautiful, genius, absolutely insane boyfriend."
He pouts, grinding into you harder now, a little desperate, a little frantic. His cock is leaking precome already, dampening the front of his jeans, and the friction must be just this side of painful, but heās chasing it anyway, burying his face against your neck and whimpering softly under his breath.
"You feel so good," he mumbles, like he canāt help himself. "You're so warm ā smells so good ā fuck."
You keep running your hands all over him, up and down his back, squeezing his waist, praising him in low, soft murmurs that have him shivering against you.
"So good for me, Stiles," you whisper, letting your lips brush his ear. "So handsome. So smart. Gonna kill your interview. Gonna blow them all away."
He whines again, grinding harder, his breath hot and panting against your throat. His hands flex against your hips, holding you in place like you might disappear if he lets go.
"Gotta ā m'gonna ā" he stammers helplessly, rutting faster, his whole body trembling.
"You gonna come for me, baby?" you murmur, sweet and coaxing. "Just from humping me like a needy little thing?"
He nods frantically, too far gone for words now, his face flushed and sweaty, his body straining against yours as he chases his orgasm.
You keep whispering to him, nothing but praise and love, telling him how proud you are, how beautiful he is, how good he feels against you.
And when he finally stiffens and gasps and grinds one last desperate time against your hip, coming in his jeans with a soft, wrecked little sob, you hold him through it, kissing his forehead and stroking his back, loving him so much it feels like your heart might actually break from it.
Stiles clings to you, panting, his body trembling with the aftershocks. He doesn't move for a long minute, just lets himself be held, lets himself be loved.
Eventually, he lifts his head, eyes glazed and dopey, a crooked, embarrassed little smile tugging at his mouth.
"You are," he pants, "the worst."
You laugh, kissing his temple. "And youāre the best thing thatās ever happened to me."
He groans, hiding his face against your neck again, but you can feel the way heās smiling, the way heās still trembling with leftover pleasure, and you know heās soaking up every word, every touch, every bit of love you pour into him.
Youāre never gonna get tired of this ā of him ā of the way he gives himself to you so completely, even when heās overwhelmed and messy and a little bit ridiculous.
Especially then.
You press one last kiss into his sweaty hair, breathing him in, before pulling back just enough to catch his eyes. They're big and brown and still a little hazy, all soft edges and vulnerable in a way he only ever lets himself be with you.
"You gotta strip, baby," you say, voice warm and teasing but still soft, coaxing. "Canāt pick out a clean outfit if you're still covered inā¦" ā you smirk, flicking your eyes down pointedly ā "ā¦evidence."
Stiles groans like he wants the earth to swallow him whole, his hands clamping protectively over his crotch, his whole body curling inward. His ears are so red they could probably catch fire.
"I ā you ā you can't just ā" he stammers helplessly, voice cracking halfway through.
You smile, all fondness, and nudge him gently toward the bed. "Cāmon, babe. Clothes off. Nothing I havenāt seen before."
He grumbles under his breath ā something about "emotional terrorism" ā but he shuffles a few steps back, still moving like his joints have been replaced with overcooked spaghetti. His fingers twitch nervously at the waistband of his jeans, and you watch him fight an internal battle for a second before he finally, finally undoes the button.
The denim clings stubbornly to his hips, and it takes a ridiculous amount of wiggling and cursing to get them down his thighs and off his legs. You bite your lip to keep from laughing, not wanting to make him more self-conscious than he already is.
Then he's left standing there in nothing but his damp, sticky boxers, looking utterly wrecked and so stupidly beautiful it actually steals your breath for a second.
"Boxers too, Stiles," you say gently, crouching down by the pile of rejected clothes to start sifting through them. "They're dirty. Can't put clean clothes over that."
He lets out this pitiful whine, face scrunching up in embarrassment, but he knows you're right. He hesitates for one agonizing moment longer before yanking them down in one quick, desperate motion, stepping out of them and kicking them behind him without looking.
Immediately, both of his hands fly to cover his dick again, arms crossed awkwardly in front of himself, chest heaving a little from nerves.
You glance up at him from where you're sitting and feel your heart absolutely shatter at the sight.
Bright red chest, trembling thighs, ears so pink theyāre practically glowing ā and that twitchy, twitchy need to bolt, even though heās staying right where you asked him to. For you.
You set the clothes down gently and get to your feet, moving slow and careful, like youāre approaching a skittish baby deer.
"Hey, hey," you murmur, stepping close enough that your chest almost brushes his crossed arms. "Youāre perfect, Stiles. So good. So handsome."
He ducks his head, a strangled little noise clawing its way out of his throat, but he doesnāt pull away.
"You're ā youāre just saying that," he mutters, voice cracking at the edges.
"Nope," you say simply, reaching up to trace your fingers lightly along his jaw. "I mean it. Every inch of you. From your ridiculous brain to your stupidly perfect legs."
He twitches visibly at the praise, his hips jerking slightly like he wants to squirm but won't let himself. His hands tighten over himself, but you can still see the way heās shaking ā this trembling, earnest need to believe you, even though he doesn't know how yet.
You lean in and press a kiss to the center of his forehead, lingering there.
"My gorgeous, brilliant, sweet boy," you whisper against his skin. "My Stiles."
A tiny, broken little sound escapes him, and when you pull back just enough to look at his face, you catch it ā the tiny smile twitching at the corners of his mouth, like heās trying to hold it back and failing miserably.
"Thereās my cutie," you tease gently, tapping the tip of his nose with your finger. "Still bashful even after grinding all over me like you're in heat."
He lets out this spluttering, indignant noise ā but itās weak, and you can tell heās fighting a grin now, his chest still burning red but his whole body vibrating with this silly, overwhelmed happiness.
"Youāreā" he starts, but he canāt even get the words out. He just shakes his head, helpless and fond and so stupidly beautiful you could die.
You turn back to the bed, forcing yourself to focus ā because otherwise you will just end up kissing him senseless again ā and start sorting through the chaos of clothes he threw everywhere.
"Okay," you say, half to yourself, "weāre thinking something casual but clean. Like you didnāt try too hard but youāre still employable."
"Thatās⦠an impossible standard," Stiles mutters from behind you, his voice muffled by his hands and embarrassment.
You laugh, glancing over your shoulder at him.
"Good thing you have me, then, huh?"
And God, the way he looks at you right then ā naked, flushed, trembling, but looking at you like you hung the damn moon ā it nearly knocks the air right out of your lungs.
Yeah.
Youāre so gone for this boy.
You hear him shuffling around behind you while youāre elbow-deep in the explosion of his closet. When you glance back, Stiles is hastily tugging on a pair of clean boxers, nearly falling over in the process because his coordination goes straight out the window when heās nervous ā or naked ā or, well, both.
You snort quietly and turn back to your mission, rifling through the mess until you pull out a pair of khaki shorts. Theyāre a little wrinkled but otherwise clean, and more importantly, they look like something that could pass for trying without looking like heās been dressed by his dad.
"Found shorts!" you announce triumphantly, waving them over your shoulder. "Now, we need a shirt that doesnāt scream 'help, my dad still dresses me.'"
"Thatās a very specific ask," Stiles grumbles from where heās now sitting on the edge of the bed, tugging his boxers into place with an awkward little hop. He crosses his legs at the ankles and starts fidgeting immediately, picking at a thread on the comforter like itās personally offended him.
You shoot him a grin over your shoulder. "Good thing Iām a miracle worker."
It takes a minute ā and several sarcastic comments from Stiles about the black hole that is his closet ā but eventually, you strike gold: a simple navy blue polo thatās still somehow unmistakably Stiles but definitely says "Iām hireable and wonāt burn the restaurant down on day one."
You toss it at him and he catches it against his chest with a soft oof, peeking at it like it might explode.
"Youāre seriously a genius," he says, awe and relief mixing in his voice like he canāt quite believe you actually found something.
You wipe fake sweat off your brow and shoot him a wink. "All in a day's work, babe."
Youāre about to declare the outfit mission complete when you spot something poking out from under his bed ā something distinctly familiar. You crouch down and snag it, and sure enough, itās one of your jackets. One youād been wondering about for weeks. The one Stiles had definitely "borrowed" and then conveniently "forgotten" to return.
You stand up and hold it out with a smirk. "And look what we have here. You thief."
Stiles flushes immediately, tugging the polo over his head like maybe if he moves fast enough you wonāt see how red his ears are turning again.
"I was gonna give it back," he mutters, voice all high-pitched and defensive. "I just ā it smells like you, okay? And ā and itās comfy. And ā" he waves his hands like heās trying to physically bat the embarrassment away "ā you're not using it! Sharing is caring! You love me!"
You laugh, heart feeling ridiculously full, and step closer, draping the jacket over his shoulders and smoothing it down. It swallows him a little, hangs long on his arms, but he just tucks himself into it like itās armor, beaming at you from under the too-big collar.
"Youāre right," you say, nudging his chin up with a gentle finger. "I do love you."
And itās so true ā so blindingly, obviously true ā that it makes him freeze for a second, all wide brown eyes and parted lips like he canāt quite process the enormity of it.
You donāt make him sit in it too long. You just lean in and press a kiss to his forehead, then one to his nose, then another to the corner of his mouth until heās giggling helplessly, wriggling in his stolen jacket and khaki shorts and looking like the best thing thatās ever happened to you.
"Okay, okay!" he squeaks, batting at you half-heartedly. "Save the mushy stuff for after I nail my interview later!"
"Youāre gonna kill it," you promise, pressing one last kiss to his temple. "Youāre gonna be the best McDonald's employee theyāve ever seen."
He beams at you, buzzing with that uncontainable energy he always gets when heās excited, practically vibrating out of his skin.
"You really think so?" he asks, voice cracking just a little with how badly he wants to believe it.
"I know so," you say, tugging him into a hug and squeezing him tight enough that he squeaks again.
He hugs you back immediately, fiercely, burying his face against your chest and swaying you both back and forth like he canāt quite stay still. And you let him, because thereās nowhere else in the world youād rather be than right here ā holding your boy, wrapped up in the mess and warmth and ridiculousness that is Stiles Stilinski.
Eventually, he pulls back just enough to look up at you, grinning that big, ridiculous grin that shows all his teeth and crinkles the corners of his eyes.
"Iām gonna get the job," he says, full of conviction now, bouncing on the balls of his feet like heās ready to charge out the door and start work tonight.
You laugh and kiss him again, quick and breathless.
"Youāre gonna get the job," you echo, heart so full it feels like you might actually float away.
And in that moment, watching him buzz and shine and look at you like youāre the whole damn universe ā you know that no matter what, youāll always be right here, cheering for him, loving him, catching him whenever he needs it.
Because heās yours. And youāre his.
And itās everything.
~~
You sat in the passenger seat of the Jeep, the afternoon sun beating lazily against the windshield. The outfit you picked out yesterday ā khaki shorts, navy polo, your borrowed jacket ā was folded neatly in a bag on your lap. You were early, of course. Youād gotten out of school a few hours ago for a check-up and figured youād surprise him, beat the crowd, and maybe calm him down before his big moment. Plus, sitting here in his beloved Jeep, keys jangling against your thigh, it almost felt like you were soaking in a piece of him even while he was still inside.
The keys had been a quiet, shy Christmas gift two years ago, just after you'd confessed to himā and you hadnāt taken the responsibility lightly. Especially not now, watching the doors of the school burst open and a gaggle of students pour out, loud and chaotic and alive.
~~
It was Christmas Eve, and Beacon Hills was cold enough to bite.
The little pop-up ice rink downtown was buzzing with sound ā Christmas music blaring tinny through cheap speakers, kids screaming with laughter and occasional terror as they slid on the slick surface, parents huddled at the edges with hot cocoa clutched in gloved hands. String lights arched over the rink, glowing soft yellow against the deepening blue of the sky, casting the whole place in a warm sort of magic that tried to make up for the freezing wind that bit through every layer of your clothes.
You were sitting on a cold bench just outside the rink, bent forward and yanking tight the laces on the rental skates that pinched slightly at your ankles. Your fingers were numb, but the sting didnāt really register ā not when you looked up and caught sight of him. Stiles.
Already on the rink with Scott, sliding gracelessly across the ice, arms flailing just a little too wide to be confident. Scott, bless him, was skating backwards like he was born on ice, goading Stiles with bright eyes and loud laughter as he gestured wildly for his best friend to pick up the pace. Stiles was trying, you could see that ā teeth bared in concentration, tongue peeking out the corner of his mouth, fists clenched in his sleeves like if he just focused hard enough, he could become someone who didnāt look like a baby deer learning to walk for the first time.
He wasnāt bad, though. Not really. Heād been worse the last time you all went skating. He was keeping up now. Wobbling, sure, but moving. There was still that tightness around his shoulders, the faint flicker of worry in his eyes whenever someone passed too close or when he caught you looking and flushed like youād seen something embarrassing. But then Scott would laugh, shout something dumb over his shoulder, and Stiles would grin wide and too sharp, skating harder like he had something to prove.
And you were just⦠watching. Watching like you always did when it came to Stiles. Heart full to the brim with him. Youād shown up late, dragging your body through the cold and into a cab you could barely afford because your mom had bailed at the last second. It wasnāt her thing, the holidays ā not since the divorce. But Stiles? Stiles was your thing. Had been for a while now.
Youād barely hesitated when you saw the time. The cab ate the last of what you had saved in your wallet. Christmas presents be damned. All you could think about was how heād light up when he saw you ā how his ears would go pink and heād do that fidgety thing with his hands like he couldnāt decide whether to hug you or punch you in the shoulder. You wouldāve walked across the whole damn county barefoot if it meant seeing him smile like that.
And now, sitting there on the bench, lacing up your skates, you were already grinning without meaning to ā not just at him on the ice, not just at how Scott caught him by the wrist to steady him when he wobbled ā but at everything that shimmered just under your ribs when you looked at Stiles Stilinski and thought this. Him. Always.
You flexed your fingers once to bring some feeling back into them, tugged the laces one last time, and stood. The cold hit you all at once, and the wind cut deep, but you didnāt care. You were already stepping toward the ice. You werenāt late anymore.
Your blades hit the ice with a sharp little scrape, and for a second, you wobbledājust enough to make you stumble forward a step and throw your arms out. The cold shot straight up through the soles of the rentals, settling in your knees, your spine. But then balance returned, muscle memory catching up, and you pushed forward with one foot, gliding out toward the center.
Stiles saw you before you could call out. His head whipped up so fast it was a wonder his neck didnāt snap, and he immediately started flailing his way toward you, half-skating, half-praying to the friction gods that he didnāt go down in front of everyone. His cheeks were already pink from the cold, but they deepened into something bright and blooming the second you met his eyes.
āYou made it!ā he called, way too loud, like the music and noise and chaos had vanished and he just needed to fill the space between you with his voice.
You grinned. āYou sound surprised.ā
āI was surprised!ā he said as he skidded up next to you, arms wheeling a little before he caught his balance. āIāI thought you werenāt coming. You werenāt answering your phone, and I thought maybeāmaybe your mom bailed or like, you got kidnapped on the way here or something or I donāt know, fell into a Christmas tree lot and froze to death because that happens, andāā
āDude,ā Scottās voice came from somewhere behind him, amused and exasperated in equal measure. āYouāve been doing this for the last twenty minutes. Let 'em' say hi.ā
You caught Scott looping around with a smooth turn, skating backwards effortlessly like he was auditioning for the Olympics. He winked at you and then made a face at Stiles, mimicking the nonstop motion of his mouth with one hand. Stiles looked back at him, scowled, then whipped around to face you again.
