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defmoon_ on twt, 24, she/her, bisexual, italian, "MAMA WE MADE IT!" - johnny suh (defars.carrd.com)

[chenleyah]

CHENLE’S BIRTH CHART for CHENLE DAY 2022

[defm0on]

i come here once a year and drop the most dramatic updates IM SORRY

[defm0on]

i haven’t been here in over a year but… life has been good nct wise <3

i saw them more times than i could ever imagine and i couldn’t ask for more

i also got to see dream in copenhagen and got barricade too!!

and my all time favourite yuta dropped a solo album so what more could i ask for?

(i mean i could ask for ty and jh to still be here, for who used to be one of my ults to not be a r4p1st and one of my favourite singers growing up to not have d13d but yeah anyway…)

[defm0on]

LET ME IN, LET ME THIRDWHEEL PLEASE

I want yuta but yuta wants mark and yuta always gets what he wants I guess

[defm0on]

coming back here after ages just to tell you what a good damn year I'm having nct wise:

got to see nct dream in berlin ✨

also got to see wayv in paris ✨

and, I still can't believe it, but I saw both doyoung and jaehyun at milan fashion week ✨

I'm really feeling blessed ❤️‍🩹

bonus: me under d&g balcony with doyoung, me on the national news and me in jaehyun’s vlog 💀

[defm0on]

yuta is so ready to curse everyone under that damn company to protect his shotaro

none of them deserve this

[mistarover]

in light of moonbin's passing- it's okay if you distract yourself. it's okay if for awhile you just pretend like it didn't or isn't happening. you're not a bad person if you laugh at something else after hearing the news or smile or feel other feelings.

at the same time if you feel like you're wallowing in grief, that's okay too. it's a complicated process. it's hard to understand. all i know is that he'll be missed a lot.

[defm0on]

it's hard to find the right words, but I'll try anyway.

astro were one of the first kpop groups I got into, back in 2019. I've long since moved on from them, because life happens, but I never forgot the love I had for them.

moonbin had been my bias from the start, since I pulled him out my first album and decide it was faith.

i can't express the pain I am in right now, and I've been for the past 24 hours, and it's not even comparable to what his friends and family must be feeling.

i can't stop thinking that it has to be just a nightmare, that he must still be with us, somewhere, somehow. i can't understand how life can be so cruel and change everything in a matter of seconds.

I'll remember you like the warm sunny afternoon of a spring day, just like the one when I had to say goodbye to you. You did great Moonbin, and we'll miss you forever.

[defm0on]

I AM ALIVE (barely because yuta being active on Instagram is slowly destroying me)

btw life update: I got tickets to the dream show 2 in berlin 😭 I'll see 7dream live in front of me 😭

i also want to l1ck his legs and his thighs

[defm0on]

redid my yuta tattoo and added cherries because, you know, yuta...

i love being a yuta stan

[defm0on]

alexa play jealousy

i want to be mark so bad

[defm0on]

my rock star model nakamoto yuta

[defm0on]

[defm0on]

long tied hair yuta is my favourite yuta

especially if they are brided

[defm0on]

Ummm is there a difference between queerbaiting and fanservice in Kpop? Cause Mark and Yuta seem to be doing one of them and i am not sure which...

uhm i really don't think they're queerbaiting? yuta can be very "intense" and flirty with some members (he was the same with sicheng), but it's just the way their relationship is (probably with some added fanservice sometimes)

i really don't see how it would be queerbaiting

[defm0on]

gender envy

[defm0on]

i get it yuta, i too am in love with mark lee