RESET, RESTORE, RESTART
If I don't have anything else, I have perseverance. I've lived through so much in 30 years. More so in the past 10 smh. It's been a constant roller coaster...well coasters and all of them didn't even work lol. I've failed so much that I almost gave up on EVERYTHING and everyone. I can honestly, yet remorsefully, say that I have been the worst to alot of women. The worst. Portraying myself to be the "nice guy", when in reality my initial motives with 75% of them was sex. I played the role very well, was very patient and caring...just to get what i wanted. I even treated some friends the same, using them for what I wanted until I had no more need for what they could provide. And I love my friends, especially the ones I met at FVSU, I mean I really love them, they saved my life. I rarely call them friends, they are framily! The best! I love my children as well, all 3 of them. I can honestly say I haven't been a great Father to them. Nor have I been a good co-parent/significant other in some cases to their mothers. I let alot of fear and pride get in the way of my relationship with the kids and their mothers. I was very selfish, I've been very selfish. I've been halfway chasing a dream that I know God has given me. Making excuses, procrastinating, and allowing my fears to hinder me from my purpose. But no longer... The next 30, I will be a better father and make a conscious effort to treat my children like the gifts they are, and be the best support their mothers have. I will no longer allow myself to feel incapable and/or inadequate. God has given me everything I need. He's placed beautiful people in my life, inside and out, and I will cherish them. I will cherish you. I will no longer allow the enemy to convince me I'm running out of time and that my failures were just that, failures. I've learned so much from them. And I will share those lessons with my kids and the rest of this world through my actions, voice, and music.