āIām just saying, okay?ā he huffed, arms crossed now, chin tucked down defensively. āYou didnāt answer your phone and I know you said youād try, but like, you never just not text, and I thought maybeāwell. Never mind.ā His voice dropped at the end, losing steam.
You softened immediately, reaching out to gently tug on the hem of his sleeve. āHey. I had to catch a cab last minute. Spent the last of my allowance on it, too.ā
Stilesā eyes went wide. āYou did not.ā
You shrugged. āYou guys are worth it.ā
That shut him up. At least, for a beat. His mouth opened, then closed, then opened againābut nothing came out.
Scott skated by in a tight circle, doing a ridiculous spin that earned him a loud āShow-off!ā from a random teen nearby.
āLet me guess,ā you said, watching him skate off with mock suspicion. āHeās been doing that since you got here.ā
āUgh, yes,ā Stiles groaned. āThe second he realized he was good at skating, heās been all ālook at me, Iām a majestic deerā or whatever.ā
You barked a laugh and leaned in slightly, bumping your shoulder into Stiles. āYouāre not doing so bad yourself, Stilinski.ā
He flushed deeper, and for a second he looked like he was going to say something cockyābut then he caught the slight curve of your smirk, and all the wind left his sails.
āI missed you,ā he blurted instead. āLike. A lot.ā
You smiled, and it mustāve shown in your eyes, because his ears went red. āI missed you too,ā you said, your voice a little quieter now.
He blinked rapidly and then made a weird noise that was probably meant to be a casual laugh but sounded more like he was choking on his own tongue. You giggled, skating around him once in a loose circle, and then held out your hand.
āCome on,ā you teased. āBefore Scott starts spinning so fast he creates a vortex and takes out a bunch of third graders.ā
āYouāre assuming that wouldnāt be hilarious,ā Stiles muttered, but he took your hand anyway, fingers clumsy in his gloves, grip tight like he was worried heād fall right through the ice if he didnāt hold on.
You tugged him forward, and he followed without resistance, grinning and unsteady and full of energy like he didnāt know how to hold it all in. He slipped once or twice, cursed loudly, clutched your arm, then laughed so hard he nearly dragged you down with him. And through it all, you just kept your hand in his and skated a little slower, steady and solid, just enough to keep him upright.
Scott whooped somewhere across the rink, executing a wobbly jump that made a kid scream and his mom glare.
āSee?ā you said, laughing. āVortex. I warned you.ā
Stiles rolled his eyes, cheeks pink and glowing. āWhatever. If we get pulled into a black hole of Christmas-themed ice death, Iām glad itās with you.ā
You tightened your grip on his hand and squeezed. āSame, Stilinski.ā
Stiles squeezed back without even realizing it, fingers twitching like he wanted to say more with his hands than he could get out of his mouth. Which tracked ā you knew by now that when his brain got too loud, sometimes his body took over, jittery and awkward and honest in all the ways he didnāt know how to be out loud.
You kept skating, slow and easy, letting him find his rhythm beside you. It wasnāt really about the skating, though. Not anymore. Not with the way he kept leaning just a little too hard into your side every time he wobbled, like it was less about losing his balance and more about making sure you didnāt float too far away.
At one point, a particularly sharp turn had him yelping and practically throwing himself into you with both arms, his chest thumping against your side as you laughed and caught him with both hands at his waist. āYou good?ā you asked, biting back a grin.
āDefine āgood,āā he muttered, eyes wide, clinging to you like a particularly cold and clumsy koala. āBecause if āgoodā means āone sneeze away from death,ā then sure, Iām awesome.ā
You laughed, heart tripping a little over itself because now you had your hands on him, and he didnāt seem to mind. If anything, he leaned in more.
āIāve got you,ā you said quietly, mostly because it felt true.
And he froze for just a second. Not in the panicked, āoh no, Iām about to fall and break every bone in my bodyā way, but in a way that felt⦠smaller. Like something soft had just unfolded inside him, and he didnāt know what to do with it yet. He looked at you then ā really looked. Not the usual wild-eyed panic or the half-distracted ADHD tunnel vision that came with everything Stiles did. Just him, here, eyes bright and unguarded under the glow of the string lights, cheeks pink from the cold, and lips slightly parted like youād surprised him.
āI know,ā he said finally.
Your breath hitched, and you werenāt sure if it was from the cold or from the way he said it ā so quiet, like a secret. Then, of course, Scott ruined it. He came rocketing past at warp speed, hoodie flapping behind him like a cape, arms outstretched in what could only be described as an attempt at āfigure skating Superman,ā yelling, āWATCH ME, LOSERS!ā
A second later he slipped spectacularly, flailed for balance, and somehow managed to grab a traffic cone from the rinkās edge on his way down ā dragging it with him as he skidded twenty feet across the ice like an orange-and-gray torpedo.
Stiles snorted so hard he choked on his own breath, doubling over against you in laughter, the earlier tension melting away instantly. āOh my godādid he justāwas that intentional?!ā
āDoes anything Scott does ever look intentional?ā you said through a wheeze.
āIāā Stiles shook his head, beaming now. āNo. No, but like, respect.ā
Scott popped up from the ice, grinning like a maniac with wet knees and no dignity left. āThat was so cool!ā
āLies!ā Stiles called back.
āYouāre just jealous,ā Scott hollered, spinning in a way that almost worked before his right foot betrayed him and sent him crashing down again. āIām evolving!ā Stiles laughed so hard he had to clutch at your arms for support again, and this time, you let him lean. Fully. His weight was solid against you, warm even through your coats, and he stayed there longer than necessary, his head tilted just enough that you could smell the faint traces of whatever shampoo he used ā something clean and sharp, like pine and laundry detergent.
Your heart was doing acrobatics in your chest now. You shouldāve said it right then. Hey, Stiles. I like you. Simple. Honest. The words had been sitting on your tongue for weeks now, waiting for a moment like this. But you're young, and your heart was a shaky thing. So instead, you stayed quiet, letting the warmth of him at your side fill in the words you couldnāt say yet.
He pulled back after a second, still grinning. āOkay, okay, one more lap and then I need hot chocolate or I will actually die.ā
You nodded, but didnāt let go of his hand. āDeal. But if you fall again, Iām not catching you this time.ā
āRude,ā he said, mock-offended, but his fingers tightened on yours all the same. āWhat happened to āIāve got youā?ā
āThat was before you tried to use me as a human anchor.ā
āYou love it.ā You didnāt say I love you, because even for you, that felt a little too real, too raw for now. But your smile said enough, and his did too ā wide and a little shy and full of something that made your stomach flip.
āCome on,ā you said, tugging him gently toward the edge of the rink. āLetās get you that hot chocolate before Scott starts trying to do triple axels.ā
āToo late,ā Stiles muttered, glancing over his shoulder at the absolute chaos Scott was currently spinning himself into. āGod, Iām gonna have to explain a head injury to his mom again, arenāt I?ā
āProbably,ā you said.
āBut at least Iāll have backup,ā he added, voice a little quieter again, eyes on yours.
And you nodded. āAlways.ā
You squeezed his hand once more, then gently tugged him forward, back into motion. The final lap around the rink wasnāt exactly graceful ā Stiles was still more chaos than control, and he kept muttering curses under his breath whenever his skates hit a rough patch ā but it was yours. Yours and his, side by side, hand in hand, cheeks red from cold and smiles, and Scott yelling about physics behind you somewhere like the worldās loudest Christmas ghost.
You didnāt rush it. The loop around the rink was slow, unhurried. You both knew the cocoa stand would still be there. That eventually your feet would start to ache and the cold would creep back into your fingers. But for now, the wind bit a little less. The lights twinkled just a little softer. And Stiles didnāt let go. Halfway around the last curve, where the crowd thinned out and the lights arched low enough that everything felt a little more private, Stiles suddenly spoke again.
āI really did miss you,ā he said, unprompted, voice gentler this time. āNot just, like⦠you know, āmy friend didnāt come to a thingā kind of missing. I mean, like⦠it felt weird. You not being here right away.ā
You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye. He wasnāt looking at you this time ā just staring straight ahead, brows drawn like he was trying to get the words right before they ran off without him.
āI was gonna wait out front,ā he said. āLike, just sit there and see if maybe you showed up. But Scott dragged me onto the ice, said if I didnāt move, Iād freeze my ass to the bench and heād leave me there till spring.ā
You laughed softly.
āBut I kept checking,ā he went on, kicking at the ice. āEvery couple minutes. Looking around like an idiot. Pretending I wasnāt. But I was.ā
You didnāt know what to say. Not yet. Your chest felt tight in that warm way ā the way it always did when Stiles got a little too real without meaning to, when the things he said hit closer than you expected.
āI justā¦ā He shrugged, still not looking at you. āI dunno. Things feel better when youāre around.ā
And there it was. That thump in your chest again. You turned your head slowly, eyes tracing the shape of him ā the slope of his shoulders in his oversized coat, the pink curve of his ear poking out from under his beanie, the way his mouth tugged down at the corners like he hated every word he was admitting but couldnāt stop himself anyway.
You let the silence stretch a little longer than you probably should have, then smiled and bumped his arm with yours again.
āIāll buy your hot chocolate,ā you said, light and teasing, like that could somehow contain everything you felt. āYāknow. To make up for missing the start.ā
That finally got him to look over, eyebrows lifted in surprise. āDude, you literally said you spent the last of your money getting here. The cab, remember?ā
You shrugged, lips twitching with something just a little too close to guilt. āYeah. Well. I⦠made sure I had enough for this, too.ā
He narrowed his eyes at you like he didnāt quite believe it. āHow?ā
You leaned in, close enough that your breath fogged warm between you. Close enough that your noses almost bumped. You could count the freckles on his cheek from here.
āI got some from my mom,ā you whispered.
He blinked. āYour mom who doesnāt even like Christmas?ā
You didnāt answer. Not really. Just held his gaze and let the question hang there, unanswered. The truth was complicated ā a short, sharp fight in the kitchen before you left, voices raised and then dropped into cold, brittle quiet. A slammed door. You asking, Just twenty bucks, please, and her sighing like it was more than she could afford to give, even if it wasnāt.
Stiles stared at you for a beat, like he wanted to press ā wanted to ask. But he didnāt. He just gave a small nod, almost imperceptible, and something in his expression softened. āā¦Okay,ā he said quietly. āThanks. For⦠yāknow. Coming. And this.ā
You gave him a tiny smile. āWhat, the skating? The chaos? The part where Scott nearly wiped out a toddler?ā
āThe part where I didnāt freeze my ass to a bench alone,ā he said, mouth twitching like he was trying to be funny but couldnāt quite pull it off. āThe part where you held my hand.ā
Your stomach flipped again.
You reached out, adjusted his glove where it had slipped slightly at the wrist, and said, āIād do it again.ā
āI hope so,ā he said, way too fast, then froze like he regretted it immediately.
You just smiled wider, heartbeat pounding, eyes locked on his like you were braver than you felt. The edge of the rink loomed ahead now ā the little opening in the rail where people stepped off the ice, where the real world started up again. You guided him toward it, careful and slow.
He turned his head, a little breathless, a little pink. āOkay,ā he said. āLetās get that cocoa. But Iām getting extra marshmallows. Like. A dumb amount. Enough to make it a choking hazard.ā
You grinned. āWouldnāt have it any other way.ā
And you meant it. Every dumb marshmallow. Every weird joke. Every clumsy fall and wide-eyed smile and tangled word that Stiles threw your way. You wanted all of it. And later ā maybe after the cocoa, when the wind wasnāt so sharp and your nerves had settled ā maybe then, youād tell him.
Stiles, I like you. Like, really like you.
But for now, you just walked side by side toward the little stand with the peeling paint and the smell of cinnamon sugar in the air, his hand bumping yours like he didnāt want to let go just yet.
Your fingers brushed again as you and Stiles edged your way closer toward the rinkās exit, skates clicking awkwardly on the ice beneath you. You were both flushed ā from the cold, from the skating, from the hand-holding and the something that neither of you had said out loud yet. It sat thick and electric in the space between you, quiet but impossible to ignore.
You glanced over at him. He was chewing on the inside of his cheek, trying not to look like he was watching you out of the corner of his eye, but he totally was. His gloves were still slightly damp at the fingertips, and his scarf was crooked in a way you wanted to fix ā gently, like in the movies, with fingers grazing skin andā
āLOOK OUT!ā The voice tore through the night air like a cannon blast. You barely had a second to react ā a flash of movement in the corner of your eye, the sound of blades carving across ice like a freight train, and then suddenlyā
WHAM.
Scott McCall, future Lacrosse captain and current menace, came hurtling toward you like a human snowplow, arms flailing, knees buckling, half-screaming half-laughing as a blur of pink puff ā a tiny girl in a sparkly coat ā darted past him after tripped him up without even noticing. There was no time to step out of the way.
Scott slammed into the both of you like a meteorite, and all three of you staggered backwards ā you, Stiles, Scott, in a tangled knot of limbs, ice, and chaos. Stiles yelped something halfway between āOH MY GODā and āMY SPLEEN,ā while Scottās foot kicked back and hooked around your shin, nearly taking you down for good. You were sure you were going down. Except ā somehow ā you didnāt.
You, Stiles, and Scott staggered and shuffled like an uncoordinated circus act, spinning in a desperate half-circle, arms wrapped around each otherās shoulders and jackets and whatever else you could grab. Scott had one hand fisted in the collar of your coat, and the other braced against Stilesā chest. Stiles had his elbow hooked around your neck in a way that felt like a one-armed headlock, and you were clinging to both of them with a death grip around their waists like some kind of three-headed, cold, confused creature.
For a horrifying moment, the world tilted sideways. But then ā balance. Somehow, miraculously, you all managed to stay up. Silence fell. Breaths heaved. Arms untangled slowly, cautiously. You all blinked at each other ā a foot here, a scarf twisted around a wrist there, Scottās beanie now sitting askew on top of Stilesā head, as if it had been transferred in the chaos like a crown of idiocy.
No one said anything for a full five seconds. Then, without a word, you each took a cautious step back. Straightened your coats. Adjusted scarves. Cleared throats. Stiles carefully handed Scott back his beanie like it was a delicate diplomatic exchange.
No one made eye contact. No one mentioned a thing. You all stood there ā weirdly still, ridiculously composed now ā like three people who had absolutely not just been part of the most awkward three-person crash in the history of winter sports.
Finally, Scott nodded, completely serious. āSo. Uh. Cocoa?ā
āYes,ā you and Stiles said at the exact same time.
And just like that, you all turned and walked off toward the cocoa stand like nothing had happened.
Except for the fact that Scottās hair was sticking up at the back, and Stiles had somehow acquired glitter on his jacket (from the sparkly pink puff girl, you were guessing), and your left skate was untied and flapping slightly as you walked ā none of which anyone addressed. Because of course you werenāt going to talk about it. You were teenagers. You had dignity. Sort of.
As the three of you approached the little wooden stand tucked near the far corner of the rink, the smell of cinnamon, sugar, and warm chocolate grew stronger, comforting in a way that settled under your ribs. Scott peeled off first, already waving a five-dollar bill and declaring he was buying āthe biggest one they had,ā like this was some sort of hot beverage competition.
