Let us pray.

❝ Dejanos rezar. ❞ You said I have nothing. You are wrong. I have love, I have hope, and I have faith. These things are not weaknesses. They make me what I am; an exorcist.

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THE ULTIMATE HOLIDAY THEMED ASK MEME {part of: ❄ twenty-five days of elle} 

SEND ME A SYMBOL

▲: One of our muses tries to catch snowflakes on their tongue. ☾: Your muse asks for help decorating a gingerbread house. ♪: One of our muses inviting the other for a Christmas duet. ♦: Our muses wrap presents together. ☃: Our muses build a snowman together. ✈: Our muses travel somewhere for the holidays. ✎: My muse’s Christmas card to yours. ✘: My muse runs into your muse while trying to buy them a Christmas present.  ✆: My muse calls your muse while drunk on eggnog.  ツ: Our muses go caroling.  ✿: My muse gives your muse a Christmas present. ø: Our muses cuddle by the fireplace with hot cocoa.  ✌: Our muses argue over which Christmas movie to watch.  ♡: Our muses kiss under a mistletoe.  ♛: Our muses kiss at midnight on New Year’s.  ➸: Our muses decorate their house together. ♘: Our muses put up a Christmas tree and decorate it. ✰: My muse invites your muse to dance to Christmas songs. ☼: Our muses volunteer to help out for the holidays. ∞: Our muses go tree shopping. ❖: Our muses go ice skating together. ☁: Our muses go sledding.  ✉: Your muse hits mine with a snowball in order to start a snowball fight.  ϟ: Our muses bake Christmas cookies together. ↺: Our muses doing something holiday-themed with their kid(s).

SENTENCES

“Look! It’s snowing!” “Do we really have to leave cookies for Santa?” “Santa’s not real! There, I said it!” “Where do we hang the stockings if we don’t have a fireplace?” “You really don’t have to get me anything this year.” “Do we really have to go to your parents’ house for Christmas?” “Let’s just sit in our pajamas and watch Christmas movies all day.” “You’re gonna become huge if you keep eating all of Santa’s cookies.” “Oh, put some mistletoe on my butt and kiss it.” “This is the best Christmas I’ve ever had.” “This is the worst Christmas ever.” “Is that mistletoe?” “You look cold. Here, take my scarf.” “I’m just not a fan of the holidays.” “You’ve had the Christmas radio on non-stop for five hours.”

TEXT MESSAGES

[text]: I just accidentally told our son/daughter that Santa isn’t real. [text]: The Christmas tree is on fire. [text]: So cold. Need cuddles. [text]: Christmas is a time to be honest, so this is it — I’m in love with you. [text]: I may or may not have eaten the entire gingerbread house we made two days ago. [text]: I just saw two people dressed as Santa fist fighting in a mall. Christmas is ruined! [text]: I’m may or may not be wearing mistletoe underwear. Wanna find out for sure? [text]: I made an oopsie and let’s just say we have over 500 candy canes in our apartment right now.  [text]: I can’t believe I have to spend Christmas Eve in a hospital.  [text]: So what if I made out with a guy dressed as Santa Claus?! I was drunk! [text]: I know it’s been a while since we’ve spoken, but Merry Christmas. [text]: Just fought a 50 year old lady over a pair of gloves for my dad. He better be grateful, because she almost clawed my eyes out.  [text]: If I see one more picture on Instagram of a snowman with Frozen lyrics underneath, I’m gonna explode up in this bitch. 

[dejanosrezar-blog]

This here is a starter call for Father Tomas. Length and verse may vary – I’m just ready to start writing some threads! c’:

[dejanosrezar-blog]

@multamusae // starter call.

‘ You cannot expect yourself to heal in such a short amount of time, Jane. Loss does not vanish; people will tell you time will make it better, and they are right -- but do not mistake better for like new. You will carry Michael with you in all things, and that is perhaps the true miracle, is it not? It is okay to hurt and to grieve -- and it is also okay to start trying to move forward, without chastising yourself when things do not go perfectly. ’

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@mcshiach // starter call.

     In the most difficult of moments, faith never goes unchallenged; this is a fact Father Tomas accepted long ago, before he believed in demons and in the evil of their possessions. It would be easier to think God was sending him a gift -- a reason to keep believing, even with Marcus gone off for research and things so nightmarish in this small, beat-up church he’s been running just to get by. Faith is not easy, yet it has become his constant; Tomas needs no reason to place his trust in the Lord, though at times ( with the lights out and his breathing too fast and his fingers still shaking from the air’s frigidity ) Tomas wishes he’d be granted one.

     Yet wishing for a sign from God will not help the man in front of him; even with so little to give, Tomas will attempt to offer this man some kind of solace or comfort, even if his words are shocking.

          It’s the very least I could offer, after all I have done, all I have failed to do.

‘ You say you’ve been hearing whispers. Heavenly whispers, si? Have you ever followed up with them, or tried to find out what that may mean? ’

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“ Why do you think God allows his children to suffer? ”

the exorcist sentence prompts // accepting.

