I have been wondering what would have happened if I had done things differently; what my life would be. If I had stayed in college, gotten my zoology degree and writing minor. Would I be working at the local wildlife rescue? Near my family and old friends? Would I still be close to those I used to love?
And what if I had never moved? What if I had never met him, never fallen for him, never moved 512 miles to be with him? My life has been a whirlwind. And it’s all flown past me, and now it’s all gone. I am nearly friendless here. I don’t have my family. This is where I am. This is my life. I am jobless, depending on my grandfather and my boyfriends family to support me.
This is all there is. I’m trying to do so much with it- I’m trying to find a job, I’m trying to lose weight, I’m trying to take care of my pets, I’m trying to make this the relationship that lasts. But I feel so stuck. So stuck, and so lonely.