Stiles lingered beside you. āYou okay?ā he asked, his voice soft and close, still a little breathless from the collision.
āYeah,ā you said, half-smiling. āI think we survived.ā
He glanced over his shoulder at Scott, who was currently trying to convince the cocoa vendor to put a fourth scoop of whipped cream on his drink. āIām not sure he did,ā he muttered.
You snorted. Then reached out, brushing some of the glitter off his jacket. Stiles blinked down at you. āIāuh,ā he started, but then you just smiled and stepped up to the counter beside him.
āTwo hot chocolates,ā you told the vendor. Leaning in to whisper, āExtra marshmallows on one.ā
Stilesā ears went red again. But he didnāt argue. He just stood beside you, hands stuffed in his pockets, mouth twitching like he didnāt know whether to grin or hide behind the cocoa stand. He chose the grin. You handed over a crumpled bill from your pocket, the mystery of where it came from still lingering between you both like fog on a winter window. But Stiles didnāt ask. Not yet. And maybe that was the nicest thing about him.
The cocoa stand vendor handed over the two steaming paper cups, both topped with a generous heap of mini marshmallows that had already started to melt at the edges, sticky and soft. One cup had a crooked candy cane poking out of it like a flag of victory. You took both drinks carefully, balancing them like precious artifacts, and turned back toward the matting where Scott had already taken off.
Wellācollapsed was probably the more accurate word. He was sprawled across one of the rubber-matted benches just outside the rink, legs still stretched out in his skates, cocoa cup crumpled and empty beside him like the aftermath of a sugar-induced war. āI think he inhaled it,ā you muttered to Stiles as the two of you approached.
āDid not,ā Scott said from his position, though it sounded garbledāhis head was tilted back like he might actually fall asleep right there in the open cold.
āYou absolutely did,ā Stiles said, plopping down on the bench beside him. āI saw it. There were like, three sips, maximum.ā
āThatās a subjective opinion,ā Scott mumbled.
āI donāt think thatās how opinions work,ā you said, lowering yourself carefully onto the bench beside Stiles, handing him the cocoa without even looking.
āThank you,ā he said automatically, then added, āWaitāextra marshmallows?ā
āOf course extra marshmallows,ā you replied. āYou need to replace all the sugar you burned trying not to die on the ice.ā
He huffed out a laugh and nudged your knee with his. āIām a natural talent, actually. Scott said so.ā
āScott lies all the time,ā you said. āEspecially when heās full of sugar and ego.ā
āI heard that,ā Scott said without moving.
The three of you burst out laughing.
It wasnāt a huge thingājust a quick crack of sound, breath in the cold night airābut it felt good. The kind of laugh that cracked open your ribs a little and let something warm in. The kind you could only have with people who knew you inside and out, who didnāt need to be told when to laugh or when you were joking. The kind that filled all the empty spaces that the holidays left sometimes.
Stiles took a sip of his cocoa and made a face like heād just touched hot lava.
āToo hot,ā he hissed, fanning his tongue like it was on fire.
You grinned into your cup. āYouāre supposed to wait.ā
āI never wait,ā he said dramatically, eyes a little wide and watery from the burn. āI live on the edge.ā
āYou nearly fell off the edge earlier,ā Scott muttered.
āI was pushed,ā Stiles said, glaring down at him.
āBy a child.ā
āA very fast child!ā You were giggling so hard your drink almost sloshed over the rim.
āAnyway,ā Stiles said, turning back to you, trying to look dignified and not like heād just been tackled by a kindergartener and then lost a fight to cocoa, āyou made it.ā
You looked at him, really lookedāhis eyes a little brighter now, cheeks red from the cold, scarf still not sitting right. And you thought: he has no idea. No idea how many times youād imagined this. Sitting here. Right here. With him. Just like this.
āI did,ā you said softly, sipping your drink. āWorth it.ā
He stared at you for a second, like he wanted to say something elseābut then Scott groaned loudly and sat up like a zombie rising from the grave.
āMy spine is frozen,ā he announced. āI think I need surgery.ā
āOr a blanket,ā you offered.
āOr a less dramatic personality,ā Stiles added.
Scott waved a hand, unconcerned. āNope. Definitely surgery.ā You all laughed again. The cold didnāt seem so sharp anymore.
Around you, the rink sparkled with lights strung between poles, kids still shrieking with joy as they slipped across the ice, parents chatting and sipping drinks of their own. It was warm and golden here, in your little circle on the bench, even if your toes were going numb. Stiles shifted slightly closer to you, shoulders brushing. He didnāt say anything. He didnāt have to.
Scott stood up dramatically, swaying like heād just returned from war. āIām going back in,ā he declared. āFor glory. For honor.ā
āFor more glitter to attach itself to you,ā Stiles mumbled under his breath.
āI heard that,ā Scott said again, but he was already wobbling back toward the rink.
You and Stiles watched him go, sipping cocoa side by side.
āYou think heās gonna fall again?ā you asked.
āOh, definitely,ā Stiles said. āLike, within minutes.ā
You clinked your paper cups together gently. āTo gravity.ā
Stiles grinned. āTo gravity.ā
The cocoa steamed steadily between your gloved hands, warming the space between your palms like a tiny furnace, and beside you, Stiles was still blowing cautiously at his cup, squinting down into it like he was trying to solve a physics problem with marshmallows. Scott, meanwhile, had become an entire event on the ice.
At first, he was doing those smooth backward glides again, one hand behind his back like he was posing for a skating magazine cover, hair bouncing, eyes focused, just so full of himself. It was honestly a little majesticālike, if deer could have egos and wear sneakers and be fifteen-year-old boys.
But thenālike the universe remembered Scott had the attention span of a fruit fly and a tragic lack of spacial awarenessāhe clipped the corner of the rink on a turn and went tumbling sideways into a teen girl trying to take a selfie. The two of them spun in a chaotic, flailing blur before separating, Scott landing flat on his back while the girl stood above him blinking with her phone somehow still upright, still filming.
You snorted into your drink. āOh my God,ā you said through a giggle, āheās both. Heās like⦠the Swan Princess and Wile E. Coyote had a baby.ā
Stiles burst out laughing beside you, nearly sloshing cocoa all over his jeans. āWhy is that so accurate?ā he wheezed, clutching his cup like it was the only thing keeping him from full collapse.
Out on the rink, Scott picked himself up with all the dignity of someone who definitely knew heād just been recorded falling. He brushed off his jacket, gave a thumbs-up to the girl (who was still laughing), and then promptly slid straight into the wall, arms spread like a starfish.
You wheezed. āWe should help him.ā
āNo,ā Stiles said immediately, sipping again. āWe should absolutely not help him.ā
Another burst of laughter passed between you like staticācrackling and easy. The cold had settled into your cheeks now, numbing them into a constant tingle, but the sound of Stiles next to you, warm and close and here, melted straight through it. You turned your head slightly to look at him just as he tilted his drink back for another sipāand immediately ended up with a stripe of foam across the corner of his mouth.
He didnāt seem to notice. Still talking. Still going on about how if Scott fell one more time he was going to nominate him for some kind of honorary physics award for redefining ātrajectory.ā But you didnāt really hear all of it. Not past the way your eyes got stuck on that little line of marshmallow foam just sitting there. Without thinking, you leaned over.
āHold still,ā you said softly.
āWhatāā
But you were already reaching out, one gloved hand steadying his cheek as the fingers of the other found that smudge of foam and swiped it gently away. It came off easy, but you didnāt move right away. His skin was cold where you touched it, a little pink from the wind. His mouth had gone still. Stiles blinked. Looked at you. His breath was caught halfway in his chest, like he hadnāt decided if he was supposed to inhale or just freeze entirely.
Your thumb hovered for a second longer before you pulled back. āYou had⦠something.ā
āOh,ā he said, like heād forgotten how words worked. āThanks.ā
You gave a tiny nod and returned to your cocoa like nothing had happened, like your heart hadnāt just leapt out of your chest and sprinted halfway to the parking lot. Out on the ice, Scott tripped over his own foot again, let out a strangled yelp, and crashed shoulder-first into a stack of foam barriers. A small child clapped in appreciation.
You and Stiles sat there in silence, watching him. After a beat, Stiles coughed into his drink. āOkay but seriously. If he breaks his nose again, you have to explain it to Melissa.ā
You smiled down at your cup. āDeal.ā
Your leg brushed his again, and this time neither of you moved away. The silence between you wasnāt awkward. Not really. It was the kind that came with knowing someone so long that you didnāt always need to talk. The kind that filled up with tiny soundsāthe scrape of a skate blade nearby, Scott shrieking faintly in the distance as he probably collided with yet another civilian, the crunch of marshmallows melting into cocoa. It was soft. Comfortable.
Which was horrifying. Because you were about to ruin it.
You were about to take this stupid warm thingāthis perfectly untouchable, safe friendshipāand set it on fire with the words that had been stuck behind your teeth for months. Maybe longer. Words that might make him laugh, or freak out, or go quiet and never look at you the same again. You sipped your cocoa like it might delay your entire future by a few seconds.
He was still beside you, still watching the rink like Scott might spontaneously grow wings and ascend. His knee bumped yours again. He didnāt move it away. Your hands tightened a little on your cup.
āHey,ā you said suddenly, before you could stop yourself.
He turned to look at you, brows raised. āYeah?ā Too late. Too late, abort, abortā You swallowed. Tried to play it casual, like your heart wasnāt rattling in your chest like a pair of dice in a Yahtzee cup.
āJustā¦ā You shrugged. āThanks. For, yāknow. Being here.ā
Stiles blinked. āYou donāt have to thank me for that.ā
āNo, I do,ā you insisted, forcing a smile you hoped didnāt look like a grimace. āI kinda showed up last-minute, basically hijacked your Christmas Eve.ā
He snorted. āHijacked? You made my Christmas Eve.ā Your heart stuttered.
He looked away then, like he hadnāt realized what he just said, like it slipped out before he could shove it back in. A breeze blew past and fluttered the edge of his scarf into your arm. Neither of you fixed it. He cleared his throat. āI mean, not that Scottās not fun. But if I had to spend another two hours watching him reenact Swan Lake on ice I mightāve walked into traffic.ā
You laughedāreally laughed this time, because the image was too strong. Stiles grinned, proud of himself, basking in the glow of making you laugh like heād just won a prize. And for a second, you almost chickened out again. But then he looked at you, all bright-eyed and ridiculous, cheeks pink from cold and cocoa and something elseāand you thought, I canāt keep this a secret anymore.
So you took a breath. Then another. And then, in a voice that felt way too small to carry something this heavy:
āHey. Stiles?ā
āYeah?ā
You looked down at your cup. The marshmallows had mostly melted now, turning the top of the drink into a frothy mess. āI gotta tell you something,ā you said. āAnd if I donāt say it now, Iām never gonna.ā He stilled. Just a little. But you felt it. Like he braced for something. Like he knew. You didnāt look at him. You couldnāt. āI, um. I like you.ā There. Youād said it. Your heart didnāt stop. The world didnāt end. Nobody screamed. The rink didnāt split open and swallow you whole.
But the silence was deafening.
You forced yourself to keep going, to fill the gap before it could echo too loud.
āNot like⦠just friend-like. I meanāI do like you like that, obviously, because youāre my best friend and youāre the funniest person I know and you always do this weird twitchy thing when youāre trying to lie, and your brain is like, terrifyingly fast but also completely chaotic, and you make me laugh even when I donāt want to, andāand I think Iāve liked you for a while now, like, a while, andāā
āHey.ā
You stopped. His voice was soft. Not shaky. Just⦠quiet.
You finally looked up.
Stiles was staring at you like youād just told him the moon belonged to him. Like he couldnāt believe it was real. Like someone had switched the language on his entire life and he was just now learning how to read again.
āSeriously?ā he asked.
Your heart dropped. āIāyeah. I mean, unless thatās, like, terrible news to you. In which caseā"
āNo! No. Itās not. Itās not terrible,ā he said quickly, cup forgotten in his lap. āItās just⦠wow. Okay. I need a second.ā
You winced. āThat bad, huh?ā
He barked out a laughānot the reaction you expected.
āNo, itās justāā He ran a hand through his buzzed hair. āYouāve been living rent-free in my brain for months and I thought I was the one being a total disaster about it.ā
Your eyes widened. āWaitāwhat?ā
Stiles looked straight at you then, cheeks flaming, mouth twitching with a smile that didnāt quite know where to go. āYeah. I like you too. A lot. Always kinda have. I just thought⦠I dunno. That Iād ruin everything if I said something.ā
Your laugh came out more like a breath of relief. āOh my God.ā
He grinned, leaning a little closer. āSo, uh⦠you wanna ruin everything together?ā
You looked at him, cheeks aching from smiling, heart still hammering, but lighter now. Way lighter.
āYeah,ā you said, bumping your knee against his. āLetās be disasters. Together.ā
Just then, a distant āIāM OKAY!ā rang out from the rink as Scott collided, once again, with the barrier wall.
Stiles tilted his head. āYou think we should tell him?ā
You both watched as Scott dramatically rolled over and then gave a double thumbs-up to a nearby toddler.
āNah,ā you said, sipping your cocoa again. āLetās let him figure it out the hard way.ā
It took a few more minutes, and a lot more laughing, before the cold finally crept in enough that sitting still wasnāt really an option. Your fingers were starting to go numb around your cocoa cup, and Stiles had started doing this little bounce in his seat like he was trying to stay warm without actually moving from the comfort of the bench. Scott was back on the rink by now, doing an exaggerated slow-motion routine for the benefit of a group of giggling kids at the other end. One of them threw a snowball at him. It missed, but he dramatically clutched his chest like heād been shot and went down like a tree.
Stiles elbowed you. āOkay, we canāt leave him out there unsupervised.ā
You smirked. āHeās a danger to himself and others.ā
āExactly,ā Stiles said, standing up and offering you his hand with mock gallantry. āCome on, partner in crime.ā
You took it, grinning as he hauled you up and nearly overbalanced in the process.
āWhoaāeasy!ā you laughed as you both stumbled forward a step, ice skates catching awkwardly on the mat.
āI have the grace of a gazelle,ā he insisted. āA very confused, gangly gazelle.ā
āNoted,ā you said, still holding his hand as you both made your way back to the rink entrance. āLead the way, Bambi.ā
āRude.ā
But he was smiling. You were both smiling. There was a lot of that happening now.
The cold slapped your cheeks again the second you stepped onto the ice, but it didnāt feel so sharp anymore. Maybe it was the cocoa. Maybe it was the laughter still stuck in your chest. Or maybe it was the way Stiles squeezed your hand once before letting goāonly to nearly eat it on his next step and immediately grab for you again.
āOkay, nope, no letting go,ā he muttered, clutching your sleeve like his life depended on it.
āYouāve skated before,ā you reminded him, already adjusting your stance so you could steady the both of you.
āYeah, and it went badly. Remember the bruised tailbone of ā07? I do. It haunts me.ā
You were too busy laughing to answer.
Scott spotted you both right away and made a beeline over, which wouldāve been fine if he hadnāt decided to zoom toward you like he was reenacting the final scene of an ice-dancing drama. His scarf flapped behind him like a cape. His arms were outstretched.