     A painful question, one best to be avoided – yet Tomas does not pride himself on rudeness, and therefore needs to manage something. Months of exorcisms, of seeing human beings rip themselves and each other apart due to the influence of demons – it’s been difficult, to say the least, and so thinking of God’s part in watching –

I am only human, I am not meant to question God.

( There are still the dreams and visions to think on, after-all. )

      It has and always will be Tomas’ job to offer hope; he is meant to help spark faith even after said flame has gone out. Yet to see these people writhe in anguish, to see his loved ones and friends fearing that God has abandoned them –

          Why do you think God allows his children to suffer?

     A breath is drawn through lips too-white; even as Tomas speaks, he’s searching for the answer himself.

‘ There is no easy response to your question. I think there is strength to be found in adversity, and love to be found even when one feels alone. It is not our place to question how He works – there is a reason we say He works in mysterious ways. I will not lie to you; there have been times in my life when I have questioned, when I have wondered – but it’s easy to have faith when the proof stares you in the face, si? It is much more difficult to believe in something you cannot always see, or understand. God does not want His children to suffer, but to step in each and every time a person needs Him, even for the smallest of things? That is not faith, but dependency. He expects more of us, I think. I would hope that He believes in us to do better, to help each other and the world on our own and with our faith. ’

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@sandalphcn //  starter call.

‘ I’m sorry to need to ask you again, but you think you’re - a what, exactly? ’ 

     Tomas couldn’t have heard correctly -- yet even if he had, how is he meant to discern truth from faux confessions? Is this meant to be a sign from God, or were those words simply a delusion - and a dangerous one at that? 

          O, Father, help me.

‘ I just need to be clear, you see? I cannot help you otherwise. ’

[vaememes]

👿      THE      EXORCIST     SENTENCE     PROMPTS    !

triggering  /  nsfw   may  be  present ,  these  are  taken  from  the  first  season of  the  show.

“  Hurt me all you want, but the bastards don’t get to win.  ”

“  Cause that’s the deal we make everyday when we get up in the morning.  ”

“  You said I have nothing. You are wrong. I have love.  ”

“  I have love, I have hope, and I have faith.  ”

“  These things are not weaknesses. They make me what I am.  ”

“  I’m tired of looking over my shoulder and watching you hurt my family.  ”

“  I’m tired of letting you win!  ”

“  You want me? Come and get me.  ”

“  This is integration. You know what that means.  ”

“  There’s no [  NAME  ] left to save.  ”

“  No prayer that’s gonna bring her back.  ”

“  And here I thought you were the cuddly one.  ”

“  Which begs the question. How far are you willing to take this?  ”

“  I don’t believe that you’re integrated.  ”

“  I don’t want to hurt any of you.  ”

“  Then you should know that you’re wasting your time.  ”

“  I didn’t touch a trunk, or an ear.  ”

“  I’m not dying for the bloody church. I am dying for him.  ”

“  You can’t beat her. Hell, even I couldn’t beat her.  ”

“  I can’t give you what you want, [  NAME  ], the life that you deserve.  ”  

“  I seduced a priest. What kind of life do I deserve?  ”

“  In the end, you’re just a child throwing a tantrum.  ”

“  Tantrum? This is not a tantrum. This is a victory lap.  ”

“  I want to thank you for saving my little girl.  ”

“  I should have killed you when I had the chance.  ”

“  The honor is mine and mine alone.  ”

“  Canada? Who the hell lives in Canada?  ”

“  I can’t emphasize enough the risk you’re taking.  ”

“  Don’t think a forty year absence will protect you.  ”

“  I know this thing better than anyone.  ”

“  If you feel it poking around at all, even a twinge, drop everything and run.  ”

“  Why do you think God allows his children to suffer?  ”

“  Sometimes suffering is just suffering.  ”

“  Why don’t I do some digging. Get back to you on that.  ”

“  Would you like a shovel?  ”

“  I still don’t understand what you’re doing here.  ”

“  And if it cannot complete the integration, it will kill the girl out of spite!  ”

“  So what are we supposed to do, then, just give it up?   ”

“  Sorry God, this one’s too hard. Can you send us somethin’ a bit easier?  “

“  We stand in the doorway and we push back the darkness..  ”

“  If we fail here, we are unleashing an ancient violence into the world.  ”

“  This is not just a possession.  ”

“  I’m not going to give it the satisfaction.  ”

“  This is a revenge. Can you not see that?  ”

“  Forty years ago, it had [  NAME  ] body and it lost it.  ”

“  That is a demon with a forty year grudge.  ”

“  Are you saying she’s gonna die?  ”

“  I’m saying if we don’t find her soon, there’s not going to be anything left to save.  ”

“  He’s coming back. Help me!  ”

“  Pick me, pick me, pick me, pick me!  ”

“  I reinvented myself, but it didn’t matter.  ”

“  I dreamed I could have a life, a chance.  ”

“  It didn’t matter. It wasn’t done with me. It’s coming for me [  NAME  ], I know it.  ”

“  What am I going to do with you?  ”

