DegreesFromReality

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I remember that time,

cuddling on the floor,

my first kiss,

us kissing under the stars–

puzzles, bedheads, and WingStop

[degreesfromreality]

I cry when I think of you

Rejecting me

The tacit connection we had

Strained dates with strangers

Shivering in the cold

Endless winter

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I miss holding you close

I loved you

I held you and kept you safe

I was there even when you drifted far away

[degreesfromreality]

“things I’d like to do this summer”

maybe this summer I’ll finally stop missing you

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You don’t talk about me

You don’t think about me

I am nothing

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“The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.”

– Juno (2007)

[degreesfromreality]

Once upon a time I told you I would help you carry the weight of the world you felt on your shoulders.

So I started feeling heavy…

and then you left…

and you feel so much lighter now…

Somehow I really did end up carrying it for you

[degreesfromreality]

“What are you looking forward to in 2026?”

It’s a complicated question. Sometimes my depression keeps me from looking forward to anything. Everything feels unlikely or impossible. I haven’t breathed since 2020. I hope I see better results from my current medical treatment. I’ve all but given up on getting my chronic fatigue figured out. My brain will continue to scream.

Hoping a summer internship will be interesting.

Interested to see what my nephew is like as he grows up.

Idk

[degreesfromreality]

Maybe one day I’ll be able to throw things like this away

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I wish things could go back to the way they used to be… when I would reach across the darkness to find you there reaching back

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Do you read these? Do you remember me?

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Why can’t I move on?

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I look around

And I see him come to get me

He's come to get me

And everything's okay

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What do I do when your brain is full of hobbies and business and mine is still drifting in the void?

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I suppose we really were ships passing in the night.

Goodbye.

[degreesfromreality]

I’m so tired of not being enough

[degreesfromreality]

The airplane has Ólafur Arnalds to listen to. Do you still listen to him? I don’t listen to music very often. It makes me feel things and think of you. And you’re thinking of other things.