You saw it coming too late.
āGUYSāCATCH MEāā
āScott, noā!ā
It was like watching a car crash in slow motion.
He hit you both at once, crashing into your side while also managing to trip over Stilesā skate and somehow launch himself into a half-spin that wouldāve been kind of impressive if he hadnāt slammed into you like a human wrecking ball.
But somehowāsomehowānobody fell.
You were tangled. Arms everywhere. Stiles clutching your waist, your hand wrapped around Scottās elbow, Scott gripping both of your shoulders like he was on a lifeboat and you were the last bit of floating debris in the ocean.
Silence.
Then Scott, very solemnly, said: āI think I saw the face of God.ā
Stiles groaned. āGet off me, dude.ā
āHey! I saved us from falling!ā
āYou caused the near-fall!ā
āI added dramatic tension!ā
You snorted, finally managing to extract your arm from between their shoulders and stand upright. āOkay, okay, reset. Everyone alive? No broken ribs?ā
Scott patted himself down. āOnly my pride.ā
āI think you left that behind five minutes ago when you tried to do a twirl and crashed into that trash can,ā you said.
āI was trying to dodge a kid!ā
āShe was five feet away.ā
āShe had a look in her eye! She was coming for me!ā
You and Stiles both cracked up at that, and then the three of you started skating againāslower this time, more huddled together, like a three-person train of barely-functioning limbs and wheezing laughter. You held onto each other shamelessly, drifting around the rink in ungraceful loops, feet sliding out at odd angles, scarves flapping, cheeks pink and sore from smiling too hard.
Scott kept breaking off to attempt weird spins or finger-gun the other skaters, and each time he slipped, heād flail wildly until one of you caught him. At one point, he accidentally pulled Stiles into a clumsy spin and then tripped over his own feet, dragging Stiles with him into what could only be described as a tangle of limbs and swear words.
You skated over, breathless from laughing. āYou guys good?ā
āDefine good,ā Stiles groaned from where he was half-sprawled on Scottās back.
āWeāre excellent,ā Scott mumbled into the ice.
Eventually, you all got moving again, more careful this time, more about sticking close and bumping shoulders and being together than actually skating. The lights above glowed golden against the navy sky, and every now and then a puff of snow would catch the breeze and swirl past like glitter. Someoneās Bluetooth speaker crackled, switching to some poppy remix of a Christmas song none of you liked, and yet Stiles started singing under his breath anywayāoff-key and dramaticāand Scott joined in with harmonies that almost worked.
And you?
You just skated beside them, cheeks aching, chest full, one hand occasionally brushing against Stilesā as you looped around the rink again and again, like maybe if you just stayed in motion long enough, you could hold onto this night forever.
You didnāt realize how many laps you'd done until your legs started to ache in that warm, satisfying kind of way that meant you'd used muscles that hadn't been awake in weeks. Your cheeks hurt from grinning, and your throat was a little raw from laughing. Stiles had been at your side almost the whole timeāsometimes clinging, sometimes gliding, always making some comment that bordered on brilliant or deeply dumb with no in-between.
Scott had finally gone off to test his āaerodynamic techniqueā one last time (which meant he was probably going to fall flat on his back again), so it was just the two of you coasting in a slow, lazy circle, close enough to bump shoulders every so often, not quite speaking.
You liked the silence. It wasnāt awkward. It was easy. It was warm.
You turned just as one of the employeesāa teenage girl in a puffer vest and a beanie that had seen better daysāskated slowly past, holding a dangling piece of mistletoe above her head. She was grinning like she knew exactly what she was doing.
āMerry Christmas,ā she sang, and then, with all the enthusiasm of someone getting paid minimum wage but absolutely living for teen drama, she added, āRinkās closing, lovebirds. Last lap.ā
You opened your mouth to correct herālovebirds? Pleaseāonly to realize the mistletoe was hanging right over your heads.
Stiles noticed it at the same time you did.
He froze.
Actually, you froze too.
The music had dipped into something softer now, bells chiming under strings, that slow orchestral swell that felt like a quiet end rather than a loud finish. Around you, the other skaters were slowly making their way toward the exits, a murmur of chatter and tired laughter following them. But for just a second, it was like the rink had stilled around the two of you.
You looked at Stiles.
He looked at you.
The employee, watching from a safe distance now, covered her mouth and giggled.
āI meanāā Stiles started.
You beat him to it. āItās tradition,ā you said, breath coming a little faster now. āRight?ā
His voice cracked just slightly when he said, āYeah. Itāit totally is.ā
You didnāt know who leaned in first.
It mightāve been both of you.
The kiss wasnāt perfect. Your noses bumped a little. His breath was cold against your cheek. One of your skates slipped just slightly and he had to steady you with a hand at your waist. But when your lips met, everything elseāthe cold, the awkwardness, the crowdāwent quiet.
It was soft. Careful.
Warm in a way that had nothing to do with the cocoa or the bundled-up coats or the string lights still twinkling overhead.
It only lasted a second. Maybe two.
But it was enough.
You both pulled back slowly, eyes still locked. Stiles' cheeks were flaming, and your heart was pounding, but neither of you moved away. Not really. Not even when you heard the unmistakable sound of someone gliding toward you at full, uncoordinated speed.
Scott.
āMerry Christmas, suckers!ā he announced at full volume, slamming to a stop and throwing one arm around each of your shoulders in a dramatic half-hug.
Before either of you could react, he leaned in and kissed both your cheeksāyours first, then Stilesāāand then grinned like heād just delivered a diplomatic victory.
āWhat just happened?ā he asked brightly. āDo I need to pretend I didnāt see anything, or are we already naming your future kids?ā
āScott,ā Stiles said, voice strangled.
You groaned, covering your face.
āWait, wait, let me guess,ā Scott added, pulling back with a mock-thoughtful expression. āMerry Crisp-mas, right? Because the tension was crispy as hell.ā
Stiles made a sound that mightāve been a laugh or a slow collapse of all his social defenses.
You bumped Scott with your shoulder. āYouāre the worst.ā
He beamed. āAnd yet you love me.ā
But Stiles turned back to you then, still a little pink, eyes soft in the glow of the lights. He wasnāt smiling nowānot the way he usually did when he was trying to cover how big his emotions could get.
He just looked at you like youād knocked the wind out of him in the best way.
āMerry Christmas,ā he said quietly.
You smiled back, heart full and breathless. āMerry Christmas, Stilinski.ā
And even as Scott started singing off-key next to you and the rink lights began to dim, that warm, fluttery feeling stayed tucked behind your ribs, steady and real.
Because this? This was yours.
~~
You spotted Scott first, predictably a mess of flailing limbs and big energy, backpack sliding off one shoulder. Stiles wasnāt far behind, chasing after him with wild, exaggerated steps, his voice carrying across the parking lot even though you couldnāt make out the words.
They were laughing, tripping over each other like puppies, Scott tossing something (a crumpled piece of paper?) at Stiles and Stiles catching it against his chest with a dramatic stumble. He fired back with a wad of notebook paper so hard Scott yelped and ducked behind a very confused girl. You could hear Stiles' cackling even from the car.
You leaned your head against the back of the seat, a dopey grin pulling at your mouth. God, he was so him ā ridiculous, chaotic, pure Stiles Stilinski energy. It filled the whole parking lot, the way he lit up any room without even trying.
Like he felt you watching ā because he always did ā his head snapped toward the Jeep mid-giggle. The second his eyes found you through the windshield, he froze like a deer in headlights.
You could see it happen: the realization creeping in, the way his face went from bright and open to pink and startled in less than a second. His laughter stuttered to a halt, his fingers twitching at his sides like he wanted to run but couldnāt decide whether it should be toward you or the other way.
You just smiled wider, soft and patient and warm in a way reserved only for him.
His ears turned a violent shade of red.
Scott, oblivious as always, threw an arm around Stilesā shoulders and tried to tug him along toward the parking lot, still babbling about something you couldnāt hear. Stiles stumbled after him, but his gaze kept flickering back to you, the corners of his mouth twitching like he wanted to smile and hide at the same time.
He nudged Scott with his elbow a little harder than necessary, muttering something that made Scott peel away with a loud groan and an exaggerated gagging sound, waving his arms like he was being attacked by secondhand embarrassment.
Stiles jogged awkwardly toward the Jeep after that, still pink in the face, still fiddling with the hem of his shirt like it might save him from combusting.
You didnāt move, didnāt say a word, just watched him with that same stupid, smitten grin.
By the time he yanked the door open and slid into the driver's seat beside you, his blush had reached critical levels. He couldn't meet your eyes, staring determinedly at the steering wheel instead.
"Hey, babe," you said softly, still smiling so much it hurt.
He made a noise ā something between a huff and a whimper ā and finally risked a glance at you, biting his lower lip hard enough to turn it white.
"Hi," he said, voice cracking, wrecked and breathless like just looking at you had fried all his brain cells at once.
And you swear to God, youād never been more in love with anything in your life.
Stiles sits there for a second, all awkward limbs and red ears, gripping the steering wheel like it might help him hold onto the moment. His mouth is twitching at the corners, like heās trying really hard not to smile too much, but failing miserably.
āHi,ā he repeats, quieter this time, glancing at you out of the corner of his eye.
You lean a little closer across the console, resting your chin in your palm. āHi.ā
He huffs out a laugh, finally letting himself look at you full-on. His whole face softens, like the tension in his shoulders just gives up the fight the second your eyes meet his.
āYouāve been waiting long?ā he asks, fiddling with a loose thread on his sleeve.
You shake your head. āNah. Figured Iād get comfy while I had the Jeep all to myself. Smells like you in here. Kinda miss it sometimes.ā
Stiles snorts. āItās probably just a mix of Axe, fast food fries, and my dadās coffee spill from last week.ā
āStill smells like you,ā you say with a soft shrug, your voice going all gooey, and his face practically combusts again.
He laughs, flustered, and rubs the back of his buzzed head with one hand, cheeks glowing. āYou are literally the worst. And by worst, I mean the best, which is so unfair.ā
You lean in and steal a quick kiss, just a soft press of lips, lingering for half a second longer than necessary. When you pull back, heās blinking at you like his brain has short-circuited.
āHi again,ā you whisper, and he giggles helplessly.
āYou are such a menace,ā he mutters, but thereās no heat behind it. He looks like he could float right out of his seat.
You reach down into your lap and lift the bag up. āHere, Stiles. Your lucky outfit. Youāre gonna crush it.ā
He takes it reverently, holding the handles like it might disintegrate if heās not gentle enough. āYou brought it,ā he says, like he still canāt believe youāre real.
You nod, smiling. āTold you Iād help. Youāre gonna look sharp. Hirable. Like the charming, competent, adorably chaotic employee of the month youāre destined to be.ā
He barks out a laugh. āAdorably chaotic, huh?ā
āLike a golden retriever in khaki shorts.ā
āYouāre so lucky Iām into you,ā he mumbles, shaking his head as he unzips the bag and peeks inside. āGod, this is perfect.ā
You lean over and kiss his cheek, lingering just a moment too long before nudging his shoulder. āGo get changed, Stilinski. Interviewer awaits.ā
He clutches the bag tighter, nodding with a deep breath. āOkay. Okay, yeah. Iāve got this. I have got this.ā
āDamn right you do.ā
He opens the door, then pauses, turning back with that look ā the one thatās half soft panic, half warm affection. āWait here?ā
You smile like itās the easiest answer in the world. āAlways.ā
He beams at you, full teeth, eyes crinkling at the corners, and then heās off ā all long legs and awkward enthusiasm, jogging back toward the school doors with the bag bouncing against his hip, calling something at Scott as he vanishes inside.
And all you can do is watch him go, heart full to bursting.
You watch the doors like youāve got tunnel vision, elbows resting on the open window, fingers curled just under your chin as the sun starts to shift. It casts long, soft shadows across the dashboard, and you catch yourself tracing little patterns in the dust on the glove compartmentāabsently, aimlessly, in that warm, fizzy sort of headspace that only ever seems to hit when youāre thinking about him.
Itās not even five minutes before Stiles bursts back out of the building, practically skipping steps down the front stairs with the outfit you picked clinging to him in the best way possible. The khaki shorts are a little wrinkled from the bag, but heās tugged the polo shirt into place like it matters, and heās even wearing your jacket ā a little big on him in the shoulders, the sleeves tugged over his hands, the hem swishing as he jogs.
He looks nervous and shiny with effort, his backpack bouncing on one shoulder like he didnāt take the time to shove it into a locker, which tracks. His face is pink again ā probably from rushing, but maybe also from the fact that youāre still sitting there, exactly where he left you, smiling at him like heās the whole damn sun.
He doesnāt even stop to greet you. Just throws the driverās side door open, tosses his backpack into the backseat, and slides in with a breathless, āOkay, okay, letās go, letās go.ā
You blink, brows raising. āWow. That was fast. You break land-speed records getting changed?ā
āI didnāt even fully button the fly until I was halfway down the hallway,ā he mutters, fumbling with the keys. āI canāt be late. Theyāll think Iām irresponsible. What if Iām late and theyāre like āWow, classic, look at this clown, total liability, canāt even show up on time, hope he doesnāt burn the friesāāā
āStiles,ā you say, laughing as the Jeep jerks into motion and he throws it into reverse with more aggression than necessary. āDeep breaths. Youāre fine. Weāre early. Like, extra early.ā
āWhich means we wonāt get stuck behind a tractor or a school bus or a pack of angry geese or whatever Beacon Hills decides to throw at us today, thankfully,ā he says, eyes darting between mirrors.
You reach over without thinking, smoothing down the edge of his collar. āYou look good,ā you murmur, fingers brushing under the collarbone seam and fixing where it folded awkwardly at the dip of his neck. āReally good.ā
He makes a strangled sound. āNo, I donāt. I look like Iām cosplaying āacceptable teenage employee number four.āā
You shift a little closer in your seat, hand drifting down to press flat against his chest for a second. āStiles, youāre literally the cutest thing on the road right now. If you got pulled over, itād be for excessive handsomeness.ā
He snorts, cheeks flushing red again. āYouāre ridiculous.ā
āYouāre adorable.ā
āThatās not gonna help me grill nuggets.ā
āGrill nuggets?ā
āIām stressed, donāt correct me.ā
You laugh again and gently tug his sleeve, straightening the edge of your jacket where itās bunched at his elbow. āYouāre gonna do great. Youāre gonna be charming and fidgety and enthusiastic and theyāll see how much you wanna do a good job and theyāll love you for it.ā
He goes quiet for a second, hands tightening on the wheel. The streets are calm, the sun low enough now that itās turning everything gold. You glance at his profile ā the way his buzzed hair still manages to stick up in the wrong places, how the tip of his tongue pokes out when heās trying not to smile.
āIām really glad youāre here,ā he mumbles after a beat, so quiet itās nearly lost under the hum of the engine.
You reach over and lace your fingers through his, guiding one hand off the wheel just for a second. āI wouldnāt be anywhere else.ā He squeezes your hand and, for a second, he stops fidgeting.
As the Jeep rumbles down the quiet street, the tires humming over the asphalt, Stiles finally settles into a more consistent rhythm. His shoulders are still high with tension, though, and you can practically feel the little storms of anxious energy swirling in his head. He drums his thumbs on the steering wheel, bouncing his knee and glancing between the rearview and side mirrors like they're going to start whispering judgments at him.