“  I think when people obsess about the past it’s because they’re afraid of the future.  ”

“  What do you want from me?  ”

“  You know perfectly well what you must do.  ”

“  All that potential, just wasting away, practically dripping out of you.  ”

“  What’s the phrase he used? He’s a pain in my ass.  ”

“  The punchline hasn’t occurred to me yet.  “

“  Are they teaching that in the public schools here?  ”

“  See, that doesn’t make a lot of sense to me..  ”

“  Did it work? Did it it make you feel special, this compact?  ”

“  The man who gave you this, is he in this room with us right now?  ”

“  I think there’s something really wrong with me.  ”

“  The power of Christ compels you.  ”

“  It’s just a memory of something beautiful. You never give up something beautiful.  ”

“  There are stages to a demonic possession, my friend.  ”

“  There are things going on in the house, my house.  ”

“  There are voices inside the walls.  ”

[dejanosrezar-blog]

You said I have nothing. You are wrong. I have love, I have hope, and I have faith. These things are not weaknesses; they make me what I am - an exorcist.

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@unholybcnes // starter call.

All should be well. 

     Logic suggests no reason for Tomas’ unease or for the sudden twisting of his insides. His church is cleaned, everything shut down properly for the night -- yet it is not uncommon to receive visitors, especially in these colder months. 

All should be well.

           and yet --

     Shaking fingers are already reaching for the bible he keeps beside his bed;  and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

     Surprise is unusual, though Tomas chalks that up to hard nights researching while Marcus is away. Even so, the knock to the church door does startle him - which is, perhaps, one of the many warning signs he should have heeded.

‘ Hello? ’ A silly, stupid thing - to call out to naught but air and expect an answer? For a moment there is nervous laughter in Tomas’ own mouth, warm and hushed before his hands are pulling at the door. ‘ Oh -- ah, do you need help, sir? ’

          All is not well.

[dejanosrezar-blog]

This here is a starter call for Father Tomas. Length and verse may vary -- I’m just ready to start writing some threads! c’:

[excommune-a]

          they’re talking about peter, because they haven’t talked about peter, because marcus has been hoarding the kiss in his mouth like a secret and he doesn’t want it to feel so stolen anymore. ‘ i like him and i want to … be like him, my hands no longer an afterthought. ’ / @dejanosrezar — poetry starters.

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    — oh, but this is something to be careful with. Marcus is trusting Tomas with this information, and such a choice is not one to be taken lightly. They’ve not fully spoken about Marcus’ time on the road alone, but already he knows loneliness can be a sickness. ( His sister and nephew linger somewhere in the far corridors of his consciousness; there are days the guilt accumulated from leaving them rots him from the inside out. ) 

     Six months of giving up what he used to know -- it’s like Marcus said, now that Tomas ponders it -- six months compared to decades?

          Six months is nothing.

‘ I think, if you like him, then - that is okay, Marcus. ’ Hushed words even as Tomas’ brow furrows -- there is no easy answer; they’re Priests, after-all, excommunicated or not. ‘ I choose to believe that God put you on that boat for a reason. You were meant to be there, were meant to have that moment. I am not sure what it means if you want more moments -- but God will still love you, and I will still need you. No matter what you’d like to do, or be. ’

[idontwikeit]

I’m allowed the indulgence.

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sinamxris:

‘ Where is your God, ‘Father’? ’

        All of Heaven, Earth, and Hell cannot answer such a query. There is no answer, for as far as the Morningstar is concerned, there is no God. 

        Said Devil is slow in his approach, ambling confidently down centre isle. Murder wasn’t an immediate option, though that could change depending on the events to unfold.

‘ I need not permission to stand in my Father’s house… if he should accept me, why shouldn’t you? So much… for unconditional love and acceptance. ’

‘ I do not need to prove my faith to you. ’ 

     Faith is strength; this is a resolve Tomas will cling to even as the very essence of evil attempts to poison his church. 

‘ I believe you are misguided in thinking God accepts you as you are - rather, he did accept you, upon your creation -- and you became jealous, indulged in whims you should have ignored. You were cast out of Heaven; where is your acceptance now? If you are not here to confess and to absolve yourself - how is He to forgive you? ’

     Is anything truly unconditional? As much as Tomas longs to say God’s acceptance knows no limits, the proof is standing mere feet away. 

‘ He loves you, as He loves all, ’ careful words, thoughtful even as pale knuckles tense upon the bible in his hands -- ‘ but He does not accept your actions. Love does not equal the absence of consequences and discipline. He is your Father, and you are a child who refuses to learn. Or is that much still not obvious, even with your creatures loose upon the world and causing harm? ’

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@sinamxris.

‘ Get out of my church. ’

     -- Acidic and bitter words on his tongue; this is a foreign feeling, one most unwelcome as Tomas glances to the man ( demon, devil, angel ? ) in front of him. ‘ You have no place here - I will not host you. I have no more time for your lies. If you are here to kill me, I stand with God. I am ready. ’

          -- and I’ve been waiting.

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tag drop 1/??

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