"Okay, okay, okay,ā he mutters under his breath, barely audible. āWhat if they ask me why I want to work there and I freeze? What if I forget the name of the manager? What if Iā"
āStiles,ā you say gently, your voice soft as you lean against the passenger-side door, watching him with warm amusement, āyouāve rehearsed this interview in the mirror, like, seventeen times. I watched you rehearse it. Twice. In accents.ā
āI blacked out for both of those,ā he replies, half-serious, glancing at you with wide eyes. āYou ever watch your own reflection and feel like itās judging you in real time?ā
āOnly when I'm not with you.ā
He snorts, finally cracking a smile, and his fingers twitch against the steering wheel like maybe he wants to reach for your hand again.
āYou donāt have to be perfect, babe,ā you say, tone light but sincere. āThey just wanna see you. And youāreāyāknowāyou. Youāre energetic, and smart, and you care. Youāre gonna do great. And if you trip over your words a little? Youāll still be the most lovable thing in that whole building.ā
Stiles makes a noise somewhere between a laugh and a wheeze. āYouāre gonna make me crash.ā
āYou wonāt. Your panic reflexes are too strong.ā
āOkay, yeah, fair,ā he admits, breathing out hard through his nose. āI once dodged a deer with my dadās cruiser going forty.ā
āExactly. A job interviewās nothing compared to a rogue woodland creature.ā
The golden arches come into view up ahead, glowing faintly against the late afternoon sky. You watch as Stiles swallows hard, his throat bobbing as he pulls into the parking lot. He parks with a little too much forceābraking too fastāand then stares out through the windshield like heās contemplating the meaning of life. You lean over, reaching for his jaw, thumb brushing against the stubble-dotted edge of it before guiding him to face you. His eyes flick to yours, and theyāre wide and nervous, but still sparkling with that light only he seems to carry.
āHey,ā you whisper. āCome here.ā
He leans across the console and you meet him halfway, pressing a kiss to his lips. Itās slow and warm and grounding. Not rushed, not too deep. Just the kind that says: I see you. Iām proud of you. Iāve got you. When you pull back, his eyes are half-lidded and glassy, like you just knocked every anxious thought out of him in one go.
āYouāve got this,ā you murmur. āNo matter what happens in there, whether they offer you the job or not, Iām proud of you. So proud.ā
He nods, lips twitching. āYeah?ā
āAlways.ā
He huffs a breath, pushing the car door open with one hand and holding the bag with the other. āOkay. Okay, cool. Iām gonna go. Iām going. Right now.ā
āI believe in you, cutie with a buzz.ā
He groans under his breath and throws one last look over his shoulder as he closes the door. āYou suck.ā
You grin. āLove you too.ā
He disappears inside, and youāre left alone in the Jeep with the echo of your kiss and the smell of his cologne clinging to the seatbelt, heart full and already counting down the seconds until he comes back out.
The hum of passing cars fades into the background as you sit there, still angled in your seat like he might walk right back out any second. The golden arches above the restaurant cast that familiar neon haze over the lot, and inside the Jeep itās warm with late sun and the lingering scent of himāfabric softener and cheap shampoo and something sharper, something that's just Stiles. It feels a little like summer, even though itās barely spring. The kind of day that makes your skin buzz a little, even if nothingās happening.
You rest your cheek against the seat, watching the front doors where he vanished, and your mind drifts. You think about how far youāve both come. How, a couple years ago, Stiles couldnāt even make eye contact with a cashier without stammering through six filler words and a small breakdown, and now heās in there trying to land a job, trying to grow upāchoosing to take a step forward. Even if itās just flipping burgers and wearing a visor, itās still something he chose.
And thatās kind of the beautiful thing about Stiles. For all the noise, the chaos, the impulsive tangents and nervous energy that feels like it could spark something on fire, underneath all that is someone who cares. So much. Maybe too much. He tries so hard, sometimes he runs himself ragged doing it. He overthinks because he wants to get things right. He spirals because heās afraid of messing up what matters.
You know, deep down, that heās probably in there right now talking at warp speed, tripping over his own enthusiasm, voice pitching up with every third sentence, hands moving like heās explaining a math equation in midair. And yet, despite all that, heās probably winning them over without even realizing it. Because thereās something impossible not to love about someone who just feels everything that much.
Your fingers toy absentmindedly with the strap of your bag, and you smile softly to yourself. Heāll come out flushed and wired, buzzing from adrenaline and second-guessing every single answer he gave. Youāll talk him down, like always. Tell him he did great. Kiss his forehead or ruffle his hair until he cracks a grin and groans, āYouāre so annoying,ā like itās the highest compliment he can give.
Itās strange, how something as small as waiting for him in his car can make you feel so fullālike your chest isnāt big enough to hold it all. You love him. You love this. The simplicity of being trusted enough to have a spare key, to sit here and wait, to see him run off into the unknown and know that heāll come back looking for you.
Your gaze drifts up to the McDonaldās window, wondering if heās sitting in a hard plastic chair, legs bouncing, fingers knotting together in his lap, doing that thing where he bites his lip until itās redder than it should be. And maybe heās thinking about you too. Maybe knowing youāre out here makes it easier.
You rest your head against the window with a small sigh and close your eyes for a second. The world hums on. The sun keeps dipping. And still, thereās nowhere else youād rather be than right hereāwaiting for Stiles Stilinski to come back out, heart full of hope and hands ready to hold his.
Time drips by slowly, like honey from the edge of a spoon. The kind of waiting that feels stretched thin, but not in a bad wayājust soft around the edges, tinted golden by the sinking sun and heavy with expectation. A breeze rattles the few wrappers in the parking lot, and you adjust your position in the seat, stretching your legs a little as you glance at the dashboard clock again.
Itās been⦠longer than you expected. Maybe twenty minutes? Twenty-five? You lose count somewhere between checking your phone and daydreaming about the way Stiles' face lights up when he gets excited about things like space documentaries or really obscure facts about wild mushrooms. Youāre not worriedājust curious. Curious about how heās doing, what heās saying, whether he remembered to breathe between sentences.
A kid walks out with a milkshake and slams the door behind him. An older guy in uniform shouts something back at someone inside. You watch it all pass like a quiet movie, untilā
There he is.
Stiles bursts out of the doors like a spring wound too tight, full of nervous energy and flushed cheeks and the kind of restless momentum that screams adrenaline. Heās halfway jogging, his arms a little too animated, his mouth already moving even though no oneās with him to hear what heās saying. His backpack bounces against his side and his shirt is rumpled like heās been fidgeting with it the whole time.
Youāre out of the car before he even makes it to the Jeep, heart tugging you forward because he just looks so Stiles. So alive. So him.
He sees you and immediately lifts his hands like heās about to start explaining the chemical makeup of nerves themselves.
āI donāt even remember what I said in there, oh my god, I think I blacked out for a minute, againālike, legit blackout, like the kind where you come back and your mouth is still moving but your brainās playing elevator musicāand I definitely used the word āsynergyā unironically, and then I tried to make a joke and I donāt even know if it landed, andāā
āStiles.ā
You step in, close the distance, and kiss him. Just once, quick and grounding, your hands coming up to cup his face as you do. He melts instantly, shutting up with a soft āmmfā sound and blinking rapidly as he looks at you like you just stopped time with your mouth.
āBreathe,ā you say gently, grinning as you slide your hands to the sides of his neck. āStart with that.ā
He does, dragging in a huge inhale like he hasnāt taken one since walking in.
You ruffle his buzzed hair with affection, thumb sweeping across the curve of his warm cheek. āYou did it, baby. Iām proud of you.ā
He bites his lip, hands fluttering at his sides for a second before he finally lets them land on your waist, gripping tight like he needs to anchor himself. You wrap your arms around him and squeeze, tucking your chin over his shoulder. Heās trembling just a little.
āIāokay, so, like, not to be dramatic or anything,ā he starts, muffled into your neck, ābut I think I almost puked on the floor in there.ā
You laugh softly, rubbing his back. āSounds about right.ā
āBut I didnāt! I kept it together. Kinda. I think. Andāokay, this is the part I donāt believe myself yetāI got it.ā
You pull back.
āWhat?ā
His ears are red. His grin is crooked and sheepish and so insanely proud, like heās not sure if he should be proud yet but is doing it anyway.
āThey offered me the job,ā he says, voice half-wheeze, half-laugh. āLike, actual hired me. I start next week. Theyāre gonna send me the training schedule tonight.ā
You blink at him for a beat, stunnedāthen your face splits into the kind of smile that hurts your cheeks.
āStiles Stilinski, you beautiful, brilliant, disastrously handsome disaster, you did it!ā
He squeaks out something between a laugh and a breathless noise of disbelief as you throw your arms around him again, this time lifting him a little as you hug him tightly. He clutches you back like a lifeline, his grin pressed against your shoulder, and when you let him go just enough to look at him again, heās glowing.
āI got a job,ā he says, like he needs to hear it out loud to believe it. āI actually got a freaking job.ā
You kiss his nose. āYou deserve that job.ā
āAnd they said they liked how enthusiastic I was, whichāwhat? What? I was literally vibrating. I think I saluted at one point. Oh god, I did, didnāt Iāā
āYou did great. Youāre perfect,ā you say, punctuating each word with a peck to his cheek, his forehead, the corner of his mouth.
Heās laughing now, eyes crinkling with joy, and you hold him close again, grounding him with warmth and kisses and soft affirmations. And for a moment, itās just the two of you in a parking lot under a fading sunāfuture coworkers and schedules and burgers be damned.
Youāre proud of him. Youāre in love with him. And right now, the whole world feels like itās turning in the exact direction itās supposed to.
~~
Heās got that look againālike heās going to vibrate straight out of his own skin.
Youāre leaning in the doorway of his bedroom, arms crossed, watching the chaos unfold like itās a personal performance just for you. Stiles is moving like a man possessed, frantic energy spilling from every clumsy motion. His black McDonaldās polo is half-tucked, half-wrinkled, like it fought him this morning and almost won. Heās hopping in uneven circles while trying to get one sock over his ankle, breath coming fast, mumbling nonsense to himself.
Youāre trying really hard not to smile, but itās impossible. Heās too much. In the best way.
āOkay, okay,ā he mutters, not even looking at you, āI have my ID, I have my schedule, I have deodorant, I think. Did I put on deodorant? Shitāsmell me real quickāwait, no, thatās weird. Donāt smell me. Iāll reapply. I can reapply. Itās fine. Iāll justāoh my God, Iām going to die in a vat of fryer oil and be buried in a McNugget box.ā
āYouāre gonna be great, babe.ā
He stops mid-rant, finally looking at you. āYou have to say that. Youāre contractually obligated as my lover to say stuff like that.ā
āIām not under contract. Iām under the influence.ā You grin, stepping into the room and catching his face between your hands. āOf how cute you look in that ridiculous uniform.ā
Stiles flushes immediately, the buzzcut doing nothing to hide the red creeping all the way to the tips of his ears. āDonāt do that. Donāt do that. I already feel like an overcooked mozzarella stick, you canāt just flirt at me like that.ā
āI can and I will,ā you murmur, brushing your thumb over his jaw. Itās smoothābaby soft, freshly shaven, still carrying the faint scent of the generic foam he insists on using. You lean in a little, close enough to feel his breath stutter against your lips.
āOh God, do you think theyāll make me do drive-thru on my first day? I donāt even know how to work a headset. What if I mess up someoneās order and they throw hot coffee at me through the window? What if I drop a McFlurry and slip on it and fall directly into the fryer like some tragic fast-food final destination moment? What if I get arrested for involuntary food manslaughter?!ā
You blink. āThatās not a real thing.ā
āIt could be!ā
āStiles.ā
His name in your voice quiets him a little. Just a little. He stops and meets your eyes, hairline damp with nerves and his chest rising too fast. His lips part like heās going to start again, another tumble of fear and overthinking about fryer grease and minimum wage and what the hell a Filet-O-Fish even is, but you just gently frame his face in your hands.
His skinās warm. You can feel his heartbeat jumping under your fingers, fast and uncertain.
āHey,ā you say, quiet. āYouāre okay.ā
He tries to scoff, but it comes out more like a breathy wheeze. āIām a wreck.ā
āYouāre adorable.ā
āYouāre biased.ā
āOf course I am. I have taste.ā
He groans and tilts his head back like heās praying for patience. āYou are impossibly unhelpful.ā
āIām helping you chill out. With my charm. And my devastating good looks.ā
āYou are a menace.ā But his lips twitchāfighting a smile, always fighting the smile when you do this to him. Itās like he wants to stay panicked, like it gives him structure. But then youāre thisāsoft and steady and smirking at him like heās already wonāand the panic slips sideways into something warmer, something gentler.
You slide your thumbs across his cheekbones, grounding him. āYouāre gonna go in there, clock in, and prove everyone wrong. Youāre smart, youāre quick, and you care way too much about doing everything perfectly.ā
āIām also clumsy, awkward, and prone to catastrophic thought spirals about dipping sauces.ā
You kiss him. Not hard. Just soft, slow, lips pressing into his until he stops talking. Until he exhales against you. He always melts like this when you kiss him firstālike his brain short-circuits and everything in his head hushes for one goddamn second. You feel his hands curl into the hem of your shirt, not gripping, just holding, like he needs something to keep him grounded.
You pull back just far enough to whisper against his lips, āYouāre gonna do amazing.ā
He breathes you in like oxygen, and when he opens his eyes again, theyāre a little glassy.
āYeah?ā
āYeah,ā you say. āAnd if anyone gives you shit, just remember youāve got a personal cutie whoās more than willing to show up at 10 p.m. and commit a light felony on your behalf.ā
That gets a real laugh out of him. Quick and embarrassed and full of fondness. He steps back with a shake of his head and drags a hand over his buzzed hair. āGod, youāre ridiculous.ā
You shrug. āYou love me.ā
āI do. Unfortunately.ā
You watch him double-check his bag for the fifth time, patting pockets, muttering about gum and his schedule and wondering if itās weird to bring his own pen. And then he stands there in the doorway, still and awkward, like heās not sure what comes next.
So you step forward, wrap your arms around his middle, and hold him close.
He exhales into your shoulder, all the tension in his body pulling tight and then slowly unraveling, piece by piece.
āIām proud of you,ā you murmur into his ear. āFor real.ā
He squeezes you back. Quietly. No more rambling, no more jokes. Just him, holding on a second longer than necessary, until he finally pulls back.
You give him a smile he can hang on to. āYou do.ā
And then heās gone, jogging down the stairs, fumbling with his keys, and yelling something to his dad that you canāt quite make out. And you stand there in the empty doorway, listening to the door shut, heart full and warm and already counting down the hours until he calls you againānervous and breathless and needing you all over again.
Just the way you like him.
Honestly, The house felt hollow without him.
You hadn't realized how much noise Stiles carried until it was goneālike a trail of clutter and muttering and half-baked theories that usually followed him around. Now the silence was oppressive. Youād tried to distract yourself. Laundry. Scrolling. A game on mute. Even watched half an episode of some random show you'd already seen before just to fill the space. But the whole time, your mind kept drifting back to himāwondering if he was okay, if the headset finally stayed on, if his manager was being cool or if that new-kid awkwardness was clinging to him like fryer grease.
You checked your phone too many times. You typed out a couple āhowās it going?ā texts and deleted them. You figured heād let you know if something was wrong.
It turned out you didnāt have to wait long.
Your phone buzzed hard against the arm of the couch around 5:47pmājust late enough into his shift that something had clearly snapped. His name lit up your screen, and you answered before the second ring even hit.
āHeyāā
āOh my God, I spilled two milkshakes, I slippedālike, full-on slippedāon a wet floor sign next to the wet floor sign, and I think I accidentally rang in fifteen McChickens instead of one and then had to void the whole order but the system froze so I had to get Terri to come over and un-jam it and she gave me this look, like Iād just pissed on the register. I think the new guy saw me trip, and also the headset keeps, like, echoing my own voice into my ear so I sound like a stammering idiot every time I try to say āWelcome to McDonaldās,ā and the ice cream machine started beeping and I donāt even know why because I swear I didnāt touch it, and IāIām so bad at this. Iāmāthis is the worst idea Iāve ever had, and I once tried to wax my own chest with duct tapeāā
āStiles.ā
āāand I burned my wrist because the fry basket thing slipped when I wasāā
āStiles.ā
āāand I forgot to punch out for break and then tried to retroactively do it, but apparently youāre not supposed to do that? I didnāt know. I didnāt know. Iāā
āBaby.ā
He fell silent.
You exhaled softly and sat up straighter on the couch. āFirst of all, youāre not dying. Second, you didnāt accidentally launch a nuke, you just had a normal shift at a shitty fast-food job. Everyone spills stuff. Everyone trips. Everyone screws up the POS system, and if your manager's not giving you clear training, thatās on them, not you.ā
A shaky breath filtered through the line. You could hear the dull, muted chaos behind himāorders being called, grease crackling, the beep-beep-beep of some back timer going off.
āI feel like Iām⦠I donāt know. Drowning?ā he said, his voice smaller now. Not the frantic rant from before, but raw. Close. āLike Iām justāflailing in this ocean of soda syrup and mustard packets and everyone else is just swimming laps around me.ā
You closed your eyes, letting his words settle in your chest. āYouāre not flailing. Youāre learning. Thatās what this is. And I promise you, no one there has it all together. Theyāre just better at faking it.ā
There was a pause.
āā¦I got ketchup on my shoe,ā he whispered miserably.
āTragic.ā
āAnd the floorās sticky in the breakroom.ā
āCall the police.ā
He let out a choked laugh that turned into a soft, pathetic soundāsomewhere between a whimper and a sigh. āIām not cut out for this, babe.ā
āYouāre cut out for everything. You just werenāt born knowing how to operate a headset and scoop fries and decode corporate fast food nonsense all at once. Nobody is. You just need to get through tonight.ā
Another pause.
āI kind of want you to come here.ā
āI kind of already have my keys in my hand.ā
āYouāwait, really?ā
āYeah, babe. Iām kinda on my way.ā
āYou donāt have toāā
āKinda already locking the door.ā
He was quiet for a second. You could picture him there in the tiny backroom, curled in on himself, hoodie bunched up under his stupid uniform, hair flattened under that dumb visor, mouth red from chewing his lip.
āThanks,ā he said quietly. āYouāre⦠I mean. Youāre kind of everything.ā
āI know,ā you teased, shouldering your hoodie and stepping out into the night.
And when you climbed into the car and started the engine, there was already a plan forming in the back of your mindāa slow burn of want curling through your gut. Heād sounded so fragile, so wound up, so wreckable. And if he thought you were just coming there to talk him downā¦
Well, he was in for a hell of a comfort shift.
The drive felt longer than it actually was.
Beacon Hills wasnāt big, but when someone you loved sounded like they were hanging on by a threadāfrantic, flushed, tangled up in his own nervesāevery red light was a personal insult. You drummed your fingers against the wheel, headlights bouncing over familiar signs and sleepy storefronts, your chest buzzing with a mix of protectiveness and low-simmering heat.
Stiles always wore his anxiety on the surface. He didn't hide it; he couldn't. It lived in his fingers, the way they twitched or drummed or curled into sleeves. It lived in his breathāfast, shallow, rushed like it might forget how to come back in. Youād seen it a hundred times: when he was late to class, when his dad got called out on a tough case, when his shoelace snapped and he thought it meant the whole day was cursed.
But this was different.
This wasnāt school nerves. This wasnāt test-taking panic or awkward social tension. This was him trying to step into something new, trying to be an adult, trying to not mess it all upāand every little bump was hitting harder because he cared. Because he wanted to do well. Because he wanted someoneāanyoneāto look at him and say, youāre doing okay, kid. Youāve got this.
And tonight, that someone was going to be you.
You reached over and turned the heat up a notch, like it might hold you over until you got your hands on him.You were going to wrap your arms around him, hold him against your chest until he remembered how to breathe, kiss his stupid little visor right off his head if thatās what it took.
The McDonaldās lights were visible before you even turned into the parking lotāneon yellows and reds casting long, tired shadows across the asphalt. It wasnāt busy anymore. Just a few cars in the drive-thru. Most of the windows were dark except for the glow behind the counter and the dull blue light leaking out from the back hallway where staff came and went.
You pulled in slow, parking just off to the side where employees usually stood during breaks. The air smelled like fryer oil and half-burnt coffee, and it clung to everything. Even from here, you could see someone mopping through the frontāa blur of motion and yellow āCAUTIONā signsāand your stomach tugged.
Because you knew he was in there.
You knew he was somewhere in that building, buzzing out of his skin, twisting his fingers into his hoodie sleeves, probably pacing a line into the tile, telling himself he was messing everything up.
And you were about to walk in and make him feel like the most wanted, seen, safe person on Earth.
Your phone buzzed in the cupholder. One new message from Stiles:
Backroom. Please donāt laugh when you see me. I look like a gremlin.
You stared at the screen for a second, smiling gently.
Then you sent back:
Youāre my favorite gremlin. On my way in. Donāt melt.
You grabbed your hoodie from the passenger seat, tugged it on over your tee, and stepped into the night.
You were about to give him the only kind of relief that actually matteredāmore than touching, more than teasing.
Love that wraps around you and doesnāt let go.
Love that whispers: Youāre safe. Iāve got you. Youāre enough.
And you were going to remind him of that until he believed it. Until every last crack in him had been kissed quiet.
The moment you stepped through the double doors, the greasy hum of fluorescent lights and the low hiss of fryer oil hit you like a wave. It smelled like salt and stress and plastic-wrapped baked apple pies, and the tile squeaked under your shoes like it didnāt want you there.
You didnāt care.
You made a beeline for the counter, eyes scanning the inside with practiced calm, like you belonged there. And technically? You did. Your boyfriend was in the back losing his mind, and you were here to fix it.
There was a girl wiping down the milkshake station, blonde braid hanging over one shoulder, her visor crooked at a charming angle of not-giving-a-damn. She glanced up when she saw you, blinking at firstāthen pausing, looking you up and down like she was trying to place something. Her eyes widened slightly, and she let out this soft little, ohhh, under her breath.
āIām here to see Stiles,ā you said, not even bothering to lower your voice, your hands planted casually in your hoodie pocket. āHe called me.ā
Her whole face lit up like a rom-com meet-cute just exploded in her brain. āOh, youāre his?ā
You blinked. āYeah?ā
She grinned, eyes sparkling now, tossing her cleaning rag on the counter like it no longer mattered. āDudeās been pacing in the backroom like itās a damn telenovela. Full-on muttering, pulling at his sleeves, acting like he just set fire to the kitchen or something. I figured he was talking to someone important, but this is cute.ā
She didnāt wait for you to respondājust jerked her thumb toward the back like she was already halfway invested in your love story. āCome on. Heās all freaked out and pink in the face. Itās either endearing or tragic, I havenāt decided.ā
You followed her past the registers, the overhead menu screens still glowing like hollow billboards in the dark. The kitchen smelled stronger back hereāmore oil, more cleaner, more burnt starchāand the sound of timers ticking down and headset chatter fuzzing in the background wrapped around everything.
āJust back here,ā she said, pushing open the swinging door labeled āSTAFF ONLY.ā āTry not to break him.ā
You huffed a laugh. āIāll do my best.ā
As soon as you stepped through the backroom door, the difference was immediate. It was quieterāstill buzzing faintly with the buildingās hum, the occasional ding from a timerābut otherwise dim, cramped, and a little too warm. Boxes stacked along the walls. Wire shelves full of paper cups and ketchup packets. A narrow bench pressed up under a mounted coat rack, someoneās half-finished soda sweating onto the floor.
And thereācurled into himself like a stormcloud in human formāwas Stiles.
He was standing in the far corner, hoodie sleeves shoved halfway up his forearms and his McDonaldās polo bunching awkwardly around his waist like it didnāt quite know how to sit on his frame. His head was down, visor casting a shadow across his buzzed hair, one hand raking through the stubble like he was trying to find an escape hatch in his own scalp. His mouth was movingātalking to himself, still goingāand you could catch the faint edges of it:
āOkay. Okay, itās fine. Itās just a job, itās just a job, nobody diedāunless I gave someone the wrong order and now theyāre allergic to pickles andāfuck, no, no, Stiles, stopājust breathe, justāokay but the fries were overcooked and now they think I donāt careāGod, I probably look like Iām high or somethingāā
You stepped into the room, quiet but deliberate.
āHey.ā
He spun so fast he nearly knocked over a crate of straws. His eyes were wide, frantic, and when they landed on youāreal, present, warm and solidāhis whole expression cracked.
āYou came.ā
You stepped forward slowly, hands still in your hoodie pocket, voice gentle like you were trying not to spook a wild animal. āOf course I came. You sounded like you were about to collapse in on yourself like a dying star.ā
āIāokay, yes, thatās probably accurate,ā he said in a half-laugh, half-wheeze. āI justāI didnāt expect you to actuallyālike, you had your night. You were doing your stuff. And now youāre in here, and I look like the end of a stress PSA.ā
You tilted your head and smiled, soft and full of something warmer than just affection. You stepped closer, close enough that he had to tilt his head back a little to keep eye contact.
āYouāre the best part of my night, Stiles,ā you said, voice low. āOf course I came.ā
He looked like he didnāt know what to do with that. Like his brain short-circuited on kindness alone. His hands twitched like he wanted to reach for you but didnāt think he was allowed.
So you closed the space yourself.
One hand reached up, curled around the back of his neck, thumb brushing gently under the edge of his dumb drive-thru headset. The other slid to his waist, fingers hooking into the hem of his polo like it was a lifeline. His breath caught. His shoulders dropped, just a little.
And then, finally, he exhaled. Like your presence was permission to let go.
āHey,ā you murmured, brushing your thumb along his jaw. āI got you. Youāre okay. Iām here.ā
He nodded once, just barely.
Then he leaned into your chest and whispered, voice breaking, āI missed you so bad.ā
You held him tighter.
āYeah, baby. I missed you too.ā
He sank into you like heād been waiting to fall.
Every muscle in his body let go the second your arms wrapped around himālike all the tension that had been knotting up in his chest since his shift started suddenly had somewhere to go. His breath hitched again, not like panic this time, but like reliefālike he was holding back a sound he didnāt know if he was allowed to make.
You pressed your face into his hair, the faintest whiff of fryer grease clinging to the buzzed strands, and held him closer.
āDeep breath, baby,ā you whispered against his temple. āCome on. Just one. In through your nose.ā
He followed you, a shaky inhale filling his chest where it was pressed against yours.
āGood. Now out.ā
Another breath, this one steadier. His hands finally unclenched from the bottom hem of his hoodie and crept around your back, squeezing tightly like he was scared youād vanish if he let go.
āYouāve been doing so good,ā you murmured, peppering soft, featherlight kisses along the top of his head, his temple, the curve of his cheekbone. āYouāve only been working here a few hours and you already care this much. Thatās not failure, Stiles. Thatās you giving a shit. And itās beautiful.ā
He let out a choked little laugh. āItās a literal minimum wage job. I shouldnāt be this stressed about deep-frying potato product.ā
āThat doesnāt make your feelings less real,ā you said, pressing a kiss under his ear. āYou can be overwhelmed and still be doing amazing.ā
You felt him shiver.
Maybe it was the kisses. Maybe it was your voice low and soft and warm in his ear. Maybe it was the pressure of your hands sliding slow and firm up his back, grounding him.
Or maybeājust maybeāit was the way heād been shaking apart in private for hours, alone in this shitty, overlit fast-food hellscape, and now here you were: solid, warm, steady. A break in the noise. A safe place to land.
Your fingers trailed down his arms, thumbs sweeping softly along his wrists. Heād rolled his hoodie sleeves halfway up, and there was a red mark blooming near the inside of one. You kissed it gently.
āThis the burn?ā you murmured against his skin.
He nodded sheepishly. āYeah. Fryer tray. It hissed like a demon.ā
You kissed the mark again, even softer. āWell, you survived. My brave little grease warrior.ā
He let out another breath, this one a little more laugh than sigh. He tilted his head up, and you finally got a good look at his face.
Cheeks still flushed. Mouth bitten pink. Eyes wide and glassy, lashes clumped slightly from the heat in the backroom. The black visor was tilted too far forward again, casting a shadow over his buzzed head, and for a brief secondājust a flickerāyou had the thought again:
He looks so goddamn good like this.
Tense. Overworked. Pink in the face from stress and stubbornness. That ugly polo stretched tight over his chest. The fabric of his khaki pants tugged in all the wrong places. And that visor, crooked and dumb and so Stiles, sitting low over those big, frantic eyes.
God, he wore chaos like no one else.
You pressed your forehead to his, nose brushing his, breath warm between you.
āYouāve done nothing wrong tonight, okay?ā you said softly. āSpilling milkshakes? Thatās human. Frying things too long? Literally everyone does that. You didnāt burn the place down. You didnāt punch the headset. Youāre still standing. Youāre doing great.ā
His lips trembled like he was trying not to cryānot really out of sadness, but just relief.
āI kept thinking I was gonna get fired,ā he whispered, voice raw. āLike they were gonna realize I donāt know what Iām doing.ā
You leaned in and kissed the corner of his mouth. āYou donāt know what youāre doing. No one does in their first week. Thatās why training exists. Youāre not failing, baby. Youāre learning.ā
Another kiss, this time to the center of his forehead.
āAnd even if you were failingānewsflash, youāre notābut if you were? Iād still be right here. I'd still show up the second you call. Iād still wrap you up like this and tell you how proud I am of you.ā
His breath hitched again, and his grip on you tightened like he was worried he might float away otherwise.
You let the silence sit between you for a beat, thick and full of held emotion. You brushed your knuckles over his cheek, catching the tiniest sheen of sweat. He mustāve been running around for hours.
āYou need a drink?ā you asked gently. āWater? Or like⦠four gallons of Sprite?ā
He sniffed a little and laughed, small but real. āI think I just need you.ā
āGood,ā you said, kissing the tip of his nose. āBecause youāve got me.ā
You hugged him tighter, slow and full-bodied, and he melted againālike your chest was the only place he could breathe right.
You didnāt mind staying there a while.
You were going to hold him until every shaky inhale evened out. Until he remembered what it felt like to be steady. Until that dumb little visor wasnāt a symbol of failure, but something you could tease him about later, probably while pulling it off his head and kissing him breathless on a couch.
But not yet.
Now was for softness. For presence. For steady love in the middle of a fluorescent storm.
You stood there in the backroom, arms looped tight around each other, the low buzz of a distant fryer and the occasional squawk of the drive-thru headset fading into nothing. The moment had narrowed down to just you and him, caught in a quiet little pocket of warmth tucked behind crates of ketchup packets and stacks of napkin sleeves. The world didnāt reach here. Not right now.
Stiles was still pressed against you like gravity wasnāt enough. His breath had evened out a little, but you could still feel itāthe lingering tension in his shoulders, the way his fingers twitched against the fabric of your hoodie like he wasnāt sure he was allowed to fully relax yet.
You werenāt about to rush him.
You kept your movements slow, soft. One hand rubbed lazy circles at the base of his spine, the other brushing up and down his arm. His skin was warm under your touch, slightly sticky from the heat of the kitchen, and still tinged pink across the cheeks and ears. That dumb visor hadnāt movedāit still sat just a little too low on his forehead, shadowing his buzzed hair and making him look like the overworked, underpaid, stupidly beautiful mess he swore he wasnāt.
āYāknow,ā you murmured, brushing your nose just beneath his jawline, āI think the visorās growing on me.ā
He snorted against your chest, the sound muffled. āYou are such a liar.ā
āNo, Iām serious.ā You tipped your head just slightly, enough to rest your chin on his shoulder as you nuzzled closer. āI think it really brings out your exhausted, end-of-the-world aesthetic. Like a sexy drive-thru apocalypse survivor.ā
He huffed a breath, shoulders jerking with barely-contained laughter. āThatās not a thing.ā
āIt is now.ā You kissed the curve where his neck met his collar. āI shouldāve worn a matching one. Weād be unstoppable. Like, emotionally unavailable but aesthetically devastating.ā
He finally looked up at you, blinking through lashes still clumped from sweat, eyes clearer now. Still soft around the edges, still vulnerable, but no longer braced for the world to shatter. Just Stilesāyour Stilesātired and wrung-out and still looking like the best thing youād ever held.
āI must look like hell,ā he murmured, almost shy.
You reached up and gently ran your knuckles along his cheekbone. āYou look real. Honest. Hot, actually.ā
He flushed immediately, jerking back a little with a disbelieving laugh. āOkay, now youāre just being mean.ā
You stepped in again, closing that tiny bit of space, your hands finding his waist, your mouth tugged into a crooked grin. āI donāt lie about what turns me on, babe.ā
His breath caught againābut this time, it was with a smile. A real one. Small. Lopsided. But his.
You leaned forward, slowly, deliberately, your forehead brushing against his until you felt the soft press of skin meeting skin. He let out a little sound, barely a noise, like all the air in his lungs had just gone sweet instead of sharp.
You rubbed the tip of your nose against his.
Stiles blinked, confused for half a secondāthen his face broke into this ridiculous, perfect smile.
āAre you trying to Eskimo kiss me right now?ā he whispered, incredulous.
You nodded, noses still pressed, and whispered back, āMaybe.ā
His shoulders shook as he laughed, warm and breathy, and he bumped his nose against yours in return.
It was clumsy. Uncoordinated. You both accidentally headbutted each other a little, and Stiles let out a tiny, high-pitched ow, even though it clearly didnāt hurt. And then you both just stood thereāforeheads pressed, noses brushing, giggling like idiots in a supply room surrounded by cardboard boxes and the ghost of burned fries.
Your chest shook with laughter, and you watched him through blurry eyes as he tried to get his breath back, still grinning, still flushed.
āGod,ā he said, leaning into you again, the visor almost bumping you in the face this time, āyouāre, like, obscenely good at this.ā
āAt what?ā you teased, rubbing your nose against his again, gently this time.
āThis,ā he said, voice a little softer now. āMaking me feel⦠safe. Like Iām not screwing everything up just by existing.ā
You pulled him in tighter, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of his head. Your lips brushed the corner of his mouth againātender, quiet, grounding.
āYouāre not screwing anything up,ā you said. āYouāre figuring it out. And Iām right here with you.ā
He looked at you, and for a second it was all there in his eyesāeverything he couldnāt say without crying again. You saw it. You held it.
And then, still smiling, you bumped his nose with yours again, quick and mischievous.
He squeaked.
You grinned.
And then you were giggling again, together, wrapped in this quiet little hurricane of affection and cheap polyester and the kind of love that makes all the fluorescent hum and grease-slicked chaos feel small.
You couldāve stayed like that forever.
The hum of the freezer, the faint buzz of fluorescent lights, and Stilesās breathingāstill a little shaky, but steadyingāare all that fill the space. Heās in your arms, pressed soft and warm against your chest, his stupid little McDonaldās visor tilted askew, cheeks still red from crying and adrenaline and embarrassment, but his smileāGod, that smileāis back. Small. Real.
He giggles, just barely, and his nose crinkles in that way that should be illegal.
You should keep things sweet. Just hold him. Tell him again that heās okay, that heās good. But something shifts in your chest when he looks up at you through those lashes, smiling like you hung the moon, and you feel itālow, deep, needy. Like gravity pulling you forward, body reacting before your brain has the words for it.
You tilt your head. Your lips brush the corner of his mouth. His breath catches again.
āCan Iā¦?ā you whisper, your voice quieter than itās been all night.
He nods, the barest movement, and thatās all the permission you need.
You lean in, slow, kissing him softlyāonce, twiceābefore deepening it just a little. Enough to let him feel the edge under your sweetness. Your hands smooth down his back, fingertips catching on the hem of that ridiculous polo, and he lets out a sound so soft it barely registers.
He melts into it.
When you kiss him harder, you feel him gasp into your mouth, his hands fisting your hoodie again like he needs something to anchor him. You keep it slow, deliberateāyour lips sliding over his, teasing, coaxing. You suck his bottom lip gently between yours, letting your teeth graze it before pulling back just enough to see his eyes, heavy-lidded and glassy with something thatās not quite stress anymore.
Youāre not letting go.
You guide him gently, one step at a time, until his back bumps the wall. The steel of the shelf rattles faintly behind him. His breath hitches.
āGod,ā you whisper, brushing your thumb along his cheek, āyouāre so fucking cute.ā
He flushes instantly, shaking his head like he doesnāt believe you, like the words donāt fit in his ears right. āShut up,ā he mumbles, biting back a smile, āI look like the damn Hamburglar had a mental breakdown.ā
You kiss him again, firmer this time, your hand sliding up into his buzzed hair, tugging just enough to make him shiver.
āNo. You look like someone who's mine.ā
That stuns him for a second. He just stares at you, lips parted, chest rising and falling fast, and then he grabs your face and kisses you like he means it. Messy, eager, all tongue and heat and teeth bumping because neither of you cares about finesse anymore. Youāre holding him against the wall now, one hand gripping his hip, the other cradling the back of his head, and heās clinging to you like heās scared the moment will end too soon.
When you finally slow, mouths parting just barely, noses still brushing, he exhales shakily against your lips.
āIām gonna die if you keep kissing me like that,ā he breathes.
You grin. āThen I guess I better keep going. Just to make sure.ā
He snorts and buries his face in your neck. āYouāre a menace.ā
āYou love it.ā
He nods. āYeah. I really do.ā
Your heart stutters when he says itāYeah. I really do.
So soft. So honest. It hits you right in the fucking chest.
You pull back just enough to see his face again, still partially hidden in the crook of your neck, and tilt his chin up with two fingers. He looks up at you, all wide eyes and flushed cheeks, and you swear to God he doesnāt even know what he does to you. Heās breathing through parted lips, that messy little visor still cocked sideways, and the way his buzzed hair feels under your handāitās dangerous. Heās dangerous. Or maybe you are.
You lean in, kiss him again, slow and purposeful. He melts like warm butter against the wall, fingers still gripping the front of your hoodie, hips just barely twitching toward yours like he doesnāt even realize heās doing it.
āYouāre so fucking cute,ā you whisper again, lips brushing his as you speak. āYou donāt even know, do you?ā
He lets out this strangled little noise, half-laugh, half-groan. āIāI donāt. You say stuff like that and my brain just⦠crashes. Like a Windows 98 shutdown sound.ā
You chuckle softly, kissing the corner of his mouth, then his cheek, then that little spot right below his ear that makes him shiver. āYeah? Poor baby. Canāt handle compliments?ā
He whimpers, actually whimpers, and it goes straight through you.
Your hands slide down slowly, over the cheap polyester polo thatās clinging to his torso with the faintest sheen of sweat, down to where his khaki shorts sit too snug on his hips. You toy with the waistband, just brushing your knuckles beneath his shirt, and he squirms a littleānervous, but not stopping you.
āYou okay?ā you murmur, kissing down his jaw, your breath hot against his skin.
He nods quickly, voice barely a breath. āY-Yeah. Just⦠no oneās everā¦ā He swallows. āI donāt know what Iām doing.ā
You smile against his neck, nuzzling there, soft and sweet even as your fingers work the top button of his shorts. āYou donāt have to do anything. Just let me take care of you.ā
He exhales hard, his head thunking softly back against the wall. āHoly shit.ā
You pop the button and unzip him slowly, deliberately, your knuckles brushing the soft cotton of his boxers. Heās hard. Not fullyāyetābut getting there, thick and warm under your touch, twitching when your fingers graze him through the fabric.
āSee?ā you murmur against his lips as you kiss him again. āYou are turned on. Told you you were hot.ā
He groans and tries to hide his face again, but youāre quicker, cupping his jaw and forcing him to look at you.
āDonāt hide from me,ā you whisper. āYou look so good like this. Youāve been working so hard all night, being so sweet, and now youāre letting me touch you? Letting me make you feel good?ā You slip your hand into his boxers, and he gasps, hips jerking.
āYouāre so perfect, Stiles. So fucking good.ā
He looks wrecked already, just from a hand on his cock. His lashes flutter, mouth hanging open, cheeks impossibly red. āIāI think Iām gonna short circuit,ā he breathes, voice cracking. āLike I can hear the dial-up tone in my brain.ā
You kiss him again, deep and slow, while your hand strokes him lazilyāfingers wrapped around the base, thumb teasing the slit. He twitches in your palm, moaning softly against your mouth. His cock is hot and leaking now, and his boxers are damp with it.
āYouāre doing so good for me, baby,ā you murmur. āLook how hard you are. Just from some kissing and a little praise. God, youāre so responsive.ā
āTh-thatās a word,ā he whimpers, voice going high and sweet. āJesus. Youāre like⦠youāre like a fucking sex wizard or something.ā
You laugh against his mouth, so fond it makes your chest ache. āJust for you, baby.ā
And then you kiss him again, because if you donāt, youāre going to say something like I think I might love youāand neither of you is ready for that while your handās still down his pants.
You stay like that for a breathāa heartbeatālips barely apart, your hand wrapped around him warm and slow inside his boxers, his cock twitching with every soft stroke. Stiles is flushed all the way to his ears, breathing like he just ran a mile, his eyes half-lidded and overwhelmed, but still looking at you like you hung the damn stars.
You shift your mouth down, slowly, kissing along his jaw. He tips his head back instinctively, giving you space, trust spilling from him like itās the easiest thing in the world. You mouth at his skin just under his jaw, just above his collarāsoft, wet kisses that make him sighāand when your teeth scrape lightly across the bend of his throat, he makes a sound. A sharp little gasp that melts into a moan as his hands grab at your hoodie again, grounding himself.
āFuck,ā he breathes, voice wrecked and wobbly, āI donātāI donāt think Iām gonna survive this. This might be, like, the best and worst way to die.ā
You smile against his neck, lips dragging slowly down. āNot dying, baby. Just feeling good. Just letting me take care of you.ā
You nose the collar of his polo aside, biting softly at the edge of his shoulder, your tongue flicking over the spot before you kiss it better. His hips rock against your hand, needy now, his cock growing fully hard beneath your touch. Itās beautifulāthe way he responds. Like he doesnāt know how to not give you everything.
āYouāre doing so well,ā you murmur against his skin. āSo perfect. Letting me touch you like this. Letting me see you like this.ā
He lets out a breathy little āfuckā and whines when you squeeze him gently, thumb brushing over the tip through his boxers, slick with pre-cum. The fabric's damp now, sticking to him, and you can't help itāyou need more. Need him.
You sink slowly to your knees, eyes never leaving his flushed face as you ease his shorts and boxers down in one fluid motion. His cock bobs free, thick and hard and so achingly pretty, flushed deep at the head and leaking steadily. You stare for a secondājust breathe him ināthen press the softest kiss to the tip.
Stiles gasps, hands flying to your shoulders like heās not sure whether to pull you closer or push you away.
āOh my god,ā he whispers, voice cracking. āThatāsāyouāreāfuck.ā
You press another kiss to the side of his shaft. Then another. And another. Slow and reverent, like youāre memorizing him with your mouth.
āYouāre perfect,ā you whisper between kisses. āLook at you. All flushed and sweet and hard for me. Youāre so fucking good, baby.ā
He makes a wounded little noise like he doesnāt know what to do with the praise, thighs tensing under your hands.
āYou donāt even get it, do you?ā you murmur, kissing along the vein on the underside of his cock. āHow good you are. How much I want you.ā
You mouth at the base, nuzzle against his skin, press your lips to the crease of his thigh. Heās trembling now, breath coming in little gasps, hips twitching forward, like he canāt decide if he wants more or if itās already too much.
His voice is barely a whisper: āIām gonnaāgonna break into, like, pixels if you keep saying stuff like that.ā
You laugh softly and kiss the tip again, eyes flicking up to meet his. Heās staring down at you, lips parted, completely wreckedāand you havenāt even really started yet.
āGood,ā you breathe. āFall apart for me, Stiles. Iāll catch you.ā
You let the words settle between youāI'll catch youāand for a second, Stiles looks like he might cry again, not from panic this time, but from something soft and terrifyingly big. His fingers tighten on your shoulders, and his thighs tremble beneath your palms, and you donāt rush him. You just stay there, on your knees on the cold backroom tile, mouth near his cock, hands splayed gently on the sides of his hips like youāre holding something delicate.
Like he might shatter if you hold him too hard.
He swallows hard. Looks down at you, dazed and flushed and blinking like he doesnāt understand how he got here. āI, uhā¦ā he starts, voice low, trembling, āI don''tā¦ā
āI know,ā you murmur, brushing your lips against his hip, āand you donāt have to. You say the word, I stop. But if you want me to⦠if you want to feel good, I want to take care of you.ā
His breath stutters out of him, shaky and tight, and he nods. Slowly. āYeah. IāI want. Please.ā
You smile and press one more kiss to his inner thigh before you lean in again, kissing the base of his cock with the kind of care people usually reserve for sacred things. You drag your lips along the length, slow and soft, feeling every twitch, every slight tremble. Heās so sensitive already, his hips shifting forward and back, but you donāt take him in yet. You just savor it. Savor him.
When you finally part your lips and wrap them around the head, he shudders like a live wire, a low, strangled sound caught in the back of his throat. His hand flies upāthen hesitatesāhovering over your head like he doesnāt know if heās allowed to touch.
You pull off slowly, just enough to whisper, āItās okay. You can guide me. Go slow. Tell me what feels good.ā
He nods, shakily, then gently rests his hand on your headālight, careful, like youāre made of glass. You lick the head softly, swirling your tongue around it, and his fingers twitch, not pushing, just holding on.
His other hand slaps over his mouth the second a choked moan slips out.
āF-fuck,ā he mumbles against his palm. āWeāre ināJesusāweāre in the backroom. Oh my God. There areāthere are, like, fries ten feet from here.ā
You hum around him, slow and low, which makes his knees buckle a little. You reach up and grip his hips to keep him steady, then take him in againādeeper this time, just a little. You go slow, wet and warm and gentle, sucking him down a few inches at a time and pulling back just as slowly, letting him feel every inch of it.
Stiles is gasping now, trying desperately to stay silent, his hand gripping your hair like heāll float away if he doesnāt hold on. Heās so responsive, his cock twitching with every pass of your tongue, every soft moan you let out around him. Every time he almost makes a noise, he clamps his other hand harder over his mouth, eyes wide and wild, like heās afraid he might scream if he lets go.
You glance up and heās looking down at you, wrecked and shaking, sweat on his brow and his mouth open just enough that you can see the shape of the vowels heās biting back.
āYouāre doing so good, baby,ā you whisper when you pull off again, stroking him slowly with one hand. āSo sweet. Letting me take care of you like this. You feel so good in my mouth.ā
He whimpers, actually whimpers, and you watch the shame and heat war on his face like he doesnāt know whether to melt into it or run.
You smile gently, licking a stripe up the underside of his cock. āYou donāt have to be quiet for me. Just do your best. I know itās hard.ā
āEverything is hard,ā he whines under his breath, voice cracking, and you both laugh quietlyābecause even now, heās still Stilesāand then he moans again when you take him back into your mouth.
This time, you let him guide the rhythm. Let him roll his hips just a little, slow and hesitant, like heās scared heāll hurt you. You keep your hands on his thighs, squeezing gently, encouraging. You hollow your cheeks and moan around him, and he shudders, grip tightening just enough to make your scalp tingle.
Heās shaking now, full-body trembling, holding his breath like thatāll keep the noise in, and you can tell heās closeābut heās fighting it. Trying to hold back. Trying not to let go too fast, even though itās his first time, even though heās barely holding on.
You pull off slowly, kiss the tip one more time, and look up at him with a soft smile, thumb brushing his hip.
āStill with me?ā
He nods quickly, chest rising and falling like heās run a marathon. āY-yeah. I just. I need a second. Or, like, twenty. Youāre gonna kill me.ā
You press a kiss to his lower stomach and grin. āNah, baby. Iām gonna make you feel alive.ā
You let that last promise hang in the air for a breath, then you lower your head againāno teasing this time. No slow build. Heās already teetering, already right there, and you want to give it to him. Want to take it from him.
Your lips part and you take him back into your mouth, deeper this time, letting him slide past your tongue inch by inch until heās pressing against the back of your throat. You breathe slow and steady through your nose, adjusting, eyes fluttering shut for just a second as you savor the feel of himāhot, heavy, pulsing, twitching.
The sound he makes is helpless. Desperate. A strangled, half-choked moan like he doesnāt know whether to sob or scream. His fingers curl hard into your hair now, not to force you down, but to hang on, like heās barely holding himself together.
You bob your head slowly, rhythm steady, sucking him down and pulling back, letting your tongue work around the head on every upstroke. The taste of him is everywhereāsalty, hot, Stilesāand you groan low in your throat just to feel him jump against your tongue. Your hands grip his thighs tight as you feel his muscles strain and shake, and when he gasps again, itās almost a warning.
āIāfuck, fuck, Iāmāā he pants, wild and broken. āIām gonnaāshitāIām comingāā
And you donāt pull off. You donāt slow down. You suck him deeper, lips sealing tight around him, hand sliding from his thigh to cradle his hip as he jerks, as his whole body locks up and his cock twitches hard once, twiceā
Then heās spilling into your mouth.
He shouts through gritted teeth, trying to muffle it with the back of his hand, but the sound still bursts out of him, rough and wrecked and real. His legs nearly give out, knees buckling under the intensity of it, and you hold him steady as hot spurts of come hit the back of your throat. You swallow immediatelyāreflexivelyāyour throat working around him as you keep him deep, making sure nothing spills. His cock twitches again and again as he empties himself into you, and you take all of it, not letting up until you feel the pulses start to slow.
Even then, you donāt move right away. You stay there, mouth full of him, holding him safe and snug while he shakes through the aftershocks. His hand is a death grip in your hair now, not rough, just desperateāanchored. You can feel him trembling under your palms, chest heaving, every inch of him overstimulated and twitchy.
Finally, slowly, you ease off him, inch by inch, keeping your lips soft and sealed around him so nothing smears, nothing escapes. He makes a pitiful sound as you pull off, this soft, broken whine like he doesnāt know what to do with himself without your mouth around him.
His cock twitches again when you release him with a soft pop, slick and sensitive and still hard enough that it bobs slightly in the cool air. He hisses through his teeth, hips jerking once, too raw to hide how overwhelmed he is.
You press a gentle kiss to the tipājust a soft touch of your lipsāand then another to his thigh, and then lower your head to rest it lightly against his hip.
You can feel the way heās still trembling. See it, tooāhis fingers shaking where they hover awkwardly in your hair, his knees visibly wobbling, his chest rising and falling in quick, shallow gasps like heās still coming down from the high.
And his faceāgod, his face.
Heās flushed to the ears, eyes half-lidded and glassy, mouth parted and lips swollen from biting back every noise he could. Thereās a look there thatās hard to nameāpart awe, part disbelief, and something else. Something deeper. Like heās not just undone by the orgasm but by what it meant. By the way you took care of him. Like he doesnāt know how to hold that kind of softness.
You rub slow, soothing circles into his hips with your thumbs, grounding him.
āYou okay, baby?ā you murmur, voice low and warm.
He nods, fast at first, then slower, like it takes effort. āYeah. I justāJesus. IāI died. That wasāyou killed me.ā
You smile, and lean up to press a soft kiss just above his navel. āNah. Told you, remember? I made you feel alive.ā
He laughsāactually laughsāa rough, wrecked little sound that cracks halfway through, and then he sinks down toward you, collapsing half into your lap. You catch him easily, arms sliding around his waist, pulling him close as he curls in.
His breath hitches once. And then he lets it out, long and shaky, as he presses his forehead against your shoulder.
āā¦I think you broke my knees.ā
You laugh quietly and kiss the side of his head. āYou loved it.ā
āI did,ā he groans, voice still hoarse and shaky. āWhich is terrifying. Because if your mouth feels that good on me, I donāt even know what the hellās gonna happen when, uh⦠when Iāyāknow⦠fuck you.ā
He winces a little at the last part, cheeks blooming red like he canāt believe he just said that out loud. His eyes widen slightly, flicking away for half a second like he's about to apologize, but when he glances back down at youāon your knees, lips slick, eyes shiningāhe seems to find something steadier inside himself. Still unsure, still amazed, but holding onto it anyway.
You blink up at him from the floor, hands warm on his thighs, and Stiles swallows thickly like heās trying to reboot his whole brain just to process you. The look on his face is a jumble of things: shock, awe, deep, unfiltered wantābut under it all, this aching kind of gentleness. Like he canāt believe this is happening, and heās terrified he might mess it up.
His handās still hovering near your face, twitching a little like he wants to touch you but doesnāt know if itās okay. You lean into it, your cheek brushing his knuckles, and the soft exhale he lets out is wrecked.
āYou okay?ā he asks, his voice rough but quiet, like heās almost afraid of the answer. āThat wasnāt⦠too much, right? Youāre not, like, sore orāGod, I didnāt mean to, like, shove myself down yourāā
āHey,ā you say softly, and his mouth clamps shut. āIām fine. More than fine.ā
The way relief floods his faceāitās like you flipped a switch. His shoulders sag just a little, like heād been holding himself tense without realizing, and now heās trying to come back to earth.
āI just,ā he mumbles, scratching the back of his neck with his free hand. āIāve never⦠had anyone do that for me. Ever. And especially not like that. It wasnātālike, it didnāt feel dirty or fast or⦠y'know, like one of those locker room fantasy things. It feltā¦ā He swallows again. āIt felt like you actually wanted to.ā
āI did,ā you say.
And oh, God, the look that earns youāhis whole face goes soft, like he doesnāt know what to do with that kind of honesty. Like maybe heās not used to being the one someone else wants first. You shift slightly and press a last, warm kiss to the soft skin just below his belly button before gently helping him tuck himself back into his boxers. He hisses a little when the fabric brushes over his still-sensitive cock, and you immediately kiss the crease of his hip, murmuring a quiet āSorry.ā
Stiles just shakes his head quickly, his hand finding your shoulder this time, steadying himselfānot because he needs to, but because he wants the contact.
āYouāre ridiculous,ā he says, a little breathless, a little stunned. āLike, in a good way. A really, really good way.ā
You smile as you guide his khaki shorts back up, fingers brushing lightly over his thighs as you do the button. Thereās something weirdly intimate in the quiet domesticity of itālike youāre not just helping him get dressed, but grounding him. Letting him stay in this moment. When you glance back up, Stiles is already watching you. Eyes wide, soft, like he doesnāt want to blink in case this all disappears. āYou okay to stand?ā
āI mean, in theory,ā he says with a dazed little laugh. āI canāt feel my knees, so thereās a strong chance I just collapse and die.ā
You rise slowly, and the moment youāre up, he pulls you into himānot rough, not demanding, just⦠close. Like youāre an anchor heās afraid to lose. His hands settle carefully at your hips, and when your noses bump, you realize heās leaning in again. The kiss he gives you this time is softer than any of the others. Not rushed. Not frantic. Just real. He lingers there, lips barely moving, like heās trying to pour every unsaid word into the space between you.
You melt into it, sighing quietly, and slip your hand into the back of his buzzed hair. Itās soft and warm under your fingers, and when you scratch gently at the base of his neck, he exhales against your mouth. He pulls back slowly, his eyes a little clearer nowāstill wide, still reeling, but more focused. More there. And his expression shiftsālike heās trying to say something important but doesnāt want to scare you with it.
āIāum. I really, really meant what I said,ā he mumbles, a bit shy now. āAbout, like, doing that next time. Being the one who⦠who gets toāyāknow.ā He gestures vaguely. āWith you. I mean, if you want that. And if itās not weird. And if I donāt completely mess it up and fall over or hit my head on something.ā
You blink, heart stuttering. āYou want to top?ā
āY-yeah,ā he says quickly. āNot in a, like, āalpha maleā way or anything. I just⦠I wanna take care of you. Like you just took care of me. And I⦠I want to see you like that. See how you look when Iāmāā He stops, turning even redder, then mumbles, āInside you.ā
You stare for a beat. Then: āStilesā¦ā
āI mean, if you donāt want toāā
āNo,ā you cut in, smiling. āI do. God, I really do.ā
He visibly relaxes, smiling a littleāawkward and crooked and impossibly sweet. But thereās a flicker of heat behind it now. A little more grounded. A little more sure.
āI, uh⦠maybe not here, though,ā he says, glancing around sheepishly. āI donāt wanna break your spine over a bag of crinkle fries.ā
You laugh, and he beams.
āBut likeā¦ā He glances down at his hands on your hips, then back up at you. āLater. Somewhere, like, safe. Where I can go slow. Where I can see your face. Take my time.ā
Your breath catches, chest suddenly aching in the best way. He leans in again, brushing your nose with his. āOkay?ā
You nod. āMore than okay.ā
āCool.ā He kisses you once moreāsweet and lingeringāand then rests his forehead against yours, breath warming your skin.
āWe should go before someone walks in and I get fired for literally dying happy.ā You laugh, heart fluttering. And you both know: this was only the beginning. And next timeāwhen itās just the two of you, no fry smell, no ticking clockāheās going to give you everything. Even if heās still figuring out how.
Heās still holding you close, warm hands settled on your hips like heās afraid if he lets go, you might disappear. His breath is a little steadier now, brushing soft over your cheek, and the adrenalineās finally bleeding off, leaving just the afterglow and a fragile sort of awe. You stay quiet for a moment, just breathing together in the back room of a McDonaldās like itās the most sacred place on earth.
Then, with your lips close to his ear, you murmur, āSo. Youāre gonna fuck me, huh?ā
The sound he makesāitās somewhere between a gasp and a strangled choke. His face goes from flushed to full-body red, and his eyes shoot wide as he pulls back to look at you, stammering. āIāwhāYouāthatās notāI mean, yes, but not likeāGod.ā He scrubs a hand over his face, groaning into his palm. āYouāre gonna kill me.ā
You grin, leaning in to nip at his jaw. āI think I like you flustered.ā
āIām always flustered,ā he mutters helplessly, voice muffled behind his hands.
āExactly,ā you murmur, nuzzling against his cheek. āItās cute.ā
He drops his hands with a sigh and gives you a lookāhalf exasperated, half so stupidly fond it makes your chest ache. āIām trying to be, like, confident and sexy and a āIām-gonna-fuck-youā guy. And youāre over here making fun of me.ā
āIām not making fun of you,ā you say, smiling. āIām appreciating you. Thereās a difference.ā
Stiles huffs, but heās fighting back a smile. His hands squeeze your waist a little tighter like he doesnāt want to leave this bubble youāve built. āYou know this is the weirdest, best day of my life, right?ā
You lean your forehead against his, humming. āYeah. Same.ā
For a while, you just stand there. Tucked into each other, surrounded by the low hum of the freezer unit, the faint smell of fries and fryer oil lingering in the air. It's cold on the tile, harsh fluorescent lights overheadābut none of it matters. Not with his arms around you. Not with his heart thudding steady and slow against your chest, like itās syncing to yours. Stiles sighs, that same quiet, dazed kind of sound he made when you first kissed his neck. āI donāt wanna move,ā he admits, voice low. āLike, at all.ā
āMe neither.ā
āBut if we stay here too long, someoneās gonna come in looking for ketchup packets or something, and Iāll die. Just, like, spontaneously combust. Youāll have to explain to the coroner why my bodyās in a pile of ashes next to the mop sink.ā
You laugh softly and press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. āGuess we should get back out there before you turn to dust, then.ā
He makes a dramatic groan and buries his face in your shoulder. āFine. But Iām not letting go.ā
āDidnāt ask you to.ā
Eventuallyāreluctantlyāhe straightens, brushing your hair gently back from your face. His eyes are so warm now. Still wide with disbelief, still a little unsure, but thereās a steady thread of something new behind it: hope.
āYouāre really okay?ā he asks again, one last time. āWith all of this? With me?ā
You take his face in your hands, brush your thumbs over his cheeks, and nod. āI want you, Stiles. Nervous, rambling, sweet, brilliant you. Whether weāre making out in a supply closet or youāre trying to figure out how to top without implodingāIām in.ā
He stares at you for a second like heās memorizing the words. Like heās filing them away for every bad day, every night he doubts himself. Then he kisses you again. Slow. Sweet. With a kind of reverence that makes your knees go weak.
When he pulls back, he rests his forehead to yours and whispers, āOkay. Then Iām in, too. All in.ā
The two of you straighten your clothes and make your way out of the back room, fingers still brushing, hearts still pounding. And laterāwhen itās dark and quiet and heās got you alone in a real bedāheāll finally get to show you what that means. But for now, in the echoing hum of the McDonaldās kitchen, youāve got each other.